Migrating accounts so my art socials can share usernames. So people can find me and all that jazz
https://www.furaffinity.net/user/ma.....mbtheteadragon

Merp. I typed up a thing in a weird sleepless mania. Sometimes I get hit with really thick moments of deep thought

Children are often filled with an unfettered wonder.
They’ll hear a story about a child that can fly, and they’ll leap and hurt themselves trying to fly, themselves.
They’ll often do this many times.
They come back, bruised and heartbroken, their wonder dashed.
Many might say growing up is about that wonder dying.
An adult would be a child whose wonder has truly gone.
They look around at the world around them, and see the world as it appears to be.
They accept that, surely, the world cannot be more than they see.
Their wonder long gone and never found again because their trust was too often broken and their hopes too often dashed.
Others might say the wonder must be kept alive.
An adult can wonder just as strong as any child.
They stand out and keep trying to take flight like their old childhood stories.
They spread their arms and look heavenward, hoping time and time again for the story to retell itself.
Their wonder is alive and going strong, but their eyes never quite see the world around them.
But perhaps both could learn from the other.
Perhaps there’s nothing wrong with going out and standing in the open breeze, hoping it might take oneself away into the air, so one might learn to fly.
Sure one could fail, but where would they find themself?
They would find themself standing out in the open breeze.
Perhaps they would get to watch the sunset, or breathe a breath of fresh air.
Perhaps they would, for a moment, stand in reverence of the world around them.
To wonder, to explore what life has to offer.
To push for what might seem impossible.
Because not trying for the impossible means you might never see the bounds of what is possible.
Because you might never see the rolling peaks and valleys of the mountains if you never take a step towards the peak.
Because a life trying for what one truly wants is better than accepting what one has been given.
Because striving for a world as it should be is better than condemning it for what it is.
And because failure to reach the best is not reason enough to stop trying for the better.

I hope and wonder, truly, for a world where all gather together in solidarity for the sheer joy of it.
A world where joy and love are shared because it is a joy to share them.
A world where we do not hate, for not even hate deserves it.
A world where we know our love and our hate, our joy and our sorrow.
So, we can hold each other, and let each other feel.
To process our love, so that it will not go unheard.
To process our hate, so that it will not lash out.
To let ourselves feel what it is like to live in a place where it is safe to feel.
A world where neither flag nor history stands between two people.
And I will live for this world, even if it is never seen.
Because I refuse to dedicate my life for anything less.
Especially because of so meaningless a word as ‘impossible.’

I hope everyone had a good pride month. I was intending to create something for Demi pride, but just never got the real want for it. But, either way, Happy Pride and good luck to all doing their best to understand themselves.

Woke up with a mixture of sick and early morning deep voice. Decided to play around with voices and what not https://youtu.be/RmnU3W2kFrc

Just getting better at wording, so I updated the previous journal.

I know this is unconventional, but I'm unconventional. I don't know how to date, and, to get my thoughts straight, I decided to type up what exactly I want out of a romantic partner. It was easiest to format it like a romantic ad. After writing it, it seemed decent enough that I could actually use it as a romantic ad. Do I really expect this to go anywhere? Well, it'll have more of a chance of going somewhere than if I did nothing. If you read this and it seems suited to you, cool, throw me a note. If you know someone who it might be suited for, cool, feel free to show this to them.

If this isn't suited to you, or you think this is a horribly stupid idea. Don't worry. That's totally understandable. I'll do my best to take care of myself.

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I'm a 26 year old demi-heterosexual male. I've never dated, but now I want to start.

I'm hoping to find someone that can share a strong friendship with me, and I want to watch that friendship and see if romantic feelings blossom. I don't want to go into a relationship only for the purpose of being in a relationship. I want someone that I can have strong, open, and effective dialog with. I want someone I can enjoy being bored with on the quiet days and someone I can feel safe with during the exciting days. I want someone willing to nurture and protect a safe atmosphere where both of us can openly talk about what we like and what makes us uncomfortable.

I'm demi. I've not had much practice with exploring my sexuality, but I'm very introspective. For a romantic, and eventually sexual, partner, I don't require any particular physical traits other than being female and wanting my partner to be either healthy, in terms of diet and exercise, or making an honest effort to be healthy. It'd be nice to have someone I can do yoga and exercise with.

I want to be able to talk with my partner about stuff we want to try, be it mundane, romantic, sexual, or otherwise. The world is full of beautiful sights, wonderful food, and all sorts of interesting things. No one can try it all, but I don't want fear or ineffective dialog to keep me from trying something that interests me. The comfort of myself and whatever partner I end up with is important, so, for things requiring both of us, I will accept their boundaries and will expect the same for mine.

I'm neurodivergent. Most days, I'm a fully operational and capable adult. On particularly stressful days, some of my neurodivergent traits are harder to manage and show a bit more, but years of living with these traits has given me plenty of time to adjust and train myself to handle these things.

I love people. I love having deep conversations and growing to understand another person. I love being emotionally open with who I am as a human being. I don’t need an extrovert or introvert partner specifically, but I do need to understand my partner and their boundaries emotionally and have me understood in kind. I try very hard to be a positive influence for the people around me, and it warms my heart to see people smile and enjoy life.

I’m a creative soul. I do art for my living, write for the hell of it, and worldbuild for fun. I love pondering the different aspects of culture and the peoples from those cultures. I like imagining a world and trying to figure out how the people in that world would develop alongside their environment. I’ll randomly get an itch and listen to history or folklore podcasts and videos.

I enjoy cooking. I like throwing assorted ingredients into a skillet, pot, or wok and just seeing what flavors I can assemble. I like trying new things and usually maintain a practice of being willing to try most any food with an open mind at least once.

I play DnD, roleplay with friends, and talk in funny voices. Making my friends laugh around a digital table is something I love to do. I also play video games, usually hopping from game to game as the spirits hit. I have played on consoles, but I play on PC at the moment.

I’m a furry. I love anthropomorphic media, be it stories, movies, art, etc. I enjoy sharing the memes and art with my friends, and they enjoy having a furry that can pick out the stuff they’ll enjoy. I want a partner that can share at least some of my excitement in furry stuff. I don’t want to live my life feeling like the only person who’s into what is a major part of my life.

Update on the technical issues:

OS reinstall proved unnecessary. Turns out my graphics card is fried. So, I can't play high end games anymore, but that's a problem fixed.

Commissions coming in, and I'll be able to get a new card in not too long :)

Had to wipe and reinstall my OS. All my beautifully delicate graphics and tablet settings. oh gahd. We can rebuild them. We have the technology.

A lot of my setup is actually pretty simple to get going again. Just a bit of a weird endeavor. Luckily, I got a friend who does tech stuff for a living (oddly enough not a furry, despite the memes).

Here's hoping the reinstall fixed the problem.