Hello everyone and thank you for bearing with me over these past couple of years of silence especially after the last set of updates were... concerning, and to put everyone at ease I am doing slightly better now!
That last update was after a spike of depression and joblessness that lasted an uncomfortably long amount of time leading to some pretty overwhelming feelings of despair. For the last two to three years I have been battling this overwhelming anxiety and failure after failure after failure. Yet despite all of that there have been some small victories. For instance I am still able to type and upload this which means I still have a roof over my head and access to the internet and a computer which is something I don't take for granted, and I did in fact find a job. The job in question sucks and is not remotely what I studied for, but it is a small income stream which is a LOT better than nothing at all. However all of this is to say that despite everything that I am for all intensive purposes... fine, things do still suck but I haven't been wiped out by any major crises (at least not yet,) and I been given a means to start pushing back slowly but surely.

Now that I filled you all in on that let's get to the present and future stuff. For the last year or so I have made it my mission to get out of the crummy job I have now into a job where I can actually live independently and grow myself beyond just surviving. This job search has been one of the worst experiences ever, and it has led to some of the 'overwhelming anxiety' I alluded to earlier and a few more unpleasant feelings. I would say that my time was split between job, stuff you need to do to survive, anxiety management, and job searching, applications, resume tweaks, and all sorts of other nonsense related to the onerous job search. Then in 2024 a certain somebody got elected to the highest office of government in my country (USA). Ever since then there has been job and project cuts resulting in an even more competitive job market because of the D.O.G.E, and now there is news that these tariffs threaten to lead to a global recession which is... so great. (not really!) All is to say that navigating the job market went from absurdly difficult to basically impossible. So in response to that I am saying screw the job market (for now at least) lets see if there is something I can do that is a bit more productive. Turns out there is something I can do, I can use my abilities as a creator to make my first independent art series since leaving college (It was called SCAD for all those curious). With the fact that I am now making money from this job, and the fact that at the end of this month (May) I will have completed 27 years around the sun. I will be able to finally get all of the tools I need without being bogged down with the cost and time investment of trying to find a new job.

So this series is going to be called 'a dragons grief' and is thus going to be split into five separate pieces each one representing a different stage of grief. My medium is mainly 3d digital art, and although it is mostly going to be a 'normie' collection, this is like one of the only communities that has actually not made me feel like I have been losing my mind these past couple of years I am letting you guys get the first sneak peek as a kind of thank you. This is going to be kind of a 'portfolio piece' but in all honesty I am not doing it for formal reasons, I am mainly going to be doing it for the sake of unclogging a lot of the emotional baggage that I've got stored up, and airing my grievances about all of the BS that has been forced upon me and making sense of all of it. One of the core components of this project is I am going to do a better job of maintaining all of my current socials and adding new ones. So my first step is to post this journal, and to come up with a new profile layout for this page considering the old one was like seven years old now. I am also going to be sending this out to all of the discord channels that will actually read this so if you are from the discord channels or you're someone who saw this from FA then by all means drop a comment or say hello I will do my best to respond in a timely manner!

Um so it's been a rough few days... lemme explain. To ease some of your concerns no I am not going anywhere and I am fine now. I am going to warn those who are a bit sensitive to topics related to mental health crisis that this will be descriptive. Thursday night I tried to take my own life and thanks to a very close friend of mine it failed and I went to the ER. I have been under the hospital's inpatient care for 6 days and I am doing much better now. I am sorry for having you all worry for me, and I would like to reassure you that that is behind me now. Please continue to support the Majul ra page and I appreciate all of the messages you guys have given me especially over this past week

- Ruben

Hello everyone... definitely been a long time since I have had time to say something, so... hi. A lot of things have been just unbelievably crazy these past few months so I will try to briefly summarize that here... for those of you that care. A little while back I had posted that I needed advice to get fandom friends, and after all this time I think I have found a way to solve the problem and actually get some kind of friend group or something, and that is through EXPOSURE! I mean it's pretty simple once you think about it, but a lot of people that have massive friend groups in the fandom often times are either content creators or massive content consumers. (The people that buy tons of art.) That got me thinking, because while I can't draw I create other content that is imperative to game design or hard surface models... but neither of those are fandom related. Ok! so I can just buy a bunch of art of my sona right? Well a year ago I might of said absolutely, but a lot has changed since then, and a lot of unforeseen expenses have popped up since then, it has gotten so bad to the point where I had to pull out of all of my patreon subscriptions which sucks. However I have learned that chaos is not always a bad thing, because despite all that has happened I am still getting better at content creation, I am still going to university, (even though the reduced course load disability accommodation is mostly to blame for that.) and to top it all off I may even qualify for an internship this summer which would be HUGE. So where am I going with all of this... well I still want to commission people for art, I want to resub to all the people on patreon and add some more to that list! I am going to try to make that happen soon, I don't know when but soon. This is for the cool art that I get of my character. (and maybe another?) The exposure that that art brings to me and MajulRa, but also to help creator continue to grow and thrive. In the mean time I will continue to be around on FA watching and favoring as I normally do, and if you made it this far in the entry I sincerely thank you for reading, and I would appreciate if you would drop me a comment telling me how you feel about all of this, your feed back means the world to me!

Thank you for reading!
MajulRa-TheDragon

Hello all, Majul Ra The Dragon back with an update about a problem that has plagued me since I went public about being a furry... or scalie. I have one actual friend in the fandom that I actually talk and play games with which has led to me feeling a bit lonely in the furry fandom. I just don't really know where to start as far as acquiring friends in the fandom or how to acquire friends in the fandom without seeming intrusive. So... if anyone has advice please let me know whenever you have time. Thank you and have a great day!

Hello all its MajulRa-TheDragon, and after a long and painful summer I am finally back! First and foremost I want to thank all the people that have started watching my page, and the people that continue to watch my page you guys are awesome! Its hard to believe that this page has almost reached 50 watches which is crazy. Secondly as the title suggests I will finally be acting on a promise that I made, but have not fulfilled yet. I am going to commission an artist to draw the MajulRa ref sheet, which will allow me to get a LOT more commissions both SFW and NSFW of my character. So if any of the people have an artist that is able to draw the SFW and NSFW ref sheet for my fursona then direct them my way! Also another thing is once the ref sheet is done as I said I can reach out to a wide array of artists and finally get a lot of art for my character so if you are an artist or know an artist, send me a link to there page or message me directly so I can get all the arts and they can get paid. Thank you guys so much for reading, and I hope to hear from some of you soon.

Sincerely
MajulRa-TheDragon

Hello guys its Majul Ra the dragon and I know its been a while since I posted, but two things have happened that occupied my time. One university, and two my laptop was broken for over a month and a half now... so yeah life has definitely been a challenge these past couple of moths, but I don't like backing down from challenges! Also I have been working heavily on UE4 blueprinting, and now I am starting to look into the pipeline between Mixamo and UE4. If anyone has any advice on those topics I would definitely like to hear your opinion on that :). Also a revelation that I have about my sona and the brand I created around him is that there is a lot of NSFW stuff here, and the only art that I have for him is NSFW. That may be good for representing how I found the fandom, and coming out as bisexual, but that is not a good representation of the character itself. So I am going to look into adding more SFW content on the page and on Majul Ra himself. In fact if anyone knows some good jumping off points then please note me! That is not to say that the NSFW content is going away its just I want to mix it up more so that my page is not just NSFW. (Its just that I have no good starting points yet.)

Thanks for reading!
Sincerely Majul Ra The Dragon
PS Sorry for the length of this, but it has been a while so I had a lot to think about.

Hello Everyone if you are reading this then it means that I actually made it to spring break. (Yay!) I hope to return here soon to continue doing the stuff I did before although I am very lethargic from school so it may not be immediate, but keep your eyes out because I will be returning this week!

Sincerely Majul Ra The Dragon

Hello everyone despite what my page suggests I am not dead. (yet) Though I have been incredibly busy with school. I am now currently learning how to use the Unreal Engine (UE4) in blueprint mode. I have been looking through everyone's comments/watches on my profile, and hopefully I will get a chance to respond to them soon, but if not let me take the time to thank everyone who watched and commented on my profile! I hope to get back on here soon!

Sincerely

Majul Ra The Dragon.

Hello this is Majul Ra the Dragon, and all I ask is for a bit of time to read this, even if you are not interested with my page or my previous journals. I really would like to utilize my winter break as best as I can to accomplish as much as I can, and one thing that has been on my mind a lot as of late is finding a mate (a boyfriend.) I don't really know where to turn on this matter, so I figured to come here first, because if it weren't for FA I would probably have these bottled up homosexual feelings, and I would be an insecure mess. So... If you have any ideas or suggestions please shout them to me, leave a comment, or PM me. Thank you for reading.

Hello everyone it is Majul Ra, and I am officially on winter break for the month of December! So that means I will definitely be more active on FA, and I also have a few projects lined up for the winter that I can to wait to get started on! Speaking of there is one in particular that I think it is good idea to start here! (Please read the 'IMPORTANT PLEASE READ' journal entry.)

Hello all that read this it is Majul Ra The Dragon, and unfortunately school has kept me very busy as of late. It took an actual hurricane to finally give me, and everyone else at my school a break for a day. As you all can see I am using that time to update my FA page some more so you can get to know me a little bit better. As I previously stated I am available to you, but due to my schedule I may not be able to reply to you right away so... yeah I am sorry. Know that all of your comments, shouts, and watches have not gone ignored as I have looked at all of them, and would like to thank everyone who watched/ commented on my profile and art. Any ways I would like to thank you all for reading and have a good day... or night.

Hello, this is the profile of Majul Ra the dragon, and this is my page! I have been on FA for quite a long time, but I have not been as active as I would like. Today I am making a big change, and a new commitment to be more active on FA. When I say 'active' I mean that I will like, favorite, and watch more art/fursonas. I will also make myself more available to YOU, so if you need someone to talk to or you just want to hang out with someone, PM me. Also if you are an artist or know any artist I should check out then please let me know!

NOTE: I will NOT under any circumstance accept or spread any toxicity or hate of any kind.