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[URGENT] ot scammed and ended up having nothing on my wallet
Posted 5 days agoHi sunshines. You've probably forgot even who I am because im a depressed piece of shit and I draw and post so rarely that it's easy to forget me.
Long story short: I got scammed by some moron and lost basically all money I had, around ~2500USDT that now simply can't be returned because it's crypto. Now I have like 40 bucks left on my bank card and it's basically nothing.
I feel devastated and desperate that I got scammed like a stupid baby and it just makes me wail and wail ans it doesn't seem to end. I planned getting a puppy, i choose a good breeder, I bought the toys, I bought diapers sheets, I bought and planned *everything* for his birth in November and homecoming in January and now this dream is just ruined. And so am I.
At this point, when I'm not even able to do anything except bedrotting, I just wanna step out of the window.
I plan making some cheap YCH sketches with maybe flat color, maybe cell shading, but I don't know if anyone would be interested. Because no one seems to be interested in 'folder of the unwanted' even though one of them is hanging there for two literal years. Maybe you will tell me in the comments what kind of stuff I should do that may please you. I dont know.
As for myself- I don't want to communicate with crypto ANYHOW at this point and will be searching for a new way of receiving money. Suggestions are very welcome too, as well as some donates, - not begging or anything but you can support me via boosty
thank you for reading this post of shit ans vent, I just feel so fucking empty and helpless
Long story short: I got scammed by some moron and lost basically all money I had, around ~2500USDT that now simply can't be returned because it's crypto. Now I have like 40 bucks left on my bank card and it's basically nothing.
I feel devastated and desperate that I got scammed like a stupid baby and it just makes me wail and wail ans it doesn't seem to end. I planned getting a puppy, i choose a good breeder, I bought the toys, I bought diapers sheets, I bought and planned *everything* for his birth in November and homecoming in January and now this dream is just ruined. And so am I.
At this point, when I'm not even able to do anything except bedrotting, I just wanna step out of the window.
I plan making some cheap YCH sketches with maybe flat color, maybe cell shading, but I don't know if anyone would be interested. Because no one seems to be interested in 'folder of the unwanted' even though one of them is hanging there for two literal years. Maybe you will tell me in the comments what kind of stuff I should do that may please you. I dont know.
As for myself- I don't want to communicate with crypto ANYHOW at this point and will be searching for a new way of receiving money. Suggestions are very welcome too, as well as some donates, - not begging or anything but you can support me via boosty
thank you for reading this post of shit ans vent, I just feel so fucking empty and helpless
a collab needs your bids ♥
Posted 2 months agofriend help ♥
Posted 3 months agofriend help ♥
Posted 4 months agowhile I'm not really able to work(which I am *deeply* sorry about, dealing with mental stuff and overall health), Kurami3 dropped a cute YCH which I'd like to share, maybe it will catch someone's eye ^^
https://www.furaffinity.net/view/61164893/
https://www.furaffinity.net/view/61164893/
Available YCH folder
Posted 5 months agojust a friendly reminder, I have this ☆folder of the unwanted☆, maybe one will catch your eye ;w;
https://www.furaffinity.net/gallery...../Available-YCH
https://www.furaffinity.net/gallery...../Available-YCH
my friend needs some help ;w;
Posted 6 months agorrrs is in a tough situation, you can read a journal here, any support will be appreciated - - https://www.furaffinity.net/journal/11116563/
by the way we have a collab which went without getting attention, so if you take a look - I'd be glad ;w;
https://www.furaffinity.net/view/55630025
by the way we have a collab which went without getting attention, so if you take a look - I'd be glad ;w;
https://www.furaffinity.net/view/55630025
a raffle ♥
Posted 7 months agoMy friend ReneBruni is hosting a raffle!
https://www.furaffinity.net/view/60133396/
https://www.furaffinity.net/view/60133396/
https://www.furaffinity.net/view/60133396/
https://www.furaffinity.net/view/60133396/
https://www.furaffinity.net/view/60133396/
https://www.furaffinity.net/view/60133396/
hb
Posted 9 months agoturning 26 today, a (not so) happy birthday to me, I guess ;w;
He didn't make it.
Posted a year agoAustin's tiny heart stopped.
Mri results
Posted a year agoBriefly, I'm horrified
Me and my doggo Austin(he turned 9 yesterday tho) traveled to an another city to perform an MRI scan to find out what was bothering him(he couldn't open his mouth wide without crying). Turns out to be, his both ears have terrible state of middle otitis, which is why he's hurt. To treat it:
1) we two have gto stay in st.petersburg for a month or so
2) I can't really make money there because I don't have a any kind of computer in this flat we rent
3) one of his ear canals should be removed
4) the other canal should be cleaned properly
5) we have to do it _NOW_, we just can't lose more time at this point
So, I need around 1500-2000$
Currently it's night time and we're sitting in the vet(spent the whole day here) waiting for a CT scan and a consultation with an another vet. I'm crying non-stop even here, in this crowded place.
This is a pure hell, I don't know why am I even texting this, I'm sorry for this vent all the time, I don't know where to get money at this point
But in case If you want to help, my boosty is https://boosty.to/ceph.elle
It doesn't allow PayPal anymore so I have no hopes
Thanks for reading/sharing this, I appreciate you
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[UPD 02:58] a couple of hours later: his tiny heart stopped working during ear cleaning, they're trying to reanimate him currently
[UPD 03:23] he didn't make it.
Me and my doggo Austin(he turned 9 yesterday tho) traveled to an another city to perform an MRI scan to find out what was bothering him(he couldn't open his mouth wide without crying). Turns out to be, his both ears have terrible state of middle otitis, which is why he's hurt. To treat it:
1) we two have gto stay in st.petersburg for a month or so
2) I can't really make money there because I don't have a any kind of computer in this flat we rent
3) one of his ear canals should be removed
4) the other canal should be cleaned properly
5) we have to do it _NOW_, we just can't lose more time at this point
So, I need around 1500-2000$
Currently it's night time and we're sitting in the vet(spent the whole day here) waiting for a CT scan and a consultation with an another vet. I'm crying non-stop even here, in this crowded place.
This is a pure hell, I don't know why am I even texting this, I'm sorry for this vent all the time, I don't know where to get money at this point
But in case If you want to help, my boosty is https://boosty.to/ceph.elle
It doesn't allow PayPal anymore so I have no hopes
Thanks for reading/sharing this, I appreciate you
_
[UPD 02:58] a couple of hours later: his tiny heart stopped working during ear cleaning, they're trying to reanimate him currently
[UPD 03:23] he didn't make it.
forced trip
Posted a year agoguess that this world is testing the limits and there's one shit going right after another in my life, - my doggo feels bad and we have to make an MRI scan of his ear and spine, which sadly can be done only in a couple of cities in this freaking country, so i'll be taking a small undesired trip to an another city which will cost me.... much, for real
take care of yourself and your pets please
i hope we'll get through this...
take care of yourself and your pets please
i hope we'll get through this...
emergency collab
Posted a year agoupd
Posted a year agoa little update to the journal that I wrote there - - https://www.furaffinity.net/journal/10864923/
we were at the vet today again, and unfortunately for both of us, my precious floof does need a fho surgery
which costs about ~1200$ which I currently don't have
so if you want to help a bit - https://boosty.to/ceph.elle
thanks.
we were at the vet today again, and unfortunately for both of us, my precious floof does need a fho surgery
which costs about ~1200$ which I currently don't have
so if you want to help a bit - https://boosty.to/ceph.elle
thanks.
going abcent for a while
Posted a year agoi'll be brief: i'm stuck at the vet clinics with my doggo Austin almost on daily basis.
a pic of my tiny hero
The good part: his stomach is better.
The bad part: his liver isn't.
The second bad part: yesterday he somehow dislocated his hip joint and can't use one of his hind legs almost at all(currently waiting for the vet to work, because we live in a small city and finding a vet that can help with this stuff is a huge problem)
The third bad part: vets charge absurd amounts which I'm not even sure that I can handle
as the result, i feel literally miserable. We fix one issue and then the other pops out of nowhere, taking my last money and nerve cells. I've never felt that tired in my life, I swear. Can't even force myself to eat anything at this point, not even speaking about doing any art. He's all I have and I can't think about anything else now.
thank you for reading that freaking text
go hug and kiss your pets if you have any
in case you want to help, you can make a donation through my boosty, any sum would be appreciated - - https://boosty.to/ceph.elle
a pic of my tiny hero
The good part: his stomach is better.
The bad part: his liver isn't.
The second bad part: yesterday he somehow dislocated his hip joint and can't use one of his hind legs almost at all(currently waiting for the vet to work, because we live in a small city and finding a vet that can help with this stuff is a huge problem)
The third bad part: vets charge absurd amounts which I'm not even sure that I can handle
as the result, i feel literally miserable. We fix one issue and then the other pops out of nowhere, taking my last money and nerve cells. I've never felt that tired in my life, I swear. Can't even force myself to eat anything at this point, not even speaking about doing any art. He's all I have and I can't think about anything else now.
thank you for reading that freaking text
go hug and kiss your pets if you have any
in case you want to help, you can make a donation through my boosty, any sum would be appreciated - - https://boosty.to/ceph.elle
shitpost
Posted a year agoHey there. It’s been quite a while since I’ve made a new journal lmao
This one will be a (not-so) small shitpost.
For some context: I draw because I like drawing.
Had to think, think for quite a long time about my constant experiments with my drawing style, different fanarts and themes, like, sexy girls? A huge yes. Fanarts? Triple yes! A random style experiment? – I’m down for anything. Maybe one day I’ll go try to imitate renaissance artists’ style, who knows, lmao. Because it’s fun! And I love doing fun things!
Or maybe it was fun. Because for last couple of months it does make me feel insecure. On one hand: it’s a nice skill to adapt&mimic anything, it’s a nice feature(or so I thought), plus who is going to make me content if I don’t? – and on the other? On the other hand it is that I’m texting this because it literally made me tear up: my galleries look like a total mess of everything at once(which I haven’t seen from other artists for ages), my watchers(new, especially) don’t know what to expect, and hey, why would anyone want to look at your random hyperfixations, people did not subscribe for this(so please shut the fuck up and keep your shit to yourself).
What the literal fuck am I? Am I even worth anything? Does anyone even want to look at the things I do? Why do I keep doing it?
I feel like I’m a nuisance who’s boring everyone. I feel like I force people to look at something that they’re not interested in. I feel that no one really wants this and there’s no point in posting anything except commissions, that I should keep my shit to myself only(and I already have literal tons of things I drew within these years which aren’t even posted anywhere). Well, here’s reality: I’d like to make money with my favorite activity. With my art. Bc everyone needs money – everyone heard that story, I don’t want to repeat it all over again. But to make money with your art you should have a distinct art style to be recognized. To be a brand.
And… yea, I fucked up completely.
Well, there is a solution: to keep several accounts(I’ve seen people doing this) for different submissions, but I simply don’t want to go that way, for me it’s uncomfortable. But if I leave it as it is – read the article above again. Briefly, - don’t have an idea about what to do or where to go with my style and all. Plus, for me it feels kinda wrong to feel guilty and keep quiet about the things that I like: it’s a huge part of me, after all! I love those things with my whole heart, I treasure them! So maybe if I can’t sit on two chairs, I can lay down on three, who knows. Maybe it’s not that bad. Anyways, just ignore this post, I only wanted to speak out a bit. But if you read it anyways – thank you. I appreciate it.
I wish I was more stable and it didn’t bother neither me nor any of my watchers.
This one will be a (not-so) small shitpost.
For some context: I draw because I like drawing.
Had to think, think for quite a long time about my constant experiments with my drawing style, different fanarts and themes, like, sexy girls? A huge yes. Fanarts? Triple yes! A random style experiment? – I’m down for anything. Maybe one day I’ll go try to imitate renaissance artists’ style, who knows, lmao. Because it’s fun! And I love doing fun things!
Or maybe it was fun. Because for last couple of months it does make me feel insecure. On one hand: it’s a nice skill to adapt&mimic anything, it’s a nice feature(or so I thought), plus who is going to make me content if I don’t? – and on the other? On the other hand it is that I’m texting this because it literally made me tear up: my galleries look like a total mess of everything at once(which I haven’t seen from other artists for ages), my watchers(new, especially) don’t know what to expect, and hey, why would anyone want to look at your random hyperfixations, people did not subscribe for this(so please shut the fuck up and keep your shit to yourself).
What the literal fuck am I? Am I even worth anything? Does anyone even want to look at the things I do? Why do I keep doing it?
I feel like I’m a nuisance who’s boring everyone. I feel like I force people to look at something that they’re not interested in. I feel that no one really wants this and there’s no point in posting anything except commissions, that I should keep my shit to myself only(and I already have literal tons of things I drew within these years which aren’t even posted anywhere). Well, here’s reality: I’d like to make money with my favorite activity. With my art. Bc everyone needs money – everyone heard that story, I don’t want to repeat it all over again. But to make money with your art you should have a distinct art style to be recognized. To be a brand.
And… yea, I fucked up completely.
Well, there is a solution: to keep several accounts(I’ve seen people doing this) for different submissions, but I simply don’t want to go that way, for me it’s uncomfortable. But if I leave it as it is – read the article above again. Briefly, - don’t have an idea about what to do or where to go with my style and all. Plus, for me it feels kinda wrong to feel guilty and keep quiet about the things that I like: it’s a huge part of me, after all! I love those things with my whole heart, I treasure them! So maybe if I can’t sit on two chairs, I can lay down on three, who knows. Maybe it’s not that bad. Anyways, just ignore this post, I only wanted to speak out a bit. But if you read it anyways – thank you. I appreciate it.
I wish I was more stable and it didn’t bother neither me nor any of my watchers.
need help (again lmao)
Posted a year agoLong story short: my doggo Austin has cholecystitis and we need to treat it(which is expensive), my old phone is dying and I have to buy a new one somehow(which is expensive x2), plus I have to buy foods for both of us to live
Not forcing you into anything, but if you wish to help - you can make a donation through my boosty( https://boosty.to/ceph.elle ), any sum will be appreciated. Thanks for understanding and even reading my bullshit.
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AVAILABLE YCH
Not forcing you into anything, but if you wish to help - you can make a donation through my boosty( https://boosty.to/ceph.elle ), any sum will be appreciated. Thanks for understanding and even reading my bullshit.
_
AVAILABLE YCH
upd
Posted 2 years agoGot lost from the social media for the last month, was busy with taking my dogger to the vet tons of times(he's fine now by the way) and had zero time to draw
Guess that now it's time to get to work, will finish the remained YCH pieces as soon as possible ;w;
upd: broke my fucking leg... sigh
Guess that now it's time to get to work, will finish the remained YCH pieces as soon as possible ;w;
upd: broke my fucking leg... sigh
[need help]
Posted 2 years agoI'll be brief: found a weird tumor on Austin's(that's my doggo, he's 7 yr old) chest. We have to go to vet soon but this is crazy expensive and I'm a bit afraid that I won't be able to afford all the needed examinations.
if you want to help-- you can make a donation through my boosty, here's the link - https://boosty.to/ceph.elle
I never insist, so it's all up to you. I hate public whining but I lost my previous dog under similar circumstances. I was a 10yr old kid and couldn't really do anything about it, but still after all these years I remember very well how this shit felt, so now i'm literally scared to death.
I don't want to lose Austin. At that moment he is all I have.
if you want to help-- you can make a donation through my boosty, here's the link - https://boosty.to/ceph.elle
I never insist, so it's all up to you. I hate public whining but I lost my previous dog under similar circumstances. I was a 10yr old kid and couldn't really do anything about it, but still after all these years I remember very well how this shit felt, so now i'm literally scared to death.
I don't want to lose Austin. At that moment he is all I have.
hb
Posted 3 years agowell happy birthday to me, turned 24 today ;w;
still not dead somehow lmao
UPD: omg, somebody actually reads these! Thank you so much, I love you uwu
still not dead somehow lmao
UPD: omg, somebody actually reads these! Thank you so much, I love you uwu
Happy New year! ♥
Posted 3 years agoWe've made it this far ;w; Hopefully 2023 will be better.
Happy new year, comrades.
Happy new year, comrades.
Badly injured, a week off
Posted 3 years ago[TW]
By some weird accident I plunged a screwdriver into my palm and almost pierced it through... and, well, now it hurts af and I need time to heal, so no updates for this week ;w;
Please, pleeease observe safety precautions and don't be like me.
UPD: after reading all of your stories in comments I can only say - omfg guys please take care of yourself! I love you all ;w;
By some weird accident I plunged a screwdriver into my palm and almost pierced it through... and, well, now it hurts af and I need time to heal, so no updates for this week ;w;
Please, pleeease observe safety precautions and don't be like me.
UPD: after reading all of your stories in comments I can only say - omfg guys please take care of yourself! I love you all ;w;
Boosty
Posted 3 years agoMkay, as we no longer have Paypal in my country(by the way, fuck war), I've created Boosty. Now I will receive payments through it.
I am still burned out as heck, treating my doggo's gastritis for about a year(and only now after 4 different vets and tons of medicines we've got some positive dynamics), so I will appreciate if you consider to make a donation and support us.
https://boosty.to/ceph.elle
I love you all.
I am still burned out as heck, treating my doggo's gastritis for about a year(and only now after 4 different vets and tons of medicines we've got some positive dynamics), so I will appreciate if you consider to make a donation and support us.
https://boosty.to/ceph.elle
I love you all.
A little break
Posted 4 years agoI will have to take a short break so all the things commissioned will take a little bit more time to finish.
My dearest doggo Austin got sick so I haven't slept for literally 4 days now taking care of him & I truly need some rest ;w;
Once he feels better- - I'll be back to work. Now taking care of him is more important, thank you for understanding, ilu ♡
My dearest doggo Austin got sick so I haven't slept for literally 4 days now taking care of him & I truly need some rest ;w;
Once he feels better- - I'll be back to work. Now taking care of him is more important, thank you for understanding, ilu ♡
Got sick
Posted 5 years agoSorry for the lack of updates, everything I can do at the moment is sleep 20 hours per day plus my nose is kinda trying to kill me ;w;
Will return to my usual working schedule as soon as possible, but now I can only zzzzz
UPD: just got the test result... covid positive
All I asked from 2021 was to not try to kill me and this is what I get the day before my birthday xD
Anyways. I will be fine ♡
Will return to my usual working schedule as soon as possible, but now I can only zzzzz
UPD: just got the test result... covid positive
All I asked from 2021 was to not try to kill me and this is what I get the day before my birthday xD
Anyways. I will be fine ♡
