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Posted 6 years agoHello everyone,
I am sorry for being away for so long...
I am especially sorry for the people I owed art to....
My life just went from shit to acid shit that burned a hole in my freaking being, i don't even know what metaphor to use to describe everything I've been through in the past 2 years.
I'm still struggling to make things settle and somehow manage to get my life back, but I don't have a laptop or internet for that matter and I had to return to an analog phone because my previous one doesn't work anymore. I managed to get online now because I'm visiting a friend and using her laptop.
I'll come online again this weekend and hopefully by then I'll have notes from the people who I still owe art to.
Other than that I will go back to being inactive until I fix things in my life.
Again I'm very sorry for those who've I've let down, I didn't mean for this to happen, I didn't want to leave all of a sudden, I had literally no choice and life got so hard that for a long time I didn't even think about it anymore ...
Hope to see you around someday soon...
I am sorry for being away for so long...
I am especially sorry for the people I owed art to....
My life just went from shit to acid shit that burned a hole in my freaking being, i don't even know what metaphor to use to describe everything I've been through in the past 2 years.
I'm still struggling to make things settle and somehow manage to get my life back, but I don't have a laptop or internet for that matter and I had to return to an analog phone because my previous one doesn't work anymore. I managed to get online now because I'm visiting a friend and using her laptop.
I'll come online again this weekend and hopefully by then I'll have notes from the people who I still owe art to.
Other than that I will go back to being inactive until I fix things in my life.
Again I'm very sorry for those who've I've let down, I didn't mean for this to happen, I didn't want to leave all of a sudden, I had literally no choice and life got so hard that for a long time I didn't even think about it anymore ...
Hope to see you around someday soon...
To whom I owe art. Also "What ever happened to Monday"
Posted 7 years agoPlease send me a note with what you commissioned me to do and the paypal email address used when you paid.
Those who ordered something but didn't pay, send me a note if you still want the order so we can finish the transaction.
To those of you who bid on that beach auction I am going to contact each of you by reply to your comments. I'l let it open till tomorrow at 7 so another 26 hours to go if there is anyone else who'd like a spot https://www.furaffinity.net/view/26416627/
To those of you wanting to commission me [normal commissions] I'm currently closed.
Right now I have 3 ych commission bases for which I'm still accepting spots if there are ppl interested . I still have a few bases from long ago which i didn't manage to upload before taking my hiatus. you can find the uploaded ones here https://www.furaffinity.net/gallery.....MMISSION-BASES
Since I had to help my aunt with the funeral and I'm completely broke and did not pay my bills and rent [my entire salary went in the funeral] I will open a type of commissions after I finish what I owe.
I need to raise 500 € so yeah... gonna have to work hard :)))
So what did happen to Monday? :)) Dunno if you guys saw the movie was interesting.
Anyway, what happened in my life after taking the break from internet and art.
Lemme remember in order :
-so grandma died
- I became rly depressed
-things started going downhill at work, I was moved to a different project [where I still am and am doing better than the other place but it's still a lot of stress and I can't stand it anymore I want to quit so bad]
-My brother came back from Murica almost as broke as he went there, he stayed at my place for a month because we don't have a house cuz mom sold all of them, it's why I live with rent. Then he left for Norway with different job.
-Idk from what but I became very sick still am. I'm having problems with my kidneys went to my doctor and got a bunch of tests on a list to go take but my insurance doesn't cover all of them.I'm in a lot of pain I'm constantly tired, back pains, I pee A FUCKING LOT, wake up at least 4 times a night, I gained A LOT of weight , I'm full of pimples I've read that it's because the kidneys don't work anymore they stop filtering the toxins out of the body so that's the cause[and the stress from work is only making things worsen]
-My mom also got sick se hasn't worked for over 10 years has no medical insurance and she doesn't even know what she has [ I personally suspect a start of Alzheimer since she lost her memory twice. First time I got a call from my godmother saying to go to mom cuz she;s worried cuz she sounded weird on the phone, so I went there and mom started talking to me she'd have an idea she'd finish like 3 mins of constant talking she'd start it calmly and then start panicking and crying then when she'd stop talking she'd look in a set direction calmly without talking then turn to me and repeat the same idea with the same fucking words and intonation and the same calm manner that turns to panick and crying towards the end. She did that for 4 hours straight. I was crying inside but didn't want to show her that I'm panicking so each time she'd say that idea I'd say the same things and calm her down.then I bought her some herbal sleeping pills gave her 2 and wrote on a piece of paper to take one more if she doesn't fall asleep. the next day I saw she took 4 she'd forget and keep taking one when reading the paper. till she fell asleep. Also the next day she had no memory that I was there the day before or that it was saturday she thought it was friday , she forgot the entire day. This happened again recently she was getting ready to come to me and all of a sudden her bf calls and asks "didn't you go to lucia yet? and she's like what ? I was supposed to go there? then she realized she was all dressed and didn't remember when she got dressed and started crying. Besides that she has problems with blood pressure and her tension is rly high.
-I fell off a cliff and almost died when I went hiking with my bf and a few more friends to get away from the stress from work and life. and then a friend of mine fell too . I managed to stop my falling by grabbing a rock that was sticking out of the mountain but my friend fell all the way down and hit herself really bad.
-my phone broke
-my laptop got a very nasty virus had to erase everything and reinstall windows
-one of my cats fell out the window and I live on the 4th floor[she's ok now but the doctor said on an unrelated note she has problems with her Thyroid ? Ikd if that's the word in english
-second kitty with the virus to her brain still sick but treatment is showing progress
- the sink's water tap broke AGAIN and I flooded the apartment. I was at work mom was visiting and cooking me something as a surprise and got a call from her with that happened. And to top it off I forgot the food outside so the next day when I woke up in the morning it was already bad so I didn't even get to taste it :(
-now most recent uncle died. he was the last relative my mom had from her father's side so now she only has from her mom's side.
I'm pretty sure I forgot a few things but they're not major things just small things like the food going bad, they just added to the already long chain of bad events.
so there you have it. My last 4 months. and when you stop to think that my entire life has been like this and it's not even the worst that I've went through. I should write a novel :)) .I keep thinking how am I still alive to this day.
Sorry for the long journal XD
Those who ordered something but didn't pay, send me a note if you still want the order so we can finish the transaction.
To those of you who bid on that beach auction I am going to contact each of you by reply to your comments. I'l let it open till tomorrow at 7 so another 26 hours to go if there is anyone else who'd like a spot https://www.furaffinity.net/view/26416627/
To those of you wanting to commission me [normal commissions] I'm currently closed.
Right now I have 3 ych commission bases for which I'm still accepting spots if there are ppl interested . I still have a few bases from long ago which i didn't manage to upload before taking my hiatus. you can find the uploaded ones here https://www.furaffinity.net/gallery.....MMISSION-BASES
Since I had to help my aunt with the funeral and I'm completely broke and did not pay my bills and rent [my entire salary went in the funeral] I will open a type of commissions after I finish what I owe.
I need to raise 500 € so yeah... gonna have to work hard :)))
So what did happen to Monday? :)) Dunno if you guys saw the movie was interesting.
Anyway, what happened in my life after taking the break from internet and art.
Lemme remember in order :
-so grandma died
- I became rly depressed
-things started going downhill at work, I was moved to a different project [where I still am and am doing better than the other place but it's still a lot of stress and I can't stand it anymore I want to quit so bad]
-My brother came back from Murica almost as broke as he went there, he stayed at my place for a month because we don't have a house cuz mom sold all of them, it's why I live with rent. Then he left for Norway with different job.
-Idk from what but I became very sick still am. I'm having problems with my kidneys went to my doctor and got a bunch of tests on a list to go take but my insurance doesn't cover all of them.I'm in a lot of pain I'm constantly tired, back pains, I pee A FUCKING LOT, wake up at least 4 times a night, I gained A LOT of weight , I'm full of pimples I've read that it's because the kidneys don't work anymore they stop filtering the toxins out of the body so that's the cause[and the stress from work is only making things worsen]
-My mom also got sick se hasn't worked for over 10 years has no medical insurance and she doesn't even know what she has [ I personally suspect a start of Alzheimer since she lost her memory twice. First time I got a call from my godmother saying to go to mom cuz she;s worried cuz she sounded weird on the phone, so I went there and mom started talking to me she'd have an idea she'd finish like 3 mins of constant talking she'd start it calmly and then start panicking and crying then when she'd stop talking she'd look in a set direction calmly without talking then turn to me and repeat the same idea with the same fucking words and intonation and the same calm manner that turns to panick and crying towards the end. She did that for 4 hours straight. I was crying inside but didn't want to show her that I'm panicking so each time she'd say that idea I'd say the same things and calm her down.then I bought her some herbal sleeping pills gave her 2 and wrote on a piece of paper to take one more if she doesn't fall asleep. the next day I saw she took 4 she'd forget and keep taking one when reading the paper. till she fell asleep. Also the next day she had no memory that I was there the day before or that it was saturday she thought it was friday , she forgot the entire day. This happened again recently she was getting ready to come to me and all of a sudden her bf calls and asks "didn't you go to lucia yet? and she's like what ? I was supposed to go there? then she realized she was all dressed and didn't remember when she got dressed and started crying. Besides that she has problems with blood pressure and her tension is rly high.
-I fell off a cliff and almost died when I went hiking with my bf and a few more friends to get away from the stress from work and life. and then a friend of mine fell too . I managed to stop my falling by grabbing a rock that was sticking out of the mountain but my friend fell all the way down and hit herself really bad.
-my phone broke
-my laptop got a very nasty virus had to erase everything and reinstall windows
-one of my cats fell out the window and I live on the 4th floor[she's ok now but the doctor said on an unrelated note she has problems with her Thyroid ? Ikd if that's the word in english
-second kitty with the virus to her brain still sick but treatment is showing progress
- the sink's water tap broke AGAIN and I flooded the apartment. I was at work mom was visiting and cooking me something as a surprise and got a call from her with that happened. And to top it off I forgot the food outside so the next day when I woke up in the morning it was already bad so I didn't even get to taste it :(
-now most recent uncle died. he was the last relative my mom had from her father's side so now she only has from her mom's side.
I'm pretty sure I forgot a few things but they're not major things just small things like the food going bad, they just added to the already long chain of bad events.
so there you have it. My last 4 months. and when you stop to think that my entire life has been like this and it's not even the worst that I've went through. I should write a novel :)) .I keep thinking how am I still alive to this day.
Sorry for the long journal XD
Back
Posted 7 years agoNot this instant. I.m on my way to my uncoe.s funeral. But i.m back. Sorry for the lack of updates these past few months guys. I.ve been going through a lot of shit ....
Recent Events -MIA Status-
Posted 7 years agoHey there everyone!
First off, since this became a fucking novel, 'll write it here at the top
THANK YOU FOR ALL THE NEW WATCHERS! THANK YOU FOR YOUR FAVS AND COMMENTS AND SUPPORT. I WILL ANSWER YOU ALL AND THANK YOU IN PERSON. but for now I thank you here!
I'm sorry for my lack of updates and MIA status.
As some of you might know my grandma died and I just found out a few days ago.
I was so in shock that I couldn't bring myself to move, my body felt numb. It felt like my life essence was sucked away. It still feels like that but today I finally cried, when a colleague at work saw me dressed in black [yes after a week of dressing in black one of my colleagues noticed] and asked me if I'm alright after seeing that I haven't been in my usual cheerful mood all week and then another colleague commenting exactly that "you've been silent all week" I just burst into hysterical crying , they took me out for a cigarette and after they all expressed their condolences and let me calm down they slowly started to talk about kittens and things they know I enjoy between themselves and making it an overall cheerful mood so I calmed down.
That seemed to help get me out of that numbness. I didn't realize that I haven't cried ever since I got the news...and since no one asked me about it, I was just locked inside my own thoughts and didn't exteriorize my pain. And as soon as I was actually paid attention to and asked with genuine interest if I'm alright I exploded.
I never REALLY realized how much it can affect when others don't show empathy. I mean I knew since I am emphatic and always get frustrated when I see ppl being so indifferent, but I don't know I guess today was a wake up call of sorts.
I've also started reading books again. I'm currently reading 4 different books. Started reading The Way of Kings by Branden Sanderson , Book of 5 rings by Myamato Musashi himself, Elon Musk Tesla SpaceX and the quest for a Fantastic Future by Ashlee Vance [my boyfriend gifted it to me last night AFTER I HAD JUST BORROWED ANOTHER ELON MUSK BOOK FROM THE BOOKSTORE AT WORK . On the same day, was such a cute coincidence my bf knows me so well :))) and I'm also reading [but it's kinda boring] Star Wars universe Darth Pagueis by James Luceno.
It helps with my stress. Also I can't focus on one single thing at a time that's why I read more books at the same time. I swap according to the mood I have at that time.
I've also caught up on most tv series I used to watch and dropped in the past year. I finished Vampire Diaries , The Originals , Fear of the walking Dead, The walking dead , Supernatural, Game of thrones, almost finished Vikings [6 episodes left to watch], started watching and up to date with the Alienist and Altered Carbon, and almost up to date with American Gods.
So this is how I've been coping with this tragic event.
Now I know what you might think, ok she died she was old it was gonna come sooner rather than later. While that may be true, the reason she died is dumbfounding. She had Alzheimer. It wasn't very advanced she'd just forget stuff she did in the past day or talked about, but nothing major. Other than that she was in perfect health. At 80 something years old FUCKING PERFECT HEALTH. Do you know why she died?
She went out for a walk, and was probably buried in thought and didn't realize where she was going , she walked on the train tracks and got hit by a fucking train. WHAT ARE THE FUCKING ODDS?????
I must say now, I used to be faithful to God. Even though I don't agree with the existence of the Bible I still believe there is a God, maybe not how/as we depict him but there is some deity out there [won't go into depth cuz i'd never stop] . But there was a time when I believed in him 100% . I used to pray to him talk to him thank him, I didn't like saying prayers for no reason, but every night before heading to bed I would talk to him for a while telling him about my day , thanking him for being there for me. I actually felt safe, I actually felt like I had a guardian angel next to me, Even though I've went through so much shit ever since I was a kid I still believed, and only asked for my and my family's health and peace of mind. But while growing up and facing so many difficulties I just decided I've had it. No one deserves so much fucking pain in one lifetime. AND MINE'S NOT EVEN FINISHED YET.
So as I reached adulthood I stopped believing in him. It didn't happen just like that , at first it started with anger towards him, kept asking why he's making me go through so much pain why do I deserve all this is a moment of peace too much to ask???? Then as the anger grew so did my faith decrease until there was no more.
Now the point of the religion related story, my grandma was in perfect health, no cancer, no diabetes, no diseases whatsoever, not even arthritis , just the occasional flu, heck I get the flu more often than she got it. And that Alzheimer. Which wasn't even advanced. So my question was WHY LIKE THAT WHY HIT BY A FUCKING TRAIN WHAT WERE THE ODDS OF THAT HAPPENING. Please don't tell me fate. It was destined. Fucking make her have a heart attack in her sleep if she had to go. Not by fucking train!
I must be cursed...otherwise I can't explain my life so far.
I'll stop here, I'm sorry for the long journal I just felt like you guys deserved a little explanation and once started it was hard to stop venting :)
I don't normally like to talk about my life because I don't want anyone to pity me, it makes me feel weak[and if you'd know me a bit better you'd know I'm sort of a warrior spirit and weakness is unacceptable to me, I think it's why I've survived so far....], nor do I want people to think I'm a drama queen or that I'm making things up to get attention or to make people commission me or whatever I've seen ppl do this and it disgusts me. Plus I had a few ppl say about me IRL in the past that I'm making things up, it was just unacceptable to them that one single person could go through so much pain and misery.
Maybe one day, I will write up a journal like a sort of background story for those o you interested in knowing me more. Or maybe a novel :)) God knows It'd be a very emotional and disturbing one :))
Anyway , to those of you who read this entire journal, thank you for your patience and interest. It helped me to write it down.
I'm gonna continue being MIA for a bit while I recover my emotional balance, but I promise to bring you the best I can do when I come back!
Thank you all!
Stay safe!
Lulu
First off, since this became a fucking novel, 'll write it here at the top
THANK YOU FOR ALL THE NEW WATCHERS! THANK YOU FOR YOUR FAVS AND COMMENTS AND SUPPORT. I WILL ANSWER YOU ALL AND THANK YOU IN PERSON. but for now I thank you here!
I'm sorry for my lack of updates and MIA status.
As some of you might know my grandma died and I just found out a few days ago.
I was so in shock that I couldn't bring myself to move, my body felt numb. It felt like my life essence was sucked away. It still feels like that but today I finally cried, when a colleague at work saw me dressed in black [yes after a week of dressing in black one of my colleagues noticed] and asked me if I'm alright after seeing that I haven't been in my usual cheerful mood all week and then another colleague commenting exactly that "you've been silent all week" I just burst into hysterical crying , they took me out for a cigarette and after they all expressed their condolences and let me calm down they slowly started to talk about kittens and things they know I enjoy between themselves and making it an overall cheerful mood so I calmed down.
That seemed to help get me out of that numbness. I didn't realize that I haven't cried ever since I got the news...and since no one asked me about it, I was just locked inside my own thoughts and didn't exteriorize my pain. And as soon as I was actually paid attention to and asked with genuine interest if I'm alright I exploded.
I never REALLY realized how much it can affect when others don't show empathy. I mean I knew since I am emphatic and always get frustrated when I see ppl being so indifferent, but I don't know I guess today was a wake up call of sorts.
I've also started reading books again. I'm currently reading 4 different books. Started reading The Way of Kings by Branden Sanderson , Book of 5 rings by Myamato Musashi himself, Elon Musk Tesla SpaceX and the quest for a Fantastic Future by Ashlee Vance [my boyfriend gifted it to me last night AFTER I HAD JUST BORROWED ANOTHER ELON MUSK BOOK FROM THE BOOKSTORE AT WORK . On the same day, was such a cute coincidence my bf knows me so well :))) and I'm also reading [but it's kinda boring] Star Wars universe Darth Pagueis by James Luceno.
It helps with my stress. Also I can't focus on one single thing at a time that's why I read more books at the same time. I swap according to the mood I have at that time.
I've also caught up on most tv series I used to watch and dropped in the past year. I finished Vampire Diaries , The Originals , Fear of the walking Dead, The walking dead , Supernatural, Game of thrones, almost finished Vikings [6 episodes left to watch], started watching and up to date with the Alienist and Altered Carbon, and almost up to date with American Gods.
So this is how I've been coping with this tragic event.
Now I know what you might think, ok she died she was old it was gonna come sooner rather than later. While that may be true, the reason she died is dumbfounding. She had Alzheimer. It wasn't very advanced she'd just forget stuff she did in the past day or talked about, but nothing major. Other than that she was in perfect health. At 80 something years old FUCKING PERFECT HEALTH. Do you know why she died?
She went out for a walk, and was probably buried in thought and didn't realize where she was going , she walked on the train tracks and got hit by a fucking train. WHAT ARE THE FUCKING ODDS?????
I must say now, I used to be faithful to God. Even though I don't agree with the existence of the Bible I still believe there is a God, maybe not how/as we depict him but there is some deity out there [won't go into depth cuz i'd never stop] . But there was a time when I believed in him 100% . I used to pray to him talk to him thank him, I didn't like saying prayers for no reason, but every night before heading to bed I would talk to him for a while telling him about my day , thanking him for being there for me. I actually felt safe, I actually felt like I had a guardian angel next to me, Even though I've went through so much shit ever since I was a kid I still believed, and only asked for my and my family's health and peace of mind. But while growing up and facing so many difficulties I just decided I've had it. No one deserves so much fucking pain in one lifetime. AND MINE'S NOT EVEN FINISHED YET.
So as I reached adulthood I stopped believing in him. It didn't happen just like that , at first it started with anger towards him, kept asking why he's making me go through so much pain why do I deserve all this is a moment of peace too much to ask???? Then as the anger grew so did my faith decrease until there was no more.
Now the point of the religion related story, my grandma was in perfect health, no cancer, no diabetes, no diseases whatsoever, not even arthritis , just the occasional flu, heck I get the flu more often than she got it. And that Alzheimer. Which wasn't even advanced. So my question was WHY LIKE THAT WHY HIT BY A FUCKING TRAIN WHAT WERE THE ODDS OF THAT HAPPENING. Please don't tell me fate. It was destined. Fucking make her have a heart attack in her sleep if she had to go. Not by fucking train!
I must be cursed...otherwise I can't explain my life so far.
I'll stop here, I'm sorry for the long journal I just felt like you guys deserved a little explanation and once started it was hard to stop venting :)
I don't normally like to talk about my life because I don't want anyone to pity me, it makes me feel weak[and if you'd know me a bit better you'd know I'm sort of a warrior spirit and weakness is unacceptable to me, I think it's why I've survived so far....], nor do I want people to think I'm a drama queen or that I'm making things up to get attention or to make people commission me or whatever I've seen ppl do this and it disgusts me. Plus I had a few ppl say about me IRL in the past that I'm making things up, it was just unacceptable to them that one single person could go through so much pain and misery.
Maybe one day, I will write up a journal like a sort of background story for those o you interested in knowing me more. Or maybe a novel :)) God knows It'd be a very emotional and disturbing one :))
Anyway , to those of you who read this entire journal, thank you for your patience and interest. It helped me to write it down.
I'm gonna continue being MIA for a bit while I recover my emotional balance, but I promise to bring you the best I can do when I come back!
Thank you all!
Stay safe!
Lulu
grandma died
Posted 7 years agoapparently 2 weeks ago but my fucking aunt didn't consider it important to let me know. I even missed her funeral. idk if I'm to be more pissed or sad , i feel ...numb...
lil Update : Flu
Posted 7 years agoHey guys! Little update.
I got the flu , that's why my activity went down lately. I have to sit 8 hours in front of the computer at work so I'm exhausted when I come home and can barely draw.
Working through commissions right not. Not taking on anything else at this point.
Tomorrow's friday so hopefully this weekend I'll finish a bit of my workload
Other than that not much to say....
Hope you guys are well and looking forward to getting back on track and bring you more art!
Stay safe <3
also worklist :
-LunarPearl10 Freehand Commission -Paid-Working on it
-Antz123 Freehand Commission -Paid- Not started
-AnimaComplex Unicorn Warrior-Paid- Working on it
-AnimaComplex Cow Druid -Paid-Not started
-Patreon January last piece + tutorial
-Patreon February x 3 pieces + step by step + tutorial
I got the flu , that's why my activity went down lately. I have to sit 8 hours in front of the computer at work so I'm exhausted when I come home and can barely draw.
Working through commissions right not. Not taking on anything else at this point.
Tomorrow's friday so hopefully this weekend I'll finish a bit of my workload
Other than that not much to say....
Hope you guys are well and looking forward to getting back on track and bring you more art!
Stay safe <3
also worklist :
-LunarPearl10 Freehand Commission -Paid-Working on it
-Antz123 Freehand Commission -Paid- Not started
-AnimaComplex Unicorn Warrior-Paid- Working on it
-AnimaComplex Cow Druid -Paid-Not started
-Patreon January last piece + tutorial
-Patreon February x 3 pieces + step by step + tutorial
What fandoms are you into?
Posted 7 years agolike fav characters shows anime etc ?
also worklist :
-LunarPearl10 Freehand Commission -Paid-Working on it
-Antz123 Freehand Commission -Not paid- Not started
-AnimaComplex Unicorn Warrior-Paid- Working on it
-AnimaComplex Cow Druid -Paid-Not started
-Patreon January last piece + tutorial
-Patreon February x 3 pieces + step by step + tutorial
also worklist :
-LunarPearl10 Freehand Commission -Paid-Working on it
-Antz123 Freehand Commission -Not paid- Not started
-AnimaComplex Unicorn Warrior-Paid- Working on it
-AnimaComplex Cow Druid -Paid-Not started
-Patreon January last piece + tutorial
-Patreon February x 3 pieces + step by step + tutorial
Freehand commissions
Posted 7 years agoOrgie YCH Auction and Freehand Commissions
Posted 7 years agoHey guys !
For those of you who didn't see it I'm hosting an auction here. Here's the link if you want to check it out https://www.furaffinity.net/view/26416627/
Two I kept thinking what to do now to not stop drawing but not drain myself with both IRL work and drawing and at the same time manage to pay my bills. Any I thought how about some sort of freehand commissions?
Where you basically give me the character a few themes you like give me details about stuff the character likes to do to eat idk, I'll do something with that. It'd be fully painted like most of my stuff usually is just that I'd get a bit of freedom with the pose and choosing one of the themes you give me and such. Was thinking of setting it to 50$. What do you guys think?
For those of you who didn't see it I'm hosting an auction here. Here's the link if you want to check it out https://www.furaffinity.net/view/26416627/
Two I kept thinking what to do now to not stop drawing but not drain myself with both IRL work and drawing and at the same time manage to pay my bills. Any I thought how about some sort of freehand commissions?
Where you basically give me the character a few themes you like give me details about stuff the character likes to do to eat idk, I'll do something with that. It'd be fully painted like most of my stuff usually is just that I'd get a bit of freedom with the pose and choosing one of the themes you give me and such. Was thinking of setting it to 50$. What do you guys think?
Thank you all!
Posted 7 years agoThank you to everyone who messaged me last night or commented on the journals or talked to me on discord and telegram. Thank you so much for the kind words and encouragement. They really helped me! I'm still a bit sad about the whole thing but I'm feeling better and I'm drawing! So expect to see something from me soon <3
Do you guys want me to make animations? Also DISCORD channel
Posted 7 years agoLike I know I have those 2 ongoing animation auctions. But would you like to see more animations from me in the future? Should I continue?
also here's a link to my discord channel if y'all wanna chat https://discord.gg/DVX4rtV i downloaded it on my phone so i'll always be online [except when sleeping ofc] invitation code DVX4rtV
also here's a link to my discord channel if y'all wanna chat https://discord.gg/DVX4rtV i downloaded it on my phone so i'll always be online [except when sleeping ofc] invitation code DVX4rtV
A little heads up guys!
Posted 7 years agoFirst off, I know I've already replied to each of you thanking you for watching me but I'll say it here too.Thank you everyone! I'm glad you enjoyed my art enough to consider I deserve to be followed! I'll do my best to not disappoint! I really appreciate it!
Secondly ,I'm running 2 auctions right now and gonna have another 3 running after which I am going to take a break.
I've recently got a job as a junior accountant and even though the pay is shit [ it's 500 euro per month and my RENT ALONE IS 400 euro so yes shit] I like the job.
It's extremely stressful and requires my brain to function again [it's been hibernating for the last 10 years because all the jos i had were bartender waitress and nanny] so I get headaches and dizziness every fucking day,
It literally drains all my energy and I have to force myself to draw when I come home. Sometimes I just crash in bed and fall asleep instantly.
BUT I want to learn this and hopefully my paycheck will grow in the future or I find a better paying company once I have enough experience. I've already been here for 4 months so what's another 8 xD.
So since it's rly hard for me to draw like I'd like to, and even if I don't know how I'll manage with bills and food I need at least a 2 week break [I was thinking one month but we'll see]. That's why I wanted to hold these auctions to save up some cash to survive the next month.
The oher 3 auctions that I want to do I have not decided what they'll be so if you have any themes you'd like to see let me know <3
I'll still draw. during weekends, but I wanna draw some personal things. my ocs mby try out new things, we'll see.
So yeah that's about it. Thanks for reading, and don't be shy to talk to me! I'm very friendly XD [I got telegram on the front page if y'all wanna chat you can find me there anytime <3 since I got it on my phone]
Secondly ,I'm running 2 auctions right now and gonna have another 3 running after which I am going to take a break.
I've recently got a job as a junior accountant and even though the pay is shit [ it's 500 euro per month and my RENT ALONE IS 400 euro so yes shit] I like the job.
It's extremely stressful and requires my brain to function again [it's been hibernating for the last 10 years because all the jos i had were bartender waitress and nanny] so I get headaches and dizziness every fucking day,
It literally drains all my energy and I have to force myself to draw when I come home. Sometimes I just crash in bed and fall asleep instantly.
BUT I want to learn this and hopefully my paycheck will grow in the future or I find a better paying company once I have enough experience. I've already been here for 4 months so what's another 8 xD.
So since it's rly hard for me to draw like I'd like to, and even if I don't know how I'll manage with bills and food I need at least a 2 week break [I was thinking one month but we'll see]. That's why I wanted to hold these auctions to save up some cash to survive the next month.
The oher 3 auctions that I want to do I have not decided what they'll be so if you have any themes you'd like to see let me know <3
I'll still draw. during weekends, but I wanna draw some personal things. my ocs mby try out new things, we'll see.
So yeah that's about it. Thanks for reading, and don't be shy to talk to me! I'm very friendly XD [I got telegram on the front page if y'all wanna chat you can find me there anytime <3 since I got it on my phone]
PONY YCH Auction NSFW
Posted 7 years agohey guys , I'm holding a pony YCH auction on ych.commishes.com
I was hoping maybe you guys would help me bump it up a bit by going and giving it a thumbs up?
it's made of two slots so there are two links
Slot A https://ych.commishes.com/auction/s.....limax--a-male/
and
Slot B https://ych.commishes.com/auction/s.....max--b-female/
And who knows maybe if you guys are mlp fans you'll even join in <3
Anyway I'm off to bed now dead tired and work tomorrow T_T
See y'all aroun and thank you all for your support!
I was hoping maybe you guys would help me bump it up a bit by going and giving it a thumbs up?
it's made of two slots so there are two links
Slot A https://ych.commishes.com/auction/s.....limax--a-male/
and
Slot B https://ych.commishes.com/auction/s.....max--b-female/
And who knows maybe if you guys are mlp fans you'll even join in <3
Anyway I'm off to bed now dead tired and work tomorrow T_T
See y'all aroun and thank you all for your support!
Would anyone be interested in an Orgie YCH Auction?
Posted 7 years agoThe prices would be set [like set price for each slot first to claim gets it]
I need some money to pay rent this month because shit happened and I had to pay an old debt [because my friend had to get a surgery and needed the money fast] and now IDK with what I'll pay my rent and this month's bills and food for my cat and for me [I can starve but my cat needs to get fat and fluffeh]
So I'd need around 800$ T_T fuck me ....
idfk what to do... suggestions?
ON HOLD:
due to no payment
ych #2 - DARK_SKY17 NOT PAID
ych #2 - Aranath025 NOT PAID
-AnimaComplex Commission [fb fc warrior unicorn] NOT PAID
Workig on:
YCH AUCTIONS
After School Detention - Scramjet 30%/100% PAID
I need some money to pay rent this month because shit happened and I had to pay an old debt [because my friend had to get a surgery and needed the money fast] and now IDK with what I'll pay my rent and this month's bills and food for my cat and for me [I can starve but my cat needs to get fat and fluffeh]
So I'd need around 800$ T_T fuck me ....
idfk what to do... suggestions?
ON HOLD:
due to no payment
ych #2 - DARK_SKY17 NOT PAID
ych #2 - Aranath025 NOT PAID
-AnimaComplex Commission [fb fc warrior unicorn] NOT PAID
Workig on:
YCH AUCTIONS
After School Detention - Scramjet 30%/100% PAID
February to do
Posted 7 years agoON HOLD:
due to no payment
ych #2 - DARK_SKY17 NOT PAID
ych #2 - Aranath025 NOT PAID
-AnimaComplex Commission [fb fc warrior unicorn] NOT PAID
Workig on:
YCH #1
slot #5 - Sharingan696PAID
YCH #2
slot #3 - Malikfoxen PAID
slot #6 - Cponyfan PAID
YCH #3
SLOT#1 Devils-Brandy
YCH AUCTIONS
After School Detention - Scramjet 30%/100% PAID
due to no payment
ych #2 - DARK_SKY17 NOT PAID
ych #2 - Aranath025 NOT PAID
-AnimaComplex Commission [fb fc warrior unicorn] NOT PAID
Workig on:
YCH #1
slot #5 - Sharingan696PAID
YCH #2
slot #3 - Malikfoxen PAID
slot #6 - Cponyfan PAID
YCH #3
SLOT#1 Devils-Brandy
YCH AUCTIONS
After School Detention - Scramjet 30%/100% PAID
TO DO LIST : January
Posted 7 years agoREGULAR COMMISSIONS
-PETRIE TIGRESS DONE
YCH COMMISSIONS
-ych #1
slot #1 - PashaSerg for Aranath025
slot #2 - Kitten-AfterDark
slot #3 -
slot #4 -
slot #5-
-ych #2
slot #1 - DARK_SKY17
slot #2 - Aranath025
slot #3 - Malikfoxen
slot #4 - Anonpony1 DONE
slot #5 - Haybem DONE
slot #6 - Cponyfan
YCH AUCTIONS
After School Detention - Scramjet
Morning Breakfast - CyanIris & Kira 25%/100%
Just Chillin' - Kira 30%/100%
Personal Illustrations for portfolio x 5
-Digimon heroes style illustration
-Bird Zappers styled illustration
-Aevana Unstoppable styled illustration
-Buccaneer Blitz styled illustration and iso art
-Hearthstone styled illustration
+-WOW styled illustration
-PETRIE TIGRESS DONE
YCH COMMISSIONS
-ych #1
slot #1 - PashaSerg for Aranath025
slot #2 - Kitten-AfterDark
slot #3 -
slot #4 -
slot #5-
-ych #2
slot #1 - DARK_SKY17
slot #2 - Aranath025
slot #3 - Malikfoxen
slot #4 - Anonpony1 DONE
slot #5 - Haybem DONE
slot #6 - Cponyfan
YCH AUCTIONS
After School Detention - Scramjet
Morning Breakfast - CyanIris & Kira 25%/100%
Just Chillin' - Kira 30%/100%
Personal Illustrations for portfolio x 5
-Digimon heroes style illustration
-Bird Zappers styled illustration
-Aevana Unstoppable styled illustration
-Buccaneer Blitz styled illustration and iso art
-Hearthstone styled illustration
+-WOW styled illustration
After School Detention YCH Auction NSFW
Posted 7 years agoHey everyone !
Started a new auction that will go on for a week so I have time to finish my commissions.
If you're curious about it here's the link
https://ych.commishes.com/auction/s.....ool-detention/
Pretty pleased with how it turned out
The character is Ayaka my fennec fox OC I fucking adore her
Well shit I forgot to add her tail somewhere in there XDDD
Hope you guys like her <3
Got another few months old sketch o her in her bedroom chilling that I never finished, was thinking of turning it into an auction too
http://prntscr.com/i0ttth what do you guys think? Should I make it an auction?
Don't rly have time for personal projects since commissions are a priority until I get promoted at work XD or find a better paying job [cuz without commissions I can't afford to pay rent since my salary is 500$ and my rent is 400$ without bills + food + cat]
Started a new auction that will go on for a week so I have time to finish my commissions.
If you're curious about it here's the link
https://ych.commishes.com/auction/s.....ool-detention/
Pretty pleased with how it turned out
The character is Ayaka my fennec fox OC I fucking adore her
Well shit I forgot to add her tail somewhere in there XDDD
Hope you guys like her <3
Got another few months old sketch o her in her bedroom chilling that I never finished, was thinking of turning it into an auction too
http://prntscr.com/i0ttth what do you guys think? Should I make it an auction?
Don't rly have time for personal projects since commissions are a priority until I get promoted at work XD or find a better paying job [cuz without commissions I can't afford to pay rent since my salary is 500$ and my rent is 400$ without bills + food + cat]
fuck...
Posted 7 years agoanyone skilled with pluming? :)))))))
I was washing my dishes earlier ...and when i tried closing the tap thing it didn't work, like it was off but water kept pouring like it was open.......... tried closing the water from the secondary water tap thing and THAT ONE's broken too! I'm fucked cuz it's 11 pm and my landowner isn't answering his fucking phone....not only will my water bill destroy me but I CAN'T SLEEP CUZ OF THAT SOUND
i feel like crying
and to top it all off my cat is meowing like she's mad and starring at me and she started doing it since the moment i first tried closing the tap [cuz she came to me meowing and that's why i wanted to close to pet her thinking she wanted attention :/ what's going ooonnnnn
I was washing my dishes earlier ...and when i tried closing the tap thing it didn't work, like it was off but water kept pouring like it was open.......... tried closing the water from the secondary water tap thing and THAT ONE's broken too! I'm fucked cuz it's 11 pm and my landowner isn't answering his fucking phone....not only will my water bill destroy me but I CAN'T SLEEP CUZ OF THAT SOUND
i feel like crying
and to top it all off my cat is meowing like she's mad and starring at me and she started doing it since the moment i first tried closing the tap [cuz she came to me meowing and that's why i wanted to close to pet her thinking she wanted attention :/ what's going ooonnnnn
HEEEELLPPP DESUUU
Posted 7 years agoHey lovelies, I'm kinda in an art block , more like idea block XD
Was thinking what to do next for my YCH Auction T_T like a theme or a pose , can you guys help me? T_T PWEEAASSEEE give me ideas T_T
Was thinking what to do next for my YCH Auction T_T like a theme or a pose , can you guys help me? T_T PWEEAASSEEE give me ideas T_T
PWYW Commissions + Ych Auction
Posted 7 years ago1 Slots
Here's how it works:
If you like my stuff and want something from me:
1.Leave a comment here saying you're interested
2.I'll then msg you privately
3. Tell me how much you're able to afford spending for my art
4. Tell me what you'd like out of these : chibi/portrait/half body/full body/couple
5. I will tell you what I can do for that amount of money and the preference you chose at step 4, if I can sketch/line art/flat colors/simple shading/full painting.
6.Provide references
7. Pay
As soon as I receive payment I'm gonna start working on it.
Turnaround time max 1 week.
Secondly holding an Auction on YCH.commishes Here's the link http://ych.commishes.com/auction/sh.....ess-me-please/
Stuff
Posted 7 years ago-Decided to do a gift piece for my 50th follower. When the time comes xD
-Saving up for January's rent : 50$/400$
-Current On Going Auction : https://ych.commishes.com/auction/s.....ion-sex-slave/
-Second On Going Auction: https://ych.commishes.com/auction/s.....ess-me-please/
Stuff to do:
-Auction need to finish : Tigress for 
Petrie02 - 100%/100%
-Chibi commission Reaper for Amy Strange : 30/100%
-Couple Wickerbeast Commission for Amy Strange : 0/100%
-Couple chibi with BG : 0/100% - POSTPONED
-Tigress HB for petrie02 : 0/100%
-Personal Illustration : Ayaka just chillin' - 40%/100%
-B-day gift for boyfriend : Esdath from Akame ga kill -90%/100%
-Teressa's 3rd design Character Sheet : 90%/100%
-Saving up for January's rent : 50$/400$
-Current On Going Auction : https://ych.commishes.com/auction/s.....ion-sex-slave/
-Second On Going Auction: https://ych.commishes.com/auction/s.....ess-me-please/
Stuff to do:
Petrie02 - 100%/100%-Chibi commission Reaper for Amy Strange : 30/100%
-Couple Wickerbeast Commission for Amy Strange : 0/100%
-Tigress HB for
petrie02 : 0/100%-Personal Illustration : Ayaka just chillin' - 40%/100%
-B-day gift for boyfriend : Esdath from Akame ga kill -90%/100%
-Teressa's 3rd design Character Sheet : 90%/100%
List of fur community species
Posted 7 years agoList of species I like and hope to get to draw [be they open or closed species]
If you know any pls comment I'll check them out.
Sergal
Protogen
Dutch angel dragon
Vernid
Drekkubus
Waywick
Wicker Beast
Jolleraptor
Teacup Dragon
If you know any pls comment I'll check them out.
Sergal
Protogen
Dutch angel dragon
Vernid
Drekkubus
Waywick
Wicker Beast
Jolleraptor
Teacup Dragon
