I am not boycotting Furaffinity like other artists, but I do give them a proper thanks with my uploads. They get a different version uploaded than Furaffinity gets more often than not. Be sure to check out my inkbunny versions of stuff, even if you have already seen then here on Furaffinity. FA is like VHS while Inkbunny is the DVD full of extras etc. ^^

For example, I just uploaded 4 different versions of my Tiger of the Wind drawing there. Be sure to take a peek. ^^

https://inkbunny.net/Malroth

Yaay. I spent the whole week encoding every single Dragon Tales episode. I wonder what I should do with them. Also, all the Dragon Tales fans speak up. I wanna know how many of you are out there :3

Those rival My Little Pony fans got it made. They got a 'cool' update to their embarrassing show. We Dragon Tales fans still have to watch our show in shame. :P

After I finally drew something I couldn't upload here to FA, I finally took everyone's advice to put some things over on Inkbunny. It will be weird learning a whole new website interface, but at least if you want to see the banned things I drew, there is suck a place.

..and that place is https://inkbunny.net/Malroth

The new upload policy was like a grenade. Some people took a fatal hit from it, some took minimal damage from it, and some walked away without a scratch. Having gone over my gallery with a Mod whom I won't name, it was determined that only one of my pictures was in violation of the new policy. All but one of my pictues that could be interpreted as cub fell under the Feral exception. The remaining picture, the Upside-down Cassie drawing did not.

Rather than remove that drawing (it had a numerical theme name of Memory Three), I have converted it to a clean drawing. If any of you want the original sexual version of it, it has cropped up on several other sites such as that rule34 place and e621 i believe. I'm glad more of my artwork hasn't been targeted by the ban and hope you all will enjoy my edited copy of my cassie pic.

I'll mourn for those who have taken a much harder hit than I have...

Anyone remember Sawblade? The SawRena project guy? Whatever happened to him? I veeeeeery much want to find him... There is something of his I wanna color..but can't without permission. (personal code)

Anyone know where he is these days?



Oh yeah, and I'm back and stuff.

Well, I do feel bad that I swooped up my entire gallery without notice, so to hopefully attone for the sudden impact, I will upload my 5 pictures I've made that I am most proud of. Hopefully, this will help those of you who cared for my artwork to ease in to my absence.

Hello all. My name is Jesse I hate to shock those who care with the sudden disappearance of everything that is Malroth, but it occurs to me that there is no reason for me to exist on here. I don't want the stigma of others who have cut out and walked away for random emo bullshit reasons, so I will be frank. Drawing for all of you has been a thrill, mostly, even if none of you truely appreciate what that means. I didn't want anything in return, and apologize for those who were actually fans of me, however few of you those were.

It's occured to me that I have absolutely no bearing in this community as an artist, and have struggled high and low to keep many friendships. My overdedication to my artwork has not only alienated thos who would be my friends (appearantly, I am annoying while talking about it) but also but a real dent in my life. Unfortunately, through lots of thought and a little bit of a breakdown, I have decided that Malroth must go. Whether me being Malroth will return or not is uncertain, but what is certain is that I must be Jesse first, then earn the right to be Malroth.

Again, I am sorry for all those I have been a burden too.

List of people I have alienated:
8horns
Glenn
Ishoka
Athus
ConnerCoon
ArgonVile
Dreke
Lando
Rikko
looqdrake
insomniacovrlrd
and maybe more. I just don't know.


Some (not all) of these folks have never told me why they ended their friendship with me, and not all of them are enemies, just passive aquaintences at best.In the long run, I guess I just don't matter. I've gone far out of my way to not be THAT GUY who causes drama over such unknown reasons, so Ijust need to let this whole thing go.

Perhaps I'll come back when the furry world needs Malroth, but it looks like you have everything I could possibly provide covered. If Imake it to anthro con, i'll be giving away all my handdrawn originals so...wish me luck attending.

(ps, no, this isnt a suicide journal)

Posting random art of cartoon characters is fun and stuff, but I think I should start trying my hand at making gift arts and stuff of original characters. I think I will try to have a random suprise gift art of someone's character once a week, without provocation. I think I will start with the controversial popular artist, NekoGami, whom I've never truely met before. The content will not just be random stuff (you can only draw so many nude poses), but be based on something that may be of passing interest to Gami himself, the way I understand it.

Whatever I do come out with will be very unexpected, and take more work than any of you realize!

I'm gonna bring his character to life in a way no one has before.

It seems I have an inspiration to remake some famous pics that are floating around but outdated. I got a good try of it with Asthexiancal's pic of Impmon from waaay back in the stone age. I really enjoy breathing new life into old art. The question is...does it impede on some of the artists if i choose their work? I hope to choose one pic a week to remake in my style.

I am working currently on a master splinter pic (not a remake, but I worked together with Frickabee to come up with it...). I think you who are splinter fans will really enjoy it.

On another note, I seem to be stuck in Pose-mode (solo characters in art.) That's all good and stuff, but it gets very repetative after a while. I need to start touching naughty bit to naughty bit some time.

ANyways, back to the remake project. What is the protocol for remaking unsigned artworks? Does that make them fair game, or untouchable? I like adding details to pics where they dont exist. If any of you have any nominations (toons only at this point..sorry), run it by me with a link in here, and if I like it enough, I will ask the original artist.

Happy hunting.

I am a different breed. I do not feel the pull of hatred or annoyance as others do. I really am easy-going and nice to everyone. The only thing that gets to me is when someone has a problem with me soley due to whom else I associate with. That is a very limited and disrespectful way to be. I do not judge people by past deeds, or who they know, but rather their interaction with me personally.

Some may question my loyalty to my own friends when I do not disassociate with those who have hurt them, but I am the type of person to judge for myself. I really wish others would show me the same respect, rather than jump to conclusions.

(For example... I like Fur: A. Fur: B dislikes Fur: A because of something in their past. Fur: B finds out I am friends with Fur: A and ends our friendship based on that. What I am saying is that I am not Fur: A, I am Fur: C. Judge me for me, and not for who I know...)

Anyone who knows me will tell you how easy I am to get along with. I even get along with people who are less than nice to me. It is unfair to judge me for the merits of others.

I hope this journal does not fade away in vein. It really hurts me to make enemies from things that are no fault of my own. One of the rare but possible ways to make me lose a friendship with you is by requiring me to make the choice between associating with you or associating with another friend of mine. In my little view, no one has the right to have anyone make that choice.

Thank you for your time...

Ah, finally. Some progress. I have the plans for the suit scoped out (modular pieces joining at the armor and belts) which should prove -very- handy in case a piece of it gets torn or inked on or something. Annoying to replace, but replacing just a shoulder is a much better scenerio than replacing the whole upper body or whatever.

On a related note, I've begun the actual physical work of sewing. I am winging it, ameteurishly (if that is a word) I have the left forearm done (from the arm armor to the wrist, the hand will be sewed laters..it's a bit harder to wing) It actually came out really well. It holds its tightness like I wanted, but shows the seams. It's not to bad for the arm (in fact..it's almost expected) but I am worried about it looking really weird when it comes to the crotch and leg areas. Oh, why couldn't Flamedramon have worn a belt. Oh well.

Oh, and due to the pointy nature of the pointy armor, I can't be -too- accurate. I wouldn't want to be thrown out of a convention for possessing the ability to run people through with my claws. The hands are going to break my 'skin stops at armor' rule, because there are many things I may wish to use my fingers for.

Well...since we all know.. 'tis the season to be greedy' I've decided to take my real life wish online. In my 22 or so years of life, I have wanted for a great 12 years of it so far to have one thing for christmas. World Peace


Yeah right. Just kidding.

No, what I've really desired for over a decade is to have more legos than I know what to do with. Growing up, my mother was very anti-lego, but as I am not around any more, I have the chance to get them finally. The problem is..well..legos must be losing money lately because to buy the tiny sets out of the box is mondo expensive. I miss the days when you could find a huge bucketful at a yard sale for a dollar.

If any of you can help a gabu's childhood wishes finally come true, my christmas will be very merry.

But if not, I guess I could settle for world peace :P

Well, earlier last night, I was testing out clay to make a mold for the armor of the Flamedramon suit. The results are..I need better clay. That cheap-o crayola airdrying crap isnt gonna fly. I need bakable clay.

In a related note, I am spending tonight gathering some screenshots of various unanswered angles of Flamedramon (for example, did you know off the top of your head that he had 4 black straps holding his leg armor on, and the middle 2 are the only ones showing buckles? Or how about Flamedramon having red eyes?)

Any advice or comments about this project would be much appreciated.

It seems that the best logical solution in my brainstorming to allow a comfortable ability to get teh suit on is for the armor to be unremovable. The way I see it is that i will have to assemble the suit on my body piece by piece whenever I wear it, or else certain spots would have to be wider to allow myself to slip them on. The fabric does have some give, but not enough to warrent the lack of armor.

For obvious reasons, though, the hand armors will be removable, because using your hands kicks ass =P

I finally took the big step today when I went and bought some very lovely shiny fabric today. By the time AC '08 rolls around, I plan to have a full flamedramon costume ready to wear, loudly and proudly.

The fabric isnt exactly fur, but it's unlike any fabric I've seen before. To highlight the animated nature of Flamedramon, I decided to go with a metalic shine, and am going to try to make it nicely skin tight, because I don't think it would look sleek enough as a loose fabric. Luckily, I have the general build of a Flamedramon, so I don't have to worry about various pitfals (beer belly flamedramon, for example)

I haven't decided what to make the armor out of yet, though, so I am open to any suggestions.

I've had a few requests for commissions, but my lack of..well, comissions makes it hard for me to rate my prices. I guess I shall test the waters as my need for $ has subtly caught up to me. (believe me.. waffle house pay doesn't make ends meet...)

So let's see... how about..
$5 for a basic sketch, either digital or pencil
$10 for a half assed crap outline
$15 for an extremely time consuming detailed outline
$20 for -yawn- style coloring
$30 for -omfg +fav- coloring
(these aren't cumulative.. i'm not gonna stick ya with 30 for omfg coloring + 15 for time consuming outlining + 5 for basic sketch.. that would be unfair)

examples of each----
Basic scetch digital:
http://www.furaffinity.net/view/787548/

Basic Sketch paper:
http://www.furaffinity.net/view/787743/

Half-assed outline:
http://www.furaffinity.net/view/485590/

Extremely sweet time consuming outline:
http://www.furaffinity.net/view/820159/

Yawn style coloring:
http://www.furaffinity.net/view/754240/

totally sweet coloring:
http://www.furaffinity.net/view/745151/



Oh, and I suck at backgrounds, but I could give one a try if you want. Just don't expect the background to be a masterpiece...

I dunno if my ranges are accurate, but I guess it is a good place as any to start. These seem average. Bear in mind that I may not have all the time in the world to get to a comission, so I wouldn't overburden myself with a list of a bunch of people, especially if they all wanted totally sweet coloring (which usually comes with time consuming outlines...) I must approve the idea before I draw it (I know my abilities, but nothing is off limits) Character references will be a good decider of how I do. Once I accept, I guarentee the comission. If for some reason, you want me to color on paper
(ex: http://www.furaffinity.net/view/794519/ )
and you want the original, it can be arranged...

Thanks for your time. =)

Today was my third day at the waffle house as a cook. Things were going ok...Wasn't too tired, orders were going ok, business wasn't too busy, coworkers weren't killing eachother. Then... it happened... My mother (who still lives in west virginia) called me on my cell phone to tell me that my father is dying.

I don't know my father that well. He was (maybe still is) a drug addict (real drugs, not that weak stuff), a drunk, and several other things that I don't care to say. My mother left him when I was a wee baby back in the 80's, and fell out of contact with him upon the death of my younger brother. He lives in Florida, last I heard.

Back in 2000, when I first moved to Iowa, he tried to get in contact with us once again (us meaning my older brother and I.) My brother wan't nothing to do with the man, as he feels he isn't even worth the trouble to dance on his grave. I do things a bit differently. In the year 2000, when he started finding us via phone, I decided to go down to see him that summer. In my eyes, I cannot judge people based on what others say about them, so I had to find out for myself. He seemed liek a broken man who was still trying to turn his life around.

Back to the present... My mother called me today to tell me that my Father had contracted the full Aids virus, as well as contracted emphasema. If I recall anything about Aids, it allowed any infection to be potentially dangerous. Who really knows how much time he has to live, really. She gave me his number and I am wrestling around with whether I want to talk to him or not. Since I now live in Georgia, he is easily within a visit range.

I feel I must do a little soul searching before I call him, because really... this is quite a bit to take in. It's not every day you find out your father is dying. I honestly cannot decipher how I feel, as the emotions ranging through me are unfamiliar. I don't know if it will make me depressed, relieved, or even if it doesn't phase me at all. This is the soul searching I must do before I can face him not just as his son, but as a man.

Forgive my internal drama... It helps to write things like this down...

We've all seen it a million times... All the good artists have a dome of untouchable around them when it comes to requests. I think I have finally taken my art to the next level (just wait until you see the Renamon pic i have cooking).

Anyways, back to the topic at hand. All the untouchable artists seem to have formed a webbed society with eachother. They draw for eachother for free as gifts or hell, even talk to eachother. They hide on their messagers in invisiable thanks to the bombardment of people. I can't say I blame them. I have often wondered if I would be in a similar shell if I had every scrub in the world begging off me and annoying me, and bothering me while reading, or drawing, or even playing a game.

I am not to that point, yet, though. Some of you have started noticing my artistic eye, but I post so few pics at a time. Little do they know that a lot of my pics are requests, and I indend to keep my request nature alive. I don't charge comissions (unless situation demands it), but I do requests when I can.

Keep in mind that I am not untouchable, but I am somewhat seldom touched (no clue what that means...)
I seem to get poked by quite a few of my fans who desire to roleplay with me, which is cool...but I rarely roleplay... I find myself brushing off those types of friends, for some reason. I would like to share my various interests and hobbies, and insights on life itself, but no one seems interested in that kind of thing. It's almost as if I live in a void.

It is my firm belief that people can't get famous with good art on Fur Affinity alone. As a lot of whining journals lately have commented, artwork might as well be nameless here. This may or may not be entirely true, as I had never heard of the user nek0gami before FA, but that doesn't mean he didn't exist in FAP or something.

I get the feeling no one will read through this journal, either, but that is just how things work in FA. You would be surprised at the quality of artwork I keep putting off because I cannot find the strength of heart to finish it. I have dozens of pics offline that are better than a good majority of the pics I post here, but they are unfinished.

I have faith in this place, still, and hope to one day be a household name not for the quality of those I hang out with, or the timing of when I started drawing, but for the dedication I put back into this place. I have even attempted to start commenting on things more, because this cannot be a one sided transformation.

I wonder what it's like to be untouchable...

I made it to Anthro Con..barely..without any help with comissions. Still, I couldn't buy anything, and had to sleep in the car the first night (I showed up a day early, at 1:00 AM, so..). Anyways, I have a bit of a debt following my AC adventure, but I have decided to draw a few pics for some of the cool folks I met there. Athus, Glen, Narse, and Donamer will recieve a thank-you request of their choosing. I suppose the rest of you can still comission me if you like how those gift drawings turn out, but my free time is stretched kind of thin as of late. I still owe money that I borrowed to go to AC, so I doubt I will make it to the furaffinity united con in New Jersey, but a gabu can dream ^_^

Time is running out...AC is this weekend and I don't think I have the minimum amount of $ to make the amazingly short trip... (Parkersburg to Pittsburg!) Since I do have to work, I cannot go until the weekend, but it is something I am really trying to strive for. If anyone can possibly ask me to comission for them with a donation, I would be very happy! I have never been to a comission before, so... There are several artists I have to pay my respects to, and others I have to meet (I know several of them who are attending... You know who you are.) I wouldn't usually ask in this manner, but I have to have the $ in hand (yay Paypal) by Saturday! =3

I know I am probably going to insult a lot of other artists who are better than me but do stuff for free, but I am on the verge of financial ruin over here... I need to make ends meet somehow, and my drawing seems to be the only thing I have going for me.

I have decided to start taking commissions for stuff from you nice people at FA. Be warned that so far, I can only color well digitally, but if you prefer a paper copy (or the sketch for the digital work) let me know as well. As I am not the best judge of my talent-to-price ratio, I will entertain offers for now, instead of throwing a 'chiseled-in-stone' price at ya.

If you are interested, you need to respond to this journal with a description of what you want, and how much you are willing to pay for me to draw it (if it is uber-secret desire and you dont want other people to know you would comission me or the price offered, you can PM it to me instead...)

I hope I get out of this financial rut some time soon, but until then, thanks for your patronage. =)

I'm kinda new to this Journal thing...people don't seem to fav my stuff, and rarely ever comment on my stuff (well...compared to some other ppl out there..I get one or two). I like comments. They make me wanna draw more stuffs! Spread the word of my gallery around and maybe I'll get more favs and comments. I'll work hard to keep upping the quality of my drawings and with my coloring (time permitting). I know several of you on a more personal level, and would even love to hear what you think too. I assume this journal will be rarely responded to, but I figured that it wouldn't hurt to find out for sure!

See ya on the other side of the screen. -Malroth