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General | Posted 10 years agoYour eyebrows lookin' like a Nike check.
You care about what other people think.
You try to be my parole officer.
You're always throwing a pity party.
You're too damn skinny.
You're too damn shy.
You're too damn self conscious.
You're too sensitive.
You can't take a fucking joke.
Your breath smellin' like King Kong's hairy ass.
Your too fragile.
You don't know how to fucking chill.
You always wanna be on the move.
You constantly all up in my business.
You smoke.
You smell like 8 cans of shark shit.
You don't like dogs or animals in general.
You let other people think for you.
You freak the fuck out over the smallest shit.
You want me to change.
You want me on YOUR time.
Your hair is looking like a damn pineapple or some other funky shit.
You're always fuckin' busy or shit.
You're always worried about how you look.
You're picky about where we go
You're picky about what you get anywhere, whether it be food, clothing, whatever.
You're ungrateful as fuck.
You're negative as fuck.
You're dumb on a whole new level.
You don't shave.
Every time we argue you break up with me and go all dark soul bitch then wanna apologize and be all giggly and lolz and cuddly trying to take me back- fuck. you. Bitch. Carry your ass on somewhere with that bullshit and out my face.
Those are just some things that define why we can't date. I've changed soooo much recently with my relationships.
What are some of the things that define your "We can't date if" list?
You care about what other people think.
You try to be my parole officer.
You're always throwing a pity party.
You're too damn skinny.
You're too damn shy.
You're too damn self conscious.
You're too sensitive.
You can't take a fucking joke.
Your breath smellin' like King Kong's hairy ass.
Your too fragile.
You don't know how to fucking chill.
You always wanna be on the move.
You constantly all up in my business.
You smoke.
You smell like 8 cans of shark shit.
You don't like dogs or animals in general.
You let other people think for you.
You freak the fuck out over the smallest shit.
You want me to change.
You want me on YOUR time.
Your hair is looking like a damn pineapple or some other funky shit.
You're always fuckin' busy or shit.
You're always worried about how you look.
You're picky about where we go
You're picky about what you get anywhere, whether it be food, clothing, whatever.
You're ungrateful as fuck.
You're negative as fuck.
You're dumb on a whole new level.
You don't shave.
Every time we argue you break up with me and go all dark soul bitch then wanna apologize and be all giggly and lolz and cuddly trying to take me back- fuck. you. Bitch. Carry your ass on somewhere with that bullshit and out my face.
Those are just some things that define why we can't date. I've changed soooo much recently with my relationships.
What are some of the things that define your "We can't date if" list?
October 11th
General | Posted 10 years agoTWD returns. Just watched the trailer im so pumped yet horrified that Daryl is going to FUCKING DIE
and if he does, i'll throw the biggest fit in the history of ever, and cry for fucking ever.
If Daryl dies i'll only have two people left to watch TWD for - Carol and Carl. Rick may or may not be growing on me, so 2 and half...
I also can't wait to se Rick and Morgan meet up again.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Va1UPrFXHKA
and if he does, i'll throw the biggest fit in the history of ever, and cry for fucking ever.
If Daryl dies i'll only have two people left to watch TWD for - Carol and Carl. Rick may or may not be growing on me, so 2 and half...
I also can't wait to se Rick and Morgan meet up again.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Va1UPrFXHKA
Break time
General | Posted 10 years agoI'll be back when I get back
No Subject
General | Posted 10 years agoLike most dogs, I am built to follow; without a leader I am lost and unstable.
I am misunderstood, not like the savage beasts you see and hear of in fairy tales... but I am not pure either. I am tainted, this is true, my instincts are powerful, I am very powerful, a natural hunter. I have spilled blood of both man and animal, I have fought from dusk until dawn, I crave the hunt, I crave the adrenaline. It is only natural..
But I am not just a beast. I can feel like you can, I have red blood like you have, I have a beating heart like you have. I may not talk nor think like you, but I am capable in my own way...you just have to listen and understand.
I am not meant to be a leader, and I look for guidance even if I resist sometimes, but I know my place. I am neither beast, nor saint. The collar I wear around my neck is no "house pet" mark...it is a symbol of my devotion and my loyalty to both my pack and my Mistress. To show others I am not ashamed, but proud of my rank and who I serve. Many say being a werewolf is a curse, but it is also a gift. And so I am willing to submit my entire being to you. Many search for their purpose in life, and wonder when their time to meet their destiny will come along...I have found my purpose. My place. And I know I have reached my destiny because of the pride, happiness, and peace I feel when in the presence of my pack and my Mistress. I belong here.
I... am silver-born.
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If you're confused by this, you deserve an explanation: You see, my friend and I do a large group roleplay. Nothing special, just "classic" so to speak.
2 Rival packs/clans. And I belong to one, while the other is out enemy. Each pack is made up of either witches, warlocks, a vampire, or a werewolf. But only 2 werewolves are allowed in either pack. One a warrior/servant and the other a hunter or huntress depending on gender.
I play the role of a "Silver-born" aka a werewolf warrior, and my rank is not only a warrior but a personal servant to my Mistress (Master/Queen of the Northern Shades *my pack*) who is played by my best friend in a master/pet relationship, after I submitted my freedom. This role feels right to me, and what is written above is exactly what it feels like. I have so much fun, and have been contemplating on making this a Comic here on FA for you guys to follow along in our adventures against the Eastern Bloods.
The way the Master to werewolf bond works in this roleplay is a lot how the dragons and their riders are in Eragon: If the werewolf dies, the master lives. But if the Master dies, so does their werewolf... and so the two are literally inseparable. Once the bond is sealed, the further they are away from eachother, the weaker they become. Even though they will not die, they will become weak and sick. They need one another to keep at their most powerful.
If you'd like to hear more about this, note me. I will answer any questions. I gotta go to bed now though, have to be up kind of early. oops,
I am misunderstood, not like the savage beasts you see and hear of in fairy tales... but I am not pure either. I am tainted, this is true, my instincts are powerful, I am very powerful, a natural hunter. I have spilled blood of both man and animal, I have fought from dusk until dawn, I crave the hunt, I crave the adrenaline. It is only natural..
But I am not just a beast. I can feel like you can, I have red blood like you have, I have a beating heart like you have. I may not talk nor think like you, but I am capable in my own way...you just have to listen and understand.
I am not meant to be a leader, and I look for guidance even if I resist sometimes, but I know my place. I am neither beast, nor saint. The collar I wear around my neck is no "house pet" mark...it is a symbol of my devotion and my loyalty to both my pack and my Mistress. To show others I am not ashamed, but proud of my rank and who I serve. Many say being a werewolf is a curse, but it is also a gift. And so I am willing to submit my entire being to you. Many search for their purpose in life, and wonder when their time to meet their destiny will come along...I have found my purpose. My place. And I know I have reached my destiny because of the pride, happiness, and peace I feel when in the presence of my pack and my Mistress. I belong here.
I... am silver-born.
_________________________________________________________
If you're confused by this, you deserve an explanation: You see, my friend and I do a large group roleplay. Nothing special, just "classic" so to speak.
2 Rival packs/clans. And I belong to one, while the other is out enemy. Each pack is made up of either witches, warlocks, a vampire, or a werewolf. But only 2 werewolves are allowed in either pack. One a warrior/servant and the other a hunter or huntress depending on gender.
I play the role of a "Silver-born" aka a werewolf warrior, and my rank is not only a warrior but a personal servant to my Mistress (Master/Queen of the Northern Shades *my pack*) who is played by my best friend in a master/pet relationship, after I submitted my freedom. This role feels right to me, and what is written above is exactly what it feels like. I have so much fun, and have been contemplating on making this a Comic here on FA for you guys to follow along in our adventures against the Eastern Bloods.
The way the Master to werewolf bond works in this roleplay is a lot how the dragons and their riders are in Eragon: If the werewolf dies, the master lives. But if the Master dies, so does their werewolf... and so the two are literally inseparable. Once the bond is sealed, the further they are away from eachother, the weaker they become. Even though they will not die, they will become weak and sick. They need one another to keep at their most powerful.
If you'd like to hear more about this, note me. I will answer any questions. I gotta go to bed now though, have to be up kind of early. oops,
No Subject
General | Posted 10 years agoFirst off, I want to answer some questions I've been asked more then once. And im sorry if this is all over the place or off, it's like 5:30 am
Question #1 - "When do your commissions open?"
Answer - I do not open at any specific time. I randomly open, and it is typically 2-4 slots. However, I will not be taking more for a very long time because i'm fuckin' lazy. You just have to watch out for the journal.
Question #2 - "What program do you use to draw?"
Answer - FireAlpaca, and I only draw with my finger on a touch pad. I do not use a tablet. This is part of the reason that I take to long for art.
Question #3 - "Do you have a Skype?"
Answer - No. I do not. I hate all social media sites, including Facebook, Twitter, IG, Skype, or any other shit you guys have. I don't have Snapchat, or kik. I have a cheap ass flip phone an I am perfectly happy with it.
Question #4 - "How can I keep in closer contact with you?"
Answer - Seeing as I have literally nothing but my cell, DA, FA, and rp sites, I'd have to say FA. That is your best bet of reaching me. If not there, DA, but it will take me longer to reply. If I get to know and trust, and like you well enough, then you MIGHT get my number, but on a strict Text Only basis.
Feel free to ask me more questions!
On another note, I just wanted to make this journal to talk to you guys! Just kind of check in.
I draw, I upload, I leave and come back later for a little bit and reply simple shit here and there then leave again without anything. So i'm just kind of dumping what ever I draw here, and it's all just kind of...there. Imagine scribbling on a sheet of paper, looking at it for a few moments then just tossing it over your shoulder to collect somewhere. Doesn't really have too much meaning, I don't linger, it isn't anything outstanding, it's simply there. and I don't want this to be like that anymore. I want to add a little life, a little color, I want to interact with you guys a little more, and I want to know you guys! Not personally or what ever, nothing too deep but I want to know a little bit about you guys.
So if you feel like it,
I want you guys to comment below what you'd like to see more of.
Whether it be a character, a species, anthro or feral, more happy art, background, scenery, YCH's, what's up?
you watch me and all, but I feel like i'm all over the fuckin' place with my art.
I like moonlight howls, RP, TWD, Werewolves, Rosario Vampire, dogs, dumb but hilarious movies, youtubers like Jacksepticeye, Markiplier, Pewdiepie, I also like talking about vacations, hating on man kind, discussing the Zombie Apocalypse, violence, fursuits, rambling on about past fun times, dogs/animals, happy things, gore, dead things, Music of MANY kinds, lava lamps, things that glow, adrenaline, and probably other shit i'm not thinkin' of atm. But yeah!! Talk to me about some of those these guys, lets get a little convo going on here. Add some active life, a little spark. Somethin'. I'm reaching out to you guys to try and make it better for you guys, more interactive, and maybe a little more person like artist-to-watcher convo type deal. If you have any art suggestions, let me know. I'm very open minded.
Wow fuckin' 6 AM now, im falling asleep, so any comments will be answered tomorrow! 'Til then, have a wonderful time, you're awesome!
//High fives all around\\
Question #1 - "When do your commissions open?"
Answer - I do not open at any specific time. I randomly open, and it is typically 2-4 slots. However, I will not be taking more for a very long time because i'm fuckin' lazy. You just have to watch out for the journal.
Question #2 - "What program do you use to draw?"
Answer - FireAlpaca, and I only draw with my finger on a touch pad. I do not use a tablet. This is part of the reason that I take to long for art.
Question #3 - "Do you have a Skype?"
Answer - No. I do not. I hate all social media sites, including Facebook, Twitter, IG, Skype, or any other shit you guys have. I don't have Snapchat, or kik. I have a cheap ass flip phone an I am perfectly happy with it.
Question #4 - "How can I keep in closer contact with you?"
Answer - Seeing as I have literally nothing but my cell, DA, FA, and rp sites, I'd have to say FA. That is your best bet of reaching me. If not there, DA, but it will take me longer to reply. If I get to know and trust, and like you well enough, then you MIGHT get my number, but on a strict Text Only basis.
Feel free to ask me more questions!
On another note, I just wanted to make this journal to talk to you guys! Just kind of check in.
I draw, I upload, I leave and come back later for a little bit and reply simple shit here and there then leave again without anything. So i'm just kind of dumping what ever I draw here, and it's all just kind of...there. Imagine scribbling on a sheet of paper, looking at it for a few moments then just tossing it over your shoulder to collect somewhere. Doesn't really have too much meaning, I don't linger, it isn't anything outstanding, it's simply there. and I don't want this to be like that anymore. I want to add a little life, a little color, I want to interact with you guys a little more, and I want to know you guys! Not personally or what ever, nothing too deep but I want to know a little bit about you guys.
So if you feel like it,
I want you guys to comment below what you'd like to see more of.
Whether it be a character, a species, anthro or feral, more happy art, background, scenery, YCH's, what's up?
you watch me and all, but I feel like i'm all over the fuckin' place with my art.
I like moonlight howls, RP, TWD, Werewolves, Rosario Vampire, dogs, dumb but hilarious movies, youtubers like Jacksepticeye, Markiplier, Pewdiepie, I also like talking about vacations, hating on man kind, discussing the Zombie Apocalypse, violence, fursuits, rambling on about past fun times, dogs/animals, happy things, gore, dead things, Music of MANY kinds, lava lamps, things that glow, adrenaline, and probably other shit i'm not thinkin' of atm. But yeah!! Talk to me about some of those these guys, lets get a little convo going on here. Add some active life, a little spark. Somethin'. I'm reaching out to you guys to try and make it better for you guys, more interactive, and maybe a little more person like artist-to-watcher convo type deal. If you have any art suggestions, let me know. I'm very open minded.
Wow fuckin' 6 AM now, im falling asleep, so any comments will be answered tomorrow! 'Til then, have a wonderful time, you're awesome!
//High fives all around\\
NSFW meme
General | Posted 10 years ago1. Is there anyone on your friends list you would ever consider having sex with?
-not really, not on DA
2. Sex in the morning, afternoon or night?
-Night and mornings
3. What side of the bed do you sleep on?
-all over the fuckin' place
4. Do you masturbate?
-Yes.
5. How often? Lately?
-Often, and in the past couple weeks, I haven't that much really.
6. Have you ever taken your clothes off for money?
-Once or twice
7. Do you prefer showers or baths?
-Showers
8. Have you ever had sex in the shower or the bath?
-huhu yes
9. Do you watch/read pornography? With other people?
-read, yes, watch, hell no.
10. Do you want someone aggressive or passive in bed?
- Very, very, aggressive
11. Do you love someone on your friends list?
- Not really, no. Unless you mean as a friend.
12. Do you know all the people on your friends list?
- No
13. Would you choose love or money?
- love.
14. Your top three favorite kinks in bed?
- Blood, bondage, rape
15. Has anyone ever gone beyond your personal line of respect sexually?
- Yes, but I didn't mind too much.
16. Where is the most romantic place you have had sex?
- Well, I remember one time in specific that is the closest I've ever gotten to "romance" and that was in my friend's bed, but eventually it turned away from romantic and more animalistic oops
17. Where is the weirdest place you have had sex?
- Ehhhh
18. Have you ever been caught having sex?
- Um, in a way, yes
19. Have you ever been to a strip club?
- eh, briefly
20. Ever been to a bar just to get sex?
- yes.
21. Ever been kicked out of a bar or a club for sexual reasons?
- Yes.
22. Ever been picked up in a bar?
- yes.
23. Have you ever kissed or had sex with someone of the same sex?
- Yes.
24. What's your sexuality?
- Bisexual
25. Had sex in a movie theater?
- No, but other things.
26. Had sex in a bathroom?
-SCREAMS VIRGIN
27. Have you ever had sex at work?
- I don't go to work.
28. Have you ever been in an "adult" store?
- Yes.
29. Bought something from an adult store?
- Yes.
30. Do you own any sex toys?
- I count a whip, gag, leash and collar as a type of sex toy yes
31. If yes, how many and what are they?
- Just 4 : Whip, gag, collar w/ leash
32. Does anyone have naughty pics of you or are you on film?
- No.
33. Have you ever had sex with someone and called them the wrong name?
- Haha yes
34. Have you ever had phone sex?
- Ehh, kind of??
35. Have you ever had cyber sex?
- Unless online roleplay sites counts, no.
36. Do you think oral sex constitutes a form of intercourse?
- Yes.
37. What's your favorite sexual position?
- Tied up in some way :heart:
38. What's your favorite sex act?
- Receiving oral.
39. Have you ever had sex with more than one person at a time?
- Not just yet, but I have had sex in the same room as others.
40. Who do you think has the guts to re-post this?
-not really, not on DA
2. Sex in the morning, afternoon or night?
-Night and mornings
3. What side of the bed do you sleep on?
-all over the fuckin' place
4. Do you masturbate?
-Yes.
5. How often? Lately?
-Often, and in the past couple weeks, I haven't that much really.
6. Have you ever taken your clothes off for money?
-Once or twice
7. Do you prefer showers or baths?
-Showers
8. Have you ever had sex in the shower or the bath?
-huhu yes
9. Do you watch/read pornography? With other people?
-read, yes, watch, hell no.
10. Do you want someone aggressive or passive in bed?
- Very, very, aggressive
11. Do you love someone on your friends list?
- Not really, no. Unless you mean as a friend.
12. Do you know all the people on your friends list?
- No
13. Would you choose love or money?
- love.
14. Your top three favorite kinks in bed?
- Blood, bondage, rape
15. Has anyone ever gone beyond your personal line of respect sexually?
- Yes, but I didn't mind too much.
16. Where is the most romantic place you have had sex?
- Well, I remember one time in specific that is the closest I've ever gotten to "romance" and that was in my friend's bed, but eventually it turned away from romantic and more animalistic oops
17. Where is the weirdest place you have had sex?
- Ehhhh
18. Have you ever been caught having sex?
- Um, in a way, yes
19. Have you ever been to a strip club?
- eh, briefly
20. Ever been to a bar just to get sex?
- yes.
21. Ever been kicked out of a bar or a club for sexual reasons?
- Yes.
22. Ever been picked up in a bar?
- yes.
23. Have you ever kissed or had sex with someone of the same sex?
- Yes.
24. What's your sexuality?
- Bisexual
25. Had sex in a movie theater?
- No, but other things.
26. Had sex in a bathroom?
-SCREAMS VIRGIN
27. Have you ever had sex at work?
- I don't go to work.
28. Have you ever been in an "adult" store?
- Yes.
29. Bought something from an adult store?
- Yes.
30. Do you own any sex toys?
- I count a whip, gag, leash and collar as a type of sex toy yes
31. If yes, how many and what are they?
- Just 4 : Whip, gag, collar w/ leash
32. Does anyone have naughty pics of you or are you on film?
- No.
33. Have you ever had sex with someone and called them the wrong name?
- Haha yes
34. Have you ever had phone sex?
- Ehh, kind of??
35. Have you ever had cyber sex?
- Unless online roleplay sites counts, no.
36. Do you think oral sex constitutes a form of intercourse?
- Yes.
37. What's your favorite sexual position?
- Tied up in some way :heart:
38. What's your favorite sex act?
- Receiving oral.
39. Have you ever had sex with more than one person at a time?
- Not just yet, but I have had sex in the same room as others.
40. Who do you think has the guts to re-post this?
More ranting
General | Posted 10 years agoWARNING-- this rant will contain the theme of marriage and having kids and the over population of the world. If you are sensitive or are fond of these themes I highly suggest you NOT read, and move on.
Also, there may be some repeated statements from past rants because I forget what I have and have not mentioned before.
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I have been seeing everywhere people getting married. At the age of just 18, and just bullshit ages everywhere. I think marriage is just stupid all together. All it does is make shit complicated and give people the excuse of "How could you, we're married!!" ...stop it. Just don't.
"But marriage is a symbol of promise and forever and loyalty blah blah blah"
No. The relationship itself should be what symbolizes ALL things. You should not need a ring, you should not need a sheet of paper to tell you you're together. You should know that you're together plain and simple.
If you get married, all it does is make it bullshit for you to go through when you two break up. It makes a whole shit ton of paper work to do. Fuck that, okay. If you break up with someone after whatever long, you should be able to just say "Okay, bye. See ya later." and just fucking leave.
You shouldn't have to go through paper work or nothing else, just leave. Simple as that. You shouldn't need a stupid sheet of paper or a ceremony or a damn ring to be a symbol or to let others or even yourself know you're taken.
If someone wants to know, tell them. If someone starts to flirt and you want to let them know you're taken tell them. Or if you're with your partner just either tell them or show them.
You know you're together, that should be it. End of story. I honestly have no understanding for weddings anymore. Not since I sat down and thought about it. It's just.. really dumb. Marriage is honestly pointless, it's the relationship itself that should matter most. It should be smooth, effortless, fun, passionate, and the bond should be able to be seen by others, but felt by you two only. Strong as anything. No sheet of paper + ceremony to = "official" togetherness or whatever else bullshit.
People lie, people cheat, people will do whatever bullshit to piss you off or break your heart whether it's by accident or on purpose. The point being-- whatever the cause of a break up may be, that sheet of paper will make it fucking HELL to split up instead of just being like "Okay, see ya later."
I keep seeing marriages of people 18 years old, and gushing sugar and lollipops and rainbows. No, stop it. In my opinion you are fucking your life right up the ass with the most massive block of shit wrapped in barbed wire. Stop it. Really. It's a pretty huge terrible error. You're 18!!! Live it up with your partner or hell, if you're single, fucking live it up!! Live life to it's fullest, and just-- be young! Be happy! Be FREE. Don't get married..
Even when you're older, don't do it. Even if you feel like they're the ONLY one you could ever breathe for, just don't. Be happy just being with them.
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As for having kids... there are people as young as 12 years old having kids.
Stop that. This world is wayyyyy over populated. In fact I believe that's a fucking understatement. Lately pregnancy and births have been exploding EVERYWHERE... for different reasons. But with the SAME. HORRID. RESULT.
Over population, distress, and more depression.
May I just ask....those who see how the ones already alive suffer... why bring more into this horrid world?
Why would you sentence these "poor innocent" souls to depression and stress as soon as they have the means to socialize?
Why would you contribute to the overpopulation and darkness of this world?
You see suicides world wide... You see the depression. The pain. The suffering. The "horrid" people that live. The abandoned, and the orphans. The tears of a broken heart and the ice cold silence of a shattered soul. The way humans rip one another apart without mercy mentally.. emotionally. As they watch them die until they end their suffering by their own hand.
If these children are so innocent...tell me, why would you bring them here? For a chance to live? A chance for what may I ask?
To suffer from depression and either become a bully or the bullied? To be crushed by his fellow man?
We are all born to die, this may be true. But the fact is... life has one true, evolutionary purpose. To fuck, and repopulate. Our evolutionary purpose is not to find love. It is not to find adventure. It is to repopulate.
and the humans have abused this beyond repair. The world is far beyond "Repopulation" and is has passed up "OVER population"
so what else is there to do? Everyone asks at some point in their life... "What is my purpose? Where do I belong?"
The truth is, we are born without an emotional purpose. This is why we wonder what it is, due to the fact we are stuck with emotion which triggers our need to be close. To be socially accepted. To find love. To be happy, and have fun. But this is not our purpose. We have abused our assigned purpose and are now just passing the time until the world destroys what it has created.. Man kind.
Life is short, I tell you. So on a more POSITIVE note-- be happy!! Savor every breath, and if you want children?? ADOPT some. Simple as that. You will TRULY be giving a life a REAL chance. One that is already here on this earth. There are plenty that need it. That need someone who will be there for them like no one else ever was.
As for simply living? Do it. Live to your best. If you don't think you're ready for something, don't do it. Wait for your time to come where you believe you're ready. Have fun. Live for no one but yourself.
Also, there may be some repeated statements from past rants because I forget what I have and have not mentioned before.
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I have been seeing everywhere people getting married. At the age of just 18, and just bullshit ages everywhere. I think marriage is just stupid all together. All it does is make shit complicated and give people the excuse of "How could you, we're married!!" ...stop it. Just don't.
"But marriage is a symbol of promise and forever and loyalty blah blah blah"
No. The relationship itself should be what symbolizes ALL things. You should not need a ring, you should not need a sheet of paper to tell you you're together. You should know that you're together plain and simple.
If you get married, all it does is make it bullshit for you to go through when you two break up. It makes a whole shit ton of paper work to do. Fuck that, okay. If you break up with someone after whatever long, you should be able to just say "Okay, bye. See ya later." and just fucking leave.
You shouldn't have to go through paper work or nothing else, just leave. Simple as that. You shouldn't need a stupid sheet of paper or a ceremony or a damn ring to be a symbol or to let others or even yourself know you're taken.
If someone wants to know, tell them. If someone starts to flirt and you want to let them know you're taken tell them. Or if you're with your partner just either tell them or show them.
You know you're together, that should be it. End of story. I honestly have no understanding for weddings anymore. Not since I sat down and thought about it. It's just.. really dumb. Marriage is honestly pointless, it's the relationship itself that should matter most. It should be smooth, effortless, fun, passionate, and the bond should be able to be seen by others, but felt by you two only. Strong as anything. No sheet of paper + ceremony to = "official" togetherness or whatever else bullshit.
People lie, people cheat, people will do whatever bullshit to piss you off or break your heart whether it's by accident or on purpose. The point being-- whatever the cause of a break up may be, that sheet of paper will make it fucking HELL to split up instead of just being like "Okay, see ya later."
I keep seeing marriages of people 18 years old, and gushing sugar and lollipops and rainbows. No, stop it. In my opinion you are fucking your life right up the ass with the most massive block of shit wrapped in barbed wire. Stop it. Really. It's a pretty huge terrible error. You're 18!!! Live it up with your partner or hell, if you're single, fucking live it up!! Live life to it's fullest, and just-- be young! Be happy! Be FREE. Don't get married..
Even when you're older, don't do it. Even if you feel like they're the ONLY one you could ever breathe for, just don't. Be happy just being with them.
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As for having kids... there are people as young as 12 years old having kids.
Stop that. This world is wayyyyy over populated. In fact I believe that's a fucking understatement. Lately pregnancy and births have been exploding EVERYWHERE... for different reasons. But with the SAME. HORRID. RESULT.
Over population, distress, and more depression.
May I just ask....those who see how the ones already alive suffer... why bring more into this horrid world?
Why would you sentence these "poor innocent" souls to depression and stress as soon as they have the means to socialize?
Why would you contribute to the overpopulation and darkness of this world?
You see suicides world wide... You see the depression. The pain. The suffering. The "horrid" people that live. The abandoned, and the orphans. The tears of a broken heart and the ice cold silence of a shattered soul. The way humans rip one another apart without mercy mentally.. emotionally. As they watch them die until they end their suffering by their own hand.
If these children are so innocent...tell me, why would you bring them here? For a chance to live? A chance for what may I ask?
To suffer from depression and either become a bully or the bullied? To be crushed by his fellow man?
We are all born to die, this may be true. But the fact is... life has one true, evolutionary purpose. To fuck, and repopulate. Our evolutionary purpose is not to find love. It is not to find adventure. It is to repopulate.
and the humans have abused this beyond repair. The world is far beyond "Repopulation" and is has passed up "OVER population"
so what else is there to do? Everyone asks at some point in their life... "What is my purpose? Where do I belong?"
The truth is, we are born without an emotional purpose. This is why we wonder what it is, due to the fact we are stuck with emotion which triggers our need to be close. To be socially accepted. To find love. To be happy, and have fun. But this is not our purpose. We have abused our assigned purpose and are now just passing the time until the world destroys what it has created.. Man kind.
Life is short, I tell you. So on a more POSITIVE note-- be happy!! Savor every breath, and if you want children?? ADOPT some. Simple as that. You will TRULY be giving a life a REAL chance. One that is already here on this earth. There are plenty that need it. That need someone who will be there for them like no one else ever was.
As for simply living? Do it. Live to your best. If you don't think you're ready for something, don't do it. Wait for your time to come where you believe you're ready. Have fun. Live for no one but yourself.
Rant number idkanymore
General | Posted 10 years agoOkay so, this upcoming rant is just me expressing how I am in a relationship first off and What I do tolerate in one, what I can only tolerate for a certain amount of time, and what I just flat out can NOT tolerate in one.
If you're sensitive, I seriously suggest you stop reading now. Because im going to be blunt and honest about relationships and shit.
I am very lenient in my relationships. I am very simple to please, and I am a very simple wired guy.
Give me jar of dirt, I will be king for a day I swear. Dig a hole and fill it with water to make a mud pit- I'll be king for a WEEK. That is how simple I am.
I do not rush at ALL. I take my jolly fuckin' time. I'm 19, alright? I'm going to have fun, i'm going to act a fool, im going to be silly, im going to be bold, adventurous, and daring. Im going to be very stubborn, and at times very fuckin' lazy and make immature fart and dick jokes.
What I must have in a relationship is- Limitless trust, loyalty, be chill and have good humor.
If you rush me? You will get a negative reaction.
If you cannot trust me, but I didn't do anything wrong? Fuck off with that insecure shit, okay.
If you can't take a joke, and it'll turn bad or bitter? I am NOT for you. I like to pull pranks and make offensive, vulgar jokes. Fuck your censorship uptightness okay.
If you always want to work, but never wanna play? Take that shit on somewhere, I don't roll that way.
If you freak out over small shit, or have a weak stomach? I am not for you at all in certain areas.
If your idea of fun is sitting behind a desk, playing video games 24/7, constantly running errands, or shit like that? Go on somewhere with that shit too.
And a few things.. do not put shit in my mouth that I did not say. Example: If you found something I said or did to be out of line, and say something like "You want to spend time with them more, and im just shit." or "You just don't care."??? Fuck off with that. That's sticking some words in my mouth I never said.
"Oh but your actions say it!" ....then don't instantly accuse me. Point out what you think is wrong, and ASK me what's making me act this way. Do not just instantly shoot words down my throat. I will hear you out, if you hear ME out.
If you see me doing something wrong? Say it right then and there- don't keep quiet. Because If i'm doing it I probably don't see the wrong in it. ANd if you don't instantly point it out before you can't take it anymore, im going to keep doing it. Until you explode, and I'll be confused and angry as fuck because you never SAID ANYTHING before it got to a snapping point.
Bitches are too fuckin' scared to say it to people's face then wanna treat them like they're stupid because they didn't notice it bothered you- BECAUSE YOU DIDN'T TELL THEM. So fuck off with that too.
and If I have to fight you to get an answer when I ask "what's wrong?", but get mad when I say "Fine then" and drop it?
hahaha no. Just no. You have zero right to be mad. Especially if I ask what's wrong more then once but you still make me fight for the answer? Or just give little cutesy clues? NO. This isn't Scooby-Doo and it isn't Blue's clues. Either tell me straight out, or im not going to want to hear you bitch when I finally stop asking or just change the subject.
Don't you DARE call me inconsiderate or insensitive to you. It's simple:: If it bugs you, tell me. If I ask what's wrong you can either tell me now or you can just say you don't want to talk about it at the moment. And i'll be chill.
Be grateful. Instead of bitching or worrying about what has to be done, what hasn't been done, what you don't have-- just stop. Stop it, shut the fuck up, and be grateful for the things you DO have. The things that HAVE been done. Because when you constantly complain about what ya don't have and haven't done?? It'll make me feel like total shit. Because i'll feel like nothing I do is ever good enough, and this will push me away. Just don't. Be happy, be grateful, shut up and quit your bitching.
I've seen so many cases where the chick FREAKS OUT DUDE, over their man just looking at another girl. Or spending a lot of time with this other person. Or if he takes this other person somewhere he hasn't taken them, and ooooh fuck it's the end of the world. Every table is flipped, every stone is turned, and there is a fucking poison dart flying through the air right for the guy.
Like, I understand if the guy has cheated before. Then you have reason to be suspicious or jealous. but don't totally fucking loose your shit dude.
I've also seen it where PAST boyfriends or girlfriends have cheated on their partner...and now their partner makes EVERY person they date SUFFER for it. Like if he didn't cheat, if he didn't do shit wrong, and you're STILL paranoid, bitter, and jealous and flip your shit when he sneezes at someone else? Don't. Okay, just don't. They didn't do it, why the fuck should they SUFFER for what their EX did? I fucking can't STAND people like that. Like bitch, i'm innocent, but you're going to treat me like I done fucked half the damn town and killed 40 others? Fuck you. Get out of my face, you are not for me.
I also see things like people who date strippers then get all jealous when they're doing their job and get suspicious of what they're doing. Dude, no. It's a JOB. If you know they're a stripper, and you want them to be all yours and quit their job because you somehow fell in love with them? haha no. Again, I say: Fuck off. Shouldn't have started dating them.
I myself would not mind if my partner was a stripper. Im sure many of you are familiar with the lyrics: "I don't mind if you dance on a pole, that don't make you a hoe. Shawty I don't mind, when you're workin' 'til 3, if you're leavin' with me- go make that money." and I totally agree with those lyrics right there. Go on, do what you gotta do. Make your money as long as you go by the "look but don't touch" rule, we're all cool. Even a lap dance is fine with me. Why?? Because if I am dating you, not only am I chill, but I 200% TRUST you to love me and come home to/with me. I'd know you were mine. So I wouldn't care about a job as a stripper. Shit, i'd be proud to know that no one but me was allowed access.
If we're in a relationship and you wanna go try something new for a while? That's cool man, we can take a break. Do what you gotta do. Do what'll make you happy. Just tell me. Be like "Hey, there's this cute person I wanna fuck, is that cool?" and i'll be chill because I know you trust me enough to come to my FACE and flat out tell and/or ask me. I'm not trippin'. Even if it hurts me, It'd be worth it to know it helped YOU out, ya know? Maybe i'm just not adding up to what you need, and that's cool. Just tell me. But if you go behind my back?? THAT is a deal breaker. THAT I will count as cheating because I didn't know, and you did not trust me enough to ask or tell me. That'd be what hurt the most. I'd rather a brutal truth then a dark lie or secret. Im seriously not that guy to freak out or whatever. and in turn, I will do the same for you.
If I want it, I will ask if you are not doing it for me. If you say no, I won't do it because I know itd hurt you and the sex would not last as long as the damage done towards the end. Not worth it. Honesty and trust is key. Communication dude. That's some 200% trust communication for your ass right there haha. When you can sit there and admire the ass or tits, or even the junk of someone else with your partner. Or talk about past sex with your boyfriend or girlfriend, and they take it as a challenge for you to out-do their past "partners"??? That's how you knot it'll last haha. This means there are zero fucks to give and the trust levels are over 9 thousand with communication smooth as silk.
OH and if you tell me you forgive me, but bring some old shit up the VERY next time we argue??? Im going to get mad, because to me you just lied your ass off. If you forgive someone you don't bring it up to hold as a grudge. It means you fucking let it go and leave it be FOREVER. You don't keep kicking it up every fucking argument okay? That isn't forgiveness. Get the fuck on somewhere. If you tell me you forgive me, don't you DARE... EVER bring it up again to me. Especially not in an argument.
"Oh I forgive you...but the next argument im going t bring it back to cram in your face again. :) "
Fuck you.
ANYWAY-- that about does it!
All I ask for is those few SIMPLE qualities-- Trust, loyalty, and humor. And for fucks sake be chill. Relax. If we can't joke about EVERYTHING, check out the hotties together, play around, have fun, laugh together, shine together, and just trust each other without hesitation instantly, then...it just isn't cool dude. Relax. Live like you can't die and savor each moment. We all have our issues but we should be able to make the best of our issues when we're together. We don't have to spend any money on vacations, objects, or whatever. We can go take a walk, play a board game, watch tv, take a ride somewhere if we can, or just make some random conversation. Star gaze, do little simple challenges or something. That is good enough for me. Material got with money has an expiration date.. but little dumb, derpy, fun moment are priceless and they last a life time.
If you're sensitive, I seriously suggest you stop reading now. Because im going to be blunt and honest about relationships and shit.
I am very lenient in my relationships. I am very simple to please, and I am a very simple wired guy.
Give me jar of dirt, I will be king for a day I swear. Dig a hole and fill it with water to make a mud pit- I'll be king for a WEEK. That is how simple I am.
I do not rush at ALL. I take my jolly fuckin' time. I'm 19, alright? I'm going to have fun, i'm going to act a fool, im going to be silly, im going to be bold, adventurous, and daring. Im going to be very stubborn, and at times very fuckin' lazy and make immature fart and dick jokes.
What I must have in a relationship is- Limitless trust, loyalty, be chill and have good humor.
If you rush me? You will get a negative reaction.
If you cannot trust me, but I didn't do anything wrong? Fuck off with that insecure shit, okay.
If you can't take a joke, and it'll turn bad or bitter? I am NOT for you. I like to pull pranks and make offensive, vulgar jokes. Fuck your censorship uptightness okay.
If you always want to work, but never wanna play? Take that shit on somewhere, I don't roll that way.
If you freak out over small shit, or have a weak stomach? I am not for you at all in certain areas.
If your idea of fun is sitting behind a desk, playing video games 24/7, constantly running errands, or shit like that? Go on somewhere with that shit too.
And a few things.. do not put shit in my mouth that I did not say. Example: If you found something I said or did to be out of line, and say something like "You want to spend time with them more, and im just shit." or "You just don't care."??? Fuck off with that. That's sticking some words in my mouth I never said.
"Oh but your actions say it!" ....then don't instantly accuse me. Point out what you think is wrong, and ASK me what's making me act this way. Do not just instantly shoot words down my throat. I will hear you out, if you hear ME out.
If you see me doing something wrong? Say it right then and there- don't keep quiet. Because If i'm doing it I probably don't see the wrong in it. ANd if you don't instantly point it out before you can't take it anymore, im going to keep doing it. Until you explode, and I'll be confused and angry as fuck because you never SAID ANYTHING before it got to a snapping point.
Bitches are too fuckin' scared to say it to people's face then wanna treat them like they're stupid because they didn't notice it bothered you- BECAUSE YOU DIDN'T TELL THEM. So fuck off with that too.
and If I have to fight you to get an answer when I ask "what's wrong?", but get mad when I say "Fine then" and drop it?
hahaha no. Just no. You have zero right to be mad. Especially if I ask what's wrong more then once but you still make me fight for the answer? Or just give little cutesy clues? NO. This isn't Scooby-Doo and it isn't Blue's clues. Either tell me straight out, or im not going to want to hear you bitch when I finally stop asking or just change the subject.
Don't you DARE call me inconsiderate or insensitive to you. It's simple:: If it bugs you, tell me. If I ask what's wrong you can either tell me now or you can just say you don't want to talk about it at the moment. And i'll be chill.
Be grateful. Instead of bitching or worrying about what has to be done, what hasn't been done, what you don't have-- just stop. Stop it, shut the fuck up, and be grateful for the things you DO have. The things that HAVE been done. Because when you constantly complain about what ya don't have and haven't done?? It'll make me feel like total shit. Because i'll feel like nothing I do is ever good enough, and this will push me away. Just don't. Be happy, be grateful, shut up and quit your bitching.
I've seen so many cases where the chick FREAKS OUT DUDE, over their man just looking at another girl. Or spending a lot of time with this other person. Or if he takes this other person somewhere he hasn't taken them, and ooooh fuck it's the end of the world. Every table is flipped, every stone is turned, and there is a fucking poison dart flying through the air right for the guy.
Like, I understand if the guy has cheated before. Then you have reason to be suspicious or jealous. but don't totally fucking loose your shit dude.
I've also seen it where PAST boyfriends or girlfriends have cheated on their partner...and now their partner makes EVERY person they date SUFFER for it. Like if he didn't cheat, if he didn't do shit wrong, and you're STILL paranoid, bitter, and jealous and flip your shit when he sneezes at someone else? Don't. Okay, just don't. They didn't do it, why the fuck should they SUFFER for what their EX did? I fucking can't STAND people like that. Like bitch, i'm innocent, but you're going to treat me like I done fucked half the damn town and killed 40 others? Fuck you. Get out of my face, you are not for me.
I also see things like people who date strippers then get all jealous when they're doing their job and get suspicious of what they're doing. Dude, no. It's a JOB. If you know they're a stripper, and you want them to be all yours and quit their job because you somehow fell in love with them? haha no. Again, I say: Fuck off. Shouldn't have started dating them.
I myself would not mind if my partner was a stripper. Im sure many of you are familiar with the lyrics: "I don't mind if you dance on a pole, that don't make you a hoe. Shawty I don't mind, when you're workin' 'til 3, if you're leavin' with me- go make that money." and I totally agree with those lyrics right there. Go on, do what you gotta do. Make your money as long as you go by the "look but don't touch" rule, we're all cool. Even a lap dance is fine with me. Why?? Because if I am dating you, not only am I chill, but I 200% TRUST you to love me and come home to/with me. I'd know you were mine. So I wouldn't care about a job as a stripper. Shit, i'd be proud to know that no one but me was allowed access.
If we're in a relationship and you wanna go try something new for a while? That's cool man, we can take a break. Do what you gotta do. Do what'll make you happy. Just tell me. Be like "Hey, there's this cute person I wanna fuck, is that cool?" and i'll be chill because I know you trust me enough to come to my FACE and flat out tell and/or ask me. I'm not trippin'. Even if it hurts me, It'd be worth it to know it helped YOU out, ya know? Maybe i'm just not adding up to what you need, and that's cool. Just tell me. But if you go behind my back?? THAT is a deal breaker. THAT I will count as cheating because I didn't know, and you did not trust me enough to ask or tell me. That'd be what hurt the most. I'd rather a brutal truth then a dark lie or secret. Im seriously not that guy to freak out or whatever. and in turn, I will do the same for you.
If I want it, I will ask if you are not doing it for me. If you say no, I won't do it because I know itd hurt you and the sex would not last as long as the damage done towards the end. Not worth it. Honesty and trust is key. Communication dude. That's some 200% trust communication for your ass right there haha. When you can sit there and admire the ass or tits, or even the junk of someone else with your partner. Or talk about past sex with your boyfriend or girlfriend, and they take it as a challenge for you to out-do their past "partners"??? That's how you knot it'll last haha. This means there are zero fucks to give and the trust levels are over 9 thousand with communication smooth as silk.
OH and if you tell me you forgive me, but bring some old shit up the VERY next time we argue??? Im going to get mad, because to me you just lied your ass off. If you forgive someone you don't bring it up to hold as a grudge. It means you fucking let it go and leave it be FOREVER. You don't keep kicking it up every fucking argument okay? That isn't forgiveness. Get the fuck on somewhere. If you tell me you forgive me, don't you DARE... EVER bring it up again to me. Especially not in an argument.
"Oh I forgive you...but the next argument im going t bring it back to cram in your face again. :) "
Fuck you.
ANYWAY-- that about does it!
All I ask for is those few SIMPLE qualities-- Trust, loyalty, and humor. And for fucks sake be chill. Relax. If we can't joke about EVERYTHING, check out the hotties together, play around, have fun, laugh together, shine together, and just trust each other without hesitation instantly, then...it just isn't cool dude. Relax. Live like you can't die and savor each moment. We all have our issues but we should be able to make the best of our issues when we're together. We don't have to spend any money on vacations, objects, or whatever. We can go take a walk, play a board game, watch tv, take a ride somewhere if we can, or just make some random conversation. Star gaze, do little simple challenges or something. That is good enough for me. Material got with money has an expiration date.. but little dumb, derpy, fun moment are priceless and they last a life time.
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General | Posted 10 years agoHeavy excited breathing
General | Posted 10 years agoIM SO EXCITED I CAN'T SLEEP guys. I have to be up early but GOSH I can't hardly sit still! The next few days will be busy because it's my birthday weekend.
Keep in mind: I HATE my birthday. I really do. But this year??? I can finally get the material for my fursuit head!!!
#BirthdayMoney! It is HUGE for me to actually celebrate MY birthday HAPPILY so WOO CONFETTI GUYS~!
If everything goes well, my Dad, my friend, and I are going to have some MAJOR fun. Either Laser tag, Bowling, or see a movie. I know, it's nothing extreme but that's the BEST part. It's not big, and my fursuit is SOOOO close to being in my hands! Well, so close to the material being in my grasp so I can finally get to work. Oh my goshhh guys SOMEONE KNOCK ME OUT I can't sleep im SO excited!! I can't even right now
"Can't even what, finish a sentence?"
NO! I can't even ANYHING right now. Im surprised im even typing so well considering how fast im typing and how hard it is for me to sit still. I want to jump all over the place and just scream.
I feel like a a little kid, or a crazy fan about to meet their idol. Like holy shit.
Then OTHER friends of mine told me they're going to get me a cake rather I want one or not, AND I get to eat fried pickles because they demanded I let them get me food at least for SOME kind of gift. So why pass the chance for some fried pickles???
OH and My friend and I are going to attempt the 200 Chicken McNugget challenge again. Im going to fucking have a stroke. but YAY FOR FOOD THAT WILL MAKE US FAT AS FUCK!!! Cake, Chicken nuggets, and fried pickles!! We MIGHT have a fat ass by the time we stuff our faces and we probably won't want to eat again for like a week and hate ourselves for being so fuckin' bloated with food but we'll be HAPPY!
Not that fat is a bad thing, because I've seen people who look better big then they do skinny. Plus curvessss Ohhh all the curves so soft and lovely All of you bigger people out there you're beautiful. Really. You guys are like, the fuckin' best to hug. My uncle is big and I love that bastard to bits, his hugs feel like marshmallows and it's just fuckin' amazing.
but dudes, I hate using the term "My friend" because then I sound like i'm a fuckin' phoney, like "Imaginary friend~ :D"
I just don't want to use her REAL name too much, because...lets face it: I mention the words "My friend" a fuck ton of times in journals or even art. Because I LIVE with her and she's my best friend. ANYWAY guys, just so you know, when I say "My friend" i'm talking about my best friend Sarah 99.9 % of the time. OKAY so like, I should so try and get some sleep now. Well try, im still excited as FUCK!!!
Any way guys, I love ya all, and just thank you for all the support to all of my watchers out there! I've never thanked you guys and while im fucking hyper I want to thank ALL of you! It really means the world to me, and it's REALLY encouraging. I feel like I don't talk to you guys enough because I really don't and I'm sorry about that. ANYWAY if you've made it this far in the 84 years it took you guys to read this, you ALL win a cookie! Okay im all over the fuckin' place DAMN IT. FOR REAL this time!!-- Goodnight, hope you're all having wonderful times. If not, I hope it gets better!
//High-fives all around
Keep in mind: I HATE my birthday. I really do. But this year??? I can finally get the material for my fursuit head!!!
#BirthdayMoney! It is HUGE for me to actually celebrate MY birthday HAPPILY so WOO CONFETTI GUYS~!
If everything goes well, my Dad, my friend, and I are going to have some MAJOR fun. Either Laser tag, Bowling, or see a movie. I know, it's nothing extreme but that's the BEST part. It's not big, and my fursuit is SOOOO close to being in my hands! Well, so close to the material being in my grasp so I can finally get to work. Oh my goshhh guys SOMEONE KNOCK ME OUT I can't sleep im SO excited!! I can't even right now
"Can't even what, finish a sentence?"
NO! I can't even ANYHING right now. Im surprised im even typing so well considering how fast im typing and how hard it is for me to sit still. I want to jump all over the place and just scream.
I feel like a a little kid, or a crazy fan about to meet their idol. Like holy shit.
Then OTHER friends of mine told me they're going to get me a cake rather I want one or not, AND I get to eat fried pickles because they demanded I let them get me food at least for SOME kind of gift. So why pass the chance for some fried pickles???
OH and My friend and I are going to attempt the 200 Chicken McNugget challenge again. Im going to fucking have a stroke. but YAY FOR FOOD THAT WILL MAKE US FAT AS FUCK!!! Cake, Chicken nuggets, and fried pickles!! We MIGHT have a fat ass by the time we stuff our faces and we probably won't want to eat again for like a week and hate ourselves for being so fuckin' bloated with food but we'll be HAPPY!
Not that fat is a bad thing, because I've seen people who look better big then they do skinny. Plus curvessss Ohhh all the curves so soft and lovely All of you bigger people out there you're beautiful. Really. You guys are like, the fuckin' best to hug. My uncle is big and I love that bastard to bits, his hugs feel like marshmallows and it's just fuckin' amazing.
but dudes, I hate using the term "My friend" because then I sound like i'm a fuckin' phoney, like "Imaginary friend~ :D"
I just don't want to use her REAL name too much, because...lets face it: I mention the words "My friend" a fuck ton of times in journals or even art. Because I LIVE with her and she's my best friend. ANYWAY guys, just so you know, when I say "My friend" i'm talking about my best friend Sarah 99.9 % of the time. OKAY so like, I should so try and get some sleep now. Well try, im still excited as FUCK!!!
Any way guys, I love ya all, and just thank you for all the support to all of my watchers out there! I've never thanked you guys and while im fucking hyper I want to thank ALL of you! It really means the world to me, and it's REALLY encouraging. I feel like I don't talk to you guys enough because I really don't and I'm sorry about that. ANYWAY if you've made it this far in the 84 years it took you guys to read this, you ALL win a cookie! Okay im all over the fuckin' place DAMN IT. FOR REAL this time!!-- Goodnight, hope you're all having wonderful times. If not, I hope it gets better!
//High-fives all around
more tired and bitter venting
General | Posted 10 years agoHave you ever just wanted to fucking scream "fuck it" and do what the fuck you want to do like there's no consequences
then realize what it'd do if you did afterwards, get pissed off beyond belief because you feel stuck
then just smile, relax, and say... "Fuck it, I need a drink"
or just lay there so you don't lose it and do something you'll regret?
Yes?
I know the feeling too. The struggle is too real.
No?
One day you will know the struggle.. one day.
When these moments come along, I think to myself - "One day they'll realize it's best they let me bitch about it, because when I go silent, that means there's a fucking incoming nuke and when it hits, it will be brutal, fast, with gruesome aftermath."
I hate to whine, I really do. But sometimes it's all I can do to release that pent up rage. That's all I can describe it as.
I'll probably repeat things in this vent that I've ranted or vented about in previous journals but fuck it. I've got no where else to put this. I don't give a single shit if I sound like a broken record.
A few things- I fucking hate people. I do. The news makes me mad because of all the dumb ass shit people say. "Oh my gah I can't believe they did that, how can a human do such a thing, omg"
fuck you, okay??? If you do not know how fucking FUCKED this world is by now? Hahaha you're fucking retarded. This world is shit. It will stay shit, and we are all DOOMED. When people act and/or are surprised at something brutal or "gross" a human did, it pisses me off instantly. FUck that.
Some people like to lie to your face then expect you to know it all, and wonder why you don't trust them, and get upset when you lose their trust. Example:: If you tell me it's okay...IM GOING TO FUCKING DO IT. If you LIED about it being "okay" then it's YOUR FUCKING FAULT. Don't come crying to me about it!! FUck oFF with that BULLSHIT. Tell me the TRUTH and I won't do it!
When you tell them you don't trust them anymore?? "Im so sorry, im shit, I broke your trust I ruin everything blah blah"
Well maybe if you didn't FUCKING LIE TO ME things would be FINE. You made your bed, lie in it. Suck it up, and suffer for your lie.
No this is not directed towards anyone or any specific subject, it's in general. I've seen too many fucking cases of this shit and experienced it a ridiculous amount of times. Just. fucking. DONT. Okay???
~--Facts about me--~
If I say no, it means no, which means FUCKING DROP IT..
If I bitch about something...it's my way of holding back from DOING IT. Be glad...
If I want to do something and I can't I get pissed off whether it's my fault or not.
If I get frustrated im going to be very fucking negative to be around.
If you cannot handle my bitching, I am not for you. Get the fuck on, because I will be doing alot of it.
I don't want to hurt anyone but I also want to FUCKING ESCAPE THIS RAGE and I'm FUCKING STUCK with it. I can't SCREAM because people are sleeping. Even in the day time I can't fucking SCREAM like I want to sometimes because people are pussies now a days and will complain to the police who I don't want to deal with.
There's always a CHOICE in everything you do...but some choices have far more dire consequences you don't want to fucking deal with because of the damn drama. So this gives the feeling of a gun to your FUCKING HEAD. "Hey, um...you can make that other choice but if you do, afterwards, you're gonna have a bad time for longer then the thrill lasted. Make your choice."
So you CAN but the gun makes you NOT. There are three reactions to this--
1. You pick what you want, let the gun go off because you don't give a shit.
2. You submit to the gun, and let your choice take it's turn.
3. You freeze, unable to decide.
So.. it's damned if you do, damned if you don't. It's like a fucking jigsaw game sometimes, but an EMOTIONAL one. There's always a choice. There's always a catch. Someone always has to face their fear. Someone ALWAYS has t fucking sacrifice something. Someone will ALWAYS get hurt. And some might even die. The blood can be on your hands, or it can be on theirs.
Those moments are ALL a part of life.
Then there's when you want to run away, but then there's "how long would it take to get there" / "where would I go" / "is it even worth it" / "Will it really help" / "If anyone notices, will they search for me" blah blah blah. So you're left with this deep feeling of homesickness and there's nothing you can do.
I am so happy, bored, or calm a lot of the times, and all these thoughts are gone. Or I make a joke about it, or I make it something brighter if I can.. but when I get these moments, it's BAD. It's fucking BAD. The frustration and rage has built so high inside I can feel it in my fucking THROAT, it makes me want to PUKE and just cry until I can't anymore. Everyone has something they struggle with; this is mine. Rage and frustration on top of mental issues, that Im supposed to take medication for, but it turns me into a zombie. It damn near NUMBS my EVERY emotion just to balance me out...
I don't want it to be that way, so I don't take it. I need to feel, I need to smile and laugh, I need to have a good time, I need to LIVE LIFE like I'm going to die tomorrow. and with my medication, I can't do that. When I take it, I sit and rock myself or do things sluggishly. But lately I've taken it. It isn't so bad. It's a nice break from the frequent bitterness and frustration.. I don't want any attention okay, I just pose these journals because it's the only place I can type everything out without being interrupted or having to argue because I upset the one I was telling.
Do not pity me, I don't want sympathy, It's my fault. No one elses. I have the choice to change it but I do not. So do notcomment "Im sorry" followed by other sympathy words or statements please. It makes it worse. And if you disagree with something I said, fuck off, im not going to argue with you and do not need your shit. Carry on.
If you do comment, just tell me about if you agree with something I've said in this.
for now, im tired and have a headache with nothing more to stay awake for so im going to bed. I will reply if I get comments when I wake up.
then realize what it'd do if you did afterwards, get pissed off beyond belief because you feel stuck
then just smile, relax, and say... "Fuck it, I need a drink"
or just lay there so you don't lose it and do something you'll regret?
Yes?
I know the feeling too. The struggle is too real.
No?
One day you will know the struggle.. one day.
When these moments come along, I think to myself - "One day they'll realize it's best they let me bitch about it, because when I go silent, that means there's a fucking incoming nuke and when it hits, it will be brutal, fast, with gruesome aftermath."
I hate to whine, I really do. But sometimes it's all I can do to release that pent up rage. That's all I can describe it as.
I'll probably repeat things in this vent that I've ranted or vented about in previous journals but fuck it. I've got no where else to put this. I don't give a single shit if I sound like a broken record.
A few things- I fucking hate people. I do. The news makes me mad because of all the dumb ass shit people say. "Oh my gah I can't believe they did that, how can a human do such a thing, omg"
fuck you, okay??? If you do not know how fucking FUCKED this world is by now? Hahaha you're fucking retarded. This world is shit. It will stay shit, and we are all DOOMED. When people act and/or are surprised at something brutal or "gross" a human did, it pisses me off instantly. FUck that.
Some people like to lie to your face then expect you to know it all, and wonder why you don't trust them, and get upset when you lose their trust. Example:: If you tell me it's okay...IM GOING TO FUCKING DO IT. If you LIED about it being "okay" then it's YOUR FUCKING FAULT. Don't come crying to me about it!! FUck oFF with that BULLSHIT. Tell me the TRUTH and I won't do it!
When you tell them you don't trust them anymore?? "Im so sorry, im shit, I broke your trust I ruin everything blah blah"
Well maybe if you didn't FUCKING LIE TO ME things would be FINE. You made your bed, lie in it. Suck it up, and suffer for your lie.
No this is not directed towards anyone or any specific subject, it's in general. I've seen too many fucking cases of this shit and experienced it a ridiculous amount of times. Just. fucking. DONT. Okay???
~--Facts about me--~
If I say no, it means no, which means FUCKING DROP IT..
If I bitch about something...it's my way of holding back from DOING IT. Be glad...
If I want to do something and I can't I get pissed off whether it's my fault or not.
If I get frustrated im going to be very fucking negative to be around.
If you cannot handle my bitching, I am not for you. Get the fuck on, because I will be doing alot of it.
I don't want to hurt anyone but I also want to FUCKING ESCAPE THIS RAGE and I'm FUCKING STUCK with it. I can't SCREAM because people are sleeping. Even in the day time I can't fucking SCREAM like I want to sometimes because people are pussies now a days and will complain to the police who I don't want to deal with.
There's always a CHOICE in everything you do...but some choices have far more dire consequences you don't want to fucking deal with because of the damn drama. So this gives the feeling of a gun to your FUCKING HEAD. "Hey, um...you can make that other choice but if you do, afterwards, you're gonna have a bad time for longer then the thrill lasted. Make your choice."
So you CAN but the gun makes you NOT. There are three reactions to this--
1. You pick what you want, let the gun go off because you don't give a shit.
2. You submit to the gun, and let your choice take it's turn.
3. You freeze, unable to decide.
So.. it's damned if you do, damned if you don't. It's like a fucking jigsaw game sometimes, but an EMOTIONAL one. There's always a choice. There's always a catch. Someone always has to face their fear. Someone ALWAYS has t fucking sacrifice something. Someone will ALWAYS get hurt. And some might even die. The blood can be on your hands, or it can be on theirs.
Those moments are ALL a part of life.
Then there's when you want to run away, but then there's "how long would it take to get there" / "where would I go" / "is it even worth it" / "Will it really help" / "If anyone notices, will they search for me" blah blah blah. So you're left with this deep feeling of homesickness and there's nothing you can do.
I am so happy, bored, or calm a lot of the times, and all these thoughts are gone. Or I make a joke about it, or I make it something brighter if I can.. but when I get these moments, it's BAD. It's fucking BAD. The frustration and rage has built so high inside I can feel it in my fucking THROAT, it makes me want to PUKE and just cry until I can't anymore. Everyone has something they struggle with; this is mine. Rage and frustration on top of mental issues, that Im supposed to take medication for, but it turns me into a zombie. It damn near NUMBS my EVERY emotion just to balance me out...
I don't want it to be that way, so I don't take it. I need to feel, I need to smile and laugh, I need to have a good time, I need to LIVE LIFE like I'm going to die tomorrow. and with my medication, I can't do that. When I take it, I sit and rock myself or do things sluggishly. But lately I've taken it. It isn't so bad. It's a nice break from the frequent bitterness and frustration.. I don't want any attention okay, I just pose these journals because it's the only place I can type everything out without being interrupted or having to argue because I upset the one I was telling.
Do not pity me, I don't want sympathy, It's my fault. No one elses. I have the choice to change it but I do not. So do notcomment "Im sorry" followed by other sympathy words or statements please. It makes it worse. And if you disagree with something I said, fuck off, im not going to argue with you and do not need your shit. Carry on.
If you do comment, just tell me about if you agree with something I've said in this.
for now, im tired and have a headache with nothing more to stay awake for so im going to bed. I will reply if I get comments when I wake up.
things to come
General | Posted 10 years agoIm announcing this useless journal for those who don't know because i'm bored.
1. Guys, next weekend is going to be awesome because either laser tag, a movie, or bowling then going home, shopping, and then going home and drinking what I want.
2. I've been working on a fursuit! I have the paws and the tail done! I just have to go shopping next Friday for the materials for my fursuit head. I'll probably make an alternate tail too. Something longer and fluffier hopefully.
1. Guys, next weekend is going to be awesome because either laser tag, a movie, or bowling then going home, shopping, and then going home and drinking what I want.
2. I've been working on a fursuit! I have the paws and the tail done! I just have to go shopping next Friday for the materials for my fursuit head. I'll probably make an alternate tail too. Something longer and fluffier hopefully.
Fursuit things that bug me
General | Posted 10 years ago1. Bad Portion - When the head is fucking MASSIVE compared to the one wearing it, having you look like a bobble head.
The the muzzle is as big or bigger then the fucking head itself.
When the eyes are too big for its face.
When the ears are on top of the head sticking straight up with like no shape.
2. Unstable muzzles- When the muzzle flops around or bounces when you walk.
3. Lack of depth - When the face is just like, purely round like a ball, or flat as fuck.
When the expression is hard to define due to the lack of facial expression details
4. Bad muzzle shapes - When the muzzle is too fucking square, too flat, too wide or too narrow *Unless species has a narrow muzzle like a fox for example*
5. Unbalanced faces - When one side is lower or higher then the other, and when the muzzle is crooked.
when the muzzle is too low
when the ears are too far back or on top of the head like a party hat..
6. Choppy/careless shaved fur - when someone doesn't take their time and just fucking chops at the fur.
7. Matted fur - When the fur is all clumped up, and messy. There's a brush for that people, come on now. If you can't get one just yet, use your regular brush just do something.
8. Uneven teeth - when they're crooked, or have way too many all close together. and when they're all the exact same size and shape spaced out..
9. Bad digigrade padding - when the padding looks like you cut a damn ball in half then just stuck it onto your knee and the back of your leg.
When the padding looks thin as fuck from the front but holy SHIT wide on the side.
When the padding just flops around and the fur is all saggy around it...
So Tell me guys, when you see a fursuit, what're some of the things that bother YOU?
The the muzzle is as big or bigger then the fucking head itself.
When the eyes are too big for its face.
When the ears are on top of the head sticking straight up with like no shape.
2. Unstable muzzles- When the muzzle flops around or bounces when you walk.
3. Lack of depth - When the face is just like, purely round like a ball, or flat as fuck.
When the expression is hard to define due to the lack of facial expression details
4. Bad muzzle shapes - When the muzzle is too fucking square, too flat, too wide or too narrow *Unless species has a narrow muzzle like a fox for example*
5. Unbalanced faces - When one side is lower or higher then the other, and when the muzzle is crooked.
when the muzzle is too low
when the ears are too far back or on top of the head like a party hat..
6. Choppy/careless shaved fur - when someone doesn't take their time and just fucking chops at the fur.
7. Matted fur - When the fur is all clumped up, and messy. There's a brush for that people, come on now. If you can't get one just yet, use your regular brush just do something.
8. Uneven teeth - when they're crooked, or have way too many all close together. and when they're all the exact same size and shape spaced out..
9. Bad digigrade padding - when the padding looks like you cut a damn ball in half then just stuck it onto your knee and the back of your leg.
When the padding looks thin as fuck from the front but holy SHIT wide on the side.
When the padding just flops around and the fur is all saggy around it...
So Tell me guys, when you see a fursuit, what're some of the things that bother YOU?
Furry haters -small rant-
General | Posted 10 years agoAll over, I see people who hate on furries. Often times, they've never met one and just see shit on the internet and media when THEY describe us. They make us out to be: Sex crazed freaks, rejects with no life, all faggots, or just flat out weird. They make us sound like just plain bad people too.
It is a major load of SHIT. Please do not go by what the media or shit like that says about us. Furries are the nicest people I know now a days. Many are so friendly, welcoming, funny, and open minded. I have met furs who have a social life just like any other "average" person.
Like, if you HAVE met some furries but still don't know or don't like the whole thing that's cool too. Just don't dog us about it dude. Like the fuck? If you don't like it, keep on going. You don't have to stop what you're doing just to express the hate towards us, or tell us we're "gross freaks". We have a hard enough time, just like you will have your OWN fucking problems at some point or another if you're not already in over your head. It pisses me off. Just fuckin' move on and don't look at it.
Everyone has their own stuff they like. To me, the best part about fursuiting is just getting together at a con, and being social. Having FUN. Brightening people's day, ya know? Be silly, be fun, be yourself. Some of the best moments of fursuiting is when you see someone's expression change from casual, or sad, or angry, or bored, ALL the way to just lighting up like it's the best thing ever.
When you can tell someone's having a horrible day, or just being bored? And you can walk up in your fursuit, to see their face just light up, and their eyes shine. When they smile from ear to ear and laugh, you know you've just made their day SO much better. You may even be the highlight of their LIFE thus so far, who knows! The point is, no matter the age, when you make someone's day it's a truly amazing feeling and experience. Some have even gone to Orphanage's just to cheer the kids up and make their life a little better for a day. When a little kid hugs you like you're their favorite thing in the world it's really, REALLY rewarding.
Furries are NOT bad people, okay??? The media and fuckin' haters make us out to be like that. If you REALLY want to know?? Go to an Anthrocon when you can. Talk to them. Interact with them. See for YOURSELF how furries are and what the cons are about. We're just... different. Just because we're not like the majority of people doesn't make us horrible or gross. It's a wonderful way to express ourselves too. TO escape the stress of the real world for just a little bit and make others happy. Like I said, if you REALLY want to know how furries and cons REALLY are, I advise you to attend a con yourself just to experience it. I've met and experienced SO much HATE, and as stated earlier, so many are ignorant and narrow minded about it. And it just fucking pisses me off. Form a personal opinion from experience, not the rumors and stereotypes.
It is a major load of SHIT. Please do not go by what the media or shit like that says about us. Furries are the nicest people I know now a days. Many are so friendly, welcoming, funny, and open minded. I have met furs who have a social life just like any other "average" person.
Like, if you HAVE met some furries but still don't know or don't like the whole thing that's cool too. Just don't dog us about it dude. Like the fuck? If you don't like it, keep on going. You don't have to stop what you're doing just to express the hate towards us, or tell us we're "gross freaks". We have a hard enough time, just like you will have your OWN fucking problems at some point or another if you're not already in over your head. It pisses me off. Just fuckin' move on and don't look at it.
Everyone has their own stuff they like. To me, the best part about fursuiting is just getting together at a con, and being social. Having FUN. Brightening people's day, ya know? Be silly, be fun, be yourself. Some of the best moments of fursuiting is when you see someone's expression change from casual, or sad, or angry, or bored, ALL the way to just lighting up like it's the best thing ever.
When you can tell someone's having a horrible day, or just being bored? And you can walk up in your fursuit, to see their face just light up, and their eyes shine. When they smile from ear to ear and laugh, you know you've just made their day SO much better. You may even be the highlight of their LIFE thus so far, who knows! The point is, no matter the age, when you make someone's day it's a truly amazing feeling and experience. Some have even gone to Orphanage's just to cheer the kids up and make their life a little better for a day. When a little kid hugs you like you're their favorite thing in the world it's really, REALLY rewarding.
Furries are NOT bad people, okay??? The media and fuckin' haters make us out to be like that. If you REALLY want to know?? Go to an Anthrocon when you can. Talk to them. Interact with them. See for YOURSELF how furries are and what the cons are about. We're just... different. Just because we're not like the majority of people doesn't make us horrible or gross. It's a wonderful way to express ourselves too. TO escape the stress of the real world for just a little bit and make others happy. Like I said, if you REALLY want to know how furries and cons REALLY are, I advise you to attend a con yourself just to experience it. I've met and experienced SO much HATE, and as stated earlier, so many are ignorant and narrow minded about it. And it just fucking pisses me off. Form a personal opinion from experience, not the rumors and stereotypes.
Attention Warrior Cat fans
General | Posted 10 years agoSo, we're trying to kick start a warrior RP site, and we're looking for active RP'ers! There are high ranks open!! and the rules aren't way too fuckin' strict like on other warrior cat sites I've seen. So If you're a fan of Warriors, you can come rp with me, and/or other people on the site. Mostly everyone is super chill and cool.
http://forgottentimes.webs.com/
http://forgottentimes.webs.com/
Possible break and updates
General | Posted 10 years agoSo since the 1st, I've been working on my paws and tail for a partial fursuit. They're done, but I guess working on that stuff killed my digital art mood??? So art will be slow, and my replies too possibly, but i'm here. Just taking a little break from art.
I'm doing fine, just in a stand-still. Nothing to do, nowhere to really be except a wedding today. So it's pretty boring, and without excitement I lack inspiration and motivation to draw. So it isn't bad, but it isn't the best thing ever. Im just meh about art and just digital things in general. I want to do something exciting, fun. Push the limits. But there's no real way to do that. Everyone's so uptight now a days, and get butthurt easily. So.. It's like "I want to do this, but I also don't want to deal with the bitching,"
I guess i'm just...taking a break to figure out what's up and what i'm going to do.
I'm doing fine, just in a stand-still. Nothing to do, nowhere to really be except a wedding today. So it's pretty boring, and without excitement I lack inspiration and motivation to draw. So it isn't bad, but it isn't the best thing ever. Im just meh about art and just digital things in general. I want to do something exciting, fun. Push the limits. But there's no real way to do that. Everyone's so uptight now a days, and get butthurt easily. So.. It's like "I want to do this, but I also don't want to deal with the bitching,"
I guess i'm just...taking a break to figure out what's up and what i'm going to do.
Things that bug me -RANT-
General | Posted 10 years agoJust a little rant. Not out of anger or anything but it's just some of my peeves.
One of them is mistaken identity-- and I know that not everyone is totally tuned into animals as much as others but come on:
When you mistake a pitbull for a great dane? A cheetah for a leopard? Or even a cheetah and a LION confused??? Come on dudes...why? there are is such thing as anatomy difference.
or when someone sees a grass snake like; "omg poisonous!" .... really bitch? First of all; the term is "venomous" not "poisonous", YES there is a difference. Second of all; Yes some breeds of snake make it harder to tell between venomous and nonvenomous snakes, but most of the time there are (once again) Anatomy differences! The head, the eyes, even the body sometimes.
ANYWAY back to the dogs. It seriously peeves me when people don't know the difference between a standard, miniature, and a toy dog. Like it isn't that hard to tell? And AGAIN with the mistaken identity in breeds. I know this one dude saw a mastiff and called it a great dane.... sit the fuck down.
---
but my TOP peeve is dog owners that don't know SHIT about dogs and how to treat them.
"I give my dog all the affection it needs and THEN some! It's fed! The vet says it's healthy, WHY is my dog so bad??? sob sob sob i'm going to have to get rid of it or put it down more sobbing blah blah"
again, sit the fuck down. Right now. Dogs ARE NOT humans! They have MUCH different ways and standards. I see so many owners with an out of control dog, and then the dog suffers for their ignorance.
Dogs need shit in this order:: Exercise, discipline, affection. <-- without it, the dog will become VERY unstable. Why? Because then the dog takes on the "pack leader" role and does what ever the fuck it wants, many bites triggered from being over protective of their "pack mate" AKA owner, and has NO respect for your food or your clothing, your furniture or anything else.
If you are not willing to be patient, and take on the calm assertive pack leader role for your dog?? Don't fucking get one.
"But I want a best friend!" "But I want a cuddle partner!" "Oh, but it was so cute! How can I scold it?"
Just fucking don't okay.. a dog needs a pack leader for things to be orderly and peaceful in the house. If not, you will have an unstable dog, and put everyone in danger. No matter your life style, no matter the dog breed, the dog is a dog and needs exercise. It needs to be disciplined, socialized, and THEN you can reward it with petting, food, water, and other good stuff like that. Maybe some more play time if they aren't too tired; throw the ball, play Frisbee, chase eachother, whatever! Just make sure the dog is active.
First off: I've seen this all too much when a dog is out of line-- "SIT!! STAY!! QUIT IT! LAY DOWN! CALM DOWN! GET INSIDE! NO DON'T RUN OUTSIDE! WE'VE HAD THIS TALK BEFORE!"
stop it. This does not work. "Oh but my dog listens very well!"
well dude, hate to break it to ya, but even if the dog DOES sit, or lay down, or roll over on command, that does not make you the "leader" and it does not make you in "control". TO TRULY control a dog, you must control it's MIND; then you get a body/physical reaction.
I see so many fucking cases where they do not know how to walk a dog properly. "But there's no rules! You put on the leash and walk out the door, right?"
WRONG. There's 3 types of BAD dog walkers. 1- the treasure seeker: Dog pulling owner, or is in front. / 2- The tick: You have to stop when another dog or even human possibly is coming your way, wrap the leash around your hand about 40 times and hang on for dear life to the nearest pole or tree. / 3- the pack rat: You look like your going into war, carrying a fuck ton of toys and treats that are their favorite and ready to bribe or distract them with such. "Okay, so what're you in the mood for today? ;u; "
STOP IT. You're doing this horribly wrong.
THEN there's the fact that 90% of dog owners do not realize that the source of the dog's issue is THEM. Dog has 99 problems and the owner is ALL of them.
Such as owners who don't trust their dog, owners who are fearful of their dog or what they MIGHT/COULD do, owners who are nervous or protective over their dog, owners who SPOIL their dog like it's their only child, owners who are perhaps in an unstable relationship triggering the dog to sense disorder among the pack triggering a number of issues, pulling the dog's collar or leash, owners who panic and scream at their dogs, owners who take their dogs for walk but constantly tense, anxious owners, angry owners, and just SO MANY WRONG FUCKING OWNERS I want to PUNCH in the FACE for being so ignorant.
How many people get a puppy, spoil it because it's cute, then slowly stop playing with it or taking it for walks when it gets older? How many people get a dog but don't do shit with it? Example: Inside dogs- many spend their days behind the walls with major lack of activity and lack of socializing. Resulting is very yappy, unstable, possibly dangerous dogs. I hate bad dog owners. I really do. It's my top peeve.
One of them is mistaken identity-- and I know that not everyone is totally tuned into animals as much as others but come on:
When you mistake a pitbull for a great dane? A cheetah for a leopard? Or even a cheetah and a LION confused??? Come on dudes...why? there are is such thing as anatomy difference.
or when someone sees a grass snake like; "omg poisonous!" .... really bitch? First of all; the term is "venomous" not "poisonous", YES there is a difference. Second of all; Yes some breeds of snake make it harder to tell between venomous and nonvenomous snakes, but most of the time there are (once again) Anatomy differences! The head, the eyes, even the body sometimes.
ANYWAY back to the dogs. It seriously peeves me when people don't know the difference between a standard, miniature, and a toy dog. Like it isn't that hard to tell? And AGAIN with the mistaken identity in breeds. I know this one dude saw a mastiff and called it a great dane.... sit the fuck down.
---
but my TOP peeve is dog owners that don't know SHIT about dogs and how to treat them.
"I give my dog all the affection it needs and THEN some! It's fed! The vet says it's healthy, WHY is my dog so bad??? sob sob sob i'm going to have to get rid of it or put it down more sobbing blah blah"
again, sit the fuck down. Right now. Dogs ARE NOT humans! They have MUCH different ways and standards. I see so many owners with an out of control dog, and then the dog suffers for their ignorance.
Dogs need shit in this order:: Exercise, discipline, affection. <-- without it, the dog will become VERY unstable. Why? Because then the dog takes on the "pack leader" role and does what ever the fuck it wants, many bites triggered from being over protective of their "pack mate" AKA owner, and has NO respect for your food or your clothing, your furniture or anything else.
If you are not willing to be patient, and take on the calm assertive pack leader role for your dog?? Don't fucking get one.
"But I want a best friend!" "But I want a cuddle partner!" "Oh, but it was so cute! How can I scold it?"
Just fucking don't okay.. a dog needs a pack leader for things to be orderly and peaceful in the house. If not, you will have an unstable dog, and put everyone in danger. No matter your life style, no matter the dog breed, the dog is a dog and needs exercise. It needs to be disciplined, socialized, and THEN you can reward it with petting, food, water, and other good stuff like that. Maybe some more play time if they aren't too tired; throw the ball, play Frisbee, chase eachother, whatever! Just make sure the dog is active.
First off: I've seen this all too much when a dog is out of line-- "SIT!! STAY!! QUIT IT! LAY DOWN! CALM DOWN! GET INSIDE! NO DON'T RUN OUTSIDE! WE'VE HAD THIS TALK BEFORE!"
stop it. This does not work. "Oh but my dog listens very well!"
well dude, hate to break it to ya, but even if the dog DOES sit, or lay down, or roll over on command, that does not make you the "leader" and it does not make you in "control". TO TRULY control a dog, you must control it's MIND; then you get a body/physical reaction.
I see so many fucking cases where they do not know how to walk a dog properly. "But there's no rules! You put on the leash and walk out the door, right?"
WRONG. There's 3 types of BAD dog walkers. 1- the treasure seeker: Dog pulling owner, or is in front. / 2- The tick: You have to stop when another dog or even human possibly is coming your way, wrap the leash around your hand about 40 times and hang on for dear life to the nearest pole or tree. / 3- the pack rat: You look like your going into war, carrying a fuck ton of toys and treats that are their favorite and ready to bribe or distract them with such. "Okay, so what're you in the mood for today? ;u; "
STOP IT. You're doing this horribly wrong.
THEN there's the fact that 90% of dog owners do not realize that the source of the dog's issue is THEM. Dog has 99 problems and the owner is ALL of them.
Such as owners who don't trust their dog, owners who are fearful of their dog or what they MIGHT/COULD do, owners who are nervous or protective over their dog, owners who SPOIL their dog like it's their only child, owners who are perhaps in an unstable relationship triggering the dog to sense disorder among the pack triggering a number of issues, pulling the dog's collar or leash, owners who panic and scream at their dogs, owners who take their dogs for walk but constantly tense, anxious owners, angry owners, and just SO MANY WRONG FUCKING OWNERS I want to PUNCH in the FACE for being so ignorant.
How many people get a puppy, spoil it because it's cute, then slowly stop playing with it or taking it for walks when it gets older? How many people get a dog but don't do shit with it? Example: Inside dogs- many spend their days behind the walls with major lack of activity and lack of socializing. Resulting is very yappy, unstable, possibly dangerous dogs. I hate bad dog owners. I really do. It's my top peeve.
Laughing too hard
General | Posted 10 years agoat a simple quote
"Why do females think it's funny to take a dude's hat and run around with it?
What if a dude took yo weave and ran around with it"
"Why do females think it's funny to take a dude's hat and run around with it?
What if a dude took yo weave and ran around with it"
Need DA points!
General | Posted 10 years agoExcuse me (please read)
General | Posted 11 years agohttp://wolfofdarkn3ss.deviantart.com/
Art from Demi, Chibi, Falvie and others in this persons gallery. I really hate art thiefs.
Art from Demi, Chibi, Falvie and others in this persons gallery. I really hate art thiefs.
Gore account!
General | Posted 11 years agoSo I made a separate account for gore and fetish art because not everyone wants to see all that. Those who are a fan of it and/or don't mind, and want to watch my art like that, my alternate account is 
I'll try to be as active there as I am here.
I'll try to be as active there as I am here.
Next Time
General | Posted 11 years agoIf you live with anyone, staying at someone's house, or in an apartment whatever. Next time you hear your neighbors having sex...
in your best Mortal Kombat voice, say: "Finish him" or "Finish her"
After a bit of time, if they reply: "Round two...FIGHT."
they're cool shit dude
in your best Mortal Kombat voice, say: "Finish him" or "Finish her"
After a bit of time, if they reply: "Round two...FIGHT."
they're cool shit dude
My Dirty Little Secret
General | Posted 11 years agoA game I created, which is very intimate in a way and is completely reliant on emotional trust and a physical touch. Which means this can only be played if you can truly feel the other player beside you as it is vital for signals. The only words spoken are the secrets shared. This is a game with a serious tone to it but fun if you play with the right partner. I'm dropping this here in case anyone out there wants to give it a go. I have played with a very close friend of mine who in fact actually helped me with this game. ANYWAY, here is a sort of how to play I sketched up making it as simple as possible.
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~~RULES!!~~
Do not enter the game with a negative attitude or emotion of any kind.
It is best to enter when you are in a peaceful state of mind.
Do not remove the blindfold during the game.
Do not speak anything but your secrets during the game. This includes objecting nor asking questions.
Do not bring up a secret spoken again, each secret is released ONCE.
You may not discuss a secret shared during, before, nor after the game.
2 player game only.
You MUST play in a private area, where ONLY you and your partner can hear the secrets exchanged.
You MUST trust the other player fully, without a shadow of doubt.
Step 1: Candle light or no light so not to taint the brighter times with the secrets
step 2: Blindfolds are a must - your eyes make you shallow, and so you blind them to open your mind.
step 3: Speak these words together at the same time to begin the game- "No one knows what we will breathe, but you and I will have these secrets to keep. As Whispers in the dark, I give you my Dirty Little Secret."
Step 4: With a single thumb select a type of secret by touching the other person.
Forehead = Past memory / Lips = Fantasy and-or desire/ Swipe across the chest = Guilt
Step 5: Pass the turn to your partner by holding a single finger to their lips in a "shhh" motion/style
Step 6: Exchange every secret you have with this partner until you are both done.
Step 7: Close the game by speaking these words together at the same time: "Now you know my dirty little secret, I trust that you will keep it. If these secrets are spoken for others' ears to behold them, may your deceitful heart be broken." you then remove eachothers blindfolds.
___________________________________________________-
~~RULES!!~~
Do not enter the game with a negative attitude or emotion of any kind.
It is best to enter when you are in a peaceful state of mind.
Do not remove the blindfold during the game.
Do not speak anything but your secrets during the game. This includes objecting nor asking questions.
Do not bring up a secret spoken again, each secret is released ONCE.
You may not discuss a secret shared during, before, nor after the game.
2 player game only.
You MUST play in a private area, where ONLY you and your partner can hear the secrets exchanged.
You MUST trust the other player fully, without a shadow of doubt.
Step 1: Candle light or no light so not to taint the brighter times with the secrets
step 2: Blindfolds are a must - your eyes make you shallow, and so you blind them to open your mind.
step 3: Speak these words together at the same time to begin the game- "No one knows what we will breathe, but you and I will have these secrets to keep. As Whispers in the dark, I give you my Dirty Little Secret."
Step 4: With a single thumb select a type of secret by touching the other person.
Forehead = Past memory / Lips = Fantasy and-or desire/ Swipe across the chest = Guilt
Step 5: Pass the turn to your partner by holding a single finger to their lips in a "shhh" motion/style
Step 6: Exchange every secret you have with this partner until you are both done.
Step 7: Close the game by speaking these words together at the same time: "Now you know my dirty little secret, I trust that you will keep it. If these secrets are spoken for others' ears to behold them, may your deceitful heart be broken." you then remove eachothers blindfolds.
QUICK
General | Posted 11 years agoVent/rant
General | Posted 11 years agoI'm VERY ANGRY right now, for no reason and want to rant/VENT. if you're sensitive or don't care, ignore this!!!
Can I please go one day without being pissed off at least once at someone or something, or just because my mind decides "Guess what...you're about to get very pissed off in 3...2...*snap*"
I don't want to be angry, because when i'm angry, I'm a total fuckface even when I try not to be.
Then there's that moment when I can't do ANYTHING to fucking get RID of the anger, and frustration without serious consequences.
So I SIT there. Pissed off as ever, wanting to fucking beat and strangle the next person that gets close enough no matter WHO they are.
All stressed out and no one to CHOKE.
Something has to give
or else i'm going to flip my shit and just explode with full force and get myself into some serious trouble.
Then I get those moments where I go WAY beyond pissed off, and just smile. Be a good quiet boy. Back away from whatever it is and just get so fucking mellow on the outside, when inside my mind very...very BAD thoughts towards other random people. Even though I'm smiling people think "Oh wow, he's in a great mood! What a cool dude."
No. When I go from red-faced crying pissed off to smiling and chill???? That's the smile to be very, VERY concerned about.
Have you ever tried to WARN people when you're about to fucking flip shit, and you WARN them that you can feel yourself cracking, and you repeatedly tell them WHY it's happening, and they just reply with: "But you won't do anything. Just calm down. Just drop it, okay? You'll be fine." ???
If so then you understand why it's so FUCKING ANGERING when you DO explode and flip your shit and they're standing around all shocked and confused asking WHY you did what you did, or said what you said.
Like, dude, I FUCKING WARNED you. You didn't take the warning. I TRIED to tell you I was snap off and YOU called bullshit, now you see i'm not joking, don't you?
I try to be good. I do. I've done well with keeping myself from beating the fuck out of people, and keeping what I say in check. but oh my FUCK it's getting harder and harder to keep it in. I REALLY don't want to explode because I KNOW i'll do something that will change my life, and others' life that I care about if and when I do, if not end someone's life and get myself locked up.
I'm stressed, frustrated, and so MAD a lot lately. No way to let it out the way I want to, because if I did, haha no good would ever come of it. And when I DO explode, people around me will be like: "WTF WHY?!! THE FUCK IS WRONG WITH YOU, IDIOT"
and i'm going to reply: "What the FUCK did you expect me to do?! I couldn't release it! I was backed into a corner."
then it'll all go down hill from there. Damned if I do, Damned if I don't.
I NEED to release these feelings. I NEED to release all of the pent up anger, frustration, and stress. I NEED something to give. I CAN'T keep holding it in. Because it WILL explode. I will snap. I don't know what to do anymore.
I don't want to make the people I care for upset, hurt them, or them be angry at me, or leave me. I'm SO afraid they'll leave me if I do anything to release it, because of the WAYS I want to get rid of it. I do not want to lose them. I love them, I really do. I've given nearly EVERYTHING for them.
Changed my ways. Took the time, and controlled myself. But due to many reoccurring events...I've become terribly afraid to do anything. Will not do anything to upset them on purpose. In turn, sacrificing ALOT of things. When it just isn't enough at times??? So...it's like, what the fuck do I do now?
I don't know anymore. In turn, I know myself. I know what's coming. I'm trying to find ways to STOP it from coming. But oh fuck it's getting harder and harder each day as it builds, and builds. I don't want to cut anyone off from my life, or any shit like that. I just NEED something to give. I need them to fucking RELAX. Chill. And TRUST me to do what I gotta do to release these pent up feelings. If I don't as I've said above: I. Will. Explode. No matter how much I try not to. I just don't want to be so fucking ANGRY anymore.
I don't want the ones I care for to be upset either.
Why can't we all just FUCKING CHILL, relax, and just...be happy again??? Why can't we just feel HAPPY all together, and get what we get without throwing a fit? Why can't we all just get along, let go of all the bad shit, and just relax and be happy? Is it REALLY that hard to do?
I do not post these because I want attention, i'm posting this because I have nowhere else to really just fucking BITCH, rant, and vent, without a fight or argument on my hands, or making myself or anyone else look like the problem or the bad guy. The point o THIS vent/rant, is one last screaming plead for something to loosen up. All I want is a way to release this pent up rage, in a way I don't lose or upset anyone. That's ALL i'm begging for. To release this shit, in a physical way that doesn't upset ANYONE. I HAVE to do what I can until this shit straightens out. If I don't it will all be over before it can even truly begin.
Can I please go one day without being pissed off at least once at someone or something, or just because my mind decides "Guess what...you're about to get very pissed off in 3...2...*snap*"
I don't want to be angry, because when i'm angry, I'm a total fuckface even when I try not to be.
Then there's that moment when I can't do ANYTHING to fucking get RID of the anger, and frustration without serious consequences.
So I SIT there. Pissed off as ever, wanting to fucking beat and strangle the next person that gets close enough no matter WHO they are.
All stressed out and no one to CHOKE.
Something has to give
or else i'm going to flip my shit and just explode with full force and get myself into some serious trouble.
Then I get those moments where I go WAY beyond pissed off, and just smile. Be a good quiet boy. Back away from whatever it is and just get so fucking mellow on the outside, when inside my mind very...very BAD thoughts towards other random people. Even though I'm smiling people think "Oh wow, he's in a great mood! What a cool dude."
No. When I go from red-faced crying pissed off to smiling and chill???? That's the smile to be very, VERY concerned about.
Have you ever tried to WARN people when you're about to fucking flip shit, and you WARN them that you can feel yourself cracking, and you repeatedly tell them WHY it's happening, and they just reply with: "But you won't do anything. Just calm down. Just drop it, okay? You'll be fine." ???
If so then you understand why it's so FUCKING ANGERING when you DO explode and flip your shit and they're standing around all shocked and confused asking WHY you did what you did, or said what you said.
Like, dude, I FUCKING WARNED you. You didn't take the warning. I TRIED to tell you I was snap off and YOU called bullshit, now you see i'm not joking, don't you?
I try to be good. I do. I've done well with keeping myself from beating the fuck out of people, and keeping what I say in check. but oh my FUCK it's getting harder and harder to keep it in. I REALLY don't want to explode because I KNOW i'll do something that will change my life, and others' life that I care about if and when I do, if not end someone's life and get myself locked up.
I'm stressed, frustrated, and so MAD a lot lately. No way to let it out the way I want to, because if I did, haha no good would ever come of it. And when I DO explode, people around me will be like: "WTF WHY?!! THE FUCK IS WRONG WITH YOU, IDIOT"
and i'm going to reply: "What the FUCK did you expect me to do?! I couldn't release it! I was backed into a corner."
then it'll all go down hill from there. Damned if I do, Damned if I don't.
I NEED to release these feelings. I NEED to release all of the pent up anger, frustration, and stress. I NEED something to give. I CAN'T keep holding it in. Because it WILL explode. I will snap. I don't know what to do anymore.
I don't want to make the people I care for upset, hurt them, or them be angry at me, or leave me. I'm SO afraid they'll leave me if I do anything to release it, because of the WAYS I want to get rid of it. I do not want to lose them. I love them, I really do. I've given nearly EVERYTHING for them.
Changed my ways. Took the time, and controlled myself. But due to many reoccurring events...I've become terribly afraid to do anything. Will not do anything to upset them on purpose. In turn, sacrificing ALOT of things. When it just isn't enough at times??? So...it's like, what the fuck do I do now?
I don't know anymore. In turn, I know myself. I know what's coming. I'm trying to find ways to STOP it from coming. But oh fuck it's getting harder and harder each day as it builds, and builds. I don't want to cut anyone off from my life, or any shit like that. I just NEED something to give. I need them to fucking RELAX. Chill. And TRUST me to do what I gotta do to release these pent up feelings. If I don't as I've said above: I. Will. Explode. No matter how much I try not to. I just don't want to be so fucking ANGRY anymore.
I don't want the ones I care for to be upset either.
Why can't we all just FUCKING CHILL, relax, and just...be happy again??? Why can't we just feel HAPPY all together, and get what we get without throwing a fit? Why can't we all just get along, let go of all the bad shit, and just relax and be happy? Is it REALLY that hard to do?
I do not post these because I want attention, i'm posting this because I have nowhere else to really just fucking BITCH, rant, and vent, without a fight or argument on my hands, or making myself or anyone else look like the problem or the bad guy. The point o THIS vent/rant, is one last screaming plead for something to loosen up. All I want is a way to release this pent up rage, in a way I don't lose or upset anyone. That's ALL i'm begging for. To release this shit, in a physical way that doesn't upset ANYONE. I HAVE to do what I can until this shit straightens out. If I don't it will all be over before it can even truly begin.
