http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=RF4erEQKAVE


This is just too damn HILARIOUS! I couldn't resist showing this to you guys. ENJOY! And please comment. (if you really want to) ^ ^

I went to the Shenandoah Valley on Saturday, and when I was hiking, I wanted to make myself "fall" off every cliff I saw...and for the rest of the weekend, I sat around my house doing nothing, except watch the shows "Lie to Me" and "CSI: Miami, & NY" on Netflix streaming. The whole time, my other me, (I have two other "Me's", all to my full [first/middle/last] name. There's me, Anthony, 13, there's Michael, 21, and there's Mabey, 9), Michael wanted to "come out" and kill himself. Yes, I may be crazy. Liar.

That's it...I've had it with all the bitches, bastards, total fucks, liars, thieves...just fuck them all...I've had it! As of now, I "ban" myself! I'm leaving FurAffinity! Where my life is actually NORMAL for a change! And think you can try, but NONE of you can or will convince me to stay! I just want to live a normal life! GOODBYE, FA!

I'm sorry about all those really weird emo journals...I've been locked away for a while, taking anti-depression pills, and now I'm fine! So, I'm back, well rested, and if you enjoyed Ichigo's Story, me and a relative are gonna keep on working on it! So, see y'all next journal! ^ ^

I just knelt there...nothing I could do now...I heard sirens wailing, and getting closer...I just got up, wiped off my tears on my jacket, and walked home...it's 2 years later now, and this incident has changed my life...I'm female now, and a frequent cross-dresser...and because of this, and what I had experienced...I never...ever want another relationship like that...ever...again!...

The train was so close now...and there was nothing I could do. My love rose his head, looked at the oncoming train, then looked at me and said, "I didn't want it to end this way...but the pain...it hurts, and it has to end..." He moved a little closer, and said his final words, "Goodbye...hon...remember! I'll always lov~..." The train had hit him headlong...I couldn't believe it...my love...was dead...I stared at where he used to stand...dropped down on my knees...and cried..."NO! Goddammit...why? WHY?..."

"No it won't! Killing yourself won't prove anything! It won't change anything!", I yelled, louder this time. That's when I saw the railings come down, flashing, and ringing. "No..." I said under my breath. I started running towards him like hell. "NO! No matter how much you hate me...you don't deserve to die!" I finally reached the tracks. A bright light lit up his face...he was crying. "I know!", he sobbed. "But I was the one causing you pain!"...A blaring horn was now sounding. "Oh my GOD!..." I said.

There we stood...hearts aching out of sadness from the constant bitching. We've had it with each other. We just couldn't handle the ongoing conflict in our love life...It was time to go our separate ways. I started walking back home, but I stopped and turned around, hoping to see his face just one last time. That's when I saw him standing in the middle of the rail-road tracks. "Are you fuckin` insane?!?", I shouted at him. "No! It will be better this way!...", he responded. (to be continued...)

Okay...a damn blizzard is striking MD and it's surrounding states! And I'm gonna go insane just like the father from The Shining movie (Stephen King novel/movie), because of goddamned 30 inches of fucking snow! God...I like a little now and then, but too much drives me fuckin` insane! Dammmit...30 inches...and not being able to leave the house! It's just too much for me to handle...(considering I was born in Florida)...WELL, you don't need to worry, `cause you aren't buried in 3 feet of snow! So goodnight!

I have been alone in the past! And you know what? I feel better now because of my love that has grown and flowered because of you here! I just wanted to say thank you for making my life whole again, and finally completed! You know who you are!...SO! Because I said that I wanted to keep our love a secret, please don't comment on this journal! Leave me a note please! THANK YOU! In the past...my life was just one big lie...a darkness inside of my own shadow...I felt ashamed to look people straight in the face and actually talk to them. But now I can! Thank you...I really say that from the bottom of my heart! And remember! Our love is supposed to stay secret! You know who you are! REMEMBER! Leave me a note, and DON'T leave a comment on this journal! THANK YOU AND I LOVE YOU! ^^


Worlds Apart (Kingdom Hearts):
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=8Vg7Muz1ZyE

Okay...I had a very strange day today...first...as I always do. I got up. Then I logged on to my laptop, and went upstairs later to have breakfast...and of course when I poured myself some milk, it dripped down my arm...that's when I felt really strange...later, for lunch, I had clam chowder...you all know what clam chowder looks like! White and sticky, right? Well yeah! Okay...so, when I opened the can, it spilled all over me, and all over the floor! AGAIN! I think there's something wrong with my food...And then, when I was making dessert tonight...the evaporated and condensed sweetened milk got spilled everywhere! I swear! Something weird is happening to me!...

~Clueless Uke http://www.semeuke.com/cluelessuke.php

Easygoing and energetic, those with the Clueless Uke personality just want to have fun. And although they often tend to have a spaced out or 'clueless' look about them, it's probably because they are lost in their own thoughts, imagining their next big project - for this personality isn't happy unless they are planning or working creatively, whether their passion is music, video games, or making things with their own hands. They also love to be entertained, which may be why they so easily attract the Opportunist Seme - who keeps them interested, with their slightly devious ways, without being demanding, or overwhelming the Clueless Uke's need to still feel free to do as they please. And although this personality can tend to be a bit clueless when it comes to interpersonal relationships, they make fun and caring partners when they find that special Seme to amuse and look after them.

The Clueless Uke personality best (but not always) corresponds with these associations:

Japanese Element: Wind

Chinese Zodiac: Horse

Color: Cloud Blue

Fruit: Starfruit

Dessert: Tiramisu

Theme Song: BondS ~kizuna~ by An Cafe

Relationships:

Sadistic Seme - Very incompatible. The Clueless Uke wouldn't even know what hit them when they encounter the Sadistic Seme, and fortunately for them, the Sadistic Seme would quickly grow bored, preferring a more dramatic, willing victim.

Chibi Seme - While this uke and seme would make decent friends, the lack of any physical or emotional chemistry between them would make them incompatible in a romantic relationship.

Romantic Seme - With the Romantic Seme's loving, understanding ways, these two would make a good match - the Romantic Seme looking after the Clueless Uke and the Clueless Uke appreciating the Romantic Seme's companionship and attentiveness.

Opportunist Seme - A perfect match - both of these uke and seme just want to have a good time and don't crave a lot of drama. While the Opportunist Seme may be a bit sneaky sometimes, the Clueless Uke doesn't mind much, and they both provide each other with amusement and companionship.

Don't Fuck With Me Seme - Not a chance in hell. In other words, incompatible.



If you want to take the test, here is the link!
http://www.semeuke.com/quiz.php
GOOD LUCK!

I need to start thinkin` about things a little...For example, try to figure out why I am the way I am...and who I'm truly supposed to be. The other thing is, that I have to start thinking about changes in the way that I think. Like how I talk to people, how I respond to things...how I treat other people...I mean...I have to admit. I treat people like shit for my own pleasure...but I need to stop that. This journal is where I'm saying that I'm finally deciding to stop my bitchy traits! And I'm pretty sure all of you out there would love to see me change some! Well...I'm still pondering on how I should act differently! So...expect to see some changes from my behavior! Now...goodbye, and have a nice day! ^^

These are two songs that inspired me to change:

The Logical Song: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=f6FDvH0b7II

All These Things I've Done: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=sZTpLvsYYHw

"Look, you stupid bastard! You've got no arms left!..."

If any of you have actually seen Monty Python and the Holy Grail...you'd be laughing your asses off...this is the DEATHNOTE version of the Black Knight scene! ^^


http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=uvGeVm_-DzU

Okay...you probably didn't know this. Considering I'm a huge 80`s fan, but yeah...I like the band Crush 40! And this is probably one of my favorite songs that these guys do...I am all of me...

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=3mYDE3jQy0E&NR=1

This is just an Eddie Izzard skit! This is comedy! It's made to make people laugh, not make them upset, or get them angry! And please...don't take any offense from this...

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=qPML-n1kRnY


Yes, so I was going to be in the army when I was a kid. Yes. I say that, and people go, “Oh, yeah, yeah!” No, I was, I was going to be in the army when I was a kid. ‘Cause if you're a transvestite, you're actually a male tomboy, that's where the sexuality is. Yeah, it's not drag queen, no; gay men have got that covered. This is male tomboy, and people do get that mixed up, they put transvestite there - no no no no! Little bit of a crowbar separation, thank you! And gay men, I think, would agree. It's male lesbian, that's really where it is, ok? Because… it's true! ‘Cause most transvestites fancy girls, fancy women. So that's where it is. So it’s “running, jumping, climbing trees, putting on makeup when you're up there.” That's where it is!

I used to keep my makeup in a squirrel hole, up the tree. The squirrel would keep makeup on one side, and he'd keep nuts on the other side. And sometimes I'd get up that tree, and that squirrel would be covered in makeup! ( mimes squirrel putting on makeup ) "La la, la la… Oh! ( mimes squirrel eating ) What?! Fuck off!" He seemed to say. And squirrels always eat nuts with two hands, always two hands, and occasionally, they stop and go ( gasps ), as if they're going, "Did I leave the gas on? No! I'm a fucking squirrel!" And occasionally they go, "Fucking nuts! Fed up with them always. I long for a grapefruit."

Yeah. So that's very much like the army-- the running, jumping, climbing trees is, not the squirrel bit-- the trees bit. And I was! I loved the army stuff, which is the running, jumping, standing still, “Found you,” ah-ah, flag, “Look,” hat, you know. Bang! I liked all that stuff, the gun thing… I liked blowing up milk bottles. You know, kill the milk bottles. Boom! Explode milk bottles. Yes. It seems fun - there's this thing of power in you hands. There's all this National Rifle Association and everyone in America is - I mean, 13 year olds keep going out and they get hold of weapons from their grandfather's arsenal! "I'll borrow the Howitzer, the M16 machine gun, the Uzi…" What the fuck's the grandfather doing?! This kid down in Arkansas just helped himself to a ton of military weapons, and went and blew away his school!

And the National Rifle Association says that, "Guns don't kill people, people do,” but I think the gun helps, you know? I think it helps. I just think just standing there going, "Bang!" That's not going to kill too many people, is it? You'd have to be really dodgy on the heart to have that… ( imitates gunfire noises ) I think they should just try that, you know.

But yeah, shooting clay pigeons, I think, yeah, go for that. Shooting clay pigeons, they’re fuckers! Come round your house, whiz through ( fly-by noises ) They do nothing, they don't even eat flies! You know? Spiders eat flies, so they're all right, keep them, you know? Flies don't eat fuckall, so kill 'em! And clay pigeons - everyone shoots them in the air. Wait 'til they land! Then go up to the clay pigeon... ( shoots ) Much easier.

Yeah. So! I didn't join the army, as you might have noticed... Yeah, ‘cause there's not much makeup in the army, is there? No? They only have that night-time look, and that's a bit slapdash, isn't it? And they look a mess! So you can't join, even though the American armed forces have a distinct policy of "don't ask, don't tell" towards the alternative sexualities. If you're a bloke wearing a lot of makeup, you know… I don't think they need to ask, really! And so you can't join, they go, "No, no, you can't.It's the wrong shade of lipstick for the Army, I'm afraid..." And they're missing a huge opportunity here, ‘cause we all know one of the main elements of attack is the element of surprise, and so what could be more surprising than the 1st Battalion Transvestite Brigade? Airborne wing! The airborne wing parachuting into dangerous areas with fantastic makeup! And a fantastic gun! And the opposing forces going, "Fucking ‘ell, look at these guys! Look at that! They’ve got guns. They've got guns! Jesus, they've got guns!" Ah, bugger. I was so surprised! Were you surprised? I was surprised.

Anyway, so yes, sooo… Also, if you're a transvestite, you get lumped into that weirdo grouping, you know? When I was in New York, there was a guy in the Bronx who was living in a cave…like you do, and he was coming out and shooting at geese and… ( chuckles ) a lot of weird things going on with this guy; and the police picked him up and they found a collection of women's shoes, and they thought, "Maybe he's a transvestite.” And if he is, he's a fucking weirdo transvestite! I'm much more in the executive transvestite area. Travel the world, yes, it's much more executive. Like J. Edgar Hoover, what a fuckhead he was! They found out when he died that he was a transvestite, and they go, "Well, that explains his weird behavior!" Yeah, fucking weirdo transvestite! ( pointing to himself )Executive transvestite. It's a lot wider community, more wide than you'd think…

Since that everybody seems to be pissed of at me...I think I'll just fuck off and leave you all alone...because I know that's what you want me to do...isn't it?!? I bet you're all saying "Go to hell, asshole!" in your head right now...I don't know what I did...but i think that I will go away! So...any of you who are pissed off at me...please, be happy...because you don't have to deal with this "asshole" any more! GOODBYE!...

People live in misery, discriminating or being discriminated for reasons that they have absolutely no control over...


It took me all weekend to think of something as little as that...but you know what? It's frickin` true! It may be small...but it has great meaning! GOD! We deserve some love and respect in our lives, don't we?!? Even though we may be gay, lesbian, bisexual, or even things or disorders that have nothing to do with sexual orientation at all, like ADD/ADHD for example. Jesus...I mean...everybody's a person. Everybody's the same. Everybody's equal. Why? Why waste all of your time discriminating other people? Because you're being discriminated? Because you want revenge? Well...that's no reason at all! People of this world, no matter what race, gender, religion, color, historical background, or sexual orientation deserve to be respected! They deserve to be loved! There shouldn't be all of this shit happening! Just make it all stop. The discriminating...that's it...DISCRIMINATION! That's what's leading people into thinking that they're bad people just because of some fucking lie that somebody else made up! Well...it's not true! Not a SINGLE...FUCKING word of it! You are who you are! And also...you are who you choose to be. No matter what you choose. No matter the consequences. No matter all of the lies that are being spit into your faces by those bastards...You will always be the same person as you always have been. And don't think I'm doing this just to like be all "high and mighty"...well...I'm NOT! I know...how it feels. To be alone, shunned, unwanted, superfluous...even unloved. I'm just saying this to everyone out there right now...who is dealing with this exact same shit! And my point is...that NOBODY should be dealing with this kind of crap! EVERYBODY IS EQUAL!!! I mean...aren't you aware of it? You CAN change who you are! And people will respect you for it! And...even the befriending of a "different" or "bad" person...can change your life for the better!...

this is my mate, Lorelei:  ninetailedfoxfox! go visit her and leave her a message if you've got the chance!


1.) What do you like about your mate?
well...uh...I guess she's just awesome!

2.) What do they like about you?
my jokes, my style of penmanship, artistic style, my looks, etc.

3.) How did you meet them?
in middle school; 7th grade!

4.) What do you have in common?
for one, we're both artists, and we both have a great personality, and a good sense of humor!

5.) How do you surprise them?
I change my caller ID name to "KIRA" and try to scare her! >X3

6.) What do you like doing with them when you're together?
just being together, cherishing those small, but unique moments...actually loving each-other!

7.) Any nicknames that you've given them?
let's see..."L", "Welchance", "hon", "my love", "Lorelei", and loads of other names that I forget

8.) What is the thing you want to do with them the most?
go ahead! take a wild guess, my friends!... >:3

9.) Plan on getting married?
H~HELL YEAH!

10.) What about kids?
kids? well...jeez...I'm not pretty sure~...YES! ^^

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=6Db63APaejw&feature=player_embedded#


That...is one of my favorite skits done by Eddie Izzard. Along with my favorite anime...DEATHNOTE! >X3

Okay! Okay. Okay...OMG! You've got to hear this! I did something totally stupid at school today! Okay...I was...wait...you know the little ink cartridge that's inside of a pen, right? Well, you know how they usually have a stop in there sometimes? Like, plastic, or a little cork, or something or other?...WELL...I was sucking on an ink cartridge (I think you all know why...and hey, I was bored!...), and I didn't notice that the ink stopper wasn't built into the little entrance at the top. Well...I tried sucking a little harder (which I shouldn't have done! >_<...), and guess what?!? The fuckin` thing leaked ink all over my mouth! On the inside, it was covering my whole damn tongue! And outside, it was on a little bit of my bottom lip. It...tasted...like...SHIT! GOD! I will never...EVER! Suck on one of those goddamned pens again! Because you know what? I got a small case of pure ink poisoning! YEP! The bad-tasting shit went down my throat! I didn't start feeling the effects until I was in bed, around 11:00p.m.! And god...it still hurts!...And for some strange reason...I will never forget this day...(I find what I did somewhat hilarious for some reason...) WELL! GOODNIGHT! I LOVE ALL OF YOU PEOPLEZ OUT THERE! `Til next time, my friends! ^^

Well...I'm going to see Eddie Izzard in Madison Square Garden in New York on saturday, and I'm very excited! And...I've also got tickets to see Bon Jovi later on during the year! EEK! I can't wait! I don't know about you peoplez...but I'm a HUGE Bon Jovi fan! Until next time! >X3

Male side:

[x] You love hoodies.
[x] You love jeans.
[ ] Dogs are better than cats
[x] It's hilarious when people get hurt.
[x] You've played with/against boys on a team.
[ ] Shopping is torture
[ ] Sad movies suck
[ ] You own an X-Box.
[ ] Played with Hotwheels cars as a kid.
[ ] At some point in time you wanted to be a firefighter.
[ ] You used to be obsessed with Power Rangers.
[ ] You watch sports on TV.
[x] Gory movies are cool.
[ ] You go to your dad for advice.
[ ] You own, like, a trillion baseball caps.
[ ] You like going to football games.
[ ] You used to/do collect baseball cards.
[ ] Baggy pants are cool to wear.
[ ] It's kind of weird to have sleepovers with a bunch of people.
[x] Green, black, red, blue, or silver are one of your favorite colors.
[x] You love to go crazy and not care what people think.
[ ] Sports are fun.
[ ] Talk with food in your mouth.
[ ] Wear boxers.

male score: 7

Female side:

[ ] You wear lip gloss.
[x] You love to shop
[x] You wear eyeliner.
[x] You have some of the same shirts in different colors.
[ ] You wear the color pink.
[x] Go to your mom for advice.
[ ] You consider cheerleading a sport.
[ ] You hate wearing the color black.
[x] You like hanging out at the mall.
[x] You like getting manicures and/or pedicures.
[x] You like wearing jewelry.
[ ] Skirts are a big part of your wardrobe.
[x] Shopping is one of your favorite hobbies.
[x] You don't like the movie Star Wars.
[ ] You are/were in cheerleading, gymnastics or dance.
[x] It takes you around 1 hour to shower, get dressed, and put on make-up and accessories.
[ ] You smile a lot more than you should.
[x] You have more than 10 pairs of shoes.
[x] You care about what you look like.
[ ] You like wearing dresses when you can.
[x] You like wearing body spray/perfume/cologne.
[ ] You wear girl underwear.
[ ] Used to play with dolls as little kid.
[ ] Like putting make-up on someone else for the joy of it.
[x] Like taking pictures of yourself with your cell phone/camera when you're bored.

female score: 14

Well...me and my girlfriend have decided to travel the U.S., when we get married in a few years...So...any of ya who are planning to meet Ichigo, his friends...or his creator...you'll have to wait! I know that sounds like crap to you all...but I'm pretty sure you can wait about 6 more years! (...maybe not!...) Well...I just wanted to announce that! And yeah...it's not going to be anything fancy...like concerts or somethin'...just tours of the famous/big cities of the U.S.A.! Can't wait to see you all! Remember...2017!...And I'll write down journal entries on what it was like in those cities...and...who knows? I might even see ya there and we could just hang out for a while! ^^

These are the songs that I'm going to use for "Evangelon"...Enjoy them, please! ^^

1.) "Who's Crying Now" by Journey: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=vLxCiXnNAnk&feature=related

2.) "Where the Streets Have No Name" by U2: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=QQxl9EI9YBg&feature=fvw

3.) "In the Name of Love" by U2: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=LHcP4MWABGY&feature=channel

4.) "Love Hurts" by Nazareth: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=L2BjJbKQkgc

5.) "Fire & Rain" by James Taylor: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=cwugjyeSKx4

6.) "Pretty In Pink" by the Psychedelic Furs: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=c08vQ-vUhWI

7.) "Hold the Line" by Toto: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=9f-cEM1l7Ks

8.) "Landslide" by Fleetwood Mac: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=qbZhj6H9kfY

9.) "Life In the Fast Lane" by the Eagles: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=WfnYzitiz2M

10.) "The Logical Song" by Supertramp: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=M1lr_EULZS8

11.) "All These Things That I've Done" by the Killers: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=sZTpLvsYYHw

12.) "Somebody Told Me" by the Killers: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Y5fBdpreJiU&feature=channel

13.) "Now I'm here" by Queen: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=72mG9Ydd72I

14.) "Hammer To Fall" by Queen: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=JU5LMG3WFBw&feature=channel

15.) "Shine a Little Love" by Electric Light Orchestra: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=caK5R7133kI

16.) "Someday Love Will Find You" by Journey: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=whVtHi5fjrA

17.) "While My Guitar Gently Weeps" by the Beatles: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=IfNMrnTlK-w

18.) "Lovin', Touchin', Squeezin'" by Journey: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=p7jr9WBDVXQ

19.) "Gimme Three Steps" by Lynyrd Skynyrd: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=SM3jgkChV6M

20.) "Don't Let the Sun Go Down on Me" by Sir Elton John: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=PQfhQvj724g&feature=fvw

21.) "Goodbye Yellow Brick Road" by Sir Elton John: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=43Ho_6C_fM4

22.) "Here I Go Again" by Whitesnake: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=i3MXiTeH_Pg

23.) "I Can't Tell You Why" by the Eagles: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=DJK8-0j9FMU

24.) "Wild Night" by Van Morrison, John Mellencamp, and Me'Shell Ndegeocello: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=1aoywIHLqbs

25.) "Hurts So Good" by John Mellencamp: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=4dOsbsuhYGQ&NR=1

26.) "Hold On Loosely" by 38 Special: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=NJe0lD2GQZM

27.) "Long Nights" by STYX: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=0rFWKCvCgPI

28.) "Keep On Rockin' Me Baby" by Steve Miller Band: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=vUHtJJ1Fgjs

29.) "Jungle Love" by Steve Miller Band: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=GQiG5UPk5PU

30.) "Jet Airliner" by Steve Miller Band: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=XyQ1znMc3og

31.) "Take the Long Way Home" by Supertramp: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=1yz5dP4m9tY

32.) "Goodbye Stranger" by Supertramp: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=P5NBm4ywmhc

33.) "Carry On My Wayward Son" by Kansas: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=CB17uWuBrL0

34.) ''Honesty" by Billy Joel: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=SuFScoO4tb0

35.) "Fire on High" by Electric Light Orchestra: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Y3Ufx7SmZ5E

36.) "Tightrope" by Electric Light Orchestra: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=BC5kuFIAztA

37.) "Twilight/Yours Truly 2095" by Electric Light Orchestra: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Fv-oNw9VfbI