I mean, yea it's difficult too, but overall it's just weird. Honestly, growing up I've never really taken much time to really figure out who I was. Like, I feel a lot of people figure that out in their teens, but I'm still struggling behind in my early 20s. I've debated a lot about gender, sexuality, and personal morals and beliefs. I've swapped back and forth on what I felt a lot. I'm hoping that eventually I'll get that right feeling, and finally know who I am.