My queue to let those who have commissioned me know the progress of their art. This will be updated often. If you have any questions about the progress of your commissions, send me a note and I'll get back to you as soon as I can.


Last updated: Sunday, August 3, 2014 3:57 PM EST



Phantomfoxx: 3 full colored pictures

1: Ryan Steller (Trivium edition)
Progress: Sketching

2: Phantom (Disturbed edition)
Progress: Not started

3: Ryan Steller (normal)
Progress: Not started



demonic-zane: 5 full colored pictures

1 and 2: Micro Light with Luska
Progress: Not started

3: Emily and Fiona
Progress: Not started

4: Micro Light with Emily
Progress: Not started

5: Micro Light with Fiona
Progress: Not started

Shit has happened. Will not have access to my laptop for a while. I'll try to work on things while I'm gone. Sorry guys :c Love you.

And for you all to get to know me a little better.

About Me
[x] I am shorter than 5'4.
[x] I think I'm ugly.
[x] I have many scars.
[ ] I tan easily. (I have two shade of skin, white and lobster red x.x no tan...)
[x] I wish my hair was a different colour (I miss my teal Q~Q)
[x] I have friends who have never seen my natural hair colour.
[ ] I have a tattoo.
[x] I am self-conscious about my appearance
[ ] I have/I've had braces.
[ ] I wear glasses. (but I should...)
[ ] I would get plastic surgery if it were 100% safe, free of cost, and scar-free
[x] I've been told I'm attractive by a complete stranger.
[ ] I have more than 2 piercings.
[ ] I have piercings in places besides my ears.
[x] I have freckles. (only a few, and they are in random places)

Family/Home Life
[x] I've sworn at my parents
[x] I've run away from home.
[x] I've been kicked out of the house.(Not my family's house, but friends')
[ ] My biological parents are together.
[ ] I have a sibling less than one year old.
[x] I want to have kids someday. (at least 2, boy first then girl)
[ ] I've had children.
[ ] I've lost a child.

School/Work
[ ] I'm in school.
[x] I have a job (if you count my art as one)
[x] I've fallen asleep at work/school
[ ] I almost always do my homework.
[x] I've missed a week or more of school.
[ ] I've been on the Honor Roll within the last 2 years.
[ ] I failed more than 1 class last year.
[x] I've stolen something from my job. (pens and some food because it was McDonald's and no one cared haha)
[ ] I've been fired.
[x] I've skipped school

Embarrassment
[x] I've slipped out a "lol" in a spoken conversation.
[x] Disney movies still make me cry
[ ] I've peed from laughing.
[x] I've snorted while laughing.
[x] I've laughed so hard I've cried
[x] I've glued my hand to something.
[ ] I've laughed till some kind of beverage came out of my nose
[ ] I've had my pants rip in public.

Health
[x] I was born with a disease/impairment. (depression, anxiety, and I may have bi-polar disorder)
[ ] I've gotten stitches.
[ ] I've broken a bone.
[ ] I've had my tonsils removed.
[x] I've sat in a doctors office with a friend.
[ ] I've had my wisdom teeth removed.
[ ] I had a serious surgery.
[ ] I've had chicken pox.

Traveling
[x] I've ridden over 200 miles in one day
[ ] I've been on a plane.
[ ] I've been to Canada
[ ] I've been to Mexico.
[ ] I've been to Niagara Falls.
[ ] I've been to Japan.
[ ] I've celebrated Mardi Gras in New Orleans.
[ ] I've been to Europe
[ ] I've been to Africa.
[ ] I've been to Asia.

Experiences
[x] I've gotten lost in my city
[x] I've seen a shooting star.
[x] I've wished on a shooting star
[x] I've seen a meteor shower.
[x] I've gone out in public in my pajamas
[x] I've pushed all the buttons on an elevator.
[x] I've kicked a guy where it hurts (this was an accident!! I really didn't mean to XD)
[ ] I've been to a casino
[x] I've been an abuse victim (once physically, countless times emotionally)
[ ] I've gone skinny dipping.
[x] I've played spin the bottle
[ ] I've drank a whole gallon of milk in one hour
[ ] I've crashed a car
[ ] I've been skiing.
[x] I've been in a play (I was a techie, so no one saw me but I was there!)
[ ] I've seen the Northern Lights.
[x] I've sat on a roof top at night
[x] I've played chicken. (on bikes, it wasn't fun because we crashed XD)
[x] I've played a prank on someone
[x] I've ridden in a taxi.
[x] I've seen the Rocky Horror Picture Show (both on DVD and gone to the show. The show was soo fun!)
[x] I've eaten sushi. (I don't like it...)
[ ] I've been snowboarding.

Relationships
[ ] I've had someone cheat on me.
[ ] I've gone on a blind date.
[ ] I've been the dumped more than the dumper.
[x] I miss someone right now.
[x] I have a fear of commitment
[x] I have a fear of abandonment
[x] I've cheated in a relationship. (It's a long, complicated story and I deeply regret it. Never again will that ever happen)
[x] I've had feelings for someone who didn't have them back. (still scared because I deeply loved him and he used me)
[x] I've told someone I loved them when I didn't.
[x] I've told someone I didn't love them when I did.
[x] I've kept something from a past relationship.

Sexuality
[x] I've had a crush on a teacher.
[x] I love to flirt. (It's fun, but sometimes I don't realize I'm doing it)
[ ] I've been kissed in the rain.
[x] I've hugged a stranger
[ ] I have kissed a stranger.

Honesty/Crime
[ ] I am a terrible liar.
[x] I've done something I promised someone else I wouldn't
[x] I've done something I promised myself I wouldn't
[x] I've snuck out of my house.
[x] I have lied to my parents about where I am
[x] I am keeping a secret from the world.
[x] I've cheated while playing a game.
[x] I've run a red light. (It was an accident! I was looking at the wrong light >w<)
[ ] I've been suspended from school.
[ ] I've witnessed a crime.
[ ] I've been in a fist fight.
[ ] I've been arrested.
[x] I've shoplifted. (I was a stupid teen that wanted to do what her friend's were...)

Drugs/Alcohol
[x] I've consumed alcohol.
[ ] I regularly drink.
[ ] I've passed out from drinking.
[ ] I have passed out drunk at least once in the past 6 months.
[x] I've smoked weed.
[x] I've taken painkillers when I didn't need them.
[x] I'm a stoner. (not hardcore, but when I wanna relax with my roomies it's nice)
[ ] I've snorted cocaine.
[ ] I've eaten shrooms.
[ ] I've popped E.
[ ] I've inhaled Nitrous.
[ ] I've done hard drugs.
[x] I have cough drops when I'm not sick. (It's a special brand and they taste like a cherry lollipop)
[ ] I can't swallow pills.
[ ] I can swallow about 5 pills at a time no problem
[x] I have been diagnosed with clinical depression.
[x] I shut others out when I'm depressed
[ ] I take anti-depressants. (I use to, and they changed me in ways I didn't like)
[x] I've slept an entire day when I didn't need it
[x] I've hurt myself on purpose
[x] I'm addicted to self harm. (I will forever be an addict. But it's mind over matter. I've gotten a lot better)
[x] I've woken up crying.
[x] I've cried myself to sleep.
[x] I've seen a therapist
[x] I've been told to see one by more than 3 people

Death and Suicide
[ ] I'm afraid of dying (I am afraid of what my death will bring to my loved ones)
[x] I hate funerals.
[x] I've seen someone dying
[x] Someone close to me has attempted suicide
[ ] Someone close to me has committed suicide
[x] I've planned my own suicide
[x] I've attempted suicide.
[x] I've written a eulogy for myself.

Materialism
[x] I own over 5 rap CDs (All digital, and all amazing rap <3)
[ ] I own an iPod or MP3 player. (ex's brother stole it and sold it >.>)
[x] I have an unhealthy obsession with anime/manga.
[ ] I own multiple designer purses, costing over $100 a piece.
[ ] I own something from topman
[ ] I own something from river island
[ ] I collect MANGA.
[ ] I own something from Binns
[ ] I own something I got on e-bay.
[ ] I own something from Abercrombie
[ ] I own something from Hollister Co

Political/Social Attitudes
[x] In general, I don't like people.
[ ] I'm a feminist.
[ ] I'm outgoing.
[ ] I listen to political music.
[ ] I'm Democratic.
[ ] I'm Republican.
[ ] I'm liberal.
[ ] I am religious.
[ ] I dress fairly modestly (I sometimes wear really low shirts, but that's it)
[ ] My attitude is, "If you've got it, flaunt it."

Random
[x] I can sing well (or so everyone has told me >.> I don't really believe them)
[ ] I've stolen a tray from a fast food restaurant.
[x] I open up to others easily (Probably too easily...)
[x] I watch the news. (I rather read and listen to it)
[ ] I don't kill bugs.
[x] I hate hearing songs that sacrifice meaning for the sake of being able to rhyme.
[x] I curse regularly.
[x] I sing in the shower
[ ] I am a morning person.
[ ] I paid for my cell phone ringtone.
[x] I'm a snob about grammar (Very much so)
[ ] I am a sports fanatic.
[x] I twirl my hair.
[x] I love being neat.
[ ] I'm too lazy to bother being neat.
[ ] I love Spam
[ ] I've copied more than 30 CD's in a day
[x] I bake well. (one of my favorite hobbies)
[ ] My favorite color is either white, yellow, pink, red or blue
[x] I would wear pajamas to school
[ ] I like Martha Stewart.
[x] I know how to shoot a gun
[ ] I am in love with love.
[ ] I am guilty of tYpInG lIkE tHiS.
[x] I laugh at my own jokes
[x] I eat fast food weekly (I'm poor so I gotta get that dollar menu....)
[x] I believe in ghosts.
[x] I am online 24/7, even as an away message.
[x] I've not turned anything in and still got an A in a certain class.
[x] I can't sleep if there is a spider in the room.
[x] I am really ticklish (like it's ridiculous how ticklish I am... I also squeak..)
[x] I love white chocolate
[ ] I bite my nails. (I can't stand short nails...)
[x] I play video games.
[x] I'm good at remembering faces
[ ] I'm good at remembering names
[ ] I'm good at remembering dates. (This is why History was my worst subject)
[ ] I have no idea what I want to do for the rest of my life (I want to be a cosmetologist)

/Rant
A part of me, deep down inside in the darkest depths of my mind, wishes I could go insane. Wishes I could do things that would put me in the "funny farm" where I'd get nice doctors giving me lots of pills to correct my tendencies. But I haven't snapped yet. I don't think I ever will. But still in those secret rooms of my mind I usually keep hidden under lock and key, I wish... I wish to just let go sometimes. I wish to not have to put on this fake mask. But I know that's just the monster of my depression talking. He's chained up inside me, and although the links are rusted, they will forever hold. I'll never let him free for once his damage has been done, it'll be me bearing the consequences.

I'm sorry for showing a little more of my dark side on here. It's just been one thing after another for me though, and it's pushing me so far... I'll never let myself get to a point of no return, but there were moments, especially the past week, that I have wished to let it all go. And I needed to get it off my chest without being judged. At least to my face...

Sorry guys. furstre.am was being glitchy. Trying join.me

Currently working on: commission

Up next: pwyw/pwyc in stream commissions, possible freebie raffle, personal art

https://join.me/273-807-874

seeing if this will work better

Rules~
1. Treat other's how you want to be treated. Seriously, don't be rude.
2. Don't talk about freebies. I will hold the raffle if/when I see fit. Pestering me about it makes me want to draw free things less often.
3. Please watch me if you want a freebie. It's free. Would like a little appreciation in return.
4. Do not watch and run just for free art. It discourages me and makes me feel used. If you like my art enough to want something for free, at least continue to watch me. I like rewarding my watchers.
5. Role playing is okay so long as it's appropriate. Keep it PG-13.
6. Ask before linking. I will usually have no problems with it. Just keep it appropriate and no advertising.
7. Have fun ♥

I'm in a really bad place right now... Roommate forced me into a panic attack. Kept trying to hug me while I was severely worked up over the continuing arguments he's been bringing up for the past 30 hours while I was telling him, then screaming at him to not touch me. And now I'm sitting here alone shaking and crying and completely numb. My other roommates are all asleep and the one that caused all this is out driving only God knows where... My emotions have run away leaving only the numbing darkness.

New icon by the wonderful  zeliv

Buckets!!! :D

That is all...

Sparkle sparkle...

Update for you all. I'm still in desperate need of money. Our power was out for over 24 hours and our roommate put it on her credit card. But now I have to help her pay back my portion. And also, I need more rent money since companies around here hate me and don't want to hire me >.> Wouldn't hurt to have some food as well since I'm currently living off of some crackers, flat ginger ale, and on occasion dollar menu q.q So think about commissioning me! Also spreading the word would be nice. Still figuring out the whole stream thing x.x

Prices: http://www.furaffinity.net/view/11544145/
TOS: http://www.furaffinity.net/journal/4946653/

Also, bought a new tablet the other day. Got it from Best Buy and it's a Wacom Intuos (basically bamboo). It was working fine after some tweaking until like an hour ago. Now the pen pressure doesn't wanna work, and sometimes it doesn't wanna respond at all. I installed the latest driver from the wacom site, so it's not that. Any help would be nice.

Firstly, I wanted to thank all the new watchers I have recently acquired. I have no idea how you found me, but I'm glad you've joined my list of watchers all the same ^.^ So welcome to the randomness that is Luska!

Secondly, a bit of mixed news. I had to sell my 3DS and some of my games (I kept my Pokemon X because I worked too hard on it). It was sad to have to sell it, but with the money, I have bought a new tablet! I can finally draw again! Which makes things so much better for me. You have no idea. This also means that COMMISSIONS ARE OPEN!!! Yup. I have one WAY overdue art trade I am going to finish and will probably try to figure out how to stream. Will be finishing that in stream and possibly some freebies to get back into the swing of things. But after that, I'll be taking commissions, so check out my work and prices ;D

And I believe that's it for now. So yea. Expect to see lots of art from me ^.^ Might be uploading some colored free linearts just to get the feel of this tablet, but after that, I'll be posting my own stuff. So say tuned!

Sincerely with love ♥

So umm... Just realized how long I've been away... o.o I'm so sorry to everyone that watches me and all my friends on here that I've left in the dark. I feel terrible for leaving so suddenly. Life just kind of tackled me from my blind side.

Many bad things have happened in my life, but I won't bore you with details. The only thing that might affect you all is that my tablet pen broke. Which is partly why I disappeared for so long. I haven't been able to draw in months and it's really gotten to me. I'm trying my best to either replace my tablet pen or get a new tablet all together. Hopefully soon so I can start doing amazing pictures for all of you. Maybe hold a raffle or something.

For the off chance that you all would like to donate the funds for me to get a new pen or tablet, I will be doing free art for you. The amount and quality of the art will depend on how much you donate.

As for everyone that I owe art to, either art trades or just free gifts I was working on, your works will be completed first before any of the donation freebies are done. I know it's been a very long time and I feel just awful about it all. I hope you can forgive me.

Oh, and because of the length of time I was away I will probably be clearing everything out of my messages to start fresh (I have over 12000 messages x.x).

So I guess that's it. If anyone of my old friends feels up for talking, just let me know. I've really missed everyone lol.

So, first I'd like to apologize for not being active at all lately. Due to my life falling to pieces I've been trying to at least stay out of the house and keep my mind off of things. I do plan to return soon, I promise. Love you all and thank you for being patient with me as I sort out this mess.