Well, just got back an hour or so ago from a rave in Pittsburgh areas. Very fun. Miss bein' there already and wish my friend type peoples(or at least people I consider friends) were there. It's be nice to show more that I'm open and fun when the opportunity presents itself.... Either way, all who watch and read, wish you guys were there even if I never spokes with ya. ^_^

http://www.youtube.com/watch?featur.....CxXZaqSw#t=48s - Something I've been waiting for... The follow up Support Item is just as amusings.

Well, Dark Souls just owns me harder than expected... other than that life has been lookin' up a little bit. Noticeable changes in my body thus far. Working out is actually paying off along with cutting out soda and eating little and healthy.

Well, the rave was fun as hell. Getting there wasn't but nearly 5-6 hours of dancing with people made up for it and then a shit load. Danced with girls, danced with guys, bounced around and just had fucking fun. It was great. Other than that got to meet someone pretty cool over the interwebs thanks to FM last night. :D Now I prepare to play Dark Souls and keep truckin'.

Pretty excited about tonight. Going to a dubstep rave thingy after work. Runs until 4:30AM. :3 Dancing seems like good cardio.

Wells, today wasn't too damn exciting. Woke up, therapy, work, then back home. Was supposed to go out to some event at Club Zoo tonight after work but that got cancelled due to certain circumstances popping up. Just have Love Eternal on Saturday to look forward to in the mean time I guesses.

Haven't posted any sorta update for a wee bit so just throwin' this up there. Just got done with a bit of Gears 3. Lotsa fun. Died more than anything though. Other than that, feeling better since my last journal as well. Still keeping up with working out. Eating habits haven't improved really. Go a day or two without eating then have a small meal, repeat that stuff. Working out more frequently as well. Feeling good about that part at least.

Pretty much hit an all time low in self-esteem and a few other departments. Can't sleep... 90 degrees in my room and I'm still shivering here or there under my blankets. Head hurts when sitting up and laying on back, lay on my side and I start to really overheat.... life just sucks. Shouldn't a woken up....

PS: The first part of the title was a cockslap to the keyboard for a change of pace.

PSx2: Yay for officially hitting 24 hours with no food....

And another: And you know you've gotta of done something wrong when not even your own body will let you have the comfort of sleep... I wish my fiance wsa here to pat my head like she id all the time ago and got sick... it helped me sleep at lesat...

Well... hopefully within the next 12-15 hours I'll be in Pittsburgh area at a club or rave. Headin' out tonight with my sister and some of her friends. I have to admit, I'm fairly nervous about it. Dunno if I'll crash down there or come right home after. I'll post an update journal on how all the shit goes if I survives dis. -_-

It's been about a week since shit hit the fan. Less than that for when I learned about it. Been working on picking things up, step by step(though SOMEONE told me I had to take big steps to accomplish something). Just took a walk/jog around town. Was out for about 45 minutes doing this and saw the general lay of the land roughly 1 to 2 blocks from where I live now. Several really nice homes. Some that needed some repair to 'em, others were just outright beautiful.

Now know of two gas stations within walking distance of my home, a few other important places(bars and such), and some general "this is an old building" landmarks things in this neck of the woods. Overall it's a very nice looking place.

Two down sides to the walk. 1) My leg started hurting on the uphill return trip home. 2) Gave me time to think about stuff I've been avoiding thinking about. Yeah... stuff and stuffs... Working things out though over the course of time. Main thing I was thinkin' about was the fact that though she still "wanted to be friends" she hasn't bothered AT ALL to even contact me in any way to see how I'm doing. Obviously got a bit frustrated when that popped into my head. Then it got blown away by noticing that I don't really give a damn as much as I would of a few days ago.

Maybe she's giving me room to work on things. Maybe she's already fucking a clown car full of people. I dunno, don't care. I'm still faithful in my own sense so if things work out then hopefully she'd admit to it. If things don't work out then I know I'm at least doing things a bit more healthier for myself with the walking.

Just slowly picking things up...

EDIT: Side note, yay for no sleep since 11am yesterdays pretty muchs and no food in my stomach during that time as well!