I will be tkaing photosofthe plushes that did not sell at AN, and take pictures of the plushies I'vebeen workngi on that I'd like to do in the future (Like.. I have one, and will make similar ones)

inparticular I've been worknig on asimple pattern thati s somwhat custimizable, enough so that you can tell its diffrent characters, but not so much so that I'll need to charge rediculouse prices to make them worthit =3 I mean they won't be super detailed or anything... =/ notthat ican't make that... I just doubt I can find a way to price it fairly (For you guys,and for me on my end (the cost of materials and my time maknig somethgin fiddley LOL))

You think plushies will be somethig peopel wil lwant? I like making them best of all... Especialy fluffy ones made from faux fur *_* I liek making clotehs and skirts too, but dealing with sizing is a pain unless I have hte perons here with me for fittings and what not blegh!!

sunday I should be getting my lappy tweeked out *_* So I will be able to work on drawings in a mroe convenient manner XD

So... yes. Things onthe way *lol*
Hope peoepl might beinterested in plushies... money is really tightand getting some work would really help me out >_<

take care all XD

I live!

I made it throught my convention alive... I have a new laptop, my health seemsto be improving... so lives feelnig pretty great.

My new lappy needs drivers to make her pressure sensitive.. =/ untill then I will try to entertain you with photos of stuffI've sewn. and stuff I'll draw in paint XD

and possibly wrting? =O

I'm getting inthe mood to do CdS again, and I am worknig slowly on butterflies & hurricanes... which, makesm e a very very VERY happy person *_*

I haveal ot to catch up with here, there are peoepl I need to thank for favs & watches, and I'll get tothat someitme in the next few days... but.. I have afeelnig I won't be doniganythign abotu the 753 submissions and the 402 journals lulz! ^_^;;;;;;

Also, today is an awesoem day, and everyone shoudl try to smile =3
cause june is a pretty cool month XD

The convention is almsot hear *barfs*

I'llget everythgin on my plate done, but my heaqlthsucks soIwill probably be on a tight scedual if I factor in time to be sick D=

Expect picspam of my dresses & stuffed toys =3

Andmaybe... if I ever get teh pressure sensitivitydrivers towork on my danm computer then i'll draw again too >_< perireogbsn;gbnbfod;fgdn

In other news noone cares aobut... The first of my 3 sisters arrived today in the mail<3 she's perfect beyond belifse and I can't wait for the other 2!!!! 1 is beign paid off on layaway, and I have yet to finda thrid |(hopefully after the con at the very latest *_*)

I seem to have my drawing mojo back... in the form of paper and pencil.... funny how you almsot need to re-teach yourself after scetching only on a table for so long (not a word of a lie, it took me a day worhto f scetching to stop hitting the 'undo' button! *LOL*)

Today I'm gonig to work on trades, and my 1-shot comic. It's painfully close to going to colour.. which makes me increadibly happy! which means I can release it! Which means hopefull... peopel will purchase it....? =/
It will be images on a CD rather then a book (or I supose I coudl jsut email peopel PDFs unpo request?) but it will be 60 pages of comic... then extra stuff liek profiles ofthe characrers and other extra pictures..... I had originally decided to charge 10$ for it...
The "story" itself (that's to strong a word.. Ill jsut say concept) isthati t's almost wild-west themed....abotu 4 saloon girls who have a bunch of fun with each other. 6 chapters long at 10 pages each and you get to see every possible pairing between the four of them ^__~

Let me know your opinions... especially on if my price is fair.. and also if you have ideas on where I would advertise this...? I had oreiginally planned on doing it in my wannabe-furry style... but theyended up as humans since I know it best.. (and kinda like drawing it more =/ ) So I'd kinda feel bad mentioning it on the forums..? Should I go ot DA..? I have an account there that I neglect because I always hango tu here XD Are thereother artsy forums where I can tote my porn..?

THANKS ALL!!!

My creativity dosnt' run the gammut of practical jokes XD
butI howp I can find some good ones aroudn here!!

my condo building is without water =/ we hoeps it was a joke but it wasn't *pout*

Also, scanner is GOGO so I can scan shit and coloruit with my mouse... =/ pthththpteheohneth
Atl east it's something?
GHETTO ART GO!

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Why is this happening...? nto that I need my computer for like.. an upcoming convention that I need to do art for... not at all... ;;o;;

I hope I can have it repaired....

In the mean time I will show lots of sewing stuff x_x

I'm still trying *lol*

I'm gonig to draw SOEMTHING each day... and post it.. good or bad *lol*

Expect lots of experiments...some good stuff.. soem bizzar and some jsut bad.. *lol* Need to get back into the groooooove of thigns =3

Thankfully my Brother was abole to fixthe miniter/tablet on my computer... Which is good because I stilhave trades pending >_< and I hatethat it's looming liek this....
Thankfully peopel are patient.. x_X

I seems to have drawing block.. every thigns comes out looking rough and stiff and not at all what I see in my head....

Maybe becsaue of the sewing..?
It suports my theory... I can only do 1 artistic thing at a time... if I'm working on a sewing project.. I cant draw... vice versa... and same for writing...

Writign I can do allong side 1 other art... but drawing & sewing can never happen together.

I re-picked up my Saloon project (what was formally called Saccrine before I stole it for a cooler more suiting project...) and I've been roughing out some pannels... My goald is to ahve them done before the end of the month, and have the whole thign finished by AN...

Buutttttt I'm still here gaiz x_X
i'll post some evidence of my work once I get stuff done

I'm thinking of making a secondary account for my sewing...
I wanna plost moar plushies and hopefulyl get sewing commussions..

Woudl it be better to have everyhtng in one spot...? or keep the two mediums seperate and orginized..?

good idea?

Soooooooooo
I feel guilty for spamming you guys with my retardation.. both in scetch form and hjournal form...

Plus I wnated a place to poast my dollphotos without them migrating to unsavory places (*caugh*denofdemons*/caugh*)
I'm gonig to post fandom crap, (mostly gaming) Roleplaying crap, scetrches, silly things... Baw aobtu my life... etc

At the vesat least it
ll be entertaining!
http://magicwhitelady.livejournal.com/

Sooo from nnow on this FA journal will mostly be updatessss on trades, art projects.. some life stuff but mostly I'll keep it clean from now on ^_^;;;

I posted my first piece of CdS~ I jsut jumped into it, I hope you all like it!

I made a vow to myself today...

Casue... there isn't enough ay in my gallery... I love lesbians.. and I love cute boys having buttseckz....
and
there is not nearly neough of that reflected in my gallery D= Soooo for the month of march... I will post NOTHING cept g/g or b/b

the only exception is anythign story related~ and trades =3

God Idea..? bad idea...?

This weekend I've worked harder then I ever have before... on many things..
I wont' go into too much details cause I always feel scared of boring people with these things...

In general my health's not ben the greatest over the last few weeksn.. It seems liek it'sevenign otu now, =3 but I did what I had to do even tho I would have much rather hidden in bed XD

The first thing...
I'vebeen worknig really hard on zeeboogle contest... Normally I give up on myself very easily... or I let obsticles disable me very quickly... or there are tiems when circumstances flat out made it impossible to finish artistic goals... 10 full colour and detailed pictures in 1.5 months is rather ambitiouse with me.. (also keepingi n mid that I was keepnig up with trades and personal art in that time..) But i buckled down.. and I did it! jsut -barely- (the last pic was finished then submitted at 11:58 D= *dramatic pose*

The second thing..
My grandfather died.. He had cancer so it wasnt' a suprise. It was in fact, rather goodthat he went since he was in pain. See, him dying was a good thign.. btu comign to terms with the concept of death was much harder... aswell as seeing my family in such deep sorrow (and having mixed feelnigs of guilt ... Am I bad for not feelnig as sad as they are? (the answer is no.. I'm jsut zen aobut it)) Prior to this event.. I had been terrified of deat hand dying above all over fears I have... Thisis no longer the case..

The third thing...
On saturday night my boi and I were treated by my two best friends to a double date. I was dragged from my home to a niiice restaurentThe lineup at the restaurent was looonngg (40 min wait for table (IT WAS WORHT IT)) However, while waiting... I noticed with a sinking feelnig that someone I truely dispise was there. I'm not goingto get into detials since it is a long, painful and sordid ordeal..Needless to say, this fellow was a giant sleeze, and hurt me very personally and deeply. Anyway... He was there... with friends... for a few moents I could feel the blood rushing in my ears, and my heart rate going.. threatening apanic attack... However.. in a moment of shocked numbness I remembered a quote from my favorite show... "I just can’t believe that you were married to Joy Darville. I haven’t thought about how much better I am than her in years. " Now... as sleezey as Joy is shes not nearly as bad as this guy... however.. it made me smile. And it was true.. Smug prideisn't much better then fear and sadness... bt... it certainly allowed me to havea great evenign with frineds, to feel confidant, and proud. (even tho, in a hilariosue twist of fate,, (he was beside OUR table XD)) I'm still learning how to be confidant... How to feel good aobut me... but I'm getting there =D

Soooooooooooo I'm proud of myself XDXD
I plan on being very productive... I've got some wirting I'vve been dying to post... I've got a feirce itch to seewwsewsew.. I have trades to work on... and best of all.. I have al ot of quick in-my-head pictures ( and... FANART (for a change)) that need to be captureddd

YAH *fistpump*

OMFG YOU GAIZZZZZZZZ

http://www.wikihow.com/Make-a-Shrim.....-Plastic-Straw

....
you don't even understand... thisis the best thign EVER
if you dont' agree, then you are jsut plain wrong XD
it's like... baloon animels and origami AT ONCE!!!

Here's a mem! 25 things that you may or may not know abut me
=3
time to bore you gaiz <3

1. I'm a Laiger (Westen Zodiac: Leo Chinese Zodiac: Fire Tiger)
2. I recently got over my fear of gore, now I'm fasinated by it!
3. I have 2 cats (cleo & belle) and they are family to me <3
4. I started playing WoW this week
5. I am good with money (even if I never have any)
6. I collect perfume (only oils, and mostly BPAL)
7. I love debating & discussing themes/moods/art/anything!
8. Telling stoies is the reason I think I'm on this world
9. I am severly agoraphobic
10. I think more music should be written in 3/4 time
11. I collect ball jointed dolls
12. I adore file verite
13. I wish I could make movies
14. I think Lovecraftian horror is the scariest
15. Creme is my favorite desset ingredient (and a favored perfume note)
16. I play piano and I sing
17. I am very very VERY in love <3
18.I'm not crazy about chocolate (I prefer caramel)
19. I wish I could dance better
20. I am very enthusiastic about most thigns I do
21. I am a terrible liar
22. I enjoy apricotes & other dried fruits
23. I have a soft spot for really cheesy pop music
24. I am an avid gaming nerd
25. I wish I could sew more often

As mentioned below XD
26. I am obsessed with small/tiny robots & clockwork/gears/cogs

As usual I ahve trades =3
I <3 hem, I'm sooo soso happy that most peoepl are understanding aobtu hte pace that I work...
<3<3<3<3<3 ILUGAIZ

And even more so... I looovelovelove people who comment on my stuff! Favs are very cool and really apreciated... but the main reason I'm here is t meet other artists and make friends and share good times... I've been bad lately at commenting on other peopl's stuff... I really prefer to be able ot look at everythign that coems in my inbox... Currently health issues keep me from spending the time I like online...

Offline however..? I've been pulling 10-12 hour days drawing my little heart out and planning comics... I've been finishing up my entries for the boogle contest... the are -> <- this close to being done.. but I'm going to pic dump them sll st once.. I want them all lined up in my gallery XDXD the inking was HEELLL sine I was ambitiose with the detail and put lotsa fiddley bits nthings.. but the COLOURING!! hoooo!!! that is worht the prive of admssion.. I've leanred a LOT and really opened my head and hart to new little tricks.. I did a lot of reading/looking up ref images.. guh so fun XD

I want to take this time... to share my comic projects... I have a few on the go, just because They are all varing in mood and content and I liek to be able to rotate betwen diffrent stuff... and well.. it's realistic becasue msot of these are gonigto be one shots...

***Charmeuse Saloon
Formally this was called 'sacchrine' but I thought htis name fit better, and sacchrine went to a diffrent projec XD Ahem. This comic is unapologetic lesbian smut. it's set in a burlequse club in a wild west type setting.. it may or may not brcome steam-punk-ish... the colourpallet is washed out and sunbleached and gritty as all hell.. CORSETS AHOY!!! I have one issue, 60 pages + extras planned... dunno yet if I'll do a second book.. dependson how much I bond with the characters... it will be a comic full out

***Dark fairy tales
Everyone's done them. and I don't care D= I loooooooooveloveloveLOVE foalklore and old fairytales.... So i wanted to make some up myself... these are my own fairytale monsters and senarios.... really it's al labotu the flavor... there will be 7 chapters, not sureon page count yet.. but it WILL only be one issue.. This will e a very dark project, but high contrast, what is coloured will be bright in contrast to the dark and macabre.... there will be al ot of violence & sex and other dark themes in it... but there will be disclaimers beofer anyone sees it XD It will be a straight up ilustrated story

***Extra Virgin Olivia Oile
The name is cheesy... but I've had this one in my brain for YEARS since highschool when I was workingat A&P... the story is of a girl in a private highschool,... it revolves around her cooking class, in which she is a natural student.. so rather then concentrating on work she listens to peoepl around her... They each unfold personal stories to her and peoeplin the class.. sharing intamate details and hoe to deal withthem over a hearty meal... This is a story about sexual and gender identity... this one isgoing to be aimed at a slightly younger audience, so it will talk aobut sex, bur not show it all thetime... I dunno Idon't mean to be srs bsns.. I jsutthink that it's an issue close to me... the sexual education f our youth... I only plan for this to be one issue.. I migth continue it.. but it might be tooo... reaistic for my tastes as a long term project.. It will be mostly illustrated story with a bit of comicing.. (the in-class bits are comic, andthe stories each person tells is illustrated story)

***Cirque du Sacchrine
Oh man... my bayy-beeee... this is a mixed media story telling experiment.... some part willbe comics, someparts will be illustrated short story... some parts will be a radio play... it will be a deligthful and yet fragmented story.... It will be dark and yet colourful.. liek neon lights at nighttime.. there will be a glitz about it... the story itself is about a troup of circus preformers and staff... and their unusual and supernaural lives... the secracy about the origin of the weirdness.. a little ibt of twistedness.. but msotly a lot of smiles.. This will dafinatly be muti issue, I hanv't found an end or reall havea good proportion....

***Butterflies & Hurricanes
This is my baby my first baby and my big one... it will be a very long time before this is finished.. but it is somethign of my magnum opus... I'm going to quit talknig abotu it now because I could go on for hours nad hours about this one.. I know everysingle detail of each scene... I jsut have to feel right abotut picking the wordsand writing them down... most likely this will be a series f novels.8 books with 4 parts to each book... If you've seen Rina and Nemo arou d my gallery...this is where they are from... Indy too is lurking somewhere XD

Okay think I bored you enough now... could go on longer and longer..... I love to share stories.... so if you wanna tell me aobut yours POST THEEEMMMMM link me to a journal... or note me... or reply here or msn me!! XDXDXD

LOVE ON YOU ALL I LOVE YA <3<3<3<3

I'm at my aunt's farm kinda having an 'art retreat'

I have lovely trades on my plate, the Boogle contest, piles of unfinihsed giftart and not to mention being VASTLY behind on any comic-ing....

Long story short... I cna't look at submissions or comments... but I CAN look at notes, so if you need me that's where I'll be XD

I migth journal for lulz purposes...
<3 see you gaiz friday either way!

P.S. The moon out here is fucking amazing... it's full and glowing so brightly that it's about half as bright as day... except... everythign is blue-ish.... the shadows were really long and tall onthe crisp snooowwwww wtf you guys this rocks!!

..
P.P.S. I watched the alpha of my aunt's horsie herd chase down a wild turkey... she so was NOT happy he was there.. and was so ready to fuck his shit up... XDDDDDD

Moooooooooooph

So ahh.. it's not exacally monday... x__@ and I don't have all the stuff I wanted done...
I've neglected soooooo much stuff... 782 messages in my inbox..
Eerrrkkk I'll attend to that tonite!

I have 3 half finished dealies!
Trades acually .... sweet deleciouse trades....
One for Cookie, Yolee, and Ryo~

And I gotta get my assi ngear with the boogle contest... I wnat all these wscktes finisheeeedddd D= Moooooop

I will still be determined! *strikes a pose*
hope you like what you see!

Soooo the sptmr has past and I'm back home again...
things seem t be looknig up... or at least won't be crashign any farther....

gnig to take a few days to try and get my head in gear, try to keep myself optimistic.

I promise I'll have some acual content on monday >_< *frustrated with self*

I won't have regular internet acess for the next few days...

I'm staying away from home while some dust settles...
Happy thoughts/wishes/prayers are really really apreciated..

But...
at least I'm gettingart done? don't have the ability to upload them rihgt now but I am getting shit done...

Love you all <3

This has been a really hard and draining week for me personally... I migth be a bit vague... I'd rather talk aobut how I feel then what happened... if anyone is curiouse or convifused they can contact me by note or MSN (in fact... PLZ add me to msn anyways... I love chatting and being social...)

First off.... I'm frustrated with myself and my condition... I have anxeity issues... I'm seeing many doctors and doing therepy and taking my medication... I'm looknig for a proper diagnosis for myself... but it's a slow process fo trial and error... I'm beginning to become frustrated with myself.

One of the big thignsthat have manifested in this time of being down is that I ahve major agoraphobia issues... I rarely leave my house and when I do I get agitated and moody... thism akes it difficult to see IRL friends.. I enjoy their company and really am thankful for the suport they give... but for the msot part I jsut want to go back to hw thigns were... I miss my friends, I miss the pepel close to me... I'm lonely.

I'm beginning to feel really trapped whereI live... there are t man poeple in too small a space... and becasue I never leave thehosue I am becoming so overwhealmed... I miss my privacy. I miss the little things (and big thigns) that I have comprimised on and sacrifieced t be able to fit in here...

Iwish I culd move... but I can't afford it. There are manythgins I can't afford. I am far underthe poverty line to the point that I feel like I am barely living at times... I am unablet work due tothe afformentiond anxeity and agoraphobia...

I'm working hard on commissins, and trades, and artistic thigns I can do form my home.. but I am new to this place, and by no means do I expect to jsut... show up and have people instantly throw money at me... I'm aware that it dosn't work that way. I know very intimately that I need to work hard if I want peoepl to notice me... and for the most part I feel proud f my inprovemtnsand production level.

This week is an exception becasue I have been feelnig so bad all week... I've had a few crying spells.... it'll be over nothign at all... my boyfriend might be like "we're out of ornage juice" and it will fill me with such dispare thatI cry for an hour... after wardss I end up feelnig silly abotu it... but I am worknig hard not to feel shame... this is all part of the sickness... it's part of the thigns I am trying ot find answers for... if I fel ashamed or guilty then it won't help anyone... There's no reason for it...

I had a talk with one certain Oscar.. she's been a great help to me latly.. and last night was n acception. what I tok away fmr that conversation isthat I need to try my best to focus on god things. My dolls, photos, sewing, my friends, art and roleplaying.

Roleplaying is one of my deepest loves,it inspires my art more then anythings else... I enjoy creatign charaters and sharingtheir stories.. whatI enjoy the most is building stories with ther people... fun thigns we can share and do... Each charater is a protion of myself... or a representitive part of my soul... nad I like sharingthat with people... Latly, apart from a very fun messageboard.. I have been having problems finding rp parteners that are ... compatible? .... I wnat to play somethign that's full of interaction between charaters... and rich consice descriptions... Perhaps I'vebecme too picky..? =x I don't know...

In closing... I needed a rant... I'm gonig to be trying harder to produce more art.. andd to acually answer my inbox mesages... I've never let it go this long I feel very bad.. =x

Much love in this time of stress to
:phoenixcycle: &  zid
Thank you for being there for me, and beign suportive.. <3

Thanks for readin =3

Normally I don't make a journal aobut jsut one pic

but I feel happeh!! D= SO THERE!!!!
Soon I'll be putting it up as my featured submission.... I'm gonig to work really really hard to bring all of my art to this kind of quality.....

Also...
commissions.. as always.. are very very open
Trades are open too =3

time to diiiiiiive into gift art and boogly project...

Also....
This prolly wont' matter to many peopel... but it's been a god day. Got my new battery charger for my camera worknig.. so you migth see some photo spam soon >_> aaannnndddd I'm adoring my perfume... pumkins white chocolate.. and caramel... YUMYUM!!!

Okay sleeping time <3

PART DEUX!!!!!!!!!! =D

OMG all caugt up... I have one comission to do.. then I cna work on this piiiiiiillleeeeeee that seems to be rapidly growing XDXDXD I am super determiend to clean up/colour everythign.. evemn if it's jsut really like shading type colour.... =3 I gues I mean to say I want to make these in to presentable finished peices =D

SUPER HYPED YOU GAIIIZZZZZ
it's gonig to be AWESOME <3

hope those of you who recived gifts... enjoyed them....
If you are a regular watcher/commenter .. and didn't recive art? dont' fret... you tiem will come D= *strikes a pose*

I also hope  pravusbelua dosn't mind me raping poor Boogle with my tablet... she's jsut a joy to draw! and every single one of the boogly drawings was increadibly fun.... the colourign will show it more.. but I started gettign really artsty fartsy XD I will probably do more rampid and spaztic drawings ofher in the future. Rina also makes a really cuuuute clowny <3 Makesm e wanna do the other B&H characters in canival gear XDXDXD (Nemo as a lion tamer... Spiri as the ringmaster... Indy as a trapeeze artist... Mae as a fortne teller =D (Who am I kidding... very few of you guys will know who those are @__@ (omg end brackets nooww)))

Soooo hope you gaiz so'nt mind aobtu the spamming =3
<3<3<3
love on you all!!

omg while at my aunt's this weekend I scetched my little brains out O_O

So... naturally I ewnated to dhare! they were gonig to take a little whiel to colour.. .

aahahaha
sssoooooo

More tomorow!! 11 more? O_O
I'LL DO IT TOMOROW SLEEP NAAAOOOOOOO

Soooo this weekend I took a little vacation / work retreat up on my aunt's farm. Ntohing like tons of snow and cute barn kittens and pretty ponies to get the creative juices flowing!

I ahd 2 goals

1) GIFT ARTTTT
I had a large list of thigns that I wanted to draw.. some were requested some were things I felt liek drawing!!

2)Boogle contest!!
There's a funyn story here.. =x ^__^;;; here's there link XD http://www.furaffinity.net/view/1849489/ Sooooo as you can see there's a little part where it mentioens 3+ , 5+ and 10+ ..... sany logical person readign this woudl probably aassume 10 UNIQUE entries,,, but. I'm not that logical.. and I didn't clue in till AFTER I'd gotten 10 diffrent pictures scetched inked and part coloured.... I couldnt' hlep but lawl at myself.

Soooo
my work week is gonig to beeeee
A)Takea break from clowning to finish gift art
B)MOAR CLOWN STUFF
C)Sacchrine
D)Likely moar Rina/Nemo porn XD

Sooo it willbe a busy week! Expect to se a whole lot of submissions!! =D
I'm hyped gaizzzzz <3<3<3<3<3

Told you gaiz I'd put up stuff from my DA account... hope the hoo-manz dont' scare you allaway ^__^;;;;
Sorry it was so much so fast.. I really flooded you guys there O___O

I've been drawing a lot, but not producing very much.. my hands have been shaknig, and my beloved tablet-screen lappy is getting lots and lots of dark spots where she dosn't decet my pen ;o; Sad times.

I've got all my trades done for a bit!
I've got many spots for commissions open too =3 I work really fast.. *cheesey smile*

Anyhoo.

Sacchrine is comgin allong well! not really much to report there cept I've been ahving a very fun time looknig up refernces on cute lengerie and costumes XD

TO DO LISSTTTT
 yoolee - Trade! Waiting for info
 kittyoffandomdoom - Trade! Working slowly =3
Commission - Ile Eli 's dragon girly (waiting on paypal to stop beign a jerk to the poor guy..)
Commission - IRL awesome friend - COLOURINGGGG