I deleted my previous "It's so hard to find an artist" journal, as good fortune has come our way!

I managed to snag a thigh-up image from  xenthyl and just read  sabretoothedermine will be opening up within a few days!

Now the hard part is deciding what I am going to commission from them, if I do manage to nab a slot. I have $150 left in the art fund for this month, so a 1-2 character speedpaint with background is the most likely thing to get. But WHAT? Such pressure to come up with something juicy.

Choices, choices, choices.

Before I spend all my pennies, feel free to point me toward other art too. I can be persuaded to change my plans

I wont list specific artists, because honestly, I don't know that many on here yet. If you know an amazing artist that is reasonably priced, let me know. (sorry, I can't spend $300 on a picture, just don't have that kinda cash)

The list:
-group pics. I actually enjoy messy group pics. Gang bang style. Fingers crossed I can get in on one.. these pics usually go really, really fast if it's YCH style. So warn me if you see one!
-butt pics. I love my booty. I love getting it in the booty. On the booty. Dang we need more juicy booty pics!
-cuckolding. He likes to watch me getting busy. I do not like the shaming part of it, he just likes me take even bigger guys on.
-voyeurism pictures. I love being caught in the act. Camera themed images are nice too.
-pictures of just 'him', something erotic, for my persona enjoyment . I am not too familiar with the muscle gut artists, so point them out to me!
-athletic/gymnastic images. Handstands, splits, contortion type stuff. It's part of me, it should be displayed! I don't get to show off my flexibility enough.

Suggestions are welcome for the list of wishes and ideas!

I've not done a lot of writing, and no writing means no art. Those two go hand in hand. The story creates the art, the art creates the story. Lame, I know.

End of the year, the priorities shift. Catching up with friends and family, traveling, dealing with bills that are higher than usual due to the colder weather and ofcourse all the little gifts and things one needs to buy. I hope that come spring my finances allow a few splurges, everything willing. There are several artists I would LOVE to get art from.. so we'll see.

I need to get my mind right, to write again. It's all over the place at times. In German there's a term for it, it's called wankelmuetig. Fickle, wishywashy, unsure.. I don't like writing stories that are too mushy. I think the blizzard one toed that line a bit too closely. Fucked with my head. All stories are inspired by real life, and that one came too close to reality, to things I've felt too strongly. It's a sick feeling, when you remember something too vividly. It's like a high, from a drug you gave up long ago, but then right there in that moment you want to pick the habit back up. Never mind you dropped that habit for a good reason.. it was killing you.

SO yes. I need to not get too deep into this. It's dangerous.. but it feels SO good.

Do you like mature women?

A student fucking the teacher?

A pair of nice floppy boobies resting on the desk?

All of the artwork in my gallery is done by Chaotikat.. and here's the chance for you to get some too!

http://www.furaffinity.net/view/18178884

It's a shame the lady spot isn't up for bid.. I would look so hot in it!

I wish I had a good reason for having been rather inactive here, but I have none. Quite frankly, I have no idea where the time has gone.. I don't believe I have been all that busy or productive. Close your eyes one minute, and three weeks have passed. ..Watching TV and eating things I shouldn't eat is probably the answer.

But, onward. We're entering a fun time of year! On Friday I will be expecting all the children to come by for candy (our town is having the festivities on Friday). I am not sure if I will get a second crowd on Saturday too, as families from neighboring towns drive to ours for trick-or-treating.. and they may not get the memo about it being on Friday. I am prepared! I have candy and small toys! My first year in this home I did not realize how big of a deal Halloween is in this town and I was completely caught off guard by the droves of kids. I had to turn off all the lights and hide, or they would not stop knocking. Awful! Now I love handing out goodies.

Thanksgiving is not much of a big deal to me. I have no family nearby, really. Whenever I do make a turkey I have to eat it for a week straight.. I don't know what I will do this year. I am really not very fond of the day, it just reminds me how much I wish I had a large family gathering.

I do like Christmas. Not so much for gifts, because honestly, I never get any. I enjoy baking cookies and bringing them to neighbors (who often return the favor, I just love that!). It's just that cozy feeling, the songs, the yummy foods. To Germans December is a pretty big deal, moreso than Americans. I crave the Christmas markets, mulled wine, the local treats, all the lights everywhere. I eat way too much sweets in December.. marzipan, gingerbread, chocolates. Be still, my heart. Growing up we had St. Nicholas in early December, and Christmas (without Santa) for TWO days.. and then New Years eve. Fireworks were huge, it was the only day they were allowed to be lit. I remember one year where there was a fog, which caused all the fumes to stick to the ground.. Couldn't see a foot in front of you. Good times. And these evening long revue shows. Oh I miss them.

I don't bother with fireworks anymore.. Usually someone else will light some, and I'll watch. But again, the food. Goodness, the food. Fried everything! And then you can pretend how healthy you are going to be the next 11 months.

This is the time of year I get nostalgic, and a bit lonely. I miss family. And I miss my home country. Finding some of the food in the stores makes me happy, just for a little bit. Drinking loads of mulled wine fixes it.



So, I am still alive. Good times coming. Must give myself gifts, that don't go to my hips!

Some people have expressed interest in joining me in my uhm.. adventures. So, what do you wanna do with me? Best ideas may come to life in the future, be it through story or artwork (or both).

I write a lot of my adventures down. As I write, I sometimes feel like I bare too much. And then comes a point I wonder if I should even share. But what is the point, if you do not share? Why write? For my own enjoyment, as a way to keep the memories fresh?

A lot of my experiences feel very raw, and my writing is raw too. Not a lot of fanciful words and elaborate descriptions, just to the point, as I am.

I enjoy sharing, it's part of the experience for me.. but baring so much makes me feel vulnerable too. Where is the limit? He likes to push my limit, so I suppose the limit moves.. but it is hard to climb back on the ledge after you leap.

*Dances with the curtains* When the dog bites and the bee stings, oh I feel so baaad..

Oh. Uh. You didn't see that. *waves hands* You saw nothing. Nothing at all.

Favorite things. Yes.

Favorite animal:
Dead or alive? Dead? I am quite fond of cow. Medium rare. Alive? Kitties. Kitties are nice.

Favorite color:
I like bold colors, I think they call them jewel tones? I don't really want to pick one. Deep purple *sings Smoke on the water* Shaddap.. seriously. Burgundy. Jade green. That sorta thing.

Favorite store:
This is super lame, but I like Aldi. Aldi has delicious German stuff. And not too much bells and whistles. I do not like bells and whistles.

Favorite food:
Aside from the medium rare cow on my plate.. I love potatoes in all its incarnations. My German is showing, isn't it? I like wurst too *gigglesnorts* Ahem. I'm a lady. *raises her pinky*

Favorite candy:
Chocolate and tropical Starburst.

Favorite snack:
Chips and salted nuts. WHEEEEEE! We're back in the gutter. Wasn't that fun..

Favorite non-alcoholic drink:
Milk? Probably milk. Or some tropical fruit juice blend..

Favorite alcoholic drink:
Good beer. I prefer darker brews, so un-German. Lagers are not my favorite. Also, fruity red wine, like a Rioja. And a good margarita, made with real limes (not that terrible sour mix stuff you get at cheap Mexican places). Buttershots, it's like liquid candy.

Favorite destination:
The Mediterranean. Croatia, Greece, Spain, Italy. <3

I'm running out of ideas here. Ask away! What would you like to know? We're already in the gutter, how bad can this get? ..Never mind, don't answer that. Cue the first person asking "Favorite sex position"..



(all of them. Hah!)