A decline in content views has baffled me. Then, I found out artists, some of them I never met before, have blocked me on Furaffinity and Picarto. No one would reach out to me until an artist friend shared what was happening, and my heart sank in disgust. A known commissioner has been privately messaging her artists transphobic remarks about me. Her Conservative Christian values do not agree with transgenders, so I am being called an abusive man instead of the woman I feel meant to be. I stopped posting because I needed to focus on ways to financially support myself, and Furaffinity clearly cannot be an option anymore. I have plans to move out on my own and proceed with the HRT. This site has been a slowdown from living my dream due to the slander. I entered the furry fandom back in 2008. I want to stay furry, but at times I am pushed out instead.

My primary job has been editing videos for a Health Channel. Unfortunately, it got terminated, so my hours have been cut by approximately 53%. Before the reduced hours, I put all my savings into assets back in January that helped pay one class financial aid did not fully cover. The assets then crashed, so I released more content online and set up a Patreon. Someone from the past started slandering me, which is damaging my ability to collaborate with others. Based on probabilities, I could be looking at -$2,000 in debt in five months, so after I release my 2.5D animation and an epic poem, I may have to relaunch my online business account and gaming channel. I refuse to return to the adult industry side, which is illegal in Texas, United States, punishable up to six months in jail with a Level A misdemeanor. Thankfully, I have a friend that might buy me a professional-grade camera so I can freelance. I am also looking into IT sales consulting as well since I am skilled with computer technology. I still have hope that I can move out finally and potentially make $70,000 this year, but my income is too volatile.

I am not who I used to be. I have changed and promised to shine my peace with the world. Please Surrender your grudge and your anger that you held for so long. You are no enemy, just a spirit in pain; time to wipe away those tears so you can see clearly and experience the love found through the entire universe.

I am working on a new Poem and would like to know a good title for it
https://docs.google.com/forms/d/e/1.....rm?usp=sf_link

My apologies for the lack of posting. I started going to college overtime three semesters ago, giving me very little time to indulge in my content creation. I created a poll to figure out what you all want to see more of.

Content Creation Poll
https://docs.google.com/forms/d/e/1.....rm?usp=sf_link

Thank you so much for your patience and interest.

Today, now 28, many years have gone, and more ahead. Each year has molded my character, unveiling - who I am today. Thank you for taking part in my journey, although some will yearn. Our lives have forced into a new normal as stress intensifies. Not all are here anymore, wishing I could relive the past to experience once more the positive influences. I do endure loss but also passed another year.

Regardless if you have over 1,000 watchers, I do not appreciate anyone just randomly pushing the block button without notice when I showed no signs of being threatening. When the block buttons abused, you hurt your reputation because you will lose your watchers when they found out. Some of them will go to other social media platforms to publically callout. Sometimes the button may have been accidentally pushed; I understand, but having people not deserving of your blocklist shows rotten business practices. You do have the right to decline services, but do it in a peaceful yet understanding manner. I rarely add anyone on my blacklist unless if there was clear destructive behavior because maybe the person was just upset one day. We are not here to drag each other down or abuse each other.

I will no longer be on Facebook after my account was wrongfully terminated for suspecting me from creating fake accounts that violated terms of service. They not only disabled my account, but disabled the appeal option, the account deletion option, and also the download data option. I found their email writing to them that my account should not have been removed over someone else action, and I will be taking legal action if they failed to comply or give at least a valid termination reason. They never responded. To make matters worse, I cannot create another account with the same information because it goes under the verification process before they disable it. The only way now I can be on Facebook is to purchase a secondary phone number and type fake information, but doing so, people would not recognize me anymore. My business page will have to be maintained by a friend while I will be searching for another social media platform where I can manage pages, and communicate with experts to learn more about content creation options. When Google+ existed, I had over 500 followers which were more than any other site, but unfortunately, they shutdown. If you could recommend a social media site, I would gladly appreciate it.

Due to policy changes with Facebook. I no longer have the privileges to post as the page & they dropped my administration title. This means my posts will not show up under the homepage and I cannot add anyone else to help me moderate the page. If you want to see any of my new posts https://www.facebook.com/pg/LupaSpiritDream/posts I have been trying to get this resolved, but I have not been successful in doing so. At least I am able to still post. On my previous page, they locked me out permanently. From my experience, Facebook overly controls there users as if it's the jail of social media. Yes, it's officially called Facebook Jail when they restrict a user, and half the time, the restriction was unjustified. This restriction was triggered because of an unknown location for the page. Why does a fan page need a local address verified in the first place? Each time I try verifying, it just gives me an error message.

I have one more scene to go with ArtikfoxofNC for my 2.5D animation project. I also need to see if my composer is still interested producing music for the project or if I have to make the song myself. Once released, it will be in 4k UHD at 60fps.

"You Can't Use Facebook Right Now We're currently reviewing your submission. We're always looking out for the security of our community, so until then you won't be able to use Facebook."

I won't be able to respond or post on Facebook at the moment
https://www.facebook.com/LupaSpiritDream/

https://discord.gg/gGCuABe
You are welcome to share your work sfw/nsfw, introduce yourself, give artist recommendations or beware, tech-chat, pre-released content, and a vent channel.

Today I turned 27.

I am looking for models or helpers who are willing to take part in my 2.5D animation titled REMEMBER! This is a group collaboration project. If you know anyone who is interested, please let them know. Anyone who participates will get credited and tagged.

https://docs.google.com/document/d/.....it?usp=sharing

Who's currently on the list.
Svetlana SnowPaw, Alexandra, Lakkari, ϟ 尺αîкυ Šｲαrsｲørm ϟ, AshleeBane

What is a 2.5D animation?
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=GZimVBFSGm0

We should be allowed to voice our honest concerns and criticism for any freelancer even if that comes out as negative. Please understand, there are no perfect freelancers. There is always room for improvements for us all. I just cannot remain saddened over an issue so unreasonable; therefore, I am writing my concerns. If you may know, I have chosen to unwatched an artist who went by forbidden. I am not saying the artist is horrible, but I feel there is no need to watch an artist who has me blocked without any reason nor have we argued. I am willing to resolve whatever issue there may be if there are any, but in the meantime, I remain unfollowed until then. For the other’s, if you would like to collaborate, please send me a message because I am willing to help each other out. I choose not to poison my heart with hatred, but instead, love. Remember, when there is life, there is love.

It is in my spiritual nature to unconditionally love even the most unlovable. As I grow from life’s lesions, the more effort I can apply in a moment of hurt. For those who may be wondering, I've lost a dear friend two night, in spite of that - another friend that got to know how wonderful of a person I am. Yesterday, an artist I followed randomly blocked me. I feel as if I am reminded to create my next poem REMEMBER! About how I came to existence and what is my purpose in life. Then what came to my mind, make the poem 2.5D animated to make the story more motivated. All I can do is thank the Gods above for giving me a chance to live, so I can share the love so many are missing.

My neighbor Nickolas Bosch was murdered at thirty oaks apartment Thursday night around 11:30 PM by a security guard after a confrontation occurred over pool hours. The security guard kept aggravating him which lead into a fight before the security guard lost his temper and fired three shots into Nickolas back which traveled through his lunges in front of his children which caused him to suffocate to death. The shooter fled the scene but was not immediately arrested, but yesterday during the continuous investigation he was finally arrested. Today was the plan for the family now without a husband/father to move to California but the plans have changed. The wife has set up a fundraiser

https://www.facebook.com/donate/260.....1864349417159/

If you want to read the news articles about this.

https://www.mysanantonio.com/news/l.....s-13110007.php

I will be offering services with my photography, video production, documentation designing, and audio editing. Generally, I was only focusing on my poetry and dream interpretations, but I feel a need to expand outside of those offers. You can find the new services here:

https://drive.google.com/file/d/1AD.....ew?usp=sharing

Thank you all so much for the donations, trades, and commissions this spring 2018. These days, it sure has been laborious to stay motivated and patient. I will be releasing content in the following:
📷Lupaspirit at the beach 3D image (Mature Content)
🎥Who Am I: video.
📝How I became a poet.
📝Dream Diary commission.
💟Lupaspirit spiritual awakening: illustration trade.

If you may have been aware, I am in college, but my financial assistance happens to dispute the money, so now I need to apply for another financial assistance. I was also declined funding to get a new laptop, even though mine is too outdated to support the software they will be using. To make matters worse, I owe approximately 83% of my monthly income to debt payments. Another thing, if you noticed the callouts, they are trying to ruin my reputation, and destroy me as a person; however, these spiritually broken haters have failed, since this month I am on the rise.

Thank you remaining followers for staying faithful to this content creator! I am pleased to know that I am not the only one who finds the effort I put in worthwhile. Lately, the work from my poetry, photography, dream interpretations and video production have been populating. I am trying to expand to all social sites, and collaborate/trade with fellow creators. -You will see more of my character Lupa, and my novel will be continuing in development! If you have any doubts, there are several artists and friend who would give me a recommendation. I understand there are callouts, beware, and rumors about me, sometimes by your friends in which want me without company. I will refuse to hate them in return; instead, I shall pray for my enemies. When I am ready, a video I will be posting on who I am once complete.

I have just been informed my God Mother Heather Visage/Boxen has died from cancer. She will be leaving behind two children for her adopted brother to take care of...

Just recently I discovered someone contacting my watchers to make slanderous remarks on their posts and/or profile shouts. The accusation has nothing to do with Fur-Affinity rather Second-Life! The post implies I am stupid, deceptive and untruthful and needed to be dealt with. He also stated there is a long report filed against my Second-Life account from a virtual strip club. However, Second-Life had me verify for a business account so I can receive larger transactions instead of getting banned. In other words, he chose to believe in a rumor from the Second-Life Strip-Club and started to spread the accusations to destroy my reputation.

Poetry and Dream Interpretations on Hold – Filing For Bankruptcy.
I will not be spending much time on my poetry and dream interpretations now because of financial drought. I am now with -$3,150 and need to prioritize my time with skills carrying better profits. Last year I dropped my escort agency where I was making $200 per month then my physical job places me down to 1 day per week causing debt to build up before letting me go. I was hired on YouTube for $9 per hour however the hours are limited, then I was robbed $400. I then have been approved to make money on my personal YouTube channel but only made $0.04 this past two weeks.

I was hoping maybe I could get commissions through my poetry and dream interpretations to help pay off this debt but so far this year I made $0.00 with that as a result I have decided to limit my hours with poetry and focus more on income worthy work. There will be drastic changes being made. I have also been approved to work on a livestreaming site and see whatever pays the best.

<Priority List>
1# find a better physical job.
2# work on YouTube.
3# Escort Agency.
4# personal youtube/livestreaming work
5# Poetry & Dream interpretations

↓Click Link below to See Prizes Offered↓
https://drive.google.com/open?id=0B.....mhWUVl5TmJhc1E
I have finally reached 100 watchers after taking 15 months with 27 posts so I have decided to do a Giveaway. How you win;
1st Comment wins: Free advertising service, Yiff Video, or POEM.
2nd Comment wins: poem or Dream interpretations.
3rd comment wins: Poem.
4th comment: Poem 50% off.
5th comment: Dream interpretation 50% off.

Terms of Service;
1. If you comment but decline the offer the offer will not be passed down to the next commenter.
2. Once you win please write a good description of what you would like.
3. If you win the Project may take 2-3 weeks to complete, please be patient.
4. If you would like to donate https://www.paypal.me/lupaspirit