So yeah, my whole outburst with my mom was probably for the better. After i got home last sunday we all talked it out and well after a little while.. i told her I was gay.. heh. i thought she was goig to pull out a gun and shoot me between the eyes lol. but..she knew! haha yeah she actually knew, and yeah she was a bit dissapointed but, she told me that she would deal with it. i feel better that she knows now, Oh yeah and my stepfather knows too, hes really cool with it, he invited his lesbian friend to take me out and talk to me about stuff, we went to gamestop and i got God Of War :D

But i still feel a bit weird that they all know. i know its probably better that they do, but...i just feel weird, maybe its because i just came out ad stuff lol but eh whatever.

anyone else who is gay and came out to their parents and stuff, tell me how it went for you, always looking to hear about my friends here on FA

Love you all
LuLu

The thing that happened last night started with my progress report,.. Heh I got an F- in algebra 2 and and F in marketing. That report was supposed to come out in the next week or two. So instead my guidance counselor goes and tells my mom instead of letting it come in the mail.
I was supposed to go out last night with,.. Just about everyone I'm friends with, that includes  nightfox7 Now... I really love this guy.. Even if we are on a break.. That's the main reason why I wanted to go, can you blame me though? I wanted to see him, which I haven't done since the beginning of January, I wanted somebody to hug for the first time in months.
When I got home my mother answered the door with an evil look. She gave me her phone and said "call your friends and tell them you aren't going anywhere. I asked why, she said you know why. It was about my grades and stuff.
Now I have hardly ever talked back to my mother before... I started to actually defend myself, she always made me feel so scared, but something happened and I yelled back at her. I asked if I could go out for just tonight and she screamed at me, I screamed back. She went to grab me and I reacted as to hold her hand from hurting me. She went to choke me against the wall. I pushed her off of me.
I called the police. She told me it would be the biggest mistake of my life. She went around to pushing me around, I didn't lay a hand on her so the police couldn't pin me for anything.
An officer came and got us settled down. He asked what happened and we told him exactly what did. He asked what was so important, so i asked if it could be private. We stepped outside and I told him everything... I told him I was gay, told him why I wanted to see my "boyfriend" and how he's actually the only person in the world who wants me to do well, he's helped me get my life on track. (yeah I am talking to you )
The officer was cool about it, he told me to talk to my counselor about what I can do to graduate this year, if I don't talk to my counselor he'll find out heh.. And nobody was arrested.
So now, I'm at my grandmothers house for the weekend. And I had to explain to her why I called the cops, tellin me I was an idiot for it. But if I didn't then nobody would be there to moderate what was happening. Heh... Then she asked me why Friday night was so important,... I told her I was going to see somebody special,.. She asked if it were a girl, I said no and cried the whole way to my grandmothers house, luckily my grandmother said she still loved me anyway, doesn't understand, but she loves me still. So now she knows.


Sorry for this whole thing you guys... I just needed to tell my friends, I'll more than likely be gone for a while because of this, so if contact between you and I start to fade away, then I am sorry.

I love you all so much, I really do.

A horrible thing happened to me , huge huge HUGE fight with my mother. I may be grounded for a LONG time.... I'm sorry.

this sort of pissed me off

http://news.yahoo.com/s/ap/us_lesbian_prom_date

stole from  wrio

truthful answers for you guys heh....

1) How big is your penis?
7.5"

2) How thick is your penis? i really don't know

3) Do you have foreskin? is that the fleshy part after over the head? ew haha gross, no

4) Does it Curve or is it straight? lol it goes straight

5) If it curves which way?

6) Does it grow hair? HAHAH OMG nooo!

7) Do you shave yours? my dick? lol i don't have to? i didn't think that was a hair growth spot

8) Do your balls sag or are they tight? uhhh.... i think it depends on the temperature LOLOL this is officially the most awkward meme

9) Have you ever pierced it? thought about it... not going through with it hahah

10) If so with what?

11) What kind of underwear do you usually keep it in? i have mostly boxers, but i LOvE the feeling of briefs hahah, or the boxer/brief hybrid! those are awesomeee!!

12) Has it ever touched another penis? mhmhm yes it has

13) Does your penis have an Penis Boyfriend? Nope lololol

14) Does your penis have a name? genitalia

15) Have you posted pictures or video of your penis on the
Nope sorry guys..or girls too hahah

16) Have you had art done of your furry character with its penis showing? Not by me, but it IS out there.

17) Will you post this up for everyone to repost? I'll post it hahahah

Stolen from  bigboyfox
Listen to 15 random songs on your music player and add the words "In My Pants" at the end of each title

1. Pierce The Veil-"Id Rather Die Than Be Famous..In Your Pants"

2. Motion City Soundtrack-"Everything Is Alright..In My Pants

3. Blue October- "Picking Up The Pieces...In My Pants"

4. The Used- "Watered Down...In My Pants"

5. The Almost- "Hands... In My Pants"

6. The Used- "Take It Away..In My Pants"

7. The Cab- "Bounce...In My Pants"

8. A Change Of Pace- "How To Rape A Country... In My Pants"

9. A Day To Remember- "If It Means A Lot To You... In My Pants"

10. From First Fo Last- "Worlds Away...In My Pants"

11. Lady GaGa- "I Like It Rough... In My Pants"

12. Paramore- "Looking Up... In My Pants

13. Mindless Self Indulgence- "Due... In My Pants"

14. I See Stars- "The Big Bad Wolf... In My Pants"

15. Black Eyed Peas- "Rockin To The Beat... In My Pants"


Hahahah man, this was perhaps my most favorite meme

yerp made 1

1 - Do you shower in the morning or evening?
Both

2 - Do you use liquid or bar soap?
liquid soap :D

3 - Do you use shampoo and conditioner or just shampoo?
BOTH ALWAYS ALWAY! MY GOSH, what would I do without my girly hair products!? D:

4 - Do you brush your teeth in the shower?
LOL sometimesss

5 - Do you shave in the shower?
hmmm lol
6 - Do you sing in the shower?
all the time hhahah =D

7 - Do you use a washcloth?
no, i use this awesome poofy thing

8 - Do you have a door or a curtain on your shower?
Curtain with sharks on them!

9 - Have you ever taken a call in the shower?
1 time hahah
10 - Have you ever showered in your swimsuit?
umm, at the beach i did

11 - Have you ever showered with a member of the same sex?
hehehheehehhe......

12 - Have you ever showered with a member of the opposite sex?
nope

13 - Do you share a bathroom with someone?
my family :[

14 - Do you listen to the radio in the shower?
I WISH!!!!

15 - Do you wear a shower cap?
HAHAHAHAH LOLOL OF KOURSE
jk though

16 - Do you wash behind your ears?
lol um yeah?

17 - Describe your shower in three words.
wet, soapy, & white ;3

18 - What one thing would you change about your shower?
make it 1 of those showers with the door

19 - What would make your shower time better for you?
somebody else :D

20 - What celebrity would you like to shower with?
haha...hmm, probably Nick Thune orrrr Zachary Quinto :D

21 - What celebrity would you NOT like to shower with?
lol a few...but I'll go with the fat kid from Superbad hahah

22 - What is the one thing you can't do without in your shower?
soap?

23 - What is the oddest thing that has happened to you in the shower?
my dog jumped in for some weird reason hahaha (no i did not fukk it!)

24 - What is the best thing that has happened to you in the shower?
heheh.....

25 - When was the last time you showered?
this morning

26 - When are you going to take a shower next?
Tonight

Alright, so if you know me at all then you know that I aspire to become a proffesional musician. I sing and write lyrics, Im thinking of posting some of the stuff I have written here on FA for everyone to laugh at. Hmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm I'll try uploading some of my amateur lyrics and don't worry, it doesn't mean I'm going to stop drawing, Im still going to continue it, perhaps even make a little series out of it introducing more characters and stuff :D

So yeah, there is my statement lol, tell me what you guys think and if you're actually interested in reading stuff i write.

yessss this awesome comic book is being adapted into a movie!!


http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=DrKHu2UX1vA&NR=1


http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=9zLsdBEsr90


<3 <3 <3 THIS!!!!

Stole from  bigboyfox

01. Real name → hahahahahah nooo~
002. Nickname(s)→ LuLu, Rakkoon, Cheshire Cat, Wolfkoon ;3

003. Zodiac sign → Libra
004. Male or female → Male
005. Elementary → Lordship Elementary (OMG CATH SKOOL?!)
006. Middle School → Wooster
007. High School → Stratford High (freshmen year) & Ansonia High
008. Hair color → Dark brown, almost black
009. Long or short → Medium
010. Loud or Quiet → Depends

011. Sweats or Jeans → Jeans
012. Phone or Camera → Phone
013. Health freak → hahahahah yeahhhh sureee
014. Drink or Smoke? → Drink occasionally
015. Do you have a crush on someone? → a few hehe (SLUT SLUT SLUT SLUT)

016. Eat or Drink → both
017. Piercings → Ears, lips soon...maybe a few other places?? ;3
018. Tattoos → someday

HAVE YOU EVER?
019. Been in an airplane → Yessss
020. Been in a relationship → a few
021. Been in a car accident → yes hahah just a few days ago actually
022. Been in a fist fight → heh... yeah :[

FIRSTS:
023. First piercing → Ears
024. First best friend → Craig! haha i left that place though...

025. First award → a turkey for when i entered a raffle back in like 3rd grade
026. First crush → A good friend
028. First big vacation → Italy when i was like 2
029. Last person you talked to →  nightfox7
030. Last person you IMed →  nightfox7
031. Last person you watched a movie with → myself lol
032. Last food you ate → pizza
033. Last movie you watched → Coraline
034. Last song you listened to → Stand Up-Fireflight
035. Last thing you bought → a haircut
036. Last person you hugged → Sarah~~~~ :D

FAVES:
037. Food → friesssss
038. Drinks → Dr. Pepper! Starbucks Double chocolatey chip Frappuccino!
039. Clothing → Band tee's,Skinny jeans, Bandanna,& High Tops~
040. Books → horror, mystery, drama, fantasy, thriller
041. Music → Alternative, Pop, Rap, Techno, Grunge, Industrial
042. Flowers → Roses~~
043. Colors → Violet, Blue, Pink, Red, Grey & Green,
044. Movies → Repo!:The Genetic Opera, Edward Scissorhands, V for Vendetta, Nick & Nora's Infinite Playlist, Wacthmen, Rent, Kill Bill, The Invisble, Donnie Darko, The Breakfast Club, A LOT MORE!
045. Positions → hmm hehee
046. Subjects → English, Anatomy, & Media

IN 2009 I....
047. [] kissed in the snow.
048. [x] celebrated Halloween
049. [] had your heart broken
050. [x] went over the minutes on your cell phone
051. [x] someone questioned your sexual orientation
052. [1/2] Came out of the closet
053. [] gotten pregnant
054. [] had an abortion
055. [X] done something you've regretted
056. [] broke a promise
057. [x] hid a secret
058. [x] pretended to be happy
059. [x] met someone who changed your life.
060. [x] pretended to be sick.
061. [] left the country
062. [x] tried something you normally wouldn't try and liked it.
063. [] traveled to high mountains.
064. [x] ran a lot on the beach
065. [x] live on a beach
066. [x] stayed single a whole year

CURRENTLY:
067. Eating → air
068. Drinking → coke
069. I'm about to → die
070. Listening to → Whoa-Paramore
071. Plans for today → drawing, IM-ig, wasting life (the usual)
072. Waiting for → my life to start

YOUR FUTURE:
073. Want kids? → NOOOOOOOO!! AAAUGH!
074. Want to get married? → Way too soon to be asking me that, but at the moment no
075. Careers in mind → Musical Artist, Actor, Hollywood or Fukking BUST!
OR OR:
076. Lips or eyes → Eyes
077. Shorter or taller? → be taller please~
078. Romantic or spontaneous → both
079. Nice stomach or nice arms → Both ;)
080. Sensitive or loud → loud
081. Hook-up or relationship → hook-up
082. Trouble-maker or hesitant → TroubleMAKER!

HAVE YOU EVER:
083. Lost glasses/contacts → Nooo
084. Ran away from home → ..yeah
086. Killed somebody/thing → HAHAHAHAHAHAHHAAA
087. Broken someone's heart → thats what im in the business of these days :!
088. Been arrested → yeah right ;3
089. Cried when someone died → yeah..

DO YOU BELIEVE IN:
090. Yourself → ehh..sometimes
091. Miracles → i hope so
092. Love at first sight → nope
093. Heaven → no
094. Santa Claus → yes he's at the mall
095. Sex on the first date → mhmm
096. Kiss on the first date → Yes

ANSWER TRUTHFULLY:
097. Is there one person you want to be with right now? → wheres that list..?
098. Are you seriously happy with where you are in life? → haha, absolutely not, but im going to make this better
099. Do you believe in God → i do not
100. Post as 100 truths and tag 20 people →idk enough people

Fuck hard fuck! Yeahhhhhh!!! Just do it, fuck meeeeeeeee suck meee just throw me around! gRRrrrrr!

(sorry hahah I'm excited x3)
listen to this
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=8n0b4EMFtPQ&feature=youtube_gdata
AFI remix :O

But ughhh. Yeah! Fuckkkkk Hardddd FUCKKKK MMMmmmrrrrrGGGrrrr!!!

I just gave the "Almost Alice" soundtrack for Tim Burtons/Disneys upcoming "Alice In Wonderland" film, which I personally cannot wait for. I thought the album was going to be all orchestraited music, which I like actually.

Turns out big names have made their way onto the OST, such as 3OH!3, Kerli, All American Rejects, Shinedown, Tokio Hotel, All Time Low, and a few others.

I happened to find this a great listen, and the album really relaxed me from how I was previously feeling. Heh I think it's funny if you can find the irony in that. Anyway, I'll give you guys the link to the playlist i made of the songs

http://www.youtube.com/view_play_li.....36FE83A82B6527



Enjoy, OH and tell me who else is planning to see this. It's something that I find really important, Alice in Wonderland was a huge part of the lives of me and my friends, so I'm really excited to see this movie.

Are you as excited as I am? What movies can't you wait for? What movies were a big part of your lives? I'd love to know :3 have a great day you guys

I guess I'll never see the world that the singers melodize about, the scenes on the television screens. They're perfect, full of fun and adventure. I guess that's why i'm always sleeping ...so i can at least dream the world I cry for. The beautiful world, the amazing one we read about in stories. Where does that inspiration even come from? It's disheartening to wake up... To wake up and go through the daily routine of the real world. The same miserable people, the same complaints, the same dissatisfaction for excitement, passion, and scenery of the beautiful world I envision. So I'll sleep... Because dreaming is the closest I'll get to the world Id give anything for...

I'm so bored, lets do something fun you guys! because all i'e been doing lately was getting my kicks out of this picture


http://www.facebook.com/lbarnum1?ref=profile#!/photo.php?pid=3470144&id=293449950962

Yerp i made a twitter account.

https://www.twitter.com/lulurakkoon
hit meh up


OH yeah & hear this

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=5yG6iw7AeWE <- I plan to do this song

I was on https://www.Pandora.com and found this song by The Used called "Pain"

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=8wIWVXR9-zo

so i was inspired to look up more from the band that I love so much and found some more cool stuff i haven't heard by them.

"Back Of Your Mouth"
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=J7eHfVN-sWo&feature=channel

"Sick Hearts"
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=cwkuEl69mLo&feature=channel

hope you guys like them, i did

Okay from here on out I'm going to appear invisible. There are people who I'd MUCH rather not talk to. Don't worry it's nobody here, just people who I don't care to talk to. So if you're going to IM me and I appear to be offline, there's a good chance that I'm not, always happy to chat it up with other furries so yeah hit meh up

lulurakkoon <~ my sn

Yerp LuLu is half wolf from here on out hehe
still the same old fag that you still know though.

He already seemed a bit wolfish anyway.

Yup, have a good one..heh

So I found out Im failing 3 classes, history, math, and marketing. I feel so horrible, that and Ive been having a pretty rough time with myself lately... Anyway, my mom is making me feel like the biggest piece of shit ever, I feel so horrible. She said she wouldn't even bother punishing me because nothing can help me, but she changes her mind a lot (were both bipolar) and I'm not too sure if I'll be online...idk, I'll post a journal later if I'm still allowed or not.

Okay so the tryouts for the highschools musical was today and tomorrow also. My friend knows I want to sing and tryout for it,...but I'm nervous.. So I decided I'd pass on that offer. My friend didn't want me to pass this up SO he goes and signs me up for an audition tomorrow...and this leads me to say "OHMYGOD WHAT IF I SUCK?! WHAT DO I SING?! WILL I MAkE IT THEIR ALIVE WITHOUT an ANXIETY ATTACK?!"....so yeah I'm pretty damn nervous...

So this new up & comer "Ke$ha" has come out with the "Animal" and from what I am listening to it is fucking awesome dance dance party party! this album totally brought me out of the dark place i was creepily getting into. so it's probably not too big of a hit with too many of you guys, but check it out, you may like it~~

Your Love Is My Drug
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=TxFOezvH6MY&feature=PlayList&p=836EDE9EAE405277&index=0

Tik Tok
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=YPkRPoFwYP0&feature=PlayList&p=836EDE9EAE405277&index=1

Take It Off
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=M9FFYUFnzb4&feature=PlayList&p=836EDE9EAE405277&index=2

there's a few more, including a track with the duo from Colorado 3OH!3
*Dances with the flashing lights and loud music*

My e-mail was submitted into episode 81 of Knotcast, a furry podcast. HAHAH it's sooooo funny! you gotta check it out, my e-mail comes in at 13:17 on chapter 3 0f 3

I've bee pretty down lately until i listen to music like this, anybody else have any more songs like this i should check out?


"Sweetness"-Jimmy Eat World
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=wU3KBI5qyEY

"The Middle"-Jimmy Eat World
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=PV3RHw2KFkc&feature=related

"The Sound Of Settling" Death Cab For Cutie
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ob-EoFKAl6w

"Title & Registration"- Death Cab For Cutie
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=KGEyqP0744c

I've bee pretty down lately until i listen to music like this, anybody else have any more songs like this i should check out?