... rest and time to be out of sites, no want to hear anymore a "merry" and "happy" because this words not settle with what's going on around me.
And yes, i'll not draw anymore during ~10 days.
I back to playing a games and try to get the alcohol, i now have a reason.
Who don't know - greetings from center of Donetsk!!!
P.S. (but not too necessary) me need someone, for practice in speaking on english, to whom is native language and who older than me or like me (21).[and who ready for my strange but native voice] but again, is not too necessary.
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FROM ME IN SOON - NOTHING.
RANDOM PICK - CLOSED.
COLLABORATION - CLOSED.
COMMISSIONS - NOT!!!
ART TRADE - CLOSED.
REQUEST - CLOSED.

I did and redid a few very good my sketches ... BECAUSE I FOUND A PAPER and saw a new sketches from Tailsrulz on his site. So yes, i over the sketching, i try understand some of the new principles and fix them in sketching.
But one moment - i disappointed about myself, i very, very slow improved! 2 years activity drawing and so ... not good.
Ahh, yes, i can now draw Felicia and other characters by Tailsrulz, i get permission with the condition.
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FROM ME IN SOON - Natali, Sandra, Cherry and Felicia ...
RANDOM PICK - "GOES ON"
COLLABORATION - Tempolary closed. (over modification knowledge of technical drawing)
COMMISSIONS - NEVER!!! (i have no bank card and internet-wallet!!! and stop waiting for!!!).
ART TRADE - CLOSED.
REQUEST - CLOSED.

[EN] First - Thanks everyone for support, thanks )
Second - Well, everything seems like better, basically, anyway for now shootouts become less around my region.
And i ... under nostalgia, so maybe i'll do a redraw few my old works and did on old style of Tailsrulz ...
BTW, i become testing drawing in "manga" style ... i'm become more crazy [f**king shootouts!].

[РУ] Во первых - Спасибо всем за поддержку, спасибо )
Во вторых - Ну, всё вроде-бы лучше, в основном, во всяком случаи стрельбы стало меньше во округе.
И я ... под настольгией, так что возможно я зделаю несколько перерисовок моих старых работ или сделаю в старом стиле Tailsrulz ...
Кстати, я начал практиковать рисование в стиле "манги" ... я стал более психанутым [е**учие взрывы!].
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FROM ME IN SOON - Nancy, Sandra.
RANDOM PICK - "ARRIVED"
COLLABORATION - Will open soon (But my part will be background!)
COMMISSIONS - NEVER!!! (i have no bank card and internet-wallet!!!).
ART TRADE - CLOSED.
REQUEST - CLOSED.

What i can say ... i again not sleep, by heavy artillery shootouts with shockwaves, target or close or my region itself. Shots was very massive, i never had this before, so ... i'll be on "combat readiness" because it became very dangerous.

[EN] Well, i full back to draw and ... not ... i have a problem, i have no depression but somehow i can't draw.
Ideas have, even have 2 linearts but to coloring i can't move, that's something wrong. I too long distracted by other things to return with confidence but it did not help. So, i have no idea when this problem left me.
And ... heh, sometimes i become to thinking about streaming, i not sure that this nessesary andhave no opportunity (in technical and language part) but sometimes i want to do that ).

-UPDATE- 25.09.2014 06:35
I watch in reality how ~122mm artillery shoot to north side (but i watch from window), where airport and inside ua army, it looks interesting and the sound of the shot inspires.

[RU] Ну, я полностью возвращаюсь рисовать и ... нет ... у меня проблема, хоть я не имею депрессию но так или иначе я не могу рисовать.
Идеи есть, даже есть 2 линейных работ но до "раскраски" я не дохожу, и это не нормально. Я слишком долго отвлекался на разное что-бы потом с уверенностью вернутся но это не помогло, так что я не знаю когда эта проблема меня покинет.
И ... хех, иногда я начинаю думать о стриме, я не уверен что это нужно, и возможности нету (в технической и языковой части) но иногда я хочу делать это ).

-UPDATE- 25.09.2014 06:35
Я смотрю во отчею как ~122мм бьёт по северной стороне (смотрю с окна), где по идеи аропрост с украинской армией, это выглядит интересно а звук выстрела внушает.

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FROM ME IN SOON (maybe) - RQ, Cherry (rebuild old, not submitted work), Natasha, Karina.
COMMISSIONS - NEVER (i have no bank card and internet-wallet,).
ART TRADE - CLOSE.
REQUEST - 1 request to "ares12" (I still not done)

I still alive.
But today i hear and see most heavy explode in my life ... maybe, i not hear sound of explosion, in beginning to my balcony and then to my room come wind with impact effect and then my house become vibrate.
I started to think what happened, then me called mother to staircase, and then on window i see this http://sta.sh/01t9asy8ckrh
I sure that this explosion, nobody don't hear sound of explosion, but explode effects what i said before - i, my parents, neighbors, acquaintances and friend who live at one kilometers from me hear this effects also.
I seriously surprised, i seen explodes who with such smoke effects, http://sta.sh/0cwavah2rhp http://sta.sh/07wnr1uuhza http://sta.sh/01gchaiic3th but ... they more closer and come with sound, very heavy sound.
Whatever, i later will go to know what is this.

Who don't know - i live in Donetsk!!! and i around the WAR!!!
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FROM ME IN SOON - RQ, Cherry, Natasha.
COMMISSIONS - NEVER (i have no bank card and internet-wallet, and i have no opportunity).
ART TRADE - CLOSE.
REQUEST - 1 request to "ares12" (I still remember)

I'm fine, anyway for now.
Lately, I'm not staying in the bunker, but anyway sometimes go with family to here, basically Kuibishevsky, Kievskiy and Petrovskiy regions under artillery fire, my region Voroshilovsky not under extensive artillery fire, although recently some rockets fall with whistle almost close to my house.

And for now when i write this journal some ~rockets again fall close to my house, anyway my building weakly vibrates by shockwave, damn.

BTW, who don't know - i live in Donetsk!!! and i around the WAR!
Anyway i still draw, not much but draw.

Yes guys, i still alive, but wtf people, why you still watch and even add in my watchers if i not draw, in bunker i can't!
I tired to sleep at bunker within three days. Itself in bunker cold, damp, very stuffy and hard to breathe, but what i want from bunker builded in 1940-1950 years!?!. Reason have, if before on border of Donetsk keep artillery attack, 3 days before center become under attack, for now in morning more peaceful but if rockets or artillery "mine" drops this would fall close to my region.
And for crazy - there is my photo of this bunker, i get time where in bunker will be nobody, but again, quality of photo very bad, i dunno why ...
(The board in entrance to house where bunker http://sta.sh/0u7s4ut6dtt in russia because all in Donetsk was and keep talk on russian) (Bunker entrance - http://sta.sh/0hc2z954xs2) (First block - http://sta.sh/0lp3tcphf12 [not rotated] http://sta.sh/01pdl5fa13se http://sta.sh/0u9i1cu3jaa) (Enter of the second block and third block - http://sta.sh/01vgv1b0w012) (Second block - http://sta.sh/0oocsri3qcp) (Entrance to third block - http://sta.sh/01iifox1963f) (Third block - http://sta.sh/020a1eu7afa7 http://sta.sh/0bx0nlzt0dh) (This second way of escape http://sta.sh/01z53elsmwa1 blocked because in other bunker side someone buy it and rebuild for "apartments", anyway have sledgehammer, and this brick wall not strong)
If somebody say that is bad idea to keep in here - i said that its better than to be on 9 floor to where easily can fall rocket or artillery "mine"

Many artillery attack and very close, in a center where i stay\live, every one said that this center become like blood mess (Voroshilov district)

Well, i not come to talk to join in DNR medic, we both busy.
Close to my home has one of bunkers build in Yuzivka-Stalin times, on one side strong building, but in other, necessary protected him, it may collapse.
In here hide almost many peoples and also my parents.
So i have some medics stuff, and tools for clearing ruins (and i have personal gasmask what i maybe will not use) and i will "work" in there with others peoples, civilians like me.
[Sad that i not get normal equipment]
BTW, i saw some chechens ) but funny, they no in DNR squad, no have marks.
And about mobile operator - MTS almost back to work but signal work strange, like someone try to block signal.

Situation more ... badly, just because ukraine army with stupid "national guard" and "right sector" gain more heavy attack to center, where i live, they back to use aircraft fighters to attacks.
Maybe i join to DNR squad, yes, so-called terrorist who in reality rebels and who fight for his (Donetsk) rights, but who care ?! no one care, only always said that "they terrorists" and "their must killed" with fake evidence.
So, i give more correct - i maybe join to squad and be medic, i hate weapons, how is not strange to hear.
BTW, someone can see that ukraine army i now not call stupid - it's because they see that their use and also hate this war, except "national guard" and "right sector" who like killing.
And, small info - mobile operator MTS doesn't work now, but i use operator "Kyivstar"

Ehh, sleepless night but i like it if not think about many shootouts, red tracers, explosions, after all of this for a moment come beautiful peace.
For now i help prepare basement of house to evacuation of residents, the bad thing is that the basement is not big and frail, without lighting.
BTW, before the night all Donetsk was under the smoke, and smelled burnt. On morning smoke gone.

21:10 Again back shooting "Grad" now shoot more and harder, ~8-10 rockets impacts, and period of new volleys less and less.
O will again to offline, and i get reason to survive.

21.07.2014 10:30
Just been heavy explode in ~markets near the railway station, ATB market destroyed, have many killed people's (information from my mother's familiar who eyewitness, and under heavy shock) on the other side of my house (which is 9 storey) it was visible.
When Ukraine will stop using artillery and begin to negotiation? (this is rhetorical question)
-update-
One more information (again from familiar) - this was few rockets, so it's can be "multiple rocket launcher <<Grad>>" who has and separatist and of course UA army. But side where come rockets - its region who control UA "nation guard" and army.
And form me - i see one more black somke who much farther away from the railway station, look like close to airport.
Some poor photo from me from this side. (sorry for bad quality but i don't have better camera)
http://sta.sh/011zrvqe5xj5 http://sta.sh/0ujjfs71lrc
-11:55-
One more point of fire, and there going fight.
-update 12:10-
Many points of attack where goes smoke and sounds of blows.

Again, thanks for everyone who help me with one inadequate user on Steam, but before, i must say sorry, because in journal where talk about this user wasn't correct title of journal itself.

About continue to draw ... [deep breath]
Situation more badly, now wake up at morning become with deep explosion or shooting. And my surviving more less than before ... but i not focused about survive if UA govt and army capture my Donbass, i no want to live under Reich/Nazi followers.
Sad about gaining more followers when artist itself can disappear.
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FROM ME IN SOON - RQ and maybe i can did compilation with my most first digital work (who not uploaded) and its newest version.
COMMISSIONS - NEVER (i have no bank card and internet-wallet, and i have no opportunity).
ART TRADE - CLOSE.
REQUEST - 3 request to "ares12" (2 RQ left)

So now from MaC.MegaGERC i turn to Mc.Trancefox. Trance in nickname still because when i draw i am in the a trance mood.
Now i focused on artworks and in improving of drawing, but it's easy to say when around me keep murder operation.
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FROM ME IN SOON - wierd work with my fursona.
COMMISSIONS - NEVER (i have no stuff for this).
ART TRADE - CLOSE.
REQUEST - 3 request to "ares12" (On D.A.)

So now from MaC.MegaGERC i turn to Mc.Trancefox. Trance in nickname still because when i draw i am in the a trance mood.
Now i focused on artworks and in improving of drawing, but it's easy to say when around me keep murder operation.
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FROM ME IN SOON - wierd work with my fursona.
COMMISSIONS - NEVER (i have no stuff for this).
ART TRADE - CLOSE.
REQUEST - 3 request to "ares12" (On D.A.)

<<UA army said to civilians of Donetsk that we have 3 hours for escape from city.
Whats' happen i not want to know.>>
False information, sorry, in really army said that civilians keep in house for now. Nothing new still not happened.
Before i get this info from one familiar, but now i get corrected new from other.

[EN, fast] Fuck "new" ukraine, what they will do now ? more shooting, more using millitary mashines, civilians under the shooting by Nation Guard and UA Army (About Right Sector not hear), my neighbor, Grandpa, came under shootout. He survived but now he not in good mood.
I very sooner said that to republic come a relative calm, now come shooting, stupid fighter aircraft and helicopters and other things. Even with this illegal election (because contract of 21 February still not complete by extremists) nothing has change, still country ruled biches, but now become more violence with destruction.
Can't do anything, i hate, very hate this all.

[EN] I see that protection against ukrainian extremists (like "Right Sector") has in my respublic, so ... i feel better.
Recently i got heavy inspiration, just "saw sunset in roof of my 10 floor building" and i get desire, slowly back to the draw.
First new artwork be not nice, wierd draw, strange dev style, and my fursona. I'll focused over anatomy and other shading, like Tailsrulz style shading on 2011, but with more "bokeh" blur style.

[РУ] Вижу что зашита от украинских экстремистов (такие как "Правый Сектор") имеется в моей республики и по этому ... мне лучше.
Недавно схватил сильное вдохновение, просто "понаблюдал за закатом на крыше моего 10-ти этажного дома" и получил желание, медленно возвращаться к рисованию.
Первая работа будет "не очень", искажённый рисунок, странный разраб стиль, и моя фурсона. Я сосредоточусь над анатомией и другим затенением, как и в стиле Tailsrulz 2011, но с преобладающим "bokeh" размытием.
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FROM ME IN SOON - wierd work with my fursona.
COMMISSIONS - NEVER (i have no stuff for this).
ART TRADE - CLOSE.
REQUEST - NEVER.

[EN] Well, i will be offline for a day, maybe for 2 days, because in 15th my b-day, what i hate.
And, i not want to hear anything about this, nothing.
Who will write with the thought that "anyway it's need" or something else - it's going to be bullshit, i shall not apprehend congratulations.

[РУ] Вообщем, я буду в оффлайне в течение дня, может быть в течение двух дней, потому что 15-го мой день рождения, то что я ненавижу.
И, я не хочу ничего слышать об этом, ровно ничего.
Кто напишет с мыслью что "в любом случае это нужно" или что-то вроде - это будет дебилизм, я не восприму поздравления.

Stop the ukrainian government!, stop ukrainian military and Right Sector! they started to heavy violence and murder against self-defense and civilians!!!
Stop ukrainian nationalists who suppress the right to choose, and used term terror!

Well, around me happen the second what i waiting - south-east part of ukraine (where i live) is wake up.
"We" wake up because the new, bloody government become strongly insolent.
And "we" don't want more live with ukrainian extremists (based on nazi ukraine) and with venal government, who dislike us (south-east).
Problem in that to as send ukrainian military with maidan bastards who try to stop us ... stop by using violence and saying that we are terrorists(i mean that they again going to lie), of course, in other method they can't.
Parallel this to us came current government, just for show, but never for a peaceful solution, because they also - cant.

But i sure, in that when ... if this violence come from UA government and maidans bastards to us no one EU country and US will not help, because as i see Ukrainian Nazi for them has friends.
And this sad ...
Anybody must understand, if, IF! Russians going to help us is going to be good for us (south-east) in basically.

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(08.04.2014)

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Today, this stupid government allow new rules where any demonstration and protest going under arrest and sending to the prison at 15 years.
Parallel, in unconfirmed information but to us already come "special group" with stuff who has grenade launchers. Video has but record this in Donetsk or not i can't say.

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(14.04.2014)

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Helicopters and BTR's in my city, i seen them.

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(16.04.2014)

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Now i seen SU-27 (12:05), but whom belong i don't understand, ukrainian or russian, him main color was blue, without red star. Helicopters and BTR's i not seen after 14th.

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Update (17.04.2014)

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Heh, now i seen two SU-27, together, and ... it's stupidly to use this aircraft fighter, no have strong reason.
Still watch what's happening.

[EN] First - i stop draw, and i disappointed about new watchers, in the previous journal i said that - do not add to my "watchers"!
Nothing good happen around me, this ukrainian extremist and nationalists now part of army and police, him call "National Guard" and this ... like give to terrorist free entry to anything and do anything. And this new army now send to Donetsk (where i live) and others south-east parts of ukraine, to "suppress" demonstrations who has full right on this.
I'm going to increase a visit to these demonstrations and one to defend their rights and life itself.
There is one problem, maybe it's not a problem but - me could be killed, it easy can do " National Guard" or "Right Sector", in a word - the current government of Ukraine is a threat to me.
Tell absurd? i'll tell you - you don't know much.

[РУ] В начале - я останавливаюсь рисовать, и я разочарован в новых подписчиках, в предыдущем журнале я сказал, что - не добавляйтесь к моим "подписчикам"!
Ничего хорошего вокруг меня, эти украинские экстремисты и националисты стали частью внутренних войск, их называют "Национальная Гвардия" и это ... как дать террористам свободный пропуск куда-либо и разрешение на что-либо. И эта новая армия отсылается в Донецк (где я живу) и другие юго-восточные регионы украины, что бы "подавлять" демонстрацию которая имеет полное право.
Я собираюсь участить посещение этих демонстраций и за одно отстаивать свои права и саму жизнь.
Есть одна проблема - меня могут убить, это могут сделать либо Национальная Гвардия или Правый Сектор, одним словом - нынешнее правительство Украины мне угроза.
Скажите абсурд ?! я вам скажу - вы многого не знаете.

[EN] No more words, my situation freezing.
But i disappointed that NATO helping to new government of ukraine and him cannon fodder, who use a terror (this term) and many other bad things.
Do not add to my "watchers" and don't leave any comments in this journal!

[РУ] Не много слов, моя ситуация замороженная.
Но я разворован тем что НАТО помогает новому правительству украины и их пушечному мясу, которые используют террор (это термин) и много других отвратительных вещей.
Не добавляйтесь к моим "подписчикам" и не отставляйте комментариев в этом журнале!
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FROM ME IN SOON - My fursona (maybe last work).
COMMISSIONS - NEVER.
ART TRADE - NEVER.
REQUEST - NEVER.