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Posted a year agohad a really good week. joined esports and am now playing splatoon. i didnt feel alienated and i was sad that i couldnt go today (no practice)
got my beloved imac g3 pillow from throwboy :) i have it with me rn
am writing more. wrote the longest fic ever and consistently worked on it for 3 days (CRAZY RIGHT)
its been a good time recently :) im enjoying. i hope you're all enjoying too
got my beloved imac g3 pillow from throwboy :) i have it with me rn
am writing more. wrote the longest fic ever and consistently worked on it for 3 days (CRAZY RIGHT)
its been a good time recently :) im enjoying. i hope you're all enjoying too
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Posted a year agoffuucckk i keep meaning to color it. i love the concept but coloring it makes me nervous. eugh! i hate coloring on csp. friend mentioned that its very "clicky", which i agree, as its mostly made for lineart.
good morning
Posted a year agodiscord went down so i checked on its better brother, revolt. was very happy to see them better than ever.
i want to fuss with csp. mad that i updated it to 2.0 without realizing that i'd have to buy it. csp should die for ever inputting a subscription model.
but i want to draw, so i guess i have to deal with it.
i want to fuss with csp. mad that i updated it to 2.0 without realizing that i'd have to buy it. csp should die for ever inputting a subscription model.
but i want to draw, so i guess i have to deal with it.
its nearly 1 am
Posted a year agostomach hurts and listening to a lot of msi. tempted to draw some ? i want to draw my personas
doing better
Posted a year agovisdeving some stuff for a thing im making with a friend. sorry to be cagey, but i dont wanna say that im even on the project. not that im afraid of what the project is, quite the contrary. i would honestly love to be credited and stuff. but im not really...hm. if i hint, someone will figure it out. or at least those who eventually come across this account.
i sound very paranoid. i kinda am? dont really want them to find out.
eh. its for their betterment that they just dont know. sigh. i hate being so secretive. i like them too much to want to lie to them, too afraid of rejection. which will come if i tell.
it wasnt even that big to begin with. aaaaahhhhhh tiny lies snowball into huge things. eugh.
its a complicated thing. but im happy that im on the project at all and most importantly that they like me and my ideas. doing this more for their benefit than mine. i love the project and everything we've made immensely, so much so that i hate that it will end at some point (but glad too, because this shit is taking so long), but i would enjoy seeing them reap the benefits, the money and the fame, rather than me. even though i have always coveted fame and finally have my chance to get it. but i wont take it from them and i wont involve them with me afterward. i want them to enjoy it and enjoy my creations most of all.
maybe this is too hyper specific and they'll know. hm. i'll debate deleting this entry later. considering at the moment i have no one following me and im not following anyone, no one will see this post. the temptation of deletion is strong but is my urge to archive stronger. guess we'll find out in 24 hrs
i sound very paranoid. i kinda am? dont really want them to find out.
eh. its for their betterment that they just dont know. sigh. i hate being so secretive. i like them too much to want to lie to them, too afraid of rejection. which will come if i tell.
it wasnt even that big to begin with. aaaaahhhhhh tiny lies snowball into huge things. eugh.
its a complicated thing. but im happy that im on the project at all and most importantly that they like me and my ideas. doing this more for their benefit than mine. i love the project and everything we've made immensely, so much so that i hate that it will end at some point (but glad too, because this shit is taking so long), but i would enjoy seeing them reap the benefits, the money and the fame, rather than me. even though i have always coveted fame and finally have my chance to get it. but i wont take it from them and i wont involve them with me afterward. i want them to enjoy it and enjoy my creations most of all.
maybe this is too hyper specific and they'll know. hm. i'll debate deleting this entry later. considering at the moment i have no one following me and im not following anyone, no one will see this post. the temptation of deletion is strong but is my urge to archive stronger. guess we'll find out in 24 hrs
tired today
Posted a year agoi drank a monster yesterday when i knew that i shouldnt have, it has a bad interaction with wellbutrin (namely, blood thinning). but i was super tired so.
i woke up and i forgot how shitty it is to go without a monster after drinking one. there is one in the fridge. wont drink it tho. for tmrrw when i go to school.
i woke up and i forgot how shitty it is to go without a monster after drinking one. there is one in the fridge. wont drink it tho. for tmrrw when i go to school.
