My new account is !!! This account will be deactivated within the next few days.

SO in 1-2 weeks time, this profile will be deactivated/disabled!! I now have my new profile set up, a fursona ready, as well as one side character.

Here's my new place!

 Mali-R00

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btw, these characters STILL need to go!

http://www.furaffinity.net/journal/7661759/

You MUST have a DA to buy these adopts using da points!! They will be selling at OTA - Offer To Adopt basis. As a fair warning, there will be some NSFW ref sheets included with certain chars.

If you are interested in one of them, comment below their number, name, and how much you are willing to pay for them.

Beside their name, they will have a base line. Example: "Nothing under 200 points"
Keep in mind, 100 points = 1$ in real money. So if i had one at a base price of "1,000 points" it would literally be like paying 10$ for something. The base price is based off of how much i like the design.

If i accept your offer, shoot me a note on here with your DA name, and in return i will reply with my own. Let me know when you've sent the payment, and i will reply when/if i have received said payment.

I have 31 total characters im trying to get rid of. Help me out?



RULES
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1. NO refunds

2. First come first serve, unless someone offers higher before i reply to you.

3. If this happens, DO NOT throw a fit

4. If you purchase it, it is yours. Do as you wish with it but credit me for the design please.

6. DO NOT send payment until i have accepted your offer

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NUMBER 1 -- "Skye" -- Nothing under 100 points

http://www.furaffinity.net/view/12925813/ || (NSFW REF) http://www.furaffinity.net/view/12925693/


NUMBER 2 -- "Noah" -- Nothing under 200 points

http://www.furaffinity.net/view/13474131/


NUMBER 3 -- "Sub-Zero" -- Nothing under 100 points

http://www.furaffinity.net/view/13418423/

NUMBER 4 -- "Aleu" -- Nothing under 50 points

http://www.furaffinity.net/view/13506725/

NUMBER 5 -- "Jaybird" -- Nothing under 200 points

http://www.furaffinity.net/view/13700497/ (NSFW)

NUMBER 6 -- "Errol" -- Nothing under 300 points

http://www.furaffinity.net/view/13925118/

NUMBER 8 -- "Niiju" -- Nothing under 100 points

http://www.furaffinity.net/view/14554215/

NUMBER 9 -- "Jax" -- Nothing under 100 points

http://www.furaffinity.net/view/15114184/

NUMBER 10 -- "Booberry" -- Nothing under 300 points

http://www.furaffinity.net/view/15144431/

NUMBER 11 -- "Tikki" -- Nothing under 100 points

http://www.furaffinity.net/view/15388729/

NUMBER 12 -- "Niiku" -- Nothing below 40 points

http://www.furaffinity.net/view/15453977/

NUMBER 13 -- "October" -- Nothing below 50 points

http://www.furaffinity.net/view/15569633/

NUMBER 14 -- "Namii" -- Nothing under 600 points

http://www.furaffinity.net/view/15769614/ || http://www.furaffinity.net/view/15769657/ (NSFW)

NUMBER 15 -- "Nameless" -- Nothing under 50 points

http://www.furaffinity.net/view/14996569/

NUMBER 16 -- "Ridge" -- Nothing under 800 points

http://www.furaffinity.net/view/15241619/ (NSFW)


NUMBER 20 -- "Loki" -- Nothing under 200 points

http://www.furaffinity.net/view/17170479/


NUMBER 21 -- "Matt Pit" -- Nothing under 100 points

http://www.furaffinity.net/view/17278522/ (Mature/sheath)


NUMBER 24 -- "Nova" -- nothing under 200 points

http://www.furaffinity.net/view/17914911/


NUMBER 26 -- "Code 09" -- Nothing under 20 points

http://www.furaffinity.net/view/18327097/

NUMBER 27 -- "Lurch" -- Nothing under 50 points

http://www.furaffinity.net/view/18341806/

NUMBER 28 -- "Monster mutt" -- Nothing under 50 points

http://www.furaffinity.net/view/18470308/

NUMBER 29 -- "Haze" -- Nothing under 50 points

http://www.furaffinity.net/view/19544522/ (NSFW)

The reason -- As you all know, i have an addiction to making characters. I never saw a problem with this until now. Now i realize that i feel like the creativity, the life, the meaning of characters and art has just gone from me. I say i love all my characters, and i do, but i love their designs, not them. This has become rather empty hoarding and i'm ready to admit it is a real problem for me. It's drained the creativity right out of me. It's supposed to be fun to draw, you're supposed to be able to express yourself in ways you cannot put into words through art; from the colors you use, to the textures, to the expressions and the poses. Hidden hints even if you're one to draw something with underlying meaning. And...i just don't feel it anymore. It feels like they're just floating around without meaning. Like foam blocks in a pool. Blank, unused, and just kind of...well drifting about with no meaning. I don't want it to feel this way anymore.

As for a fursona, it feels like no one knows who it is because i'm constantly changing. And recently it's really been weighing on me. Your fursona is supposed to represent YOU- people are supposed to recognize them as YOU- your character, and your alone. They're supposed to be able to click a name typed on a screen with the face of your fursona. That's what they're supposed to represent and it feels like...i dont have one. Because i dont. Im just someone who draws without a face basically. That's what it's beginning to feel like, and it's made me so unhappy recently. I want that life back, i want that colorful feeling. I want that happiness again. I want to be able to truly feel like im representing and expressing myself through my art. That's what makes art so beautiful in my opinion. Like how tons of people have their own distinctive style; some people can see a thumbnail and instantly click a name to the artist who did it. There's sooo much stability in those types of artists and i honestly want to be one of them. I want that stability. This account, these characters, this art style it just feels so very...empty. Running on fumes. Struggling. I can't do it anymore.

I have to make a change, and start fresh. I have to DO SOMETHING about this, and i believe my best option is to make a new account for that fresh feeling. For that new start. I'm even strongly considering getting an art tablet to aid with my drawing, maybe testing a few other drawing programs to play with and experiment with my style to find something that fits ME. Something that feels like me, and i can do easily and happily.

When If you've gotten this far, thank you so much for reading this. Know that I will post another journal with all the characters i will be selling. There will be more information there. This one however, is about moving.

Said move will happen when I have found myself in a fursona i feel truly happy with, no matter how long it takes. Even if i have to wait for my tablet. I will set up the account, and post another journal once all is ready and set up, revealing my new account! I will let it sit for a week or two with updates here and there to make sure everyone has seen and read this. Followed my new account if you guys wished. Ect. Once that time period is up, I will be deleting/deactivating/whatever the fucking this account. u

Today i got my wisdom teeth cut out.

I expected the whole "No solid food- only soft things, ect" routine and whatnot so that's no surprise~ But UGHHHH

I slept most of the day due to this. so i haven't eaten anything. The last time i ate was 10:30 pm YESTERDAY. Im fucking HUNGRY but cant have anything. We have nothing soft in the house but noodles which count as soup and Jell-O. Well since is lept all day the jell-o wont be ready until tomorrow. So they got me a milkshake.

But now my gf's dad (i live with them) orders stuffed crust pizza; pepperoni lovers. My favorite. and i cant have it because of these fucking stitches in my mouth from the procedure. THEY KNOW THIS- no, i dont expect them to stop eating the good things because i cant eat them too, but it still makes me feel like it's rubbing salt in the wounds.

I can't clean my mouth until tomorrow, it's gross, and my pain meds make me hot. Im fucking hungry as all hell, and cant do anything about it because im too upset to want noodles. I wanna cry and throw a fit like a kid, so im ranting on here. You can ignore me, i just needed to cuss and bitch about this bullshit because it's going to be DAYS before i can eat the good shit again. Im going to waste away for like 3 days because of this. I HATE the dentist and i HATE the way things have to go because of having to have this shit done.

I'm tired, im hot, im hungry, i dont feel good, i want to throw a fit and i am. I hope tomorrow is better and the healing process goes quick. I cant STAND this shit.

On my Gf's Dad's work laptop and this means major lack of activity and ZERO ART until I get a new laptop at the end of this month.

I lost EVERYTHING. jfc. I had EVERYTHING written on a word doc; emails, passwords, sites, ect.

I had an art trade nearly done, personal art, ect. all of it...all of it. Gone. I hope the rest of this month flies by.

I was proud of Disney.

1- The parents didn't die.

2- It wasn't a mushy, gooey, "I fell for the boy lets chase him into the sunset"

3- It had some great realization moments as the case moved along.


Because im furry trash, I wish that those tigers had more screen time. They need their spotlight. I wanna see those stripes sparkle up close for a whole show.

On another note, I rlly love the whole movie. I wanna watch it again.

Some people- "Valentines day <3333"

Most people- "Im going to do nothing today"/"It's just another day"

Me- "THE WALKING DEAD TONIGHT YEAAAA"

I wanna see some goldies. ;w; so if you want, link your goldie below and i'll give them a gander.

And MAYBE

just MAYBE

I MIGHT draw them if I really like them. <3

Am I the only one who wants to see some Gravity Falls themed lucky charms??

I mean c'mon. The regular ceral is Bill Cipher shaped, the marshmallows are like, Mabel's star, Dipper's pine tree, Wendy's hat, exc.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=3JNLwlcPBPI

THE HYPE IS REAL

though im probably late lmao

I FINALLY GOT FUCKING EGGNOG

AFTER YEARS OF WANTING IT AND NEVER FINDING IT AT THE RIGHT TIME-

I FINALLY GOT IT. I FUCKING WIN.

WOO!!!

Now excuse me while I go make loud gasm noises as I drink the whole jug

About art and the world.

If you don't care, or your sensitive, or have anything whiney, negative blah blah blah shit- stop reading and click away. That simple.

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Im about to share my own views on what's okay and what's not. So here it goes.

Referencing: An artist puts a lot of practice, time, and hard work into their art itself. The pose, the characters, ect.

If you see something by an artist you like-- Admire the work. Watch them if you want, favorite, and leave a comment respectfully asking something along the lines: "I really like the work you did here. The pose is spectacular. May I reference this pose?"
Then patiently await their answer and respect the answer you're given.
If they do not answer you- Do not reference.

If you DO get permission? Wonderful! Ref away!
BUT
When you upload this piece, you should credit the artist for the original pose properly. Something like:
"______ was kind enough to let me reference their pose from __-original picture link-_____!!"

That is the right, most respectful way to go about it. I guarantee that more artists and their watchers/fans/whatever would be much more fond of you. So long as it isn't tracing.
Reference means you look at it and try your best to get it to look like it. Or just like, use it for proportion purposes.


Another thing

If we wanted our work traced/copied/referenced blah blah blah

We would state so in the description.

Like lineart.

If it's free to use- READ THE RULES, respect the rules, and you can use it freely for what the fuck ever. That's what we make it for. A generous gift to all of you out there. All we ask is respect and for you to follow the rules we lay for it. and 99.9999% of the time, one of the rules is "Credit me for the original lineart" and some people cant even do that shit. They either don't mention the artist at all, claim it as their own, or upload it with no description.
Is it really that hard to do, people?
If we give a gift like that, you should at least show gratitude in the form of respect.


Respect, permission, credit.

Not that hard to go by people.

One day all the real artists are going to quit supplying all the thieves of every way, shape, form, and fashion out there. Then where will y'all be, hm? Lost as fuck, forced to truly work for artistic skill if you aint too lazy for that when the time comes.

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~~WARNING!!! The following is about to get very dark, depressing, fucking angry and it's about the world and bullshit 'humanity'.
Don't want your vision of the world turned to shit?? Turn back NOW.~~

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I cant wait for the end of the world man, it's gonna save everybody's ass. It needs to hurry up and do away with the world already, man. I said it a million times and I will say it a million times more until [i]The Day comes..[/i].

The city is shit. The world is shit because the humans are shit. We shoulda damn well known when the Indians were fuckin' slain that this place was then founded on the grounds of "Fuck you".

Man I love life. I really do. But i'm getting fuckin' tired of seeing the same damn shit every damn day of my life.

Houses are getting broken into more frequently, People gettin' shot up for no damn reason, our cops are getting slaughtered like the pigs they are, shit now a days you cant even put gas in your car without someone firing off lead at you just because they can.

Babies getting child abused so damn bad that every bone in their small body snaps in half or shatters totally.
Suicide man, now a days kids are 8 years old wanting to die because school bullies and the stress or just because their parents don't give a fuck about them until it's too late, then they wanna bitch and yell at the kid and all that shit. So then they walk away feeling depressed, alone, trapped, and OOPS the next day they're strung up, bleeding out, over dosing, screaming at themselves in the mirror, whatever they can do to make it stop.

The sexuality shit?? Man that's getting way out of hand. "They're gay they're ruining everything all they do is blah blah blah"
Bitch- fuck you. If they aint all up in your face trying to force their ways on you, why the FUCK do you give two shits about what they do and don't do? Why don't you focus on other shit besides their life.

Meanwhile all this bullshit on the news about sexuality, and their rights and all that jazz, racism is right along side that!

This racism bullshit is way out of whack. Everybody pointing finger like fuckin' preschoolers.

Everybody's gettin' shot, everybody's getting raped, beaten, jumped, pregnant ass 11 year olds, everybody's gettin' cancer, everybody's having a baby to further OVER POPULATE this piece of shit world, and just...bruh.
I'm an Athiest, but dude...the CHURCHES are getting broke into and shot up on the spot. Just for being Christian. And even though I give no shits about that what so ever, it's just like...Really bruh? You know you're gonna bet busted for that bullshit then I- ME! I'll have to hear all about the Church and the religion and blah blah blah and how your dumbass stormed up in there with a gun and shot everybody and their momma.
I don't wanna hear that shit, bro, why don't you have any chill?

Then the other day I saw people ripping up forest land to place another damn useless "just because we have the tools to" building. I look back? All I see is fuckin' buildings. Factories. Refineries. Black smoke puking out of the tops and churning from the tail pipes of cars. I wanted to puke. I literally gagged at that shit. The more people there are, the more people die, the more forests/nature dies and sooner or later??? There will be no fuckin' plants to provide out oxygen. Then scientists will probably say some bullshit like "We have the technology to make artificial oxygen that works like the real thing!! :D"

FUck you. Fuck the world. Fuck the people in it. Now a days it's "You have to do this, you HAVE to do that because if you don't you go to prison and all yo shit gets jacked"

"America~! Land of the free and home of the brave"

LMAO!!!

We don't have a choice to o 80-90% of the shit required today!! HAHAHA!! Land of the free...oh..oh that's too good.

Im not suicidal but looking at the world today makes me not give two flying fucks about if something chops my fuckin head off or if I get mauled by a cougar that's been chased from his habitat by humans. I really...I'm starting not to care about life. Even art is stressful now days. Always gotta worry about someone stealing your shit. Too much drama for me man. If someone held a gun to my face today i'd probably tell them "Do me a fucking favor. PLEASE."

I'd love to see the end of the world but im beginning to wonder if life's drama is even worth it.

BUT im not going anywhere. I've got dreams to fulfil, and time to kill until then. October isn't far off and hopefully that month will be better and i'll be a little happier. If you've made it to this point? Kudos. To reward your forever reading, this rant is now over.

and now I'm stuck again. This song is so old but I fucking love it I have to try and spread the love

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=hvMjaCGc4rk

Dawn of the clans - Warriors - Book 6: the path of stars

I just finished reading it and

I cried because how depressing it was to read.

Like

Graywing didn't get to live with his kits long enough. He should have been able to watch them grow up.
-sniffle-

I think it should have ended where all the leaders died- their deputies took charge, naming the clans after their leaders in their memory and for basically founding the 5 clans.

That would have been so much less depressing because it would have been a heart warming type of sad. Not "Graywing- a cat you've known from the start of Dawn of the Clans- dies, doesn't get to live with his kits and watch them grow even if he's old as fuck. Nahh he dies right in front of his kits after naming the clans."

Bruh.

Really? Damn it fucking shit ass now im sad.

AND THEN--

Now there's going to be ANOTHER 6 books for after Bramblestar's reign?? I know im propably late to this news, but tough shit.

Like, "Warriors: A vision of Shadows Book 1 - The Apprentice's Quest"???

I love warriors. I really do. All of them have been fantastic. Truly <3

Except Bramblestar's Storm...I thought that one sucked just as bad as the first three original books.

Of course im going to read them either way it goes. I just wanna take a moment to kindly, politely say--

What the fuck? Again with the whole "destiny" thing? Again with the whole "I must do it for the clans" deal?

-dramatic movie maker voice- "One cat to save the all~"

Couldn't it have stopped with Dawn of the Clans? Or even Bramblestar's Storm? Why oh why why why

why must it continue. I see no reason for this to keep going.

One of Two things is gonna happen- Either the clans get saved after drama and death *as usual* / Or / The clans will be destroyed. Which I highly doubt.

Of course, as a loyal warriors fan, i'll read. I will read them.
I just wanted to rant.

Familiar, anyone??

http://www.furaffinity.net/view/17742734 -

I do believe we have a tracer thief here.

http://www.furaffinity.net/view/5234137/ - The ORIGINAL

Some people might be like "Oh but it's free use"

Yes to COLOR. Not trace it and claim as your own like; 'A random head sketch I did'

People piss me off.

and with my arrival I bring renewed energy and optimism!!

It was soooo awesome. I am lucky.

September 7th - 15th I will be GONE. I will be gone on vacation if plans go through.

Just curious? Anyone wanna be eaten by a Fossa? I wanna draw my sona Rekk eating someone.

Gore or micro vore? Maybe both at once?

If you DO wanna be eaten by chance, you can link a ref below and if I like your character (find them appetizing) I'll draw them being eaten by my boy Rekk.

so apparently my wonderful uncle was able to fix my laptop over night. So woo!!

I'm on my uncle's laptop right now, and have come to tell you guys that my activity will be seriously going down the drain. There will be no art until I get another laptop.

So ttfn

I have stopped uploading art to DeviantART.

I do not post my art anywhere else but HERE now.

If you see my art ANYHERE but here, on THIS profile
It is STOLEN and should be reported as such, and shown to me.

Unless I give the person who owns the character I have drawn for them written reposting permission, it needs to be addressed.

I'm going to tell you guys in the nicest way I know how.

DO NOT bring your religion of any kind to my page, gallery, journals, art, whatever. Don't. Any religious comments will be blocked and ignored. If you proceed I will block you.

Simple as that. Have a nice day.

~~VENT AHEAD. VERY negative. If you are sensitive or do not give a fuck do not continue reading.~~

I contradict myself more often than not. I have two sides to me and one side is far too dark.. I get so angry and pissed off, so bitter and careless. I hate the world and humans in it. Humans are the base of my hate and will forever be. The other day I was riding in the truck and I saw people ripping down sections of forest, making room for more man made shit. I nearly puked I got so pissed off, I wanted them to die. Im so pissed off at the humans, and all the BULLSHIT that's going on right now. Honestly I wish the end of the world would consume this place already. Yeah I have a shit ton of shit i'd love to do before I die, and im not done here, but this fucking world dude...it makes me want to puke. Go ape shit and just kill as many people as I can get my hands on before police come and sentence me to either life in prison or death. That's pretty fucking bad when the world makes you feel disgusted to be human. Not with their words, but their actions.

Then people have the balls to call ME the crazy one. To call ME the disrespectful one. To call ME insane. To call ME a monster. To call ME an abomination. To call ME a traitor. To tell ME that I'M the motherfucker going to "hell". To call ME paranoid.
Fuck you. If I am a monster it is because the world has made me this way...it is because this world has pushed me beyond the point of breaking. If I am an abomination it is the result of the world- no, MAN. If I am insane it is because I was DRIVEN there! I am the result of today's world...I am man made. And if you do not like the image you see of me- it is all because of the world around us. I was good once. Sweet. Happy. Loving. Caring. I didn't want anyone to suffer, and I thought this world was gorgeous. Until I got older, and watched everything turn to SHIT...until I watched the world crumble around me. Until humans turned me into something man made..

Everyone has been going on leave from DA so much lately over some dark depressing shit. That's understandable. The point is- the world is going black inside and out. The suffering, the horror, the pain, the agony, the fear, the anger, the treachery, the fighting, the depression, the terror of breathing, murder, suicide...all of it will only get worse. And worse. And worse. Until this world implodes upon itself. I've said it once I've said it a billion times and I will say it again: the apocalypse will save this world. Death. Will be our saving fate.

People wonder why there are people like me in this world. People hate people like me in this world. They believe people like me should be killed, locked up, or sealed away in a padded room in the loony bin. No.. We just know the truth and don't fucking sugar coat it. This world has gone to shit, will remain shit, and proceed into deeper shit before it ends in the disgusting tarnished depths of what was once beauty.
People think i'm a freak because I find beauty in death...no. I find beauty in death because the living world is fucking disgusting. Some call me a rat. Maybe I am a rat. And my disease is being human in this junkyard of a world.
I am dark. The world made me the man before you today. Well...this side at least. This side is the one I call "Jacob" - My friendly, happy, understanding, life-loving side is "Jake". Someone well known by those who are fond of me. But the side of me typing this, believes that this world is shit. We are all born to die. Humans are the worst thing out there, and I was CURSED to this earth as one. I cannot stand my reflection because all I see is a human and its disgusting. I want to destroy every mirror in the house.

I no value for any human life I do not truly love to some point. No matter the age, or gender I don't give a single fuck if they all dropped dead. Fed up with the world and wanting to watch it END with a bottle of vodka in hand and my gun.

My all time favorite youtuber has to be Jacksepticeye.

His channel is so much more different from the other youtubers, he's so open, loud, high energy, and just an altogether sweet and fun guy to watch. Plus he has my favorite accent. He's silly, and just has fun with so much he does on his channel. It's one of the most positive channels I've seen on youtube, honestly. It feels like i'm closer to him than any other youtuber I watch.

When I'm sad, no matter how deep my distress is I know I can go to Jack and just watch his videos. In no time i'm smiling so much I can't stop, i'm laughing again, and it's his spirit, dude. So much passion and love just rolls from his channel- he cares so much and it's obvious. I love his reading comments videos- they're funny, filled with fun facts about him, he's so honest too. Gives simple but good advice on serious situations too. I love how optimistic he is, and there's just nothing else I can say- I love Jack. Really. He's my all time favorite youtuber as I've stated at the start of this short, random fact journal.

If I could, i'd meet him in real life in a heartbeat. I want a JSE hoodie and maybe even a little Septic Sam keychain. :heart: I have so much to thank him for- he has gotten me through some major depression and just so much shit and darkness. Every time I watch one of his videos, no matter what mood i'm in I end up laughing. If I could draw humans, Jack would get ALL of the fanart. Seriously.

I actually plan to do some JSE fanart soon. Like, just the other day I was SO happy after watching a few of his videos I was in tears from overwhelming happiness. I guess i'm a lot more sensitive than I've ever though. But I'd love to meet him in real life as stated before. His channel doesn't feel like just another channel, or just another youtuber, it feels like he's just a long distance friend. A true friend. Words cannot express how happy I am writing this or how far my gratitude goes. If I had never found Jack, i'd be a lot less happy. He has improved my life just being himself and doing what he loves.

He really does deserve more love. He's loud. He's random. But he's funny and a great friend.

https://www.youtube.com/user/jacksepticeye