I forgot my first 1 year mark..

December 2nd- as a furry
December 6th- joining FA and SF.

whoop whoop! man i need to catch up on my uploads..seems like torture.. bleh.. *flails*

ANYWHO!
a big THANK YOU to all my watchers, even though it doesnt seem like so, i really appreciate all my watchers who stuck around..especially all the hardships that seems to keep coming..some know, i just don't post them up anymore of my rl problems or ventings. and we all know, alot of people on theses websites of the internet..theres alot of people who are drama kings/queens..i rather not have any trolls..

so to those who stuck by my side, thank you ever so much..it really means alot to me. ~♥

*thoses '1year' confetti* WEEE~♥

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Pimping sissys commission!! 7 bucks well worth it!!! Go check her out!!


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http://www.furaffinity.net/view/15122261/

Pimping sissys commission!! 7 bucks well worth it!!! Go check her out!!


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Prices has dropped since my debt has been cleared!! :D

check them out!!!
http://www.furaffinity.net/view/15094930/
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i just need to communicate with an artist..having trouble explaining from my awkward typing..saw on her page shes from russia.. just need help ;3; know any translations that would help this lil fur out..?

time flies when your stressed.. well i plan to get a second job soon, hope it all goes well, if any questions or want to chat, just comment~♥
sorry i havent been on, RL been a real hell hole..so i haven't been able to get the chance to even get on my computer lately..

http://www.furaffinity.net/full/14570313/

please share if you cant afford anything..

Ive been working with these adopts for a while, and some i just wanna talk about!! ~♥♥

SnowFlame
My little dragon that is a mix breed a forest and ice dragon..or so i tried..lol (find a chute meme on google of "i dont know what im doing!")

PeaPoof
I honestly dont like pink..but you know, i just have to use it somehow..so PeaPOOF! poofed out..

SaberSpot
this one is just a chutey patsy~♥ i gave him a silver kind of textured arm band.

Plague
my creepy adopt~♥ more of a halloween themed, kinda of a menace creature. once he creates any mischief, Plague smiles a toothy smile that stretches across the face, like in the horrid movies.. or like the joker.

Que trae Muerte // 'Death Bringer'
My favorite adopt.. This one i can see having a background story..Once in a rich family pet..but got into an accident. the family tried to help him, with gold stitches for luck but this little adopt didn't make it. But miraculously came back to life. But the family was so scared of the lil adopt, they didn't want him from their fear. Even still this adopt is a happy fennec, as the adopt runs, the loose ear flops around. (adopt runs with tongue sticking out as well lol)
This adopt is a Dia los Muertos // Halloween themed as well.

'Candy Corn' Bunny
based on the Halloween candy treat, this bunny actually can taste like it if you lick on its fur (or use your imagination)

Bubbles
Based on an octopus! chute lil creature i absolutely love the color scheme. has a 'bubbly' personality

Lucky Eight '8'
a Chute spotted pup, has a run of a good luck streak. one of the spots is shaped like an '8'

SunFlare
is the only Demi-kitsune God/Goddess the sun-shaped spots have a inner circling bright yellow sphere that floats around inside, either floats and circles around. on top of the adopts head is pure flames, into a mohawk-like fashion/ or brush back. the adopts flames can not hurt upon touch the adopt is (example) being petted by someone they love.

Theses can be changed once won. I just thought upon some of theses while creating them. Most of the funds will go directly to helping fixing my car..in other cases will help me get around with transportation i'm having trouble with until then.

please, if you cant afford anything, it will help me a great deal upon sharing my auction link out for more people to see with a greater chance into AB'd an adopt.
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Thank you for everything and the support you all had shown me.. I ♥ my watchers..

im almost freking done!! (had some RL w/tablet complications but its all settled)) so excited! everything is ready to go, just need to publish it..but imma wait til after work..so be prepared for 9 non-anthro adopts! everything will be set to help raise money to fix my car..i need 500 for an engine, and if i get all Ab'd, (my dreams~♥) i will be very closer into getting an engine...HNNNG~♥

second!

i need more skype friends..oi..its starting to get lonely in there lol..i like to voice chat..just FYI ~♥ g2g ttys and thank you for your support~♥♥

Im going to bike 14 miles to work since i have no way on earth to get there...i dont want loose my job so im going to use the metal to the 'pedal' literally...bicycling to the a job that far away (about 3 hour est)..so just letting everyone know.. ill have a phone, and a pocketKnife to protect me if necessary.. ~ <3

*feeling determined*

just finding out a friend of mine's; death today..i thought he was busy with enjoying his life so i didn't want to bother him...came to find out from another friend of mine, that he passed 5 weeks ago from cancer he hid from everyone..and i'm just NOW finding this out now....

...so many deaths...i cant..i just cant handle anymore..why cant this pain stop?

*is heartbroken*
i'm just going to watch netflix for a while since i cant sleep..i bawled my eyes out too much today..

He was one of my closest furs since the very beginning of becoming a fur back in Dec...

RIP Razor..i miss you so much..if only i'd known..


Razor is also my other CB..cuddlebuddy.. (only have 2 cuddlebuddies)
but he didnt have an account on here to put on the list...i wanted some arts with him..but the artist who was making his ref sheet never came im guessing..even though razor said he wanted the artist to take his time on it from his RL busy life..i just wished i was a better artist to bring a smile to his face..even just once..

ill be on later after i cope a bit.... ~♥ i love you guys..please send/pray respects for him..

miss you so very much, Razor Swiftwing, my Cuddle buddy..

RIP..

im not sure..but i am about to get desperate..well more desperate..my computer is getting old..it fucks up alot especially freezes...my tablet half works..(doesnt even work on SAI anymore) and the program keeps glitching and freezing as i keep loosing my process upon my adopts...im getting too pissed off and scared now..the truck is literally breaking me (mostly my bank) in debt
And ive seen so many mean furs on here..that even with no job, or a crap to care for anyone, get so much art from high artist (especially from overthetop prices) getting multiple of arts from them.
Its making me lean against that side into getting a 'sugar daddy' as people say it on here..and im not even that kind of fur..but if thats the only way i can get on my feet into fixing up my car, instead of art, im really considering putting my Main Fursona's mate status up for some kind of auction to have these kinds of rights.. *shrugs* i don't know what else to do honestly..

I need an engine/ get rest of my car fixed/ and raise up an RV and move to SA or Austin, to move out before i do get kicked out in 6-9 months or ill be kicked out homeless..and my car still broken down as i have to use my mother's old truck, one of main reasons, that is breaking my chances to ever getting a second job to help raise up money. I cant get a decent job without good transportation.. i cant even make adopts quick enough to stay out of debt from how much this truck is dragging me under...

Any opinions? thoughts upon this?

DAYUUUUMMM!!

http://www.ebay.com/itm/14136590190.....84.m1555.l2649

this is soo freaking chute!

i was going to surprise everyone with a beauty of an adopt i've been struggling with, and finally had a break through with it..i was going to publish it tonight, was putting watermarks on it when the program glitched and freaked out from it...and i lost my whole days worth of progress..thats including from before my breakthrough..i thought my day was finally changing from this struggle i've been having in RL with the truck my mother let me borrow, from her old vehicle, since i couldnt fix mine from last years accident..i worked really hard on it and it was very pretty! kinda metallic (as sissy said) or what i would had called "Sun Dust"...but now i have to redo everything..and poor had to hear my tantrum when it happened..i really dont have time for this shit..but since i cannot find a second job...ill have to make due...somehow..just surprised i made it this far..

sorry for more ranting..

*bites off my brush* :I

So many watches..finally caught up *faceplants*

Sorry for the belated thankyous for the watches..and if i spammed your profile again, ish sorries..i lost track who i said my thankies too.. @3@

i want to stand here to thank each and every one of you for your support, and thank you again for all the watches~♥♥ love you guys!!


P.S.
I also want to apologize for the drama i had to drag everyone through..i know people try to escape drama or sadness..but..ill try to continue to catch up on so much art that deserves to be publish for your enjoyment to make up for it.. im sorry that everything keeps happening one after another....i dont take stress well..im a kind of person to close up and tucks myself away from everything and everyone....

*bows* thank you for not giving up on me..

My brothers GF, as well as my highschool friend, was in a car accident from some asshole who cut her off onto her lane as she swerved to try to avoid an accident with his vehicle, when it caused her car to loose control and flipped over twice in the highway and sent to the hospital.

i had trouble sleeping because i was so worried about her..i thought i was going to relive my nightmares for storm's passing; now today with her car accident as well..


but thankfully, she only suffered some bruising and minor pain/injury..im so fucking relieved it wasn't life threatening..oh gawd i was scared..im still worried about her...

please, no matter if your religious or spiritual beliefs..please...keep her in your thoughts..

so many things happening at once..its hard..

6/29/14 im really depressed upon loosing the only dog i wanted to keep..but now i have to continue through my mourning for peanut, to Franklin Beethoven, or FB, who still has Parvo. im not going to let you take another pup from me you stupid virus..how dare you take one of my pups from me..he was such a passionate soul, life in such, even dying, tried to comforted me despite from the horrid pain peanut was in...

RIP peanut..

Fundraiser as now been renamed due to peanuts passing..

See more at: http://www.youcaring.com/pet-expens......QupjkPnx.dpuf

http://www.youcaring.com/pet-expens.....n-need-/194012

Peanut is getting worse..and im getting scared..so i changed the name since prince isnt life-threatening situation.. TT^TT

im sorry for the spam..im really worried about peanut..hes the only pup i want to keep as my own new member of the family. hes in so much pain..ive done everything i can think of..but i dont have anymore money to keep bringing him back to the vet..i already spent over 500 of my car money to keep them alive..anything will help..even pimping any of my journals about my situation on here, FB, any site..im getting desperate..

im sorry for the guilt tripping spam v.v

OUR JOURNAL: http://www.furaffinity.net/journal/5864846/

fundraiser: http://www.youcaring.com/pet-expens.....n-need-/194012

posted a video in the 'photoproof' link on FA link; Dropbox link in fundraiser site

https://www.youcaring.com/pet-expen.....n-need-/194012

made an official fundraiser if your weary on donations, all will help for a great cause, Thank you.

Dont know the story? click the above link or go to my 'crown Prince from Parvo' Journal to learn more about it!! Thanks for reading, all donations that has been collected have not been used yet, so dont get scared by the 0 in this fundraiser..at least right now you will actually see the progress of my donation pool.

Goal: 35/400

Took Prince, the sickest puppy, and peanut, the one of they healthy pups to the vet to see if prince had coccidia, but it turns out

Prince has Parvo..
the vet bill was over $200 after everything..around 300 if you include all the supplies.v for his health and cleaning products....will have to do the up most thing i never wanted to do..is that donation raising funds..forgot the websites name.. v.v

I have 7 more puppies, besides prince, to worry about catching parvo
..so im going to need to raise money any way possible for emergency vet and upcoming supplies for the next few weeks..im going to have to start a donation pool..for anyone who is wanting to help,but doesnt want to buy any adopts, even alittle..every dollar will count..

im sory for asking for money..i hate to..but i dont see any other way..

idk what that other website is called that would show pictures for you to donate and tell my story..but ill have to do it differently..

DONATE HERE


Even if your broke, please at least help spread the word at least if you can..just because if you cannot donate anything, it doesnt mean im going to guilt trip you into feeling like the bad guy..any way will help..thank you

every dollar counts..thank you TT^TT
Photo proofs

Goal 35/400
if reached; i will be able to vaccinate the rest of the puppies as well have supplies on hand to keep fighting this disease (if i have enough left over)..i could only afford to vacc peanut..and Prince is too sick for these shots yet..

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WILL Update on Princes health!

6/15/14- was finally named prince from how elegant he was

6/18/14- picky eater..ate some only in metal bowl; but wanted to play more, or wanted belly rubs.

6/19/14- wasnt eating, getting starting skinny/boney

6/20/14- rushed to the vet in the morning..Positive to Parvo, worked butt off at home scraping, trashing, bleaching, to have him separated/ medicated him and bleached almost everything..

6/21/14 -Prince running on vet shots, IV, and some pedialyte/formula mix, been hours since then; hasn't thrown up yet..hasn't pooped yet to know if its runny, going strong in the early signs of parvo..but is skinny..barking/ howling and wants out at some times; resting like a sick pup the next..

6/21 Evening: still rowdy at times, kept giving him medicine, and IV treatments along with pedialyte mixed milk powder formula to replace lack of solid foods. He even nibbled/tasted the scrambled eggs ive made for him, and his peanut butter flavored small bone in small licks. Good sign, so far so good. ~♥

6/21 Night: Peanut, the runt, after only affording to be vaccinated; two days after started showing signs of Parvo. Hours later he too started to throw up couple times.

6/23/14- Peanut kept throwing up all night. His diarrhea became a lighter color with a tent of pink from blood. No energy whatsoever besides avoiding syringes with his medicine or soap from his bath yesterday. Couldn't take it anymore as i took him to the vet after breaking down in fear for peanut upon how rapidly he became so fragile so quickly. Vet gave him some Bayril-Dex-Binj-small, cerenia 0-5 CC and Reglan Suspension. To rehydrate him, boost his immune system up, and gave the medicine to help him from vomiting. costed 83 nucks all together...pretty much burning holes in my bank now..but money is no concern, might be stressful about it..but compared to trying everything possible for my lil' peanut, i'm trying my damn best to keep him alive..i sure do hope he makes it..i surely do hope he gets better.. Best wishes my dear peanut..i love you my little runt~ <3

6/24/14 (46 mins into this day @midnight):
Peanut showing signs of slight tummy from treatment. Although his poop is still runny and is more pinkish rom parvo. Gave him all his medicines to help him not throw up, for the parvo, pedialyte and mixed powder to replace the lack of appetite for foods. Gave him his IV by myself for the first time..i HATED ever second of it..more worse than him receiving it cause i hate that it hurt him. Im just kinda glad he didn't struggle too much so i could get enough IV meds in his system (a bubble under his skin; like a TV shot). Hopefully holding out this long, he has enough strength to fight this..i can only hope.

6/24/14 night: Finally, HOPEFULLY, some good news on our lil' peanut.

1) GOOD NEWS: his poop turned back into a half paste texture diarrhea.. And it's not red tented..hopefully it means he's bouncing back..but he's not out of the woods yet...please keep up with your support along this painful journey..

2) BAD NEWS: peanut got out of his basket I had out layer out for him and went diarrhea all over my bed, laptop, and cords...bleached clean the fuck out of the mess...I was almost done with my twin Indian adopts, ugh.
Part two bad news: one of the owners came back with one of the puppies swearing up and down that Duke, the puppy, has parvo...we took a closer look and saw that he has red swollen eyes and between his legs on his tummy is either a rash or lots of insect bites.! We also brought another dog inside since he wasn't eating..

(posted more pictures of Prince eating with a video of him**)

6/25/14 morning: Peanut is still sleeping most of the time..Came home from work to confirm, the puppy we brought in, FB, short for Franklin Beethoven, has indeed Parvo as well. Bloodish diarrhea. I cleaned FB's, Dukes, Prince's, and peanuts cages and threw away trash. I then went to tak an hour long shower and came back for FB to make more diarrhea..which is still bloody. I gave him some Parvo medicine..but this is another worse case of parvo..but this time FB never got the chance to get Vacc. im really worried for both peanut and FB..i dont have the cash to take them all and vacc or get parvo shots....i dont have a religion, but the quote still feels like a punch line i should say, "god help me..'

6/28/14 had to put Peanut down at the animal hospital around 8:15pm. He was dying despite everything i tried to save him..so i wanted him to pass peacefully instead of the ending affects of parvo..



..but the vet had the fucking nerve to argue with my mother about parvo facts we already know..the fucking nerve of her to sit there and argue with us instead of putting him to sleep as soon as possible..the two-faced bitch..i hate that vet for making him suffer more just to have your ego brushed from having the last word.. all she cared about was her pay, her job, and her pride than my dogs suffering..


I will probably be off and on..not as much as im usually am for a while..im sorry for the venting..im just in such anguish and despair...i loved peanut so much..he tried to comfort my emotional state despite the pain he was in..you deserved better than to have such a short life...

I love you peanut..

April 30th - june 28th 2014


6/29/14 im really depressed upon loosing the only dog i wanted to keep..but now i have to continue through my mourning for peanut, to Franklin Beethoven, or FB, who still has Parvo. im not going to let you take another pup from me you stupid virus..how dare you take one of my pups from me..he was such a passionate soul, life in such, even dying, tried to comforted me despite from the horrid pain peanut was in...

RIP peanut..

Fundraiser as now been renamed due to peanuts passing..

**UPLOADED UPDATE PHOTOS**, click 'Photo proofs' to see
(shows the iv im using, just in case there other cases out there for parvo, parvo medicine, as far as i know it, things are going well and hopefully i've caught the disease early enough for Prince, doesnt mean its gone as seen his vitals on his tongue and gums; still pink. Bigger syringe for his pedialyte mixed formula, and germ-X stuff to help keep the Parvo from spreading along with puppy pads.) A Big thankyou for all the support and donations ive received so far..this will help TTwTT

That all 8 of my puppies now have coccidia, no matter how hard I tried keeping it clean...idk what to do..tmo morning I have to take them all to the vet..get whatever they need, and bleach clean the place..so that means

1) won't have money to fix my car yet, again (too much 'red' money i wasn't suppose to use)
2)I'm going to have to spam my profile with adopts (im sorry)
3) I'm not sure what 3 is yet..let's just hope it's a good 3. v~v;;

I'm sorry for the future spam, I just hope I won't loose watchers for needing money..

Any questions just note me

http://www.furaffinity.net/view/13739985/

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happy _{If someone buys me this for an early christmas/ birthday gift TT^TT omgosh}

if i didnt have to fix my car, id buy this right now.. ;_;



as i try to catch up on all my uploads~! *whines wanting to pull out my hair/fur at the same time* too much woooooork! X3x;;