Let me be clear on one thing here to ANY new artists that message me after today (24/7/2025), if I say "no" I mean it and don't bother asking new questions about it

This doesn't pertain to any of the artists I have supported in the past 6 years or very close with



Please read this google Doc:

https://docs.google.com/document/d/.....it?usp=sharing

has some beautiful adopts open and with an offer going on

https://www.furaffinity.net/gallery.....NSFW-Alt-Color

please go show them support ;w; they make adopts on a daily basis

Hello everyone, it's been roughly a year since my last update, so this is what's been going on in the past year

1. Went to England to visit friends, though it was fun and well needed for a week rest, heading back there again this coming October 2024. Money has been very tight, so commissions I order and other things are on hold until my plane ticket for this coming trip is bought

2. I have been doing my best to keep myself out of my small depression spikes with music and keeping myself distracted around this time, some how Spring and Winter can cause this

3. I have been working at the local Pizza hut here in my town as a part time for the past year, and yes it is wearing me down to the point where I am always tired on Friday since I am closing manager (after getting off work from my main job)

4. I was offered to be assistant manager at my part time job, but took the $2 raise at my main job since it pays a lot more than that job, and if I did take that position I would be back to the same angry person I was 7 years ago when I was working full time at this place

5. I am working towards a new vehicle while working these 2 jobs

6. Uploads to my FA and Youtube have been down to a crawl while working 2 jobs, it just takes a lot out of me; I have more stuff planed for Youtube, and I am doing my best to keep on top of it, and as for FA uploads, I am doing the best as well on uploading new characters and commissions of personal sonas

Until next time
-Zezku

i have a bluesky account, thanks to magicalpeacharts

i plan on posting there soon https://bsky.app/profile/zezku.bsky.social

Two good friends of mine are selling adopts and if you're lucky they may be on sale or having a special offer if purchased

The first is https://www.furaffinity.net/gallery.....91/OPEN-adopts

The second is https://www.furaffinity.net/gallery.....PEN-adoptables

These 2 friends create and sell these adopts for a living and sometimes they also do customable adopts, ychs, or Artistic freedom posts

So if you want some lovely cuties, please check them out

Hey everyone; a good friend of mine, is selling adopts due to their financial status; please give them a great deal of support, they post some beautiful adopts on a daily basis. They do this for a living and would love the support, as well as they take great pride and care in their work to give great content to the community ;w;

Their journal: https://www.furaffinity.net/journal/10655659/

Hey everyone, this kind of update took a big majority of this month (May 2023) to make so here is what's been going on for me; some close friends know what I'm going through atm:

1. truck needs to be worked on in order for me to have it pass the inspection this year and hopefully my new driver's license comes in the next few weeks without issues
2. my dad says i should put myself out there more in the stuff that i enjoy doing like video game tester; since he wasn't a bit happy of me getting a job at pizza hut while im working in the same job for 5 years now (gave a good example of my mom since she works at the bank in Balch Springs, TX due to someone helping her get the job), and yes i am very aware that i need to put myself out there but i feel like i am not at a good financial state to switch jobs yet
3. this year started out fine on my financials but it took a heavy turn for the worse just in this month alone; mainly paycheck wasn't enough and it will take me a few weeks to get back up to where i was in April
4. (financial again) truck payment is now on ice, again and im trying my best to get the plane ticket plus spending money when i take the week off for the visit to England
5. i got scammed out of $150 USD from an Twitter artist that botched up my oc and if you look at my oc design you can see a few updates of it looking close to my oc:
OC:https://www.furaffinity.net/view/36009729/
SFW botched design: https://cdn.discordapp.com/attachme.....96640/1-01.jpg
NSFW botched design: https://cdn.discordapp.com/attachme.....59978/2-01.jpg
these botched artworks are the Twitter's bullshit art style, granted the sfw was very close to original except for the eyes but it was very noticeable on the nsfw with the neck fluff from the oc (they used the ref sheet for the head part of the commission and this was half assed) this artist also wanted to do Frostburn, and i am like FUCK NO that oc of mine is to be treated with respect/regal on art because they fucked up my main OC in my eyes and this was a deal on my part, i am not going to do that again, to me it was a bad deal, so yea -w-

risu has some beautiful adopts open and are looking for homes, they post adopts everyday:

https://www.furaffinity.net/gallery.....91/OPEN-adopts

spheal still has some beautiful adopts open and they are posting new adopts everyday:

https://www.furaffinity.net/gallery.....PEN-adoptables

good friend of risu is in need of support and help, please see their journal for details

https://www.furaffinity.net/journal/10522723/

An adopt artist, and a very close friend of risu, has made alot of adopts and they are open while they post new ones on a daily basis https://www.furaffinity.net/gallery.....PEN-adoptables
maybe these wonderful ladies will get your attention uwu

Return to Halo's multiplayer after a few months to a year of not playing the games https://www.twitch.tv/zezkusdomain

On Saturday, October 15th of this year:

I will be traveling to England to visit some friends that I have known from my Halo days before our transition to PC. We have known each other for 10 years and this will be our first time meeting face to face; last time we had a face to face was back in 2015 when we did video chat on Skype.

So basically I will be gone from the 15th to the 22nd, yep gone for a whole week; I already put time off at my work to take this vacation; don't worry about my beloved cat, Cynder, will be taken care of by my dad. She will have plenty of food, water, and her box cleaned before I leave for my flight on the 15th.

Trade off of this trip, I won't be able to go to the State Fair of Texas this year; it is an annual tradition for me, when finances are able, but next year will come again

Until next Journal, stay safe out there everyone

-Zezku

please go read these journals to understand what's going on:

https://www.furaffinity.net/journal/10342034/

https://www.furaffinity.net/journal/10342047/

Please don't attack the one that scammed risu's friend

Please go show Spheal support, they do have AF customs up atm and they post beautiful adopts on a daily basis

Risu is another one to follow as well, they do wonderful work with their adopts as well and they make some beautiful AF ych's as well

well August is one of those months that my emotions drive me into a 'depressed' state

I also know that I have an anger issue, and this also led me to have some stress issues; and after awhile after this issue it leads to sleepless nights and in an annoyed state to the point of me not sleeping for a night.

Music can only do so much on keeping this state down -sighs-

For the past month, my internet has been on the fritz and it has not been resolved.

I have called my internet provider and they are 'aware' of the issue and haven't fixed it yet.

I have reset that modem 10+ due to this issue (it hasn't done much), now with this recent reset on the modem, the internet starts to drop at random intervals (as of this journal)

My internet provider is Suddenlink and I have been with these motherfuckers for the past 4 years, and haven't had an issue on this scale with their internet service

this artist/friend is in a bind; they make some great adopts and currently offering custom eeveelution style

please check their journal

https://www.furaffinity.net/journal/10265682/

This past weekend, I bought Pokemon: Arceus Legends; and with that game, it might be one of my last pokemon games that I will do for my youtube channel. Hear me out please, I am turning 30 this year and I have played pokemon for 22 years and even though I love the franchise and the custom art on every account, I am basically running on fumes in general. Yes I will pay for commissions of pokemon art, but I don't know if I will buy Gen IX this year, unless I see more info on it. But I am doing other projects, working on a future art idea (and working on an idea for an art piece for a personal project). And with Arceus Legends, I do plan on streaming/recording the game and editing it as I did with Pokemon: Brilliant Diamond this last November.

The Legend of Zelda: The Minish Cap went live a few weeks ago since it was a personal itch that needed to be scratched for one of my personal favorite Zelda games, and all the parts are uploaded and all will be scheduled in the coming days. Here is the link to the playthrough: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=mNz.....tI&index=1

This poll is still active for another playthrough: https://take.quiz-maker.com/Q7Y9NXJFS

I am working on a TOS for art in the near future, I am just busy with my work

Till next time,
Zezku

This song I would recommend to listen while reading this→[https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=A8fW4raUopI]

Hello everyone this is Zezku,

A Lot has changed and it has taken me 2 years to get my thoughts on my personal views and experiences with Furea, I would’ve known him for 10 years now, but something just happened during 2018 that just lowered my respect for him to the point that I really didn’t want to deal with his toxicity, or what felt like it, on the ‘friendship’ or whatever we called ourselves back then. Let me take you back to 2012 on how this friendship I thought was going to be great, went south years after.

2012:
It’s 1 year into my roleplay life and I was working on making friends, and keeping myself safe since I was just turning 20 that year and I made a few friends. I met Furea back when he was known as Orion Umbreon, and we were still getting to know each other; granted I kept a lot of my personal stuff out of reach seeing that trusting a person on the internet wasn’t a good idea. Though he was quiet during the majority of the time we talked, we started to get to know what kind of games we enjoy and only found some common ground in Terraria at first, with more games to follow. During this time and a few months in 2013 I was working at Autozone Distribution Center for my first job.

2013:
I would say 6 months after chatting with him; we were already making some progress, though I was already seeing some of his mood swings coming to the surface more than my attitude; granted he was more open with his feelings saying that he was always feeling betrayed with the friends he made or was picked on in school (granted during our school life, Elementary to High School, some of us were picked on because of the way we were), he also stated that he dropped out due to reasons (go ask him if you are really curious). During this time for me, I was already working and such, meaning I was making money to buy the games or pokemon plushies at the time, though not much went on during this year; but heated turmoil was already in the works with some people I became friends with during this time.

2014:
It’s 2014, I was still working at Pizza Hut and slowly growing a youtube channel during this time, and our first Terraria collab before the launch of 1.2 was doing ok. And yet came a drama spat that I was caught in the crossfire between Darkfire and her boyfriend (with some friends that I enjoyed talking to) and Furea and another that I will say, let’s just say I was blocked and hated by the ones that didn’t like Furea, though it did hurt me that i lost a good 8 friends for the next few years and I was very angry about this, seeing I did nothing wrong; just bad timing. During this year Starbound entered Beta and RoboCraft was launched this time as well and we both played these games, and it’s here I heard these words from him “you got to come to me if you want to play”. At first I was ‘okay?’ don’t we all want to play games even though i may be busy with working at pizza hut and doing other things with xbox friends at the time, granted this was back in the days of Skype and Teamspeak for me, Discord wasn’t out yet; not for another 2 years. Destiny 1 launched in this year, slowly stopped playing this game series till Destiny 2.

2015:
This year was when I started to become a bit more active on twitch with the launch of Titanfall 1, Destiny (abit), and StarCraft II; though Halo 5 Guardians was launching this year as well since Halo 4 launched 3 years prior and Halo MCC launched during 2014, let’s just say I was very excited still. During this time I was getting better at Dark Souls, but I still did a lot of stupid stuff that was either funny or just bad. During this time I made some new friends when I found Streetdragon95’s artwork on a feed and was quickly accepted into a community. These new friends were, and still to this day, very friendly; and this was during this year that Furea was already getting a bit depressed mood swing again and I really could tell and was picking up on it due to our conversation with the latest thing in Robocraft before that game started to go downhill with its developers, I left him alone since he initiated the block first, and didn’t message me back until December of that year.

2016:
Became Shift Manager at Pizza hut year and visited my first girlfriend. Stress wasn’t in my favor when working in the food business; but a job was a job, and I had to cope with what was thrown at me despite my attitude being tested everyday with customers. During this year I invited Furea to meet the peeps from SD95’s skype group and while I was at work, some drama was caused and I didn’t know about it till I got home; funny how he got very sensitive from a person called TheModerator that likes to throw some jokes and he knows its not to hurt, he was just messing around. He threw some jokes at me, but years in early school and still playing with the Halo friends (these guys threw a lot of jokes at me), I managed. Discord launched this year so I was all over getting it since it was better than Skype and Teamspeak and it took Furea a year to join since we were still using skype at the time. More Terraria collab was done during this time with the launch of 1.3 of the game and Starbound was launched out of beta this year, and Robocraft went downhill even more to the point where we slowly stopped playing the game for a few years. During this year Titanfall 2 was launching and I played it day 1, and it was my enjoyment for years. Started playing World of Warships in late 2016. Did at least try to play World of Tanks, but quickly failed at it due to mechanics.

2017:
Destiny 2 launched this year and has been my main game playing, even now. All of my friends were now on Discord and I was already a few servers at the time, so it didn't bother me at the latest. It was also during this years that I was preoccupied with my own setup with Video pad Editor (new video editing software), getting a capture card for consoles, and slowly upgrade to a better pc, that my time with Furea was just a few chats here and there; it didn’t bother us in the least we had our own lives outside of what we had common ground on. It was during this year that I was on and off Warframe, still not my kind of game even though I like 3rd person shooter games. Started working at Walmart this year, a better job than pizza hut. During this time I started playing World of Warships more and more since Furea didn’t want to play this game with me because of teams and such.

2018:
This was the turning point of my friendship with Furea, I invited him again to SD95’s discord server, and this time it turned into another drama fight while I was at work; yet again, really no surprise there for me, all because he acted with another person that does go through some depression the same way he does and it ticked a box with that person and he ‘felt’ that he was ganged up on because of something he did; okay this was a big thing for me because the Darkfire and Shad drama incident was already over at this point. With that drama over that lasted for a good 4 to 5 years, I was already getting a bit annoyed at the way Furea was acting and felt that he was using ‘our’ friendship as a trump card or something at the time and I started to see the toxicity from him and seeing more of his depression mood swings in which I was starting to get more and more agitated.

2019:
The turning point of ‘our’ communication. I was spending less time with him already in a 2nd relationship, living in an apartment since the end of 2018, and started working in construction (still working till this day); so I have little time for a person that dropped out of highschool and refuses to get a job because having money or earning money lets you buy the things you would like to get your hand on and become a functioning adult. A revamp of the Destiny 2 clan was going on at the time and Beyond Light in the game was a year away and during this time clan drama was unfolding and it was becoming unhealthy for the clan leader (halo friend) at the time due things. Now during this time, Destiny 2 was already going free to play with the launch of Shadowkeep’s expansion and I was already streaming the game more, as well as streaming World of Warships, Titanfall 2, and StarCraft II; I was already getting to the point that he kept interrupting me while i was streaming [https://www.twitch.tv/videos/461967681 ] ←(watch the clip, be wary people; I am a raging person with stuff like this) and it was like close to midnight on this day and I was already tired of playing a lot of Gambit, so yea a 6 hour stream. He apologized the next day, but I didn’t want to talk for a few seeing that he wasn’t giving me respect and I was giving him respect for the past 7 years.

2020:
Covid-19 in full swing, what else is there to say about this. Terraria 1.4, the biggest update and my last collaboration with Furea. It was getting frustrating for me to actually keep up dealing with his drama shit for 8 years. After Terraria 1.4 playthrough ended in July of this year; I started to just let go of the ‘friendship’ we had because it was just turning toxic at this point; he rarely wanted to play Stellaris which i got the game to play with him and some of his friends, they played more Tabletop during the hours I would be going to bed, he would wake up at hours when I am at work (which was nothing new), and I would only be available on weekends to play games; but this was already showing that he didn’t care. During mid August he started to take notice and started to ask why, claiming that he alone helped with me on setting up my twitch page and youtube page (which is bullshit because I went out of my way to help him set up his twitch for streaming), and during this year I really didn’t have my thoughts ready; I was just done with his bullshit.

2021:
1 year after not talking to him has started to heal what I started to go through with him, though it was during this time that 8 months after we stopped talking that he posted a video claiming that I “betrayed him”. Let me be clear about betrayal: if I want to betray someone that I spent 8 years with, that should’ve been great instead of turning into a toxic friendship, which I never saved any of our time together.

And now present day (2022):
2 years are about to pass and my thoughts on this matter are just annoying and it irritates me. My initial thought was to have a video, but it wouldn’t convey all my thoughts on the matter, I felt like a journal would do. I have spoken to my rp sis on the matter with my thoughts and she understands that it was a bad friendship, we all have those. It’s a matter of moving on from them, instead of staying in the past to grovel on what things would’ve been or how it should’ve been. I kept a lot of my personal emotions out of conversations, because I have minor Autism, or ADHD, and yet I don’t let that get to me. I don’t take medication for this, I was never in any Special Ed classes for this in school, even though I am Autistic, I was still able to function like a regular teenager, I just excelled in better places than others. I am still working in construction, I am a hard working adult that has to make ends meet on just paying bills and such. I have a black cat named Cynder that I love. I am done ranting, this has lifted a big burden off my chest.

Until next time,
Zezku the Gaming Celesteon

Halo is one of my favorite videos games for the past 16 years, since my introduction to the series with Halo 2. It has been my goal to beat the campaigns of all the Halo games, yes the 2 RTS games, on Legendary (Idk about Halo 5: Guardians yet).

And the first halo game I did beat on Legendary difficulty was Halo 4, a month after it was launched. Halo Infinite was beaten the week after it launched in this past December 2021. Halo 2 followed after on MCC (Master Chief Collection) a few days earlier, but this game is my favorite on the campaign and is getting a commentary on it. And now recently, Halo 3 was just beaten today on Legendary.

Halo 2 and Halo 3 were the 2 games I played the most with friends and these 2 will hold a place close to my heart for the franchise.

This is a Highlight from streaming Halo 3 Legendary earlier today after a 6+hr stream on my twitch of the iconic warthog run for Halo 3: https://www.twitch.tv/videos/1266147937

-Zezku

100 Watchers on FA!! Thank you all for the favorites uwu


-Lukra

A new quiz and 4 games chosen, 1 will win http://www.quiz-maker.com/Q7Y9NXJFS

Please choose 1 answer

Hello all; I have just hit 300 subscribers within this year after I hit 200 subscribers earlier this year on youtube

300 subscriber video: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=s6GPzakeCKE

Hey everyone, just a head's up; I have a poll between 2 gamecube games I haven't touched in 15 to 18 years. This poll is going to end in a few days

This is the link:
https://linkto.run/p/8XJDEDT8

Spyro is in the lead with 8 votes
Bionicle has 4 votes

I do have a Youtube channel
I have a new playthrough that will be going live Next week; and a current one that was on hiatus for 6 years and is finishing in that time as well. I will be recording more games off the N64 and may be revisiting old playthroughs to complete them at a better pace

Turned 25 this past week, nothing new in those terms; been busy finally got a request done