Hey! Still alive..i know I'm not active. My apologies. But this is towards anyone i owe. Money, artwise, adopts, i am so lost from all the bs in Rl idk which way is up.

Plz note me seriously, i want to work it out on common ground and tie up those lose ends..

Thanks

Hey guys still alive..
I've gone back to school; reason why I've been so busy. But anywho~
I've really wanting to put all my characters and art of them on the website of toyhouse for a while now, and DA has been real short luck lately with grabbing a code there.
I really want to start getting organized and have them placed a place I can trust. So I've been trying to get a code for the past...6 months? To a year? For something like this..honestly been too scared of asking for one.. (probably why I can't get one still)

So if anyone would be so kind enough to give one out..I'll forever deeply appreciate it. I really want one of my own...it's like a lil cloud nine in my eyes. Lol

Please if your friend has one they don't care about..Please send them my way. Thanks a skeleTON!

Apparently you cannot update journals on mobile....my mobile anyways.. was going to make one months ago, but yea. oh joy for FA.

not feeling this website anymore, but i will still be a bit active, if you ever need to contact me, do so by any comments, shouts, or notes.

i just wont be publishing any works here, dont trust imvu. no offense...other than that, ive gotten my computer wiped and gotten rid of all the malware my McAfee never can get rid of..it was a big waste of money..so i gotten a better one by doing research and its alot of freaking cheaper..saved me over 60 bucks. it just stumps me how expensive mcafee is but yet is the most worse percentage against their competitors.

Any who, ive been doing better, gotten my passion on art and literature once more, and my depression and stress levels has really decreased than it used to be. not counting the pros and cons of the aftermath of court. i am dealing with it as i try to stay positive.

as for now, im getting my shit together and planning for my first steps into a better direction.

i cannot help but be so very grateful to my wonderful mate that has been supporting me in such depths, i dont think ill ever can repay. He has been so supportive, i cannot ask a better mate than Zero. Im so damn grateful for him i struggle not to cry by the positive emotions he carries around him that is easily brought out of me, probably unknowing..he really means so much to me, i would had been in such worse state without him. he keeps me afloat throughout my dramabullshitchain. Its not as bad as it was..but i still have a long road of recovery from all the bs ive gone through and what i am going through now.

hopefully this route continues to climb up to a brighter future.

thank you to all my watchers for sticking by even though im a shitty activist on FA...
I will update you all upon future plans for all the commission art i had either gotten, bought, or gifted (if it includes my characters)
as well as stories/especially fanfiction....i wont be angry for any who unwatch me..but i do appreciate every one of you for your support.

im tearibly addicted to undertale...no regrets.

My dear wifey, needs your help. Please help out in donations, comissions, and shares. Thank you

http://www.furaffinity.net/journal/7630908/

im alive.....

just regular bschain keeping me doing stuff i want to...nothing new. getting better in my rl events..so thats one good thing. this journal is just a
FYI

im alive.

Violin adopt

Please consider the effort of work I put into this adopt in making honest offers. No low balling.

Needs a new home
http://www.furaffinity.net/view/16842392/

AFTER so much hardships that had my work on pause, i was finally able to finish this.


so here to see the end result <3


http://www.furaffinity.net/view/16671773/

Not many bids!!

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Perfect for valentines Present!

ENDS SOON!

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please share, i dont want her to loose her apt. ;w;

if you can please donate

Please please share!
This person helped from sharing to donations to even helping people out when able. Please share for http://www.furaffinity.net/journal/7207109/
Hime ends your help, please donate if you can!

If not please please share to get Hime's story out there!

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Well with the help of my Aunt, surprisingly, i found a vet who will let me pay on the 12 and get her fixed asap..in which her Surgery starts in the morning. Thanks to my mother and aunts help, ill be able to get her treated sooner than later as well might be able to get the vet to keep my bill at the max of 150 or so as the rest would be taken care of by the vet himself.
So i am relieved..but nervous @.@

Artemis has been throwing up still 2.2/5 times..i've been able to keep some food down..but her #2's are half solid have the time she goes potty..idk if its a good thing or not.. i think its not...anywho i can't wait for my dog to be treated..hopefully she will be better after this..keep fingers crossed and her in your thoughts.

I love my baby..

So I went to the vet and found out that she has to have surgery with a draining tube and to stay overnight...

Not only that, but it would cost 180 bucks in total.

20 over the donation limit, it's fine I got it covered with the little money I have left.....but here's the real problem.

They will NOT treat my dog until I have the money in my bank.

I just transfered all 160 into my bank account t..and that itself is being transferred 3-4 business. .so it won't be in until the 12th!

I've tried everything...tried giving My card information for them to charge it on the day the money I raised gets deposited in to my bank...

So I am very pissed off as I failed once again, in helpping my baby, get better....

The burden of my baby suffering for another week just slammed on my shoulders....twice as heavy I feel so crushed....

I want to say THANK YOU...very grateful to the person who made it happened... And to another who not only jump started it, but also donated almost just as much(thanks to her commissioners as well!). I love you both to the bottom of my heart. i cannot thank you enough.
(even though its obvious who did what; if you actually want to reply back in public its fine..im lame at keeping secrets cause im so grateful to you both. ;3;

My dog has now been throwing up alot tonight, but ive reached my min goal!

(heres the proof video for the nonbelievers: http://tinyurl.com/prswtsg)


~~~~~~***REACHED***~~~

160/200 BUCKS! (min was 150)

I will be taking her to the vets tmo and more pictures along the progress and proper care with vets directions.
im am so grateful i cannot know how to type it all out..
But for now... THANK you!
i feel so relieved im shaking out this burden..

for more information upon whats going on, heres the journal:
http://www.furaffinity.net/controls.....nal/1/7153910/

Main problem ATM.

When you read main story you will get why i cannot support myself at the moment.

My Dog, Artemis, gotten attacked by another dog on October 28th, My dog's teeth all broken, bite marks all along her neck front left leg...that's so swollen she never puts pressure on her front paw.
(and her back leg is slightly injured from a small little limp, but i can't find her wound back there but she's not serious to be worried about, just concerned).
She has wounds on her ear, swollen neck like a tumor, and eyes bloodShot from shock. The small tumor-ish lump that was once on the front of her neck now moved to the back of her neck and bulge up greatly as i've now found out its Abscess.

Now i can get it drained..but i need a vets visit to get the proper antibiotics and medication for her to deal with when i personally home drain her if possible as she will begin to heal from that. (to avoid anymore expenses.) I also need to have her front paw checked for any fractures, broken bones, or infection as i want to avoid it getting into the bone.

I need at least 150 bucks, 200 would take care of everything plus more for her.

Throughout the days, i keep adding more

___ http://tinyurl.com/atkpicts ___


Here is a video ive made the other day. I was up late throughout that night cleaning a 2 story house (my grandmother's home that i'm living in)

PLEASE NOTE: i did NOT hurt my dog.
It may look like i was squeezing the abscess tightly, but i barely used any force as it bulges up making it look like i used more force than i actually did.
I know my dog when she gives signs of pain or uncomfortableness,
(for example when i grabbed her paw to get it off under her weight, i stopped immediately when she showed signs of discomfort.). If i hurt her she would had shown signs that it did or that it was at least uncomfortable.
(my point was this; to show how big and bulky it was before i changed my mind and got her to stand instead of struggling to show how big this was.

~~~~ VIDEO http://tinyurl.com/phatpgv

Please excuse me from my way of talking..i was utterly exhausted taking care of the house, the animals, my disabled great uncle and disabled step grandfather on top of taking care of my dog. (finished cleaning by 4/6 am)

In reality, i make her bed ridden most of her day except the times of going to the bathroom. i hand feed her canned food (from what shes able to eat with her broken teeth) and water through a needless syringe. I had researched that even though abscess can be treated at home, its best to get a vet to subscribe any medication and treatment while draining it out for proper care every future time to flush it out to get all the infection out.

Questions:


~Why now when it happened in October 28th?~
My grandmother and immediate family had to travel back to Texarkana for more bigger issues that are too personal to tell (obviously too much to ask in help for that my whole family is needing est 2 grand in court expenses and the rest of stuff being left behind in Texarkana)
Long story short it has to do with being forced to travel 10 hours up south with the money we do not have for court. And my mother was going to see if she would have money left over to help me out but in the end had to use it to buy a car battery to be able to get home asap.

~why didn't you post up the journal on the day you made the video?~
I was taking care of alot of responsibilities within the house while my family was away (in the summary) as they arrived around 5 am as i gave my mother and baby brother my room to sleep in for the night. so i slept on the couch this time. (my mother and baby brother now live with aunt on the outskirts of town)

~Why cant you afford it?~
I lost both jobs from the sudden emergency move, and thus moved without alot of my belongings. And hadnt recovered from it yet.

~why dont you have a job yet? ~
Upon my move, my car was taken from me by forced so i was unable to have the reliable transportation until recently last week. Although, Im in the process to finally get rehired back into FedEx (they said about 3-4 more days before i can start working again) and trying to meet with another Employer on a babysitting/nanny part time job as she gives me slow replies back.

~why dont you make a claim for your dogs injuries?~
Because the persons dog belongs to my lil cousin who is barely 16 years old.
Her father, who has his own expense troubles from his breaking down big truck, who also pays for most of the bills at my grandmother's house (he lives here with my lil cousin but in a Rv outside. He loves to sleep on the couch even though we kept asking him to sleep in the spare room upstairs.) has no money from his troubles hes facing with bills piling up.
Because of the attack, he has let me have a reliable transportation for work in his spare small truck until im able to raise enough for a car after all this bs flies by. As my (ex) aunt, my cousins mother, had to support her ex husband for a helping hand on the big truck expenses, gave me Epsom salt and instructions from her mother (cousins grandmother) to place it on her neck couple times for it to open up and drain itself from the infection rising up to the surface. So they are helping me in their own way since they cannot spare money.


~is this a Scam from all the other times you've asked for help? ~
NO, ABSOLUTELY not...I will send medical bills in the folder once im able to reach my min goal. and if it cost less than expected, i will ask the people who donated after these expenses if they want their money back. Im a person who hates to ask for money...But my life is obviously have one BS along another, i don't see when it will fully stop, even just for a month without anything happening. I dont do this because i want to. I was talked into trying again. For the sake of my dog.

~is she who i think she is?~
Yes, she is the mama dog who gave birth to the puppies i had a year back. and yes, thanks for my mother who gifted this to me for my birthday, both Franklin and Artemis are FIXED after that incident. http://www.furaffinity.net/journal/5864846/
With all the parvo and the passing of Peanut. http://www.furaffinity.net/view/13848734/ and the pup i kept in the end, Franklin http://www.furaffinity.net/view/14129644/
She is about 6 years old now. Had her back in 09' as a pup.

~why dont you bend over backwards for her like you did with her pups?~
Because i have no money nor job to back it up for now..but this attack matter cannot wait for me to get a job.




Violin adopt: $50
comes with NSFW version, two outfits, front back, close up shots, (will add nips if needed but its the same color as her vag.)
ill throw in 3 more custom chibi clothing for and addition $15 bucks..


Native twins (WILL NOT SEPARATE since only one has shadowing):
$40 but since im desperate i will mark it down even more to
$30
SOLD to

Yin/Yang twins:
$ 2.50 each



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Min Goal: 160/150
◘◘♦♥MINIMUM GOAL REACHED! ♥♦◘◘
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Donations are always welcome, and any dollar counts:

Paypal: MerrMerrsKimiKoChan[at]gmail.com









Read if you want.
MAIN SUMMARY
Yea...i get it...my life's just full of shit right now... honestly i hate that im keep being forced to do this..no matter how many times i try to catch some grounding to stand on my two hind paws again, i end up being flipped off another cliff's edge to a whole new low...
First off.. Right after the funeral, things go bad, crazy, stressful so very stressful and depression wise i cannot express how bad it was to experience all that again. From my treatment for going to the Funeral with verbal and mentally abused remarks just because i was going back to the valley (only for the pure purpose of seeing my friend one last time..in which i cannot thank the people who helped me so much as i did, even with their help, break my bank after it was finished.)

I was so stressed out that i took my brother to the carnival. Just so most of my immediate family can get out of the house and have some happy moments. But not EVEN 24 hours later when i took them out i was being ripped out in a lessthan2week notice to being forced to move back to the valley. Resulting in losing not only one job, but my main support line of FedEx due to transferring issues since there was no openings from how violent the move was and how quick i was forced to leave behind, as i had once thought, til im able to just raise money to get the rest of our belongings within four months (now 3 months) to what was promised to us. In which i really doubt my stuff is still there..but i need to try because theres alot i do not want to leave behind, (like my bed and my drawings, clothes, books, furniture and paperwork) We left ALOT of stuff.

Ive told the details of these events to my close friends..but regardless..they're always some people who ive upsetted and gotten a whiplash at that....so yea...im sorry i live the life i do...but its my life....my family.. i do not excuse them how they treated me at times..but im not making excuses for them when i tell my side just FYI. My family may be a pain, and down right wrong at times..but they are my family and the only my mother's side of my family actually will allow me to have somewhere to live.

Life is going to be more stressful after this..but hopefully ill be more economically stable with 2/3 jobs..

Thank you for your help or just reading all this mess. Any help including just sharing will help me greatly in a long run.

I do apologize for barley being active, but my RL is too crazy right now to be able to actually stay put on my computer for long.

My Highschool friend passed away (Found this all out yesterday), and his funeral is on the 8th . i need a bus ticket back home on my way back..the ticket is about 65-70 bucks wth tax of course. if im able to get the money by tonight. i want 80 bucks to be sure..


would like it more if i could get an additional necessary things upon my travel (like food and whatnot) like +$30








EVEN IF I HAVE TO Loan money from someone (I'll pay you back in two weeks starting on the 4th; but need money to book a ticket cheap)

My mate helped me with a ticket so i could be able to attend the funeral..but now i need to raise money to be able to get home if i can book early..

Violin adopt: $50
comes with NSFW version, two outfits, front back, close up shots, (will add nips if needed but its the same color as her vag.)
ill throw in 3 more custom chibi clothing for and addition $15 bucks..


Native twins (WILL NOT SEPARATE since only one has shadowing):
$40 but since im desperate i will mark it down even more to
$30

Yin/Yang twins (wont separate)
$ 5



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LOAN

you can just let me borrow the money and it be paid back in full 2 weeks from the 4th (due to bills that demands to be paid on the 4th)

i can also sweeten the deal by granting TEMPORARY ALL ACCESS pass upon commissions with any of my characters to UNRESTRICTED Rules (any kinks or whatever) with my character of choice (granted the more main character he/she is; higher the loan would be. just FYI)







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Donations are always welcome, and any dollar counts:

Paypal: MerrMerrsKimiKoChan[at]gmail.com

i need a waist up commission of a mother holding a child in her arms.
a motherly emotional piece of happiness.

only problem is is i need it by the end of the day of tmo.

so i need an good artist who is available NOW.

please dont charge too much for an extra character for a baby. I dont have much money.

any one knowing a good artist? i need suggestions and decent prices.

willing to use a character i have for sale up to give up to help take off/pay for the bill if available.

FOR SALE

Thank you!

SOME LOWERED, some will be the same, these are still open.
Money ONLY

Violin adopt

the lowest i would go for this would be 60 for the amount of work i put into it
http://www.furaffinity.net/view/16842392/


30 each for the twins
http://www.furaffinity.net/view/16671773/


5 each
http://www.furaffinity.net/view/15250825/
and
http://www.furaffinity.net/view/15094930/


left over foxes
http://www.furaffinity.net/view/16885158/
2 each at least


OFFER:
http://www.furaffinity.net/view/14217484/

im really jello for anyone who buys hwr!! But I'll be more happy if she gets the love she deserves!!
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Its my birthday!!! EEEEEEEEE!!!!!!!

*rolls around leaving poof and fur all over this journal and poofs out in EEEELecRTICTY* x3

o3o ~♥

Want/wish list

[center] RL stuff
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yessss...this is mostly my cloud nine stuff! id be in haven~!! HNNNGG..i want to increase my knowledge of art..but most has to do with problems with my eyes *wouldnt care if this was a late present* lol


i will continue to adjust it so not just expensive stuff.


I also love homemade stuff!! weeeeee~♥♥♥



Art wishlist:

full body anthro artwork~♥♥ hnng



artist freedom comission full colored of http://www.furaffinity.net/view/14241577/ In honor of peanut.

chibi full colored -2 view (already have a pose in mind for my Character Kimi) ~♥♥

full colored commission

full color of her art~♥♥♥♥

a hilarious story with him (hes on SF)

Apparently the track was taken off or made into a private playlist..and i was unaware of it..

It was such a great song and it cheered people up from it!


now! i didnt mean to seem like i 'rickroll'd you guys.. (new termed i learned today) LMFAO...

i really was trying to spread the love the music with a free advertize song of

'Thank you for watching me on FA' -by the famous NIIC

but the artist removed it or made his playlist private..idk..but it was a great song that i absolutely adore..its been on my profile since i first became here..and im quite sadden that the song isnt in the link anymore..

so i do apologize to my watchers for finally replying back..with an empty link nevertheless.. Tons of love~ and
Happy March~! ~♥♥



( my origial link on my profile..it is now broken ;3;)
click---> ♫♥ THANKS for the WATCH ♫♥ <---Me!!

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all she needs is 45 bucks more for rent..shes having a vday special... please spread the word if your unable help out financially! T^T

been studying my ass off for this weekend crash courses....my mind is like fried already lol..

But lately i realize that if i were to leave a group chat..or a gathering...it seems when it comes to me, people dont reach out to me just to say hello...its always me who does most of the time.

Yes i know ive been busy..yes i know im forgetful because i have been studying and loose track upon who i do not reply to (you dont count)

but lately i feel more ignored than ever..kinda sucks.. vday ill be at my crash courses all day..and maybe for an hour or two go to a rl friends party.. but if i were to wait upon Skype, here, FB, SF, and even imvu (imvu is the only place where i feel less ignored at times..not today though..lonely as fuck..)

Skype i cant get on my computer anymore...it freaks out my laptop so bad..even FB on my laptop browser never loads anymore..always have to be by phone..

havent vented for a while...just letting you guys know im still alive and hufflepuffing(upset) haha...i need new friends..i need more who will actively want me around...

hopefully this loneliness will cease.


Ps. after my crash course...i wont postpone my uploads anylonger..i am DEEPLY sorry about it..i have to finish my ref for my RL fursona to polish it out before i can upload her artwork..but for now.. Ill upload my RP main fursona, Mana for what i have for her. keep an eye out..

I did not forget about my to do list on my collab work and stuff..so dont worry i plan on getting back to it after this weekend.

again my apologies.