Aww I gots me some luff from a spambot or somesorts. <3<3



Hello Dear,
My name is Miss maryjane,I speak English, dear please I will like to have
serious relationship with you, write me via email ()
I have a special reason to contact you, I will be waiting to hear from you soon.

With Love From
maryjane

Omgyes marry me plz and we'll have 1089809 babbies! 8D


Yeah...no

Teach me not to check my hotmail for a few days.

I know it probably doesn't show, but I actually have a rather big something to tell ya'll. I really wish I could tell you right now, but I'd like to keep it a bit secret for a bit longer. It's a good thing, so no worries. XD

I have had a bit of artblock for the past few days that I've been sick, though I just might try to pick it back up tonight, but that's just seeing how I feel.

Also a really dear friend and my sister from another mother had a baby the other day and I'm just so happy for her. She's going to make one hell of a mom. <3 I know I'd be nothing without her.

-drags herself off to hide out a bit more

Seriously, go check her out if you haven't and give her cookies, she's awesome. :3



^^

I will be getting all owed art done this coming week. I am so extremely sorry it's been taking me so long. Yay RL and art block! :/

Also, not a good day. I'm going to go back to bed, curl up with a book and wait for Family Guy/American Dad/The Simpsons to come on.

*slinks away*


I can run away nao plz?

So yeah, I've messed up quite a few times in my life, mostly because I get scared of people getting too close to me. I end up freaking out and hurting people when I don't mean to. I really don't understand what attracts people to me, and that right there is confusing in it's own right. There are times when I really wish I could be invisible and cringe when people look at me. I honestly feel like I don't deserve to be loved.

There is a side of me most people don't see. Yes, I can be quite friendly and bubbly and seem outgoing, but I am actually really shy, more so in the past few years. Sometimes I just can't handle the attention, it gets the better of me and I run and hide.




*note I am not doing this to gain sympathy or anything of the like, I am trying to be honest with people and this is me apologizing for being a freak*

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So, the dog we took in got fixed. That's the good news. The bad news is that we now believe that one of the female chi's is pregnant. We're really hoping she's just a porker and eating more food, but yeah that's not looking to be the case.

Wtf...just wtf. These people should not have allowed a male dog anywhere near this house knowing that this female chi was close to going into heat without him getting fixed first.

Aww guys! Ya'll rock so hard! Thank you for the 200 watches! *I'm seriously squeeing over here* Ya'll mean so much to me, honestly. Thank you for making me want to be a better artist, and believing in me when I didn't believe in myself.

I am slowly getting back to everyone's replies. I am so so soo sorry for being so slow, I'm normally on top of things. :( Looking for steady work and a not so ideal living situation will tend to slow one down. I will try to get to those requests and trades today if I can. Yesterday saw me sitting in the DES offices for most of the day. *fun times* so my day was shot by the time I got home. That and being harassed to the point of me trying to be as quiet as a mouse or leaving the house because that 11 year old girl I mentioned in an earlier journal, has attached herself to me. I'm not a happy kitty. I keep expressing to her that I'm indeed quite busy, and she just doesn't get it. I've had other people tell her this, and she's still oblivious. She's cute, but obnoxious as hell. I can do cute, can't handle hyper/dragging me around/climbing all over me.

The good news is, that Ren, the dog the "family" adopted did indeed get fixed the other day. I was shocked. So hooray for someone giving a damn. That damn was of course not given by anyone in this household *well besides me* and was given by Brian's sister. (Brian being the dude that can't control his temper) So thank you Brian's sister in New York for offering yet again to have our dogs fixed, and for Brian being smart enough this time to take her up on it.

Lol I am so sorry that turned into a long rambling journal when I just was setting out to thank ya'll. <3

Gah I've been so lazy lately. Well actually I haven't, I've just been interrupted 80 million times and never able to work on anything. Then I end up saying "screw it" for the rest of the day and just lurking.

As soon as I get back from running errands, I'll be finishing up owed artwork.

God help anyone who knocks on my bedroom door today. XD

Eh, screw that last journal, all I needed was time to wake up.

So to make up for derpy journals I give you this:

http://squee.icanhascheezburger.com.....ode-initiated/


8D

Right now I'm just so confused about everything. I'm confused about where I stand with certain people, and I'm afraid I'm going to get hurt again. I'm confused about where my life is going, though I do know how I can change that, and I plan to.

I hate being so uncertain with things. :(

Ok, I made a little LJ entry of what I found just a moment ago when I went to feed the birds:

http://thelonedoe.livejournal.com/1777.html

This is why I get so pissed off that nothing is being done. I know I made a journal here about it: http://www.furaffinity.net/journal/2593650/

OMFG dude..why do you constantly have to be pissed off? It's bad enough you moved back in, and unlike some people who are currently unemployed are actually looking for work or trying to go back to school, You hole up in your room and on the rare occasion you do come out, you piss and mope around, slamming shit around and I'm surprised your door is still on it's hinges. Tantrum much? You're 45 dude. Also thanks to you, my flashbacks have returned, because you know what, you act just like my abusive ex. I'm afraid to do anything in this house or even come out of this damn room for fear I'll incur your wrath of you PMSing on a daily basis. Please stfu as I don't know how much more stress I can take. When I moved back here and you were gone, it was a blessing. I finally had the quiet I needed to start to heal. Your attitude is only worsening my PTSD f*cker. GROW UP, GET A JOB, and STOP MOOCHING OF THE GOVERNMENT! For god's sakes QUIT ACTING LIKE THE WORLD HANDED YOU SOME BAD APPLES. Yeah I bitch about life handing me more than what I think is my fair share, but I move on, or at least try to. I'm trying to at least repair the mistakes I've made in my life. You, you sit and bitch. How productive.

Yes I was pissed last night because that damn dog we took in was supposed to get FIXED yesterday. Did it? Of course not! Yes, I don't know the reasoning behind Ren not getting his nuts chopped off, but you know, it's a recurring theme in this household. Last year we were supposed to get the female Chi's fixed. Did the owner fix them? NOPE. We then ended up with 2 litters of puppies. The birds that are here? There are 8 cages stuffed with doves. They keep breeding, and breeding and breeding. With each new inbred baby that hatches, all that's done is that it's cooed over, and told it's a pretty bird and that's it. Yes I know the joy of birth and new life, but we're going on over 30 doves here. D: Most, if not all, inbred. I've got no qualms about that at all, but when you can't afford to feed them, or they come out with various health problems and or end up kicking the bucket a few days after they are born, then it's time to stop, get rid of some, and separate the damn things.

*sigh*

Sorry for the rant and the big wall o text ya'll...just had to get it out. D:

(also this is not the roommate)

I am so frazzled as of late, but can't tell if it's lack of sun or just the heat here.
...*coughor the people that live in this housecough*

So I have:

feral of their character
feral of their character
pic of their character

Plus random giftarts and such.


After that, I want to work on a massive project dealing with the Hawaiian culture, cause I'm a geek like that.

I also need to start reading this book Voices of Eden. It's a fascinating look at the history of Hawaiian language. <3 <3

I'll get there someday and live a nice life on the beach...even if it is in a shack. I'll be happy. I swear that little shack is my happy place though. Yeah I'd love a huge house on the beach, but for some reason a small little one bedroom house with a wonderful porch and room for a garden is perfect for me. I do however want to be able to do two things. Walk out of my home each morning and have the mountains right there as well as be able to turn and walk down to the ocean. I also must be able to go out every day and surf.

Shark week has also got me thinking that instead of doing a marine mammal study degree, I'd like to find one that focuses on sharks.

So many dreams...so damn broke. XD

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=5U9RcbaWVeI

Yeah I'm going to head to bed before I start crying again.

Lol so apparently Tumblr farked on me. So won't be using that anytime soon.

For now, if you want to stalk me/see what I do in my day to day life you can find me here: http://thelonedoe.livejournal.com/

Feel free to add me, just let me know where you're from. :3

http://www.furaffinity.net/journal/...../#cid:20649112

Moar fat bunnies!

Oh god...not a happy kitty...


there is no coffee in the house. D:

And I need it to help me concentrate on artwork today. I already botched getting up early so I could get a head start on the 3 pieces I need to finish.

So I will be lurking today. I will try to get around to talking to ya'll, but not sure if that'll happen in the next day or not.

Good news is that it rained last night, and is still somewhat raining. That sort of makes up for lack of coffeeness.


<3 ya'll to bits!

I have a (very bare atm) Tumblr. Go ask me things. XD I'll most likely use this as a temp website as I'm still getting The Lone Doe up and running.

Also I have cinnamon gummy bears...*nomnom*

*edit* oh also, apparently I can eat somewhat again, though granted candy is not something I really should be eating. Not really sure what caused the sudden onset of my stomach going "nuuu" to all foods, when it just most foods. I do suspect however it had to do with me not knowing that Oleander was a toxin, and had picked a flower and gave it a little nibble the other day. *go me for taking vegetarian to an extreme level. XD*

http://www.furaffinity.net/journal/2586571/

Seriously, some uber cute artwork! I'm still squeeing over their version of Sugar. :3

http://www.furaffinity.net/journal/2583162/
You know you want to be one. ;3

One more journal thing.


VOICE MEME TIME! : http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=W1AJ0g94Gdg

Voice meme~!
1) What’s your name?
2) How old are you?
3) Where are you from? Are you living there right now?
4) What’s the time?
5) Is it cold where you are?
6) What are you wearing?
7) What was the last thing you listened to?
8) What was the last thing you ate?
9) What was the last thing you watched on TV?
10) What’s your favorite TV show? Why?
11) Quick! Find a book, or something with text on it! Flip to a random page and read some of it! GO!
12) What was the last movie you saw? How was it?
13) Do YOU think you have an accent? Talk about that.

I tag all ya'll. 8D

So sorry for 2 journals in one day. D:

I might go quiet for a while as I'm recovering, though I'll still be uploading art. Please don't take my silence, if there is any for anything bad. I swear I still love ya'll, just sometimes it's hard to think when my mind is all foggy.


The er doesn't know wtf is wrong with me so they suggested going to see a specialist. Fun.

Hey ya'll! Haven't forgotten you. I want to thank you again for all the faves and I'm slowly getting through all my comments.

<3<3

....so this afternoon I got so weak I passed out. This stomach/migraine thing is to say the least, getting really bad.

Sorry to anyone I was talking to at the time, I didn't mean to up and disappear. D: