https://www.furaffinity.net/journal/7517935/

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Hey guys! Im opening up digital art commissions! So I guess give me a character, I will draw it, and you can give me whatever you think I earned! Still trying to fundraise for my surgery, so that's where your money would be going! ^=^"

hello!

i am doing badge commissions to fundraise for my surgery! these pretty puppies are $6 ;u; <3

http://www.furaffinity.net/view/16243796/
http://www.furaffinity.net/view/16243796/
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So I've been working 50 hour weeks for the past three months or so, which doesn't give me a lot of time to do the art thing but I upload shit when I get the chance haha
I figured I'd give the few of you of who mind me a little update:
I came out as trans in October of 2013. Last month I had my first appointment to try to fix my biology to matchy gender. Funny enough, I may actually be intersex in the first place. Anyways, I'm not on T yet because I need my blood work done first and I'm procrastinating it.
Aside from that excitement, I'm saving up for a rad car while I wait for my silly boyfriend to do the finishing high school thing. Once he's gradumated... Well I'm not sure what our plan is quite yet but I've got to get out of this town. Too many memories here. Everything reminds me of someone or something I try desperately to forget.
Well, all that said, just a reminder that I am always open for requests and trades, in addition to seeking budding/local artists to commission pictures of Rocket Raccoon and Rocko the wallaby from :)
~Goo

I have slowly but steadily noped the fuck out of the furry fandom. Like I still have two fursonas, and I still want to make fursuits (and plushies and cosplays!) as my occupation, a few years down the road, but I just don't want to deal with furries. Thats sounds so awful. haha Creatively and professionally, furries are a joy to collaborate with, and work for. But generally sex kind of makes me uncomfortable, (i fave a lot of nsfw art because its at a safe distance, it is very nice artwork and its not real and it doesnt involve me) and a lot of furries made sexual advances on me in furry-only communities, in addition to my being bullied in furry-only communities. This is not to say I think all furries behave this way, or that I am anti-furry. Most of my real-life friends are furries, and I am very comfortable with them, because I've come to know them as people, rather than cartoon characters on the internet... I would just prefer not to be in situations where I am surrounded by strangers who think we are the same because we both like anthropomorphic characters. We are very different, because we are human, and all humans are very different. (I am not trying to generalize. I am trying to avoid the minority, not the majority, but the bad apples have made me shy of being in apple-only communities! haha Oranges and bananas are cool too yknow, so if a rad apple comes to me where theres a lot of diversity I'm not gonna feel so nervous! o-o)

ANYWAYS lol

I became a furry as a child, because I had a massive disconnect with my human identity, as I didnt understand that being transgendered was a thing. (How could I? I was a five year old girl [*cringe*] raised to be a closed-minded bible thumper....) As Ive gotten older I've come to understand more about myself and who I really am. This has helped to close the gap between who i am and who i hid behind. Coming out as being transgendered has helped me to feel that I can be myself, and I needn't hide behind a cartoon character all the time. While its still fun to have fursonas that represent me in fictional situations, or short cartoons i draw (because drawing humans is still kind of hard! haha) it is no longer a crutch for me mentally and socially.

That being said, you may have noticed that I am rarely on fa. I am not quitting. This site has too much wonderful art, and too many wonderful people for that, but I AM explaining my absence. If you need to get a hold of me, the best way to do so is by shooting me an ask on my tumblr, Goostuck. If you'd like to any art trades, or PWYW commissions (which go to buying myself a chest binder) that's the place to do it. Thank you all for everything, and if you have any questions regarding this post, or anything else, please do not hesitate to contact me! :)

Sorry I havent been on much. Life got a little weird for me.
Most of the art I've done on my online hiatus has been Homestuck art which I don't care to post on fa, but I do have a few furry pics coming up. Other than that, I have to warn you guys that there may be an influx of mushy gushy lovey dovey arts, as Ive reconnected with my lost love of 5+ years. I am happy as I havent been for a long time. So your warning is here. haha If coupley art is gonna freak you out, bail now haha :P
Anyways, I wish you all the best, thanks for readin, and I'll see you all when I have my artses scannified! :)

Does anyone want to do an art trade with me? :)

Comment or note me if you're interested <3

okay i am going to level with y'all. i am a wreck right now.
i am relapsing. i started cutting again. im struggling with my eating disorder again. im having gender identity issues. i am VERY depressed, and very anxious. i have been missing school again. my grades are slipping. i have plans to kill myself as soon as my family stops depending on me so much...
and im just barely hanging in enough that i am scared of myself....
i don't even know what to do with myself.
and on top of it all, i lost one of my best friends, and i hella miss him, even though he didn't treat me the best. and he used to be one of the few people that could make me sane again.
and all the other ppl in my life are all "hes a jerk you dont need him" and i just miss him so much. so, so much. despite everything he put me through, and all the tears i shed....
and im hysterical and rambling and im sorry.
i just feel like ive run out of options and im just reaching out in any way possible for help....

http://www.furaffinity.net/view/11585222/

aaahhhh!!

I didnt have much opportunity to draw this weekend, as i had friends looking out for me so I was too busy having fun, to sulk or wallow. hehe
So my vent art was minimal. And as bad as it may sound, I'm already healing. I've learned from the past, and that has taught me to keep on moving and never look back.
While I can't say I never look back, I try to look back less and less often, and never with sadness or longing, but with a cheerful knowledge that my experiences have made me who I am today. And that person is stronger and smarter and better than the person I was before.
I'm looking forward to new experiences, new friendships, and chapters in my life.
Although I am finished writing the chapter in my life called "Torch," I'm not yet ready to let it go completely. I'm still very much in pain, and I will be for a while. But with each passing hour, and encouraging comment I feel a little more whole!
I really do appreciate all you guys' and all of my off-line friends' support while I'm fighting through this tough time! I can't say it enough! Thank you guys all so so much!
And wish me luck as I dip my quill and prepare to dive into the next chapter of my life...! :)
Have a great week, guys! And remember to keep calm, and SMILE~ <3

There may be a very large flood of very brutal vent art coming. You have been warned. If this displeases you, ignore them, or unwatch me. Whatever works for you. Anyways, thanks for reading this and have a nice week. I'm going to go cuddle and cry now....

no I havent changed anything, buuuut
since i have been practicing digital art, i realized i have the ability to trace and color my reference sheet digitally! i know a lot of artists hate traditional ref sheets because digital are easier to work from, so im making erryones life better xP
anyways, i was just excited about that C:

This girl has fantastic art! Go check her out! :D
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http://www.furaffinity.net/journal/5016909/

aww shit.
http://www.furaffinity.net/journal/5016261/