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My new Laptop Shiped out today ^_^ Alienware M18x Space Black Anodized Aluminum
and to make the deal even more Sweet it was FREE and i KID YOU NOT lol i traded my old system for a new one that is sooo much better.

Intel Core i7 2670QM 2.2GHz (3.1GHz w/Turbo Boost, 6MB Cache)

16GB Dual Channel DDR3 at 1600MHz (4DIMMS)

Alienware M18x 330W A/C Adapter

18.4-inch WideFHD 1920 x 1080 WLED

Dual 2GB GDDR5 NVIDIA GeForce GTX 580M NVIDIA SLI Enabled

1TB RAID 0, 2x 500GB, 7200RPM Solid State Hybrid

Slot-Loading Dual Layer Blu-ray Reader, BR-ROM, DVD+-RW, CD-RW

Internal High-Definition 5.1 Performance Audio with SoundBlaster MB Software

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OK Fellow Furends I really hate that life gives you shit when you least expect it and it always does it at the worst possible time. If you don't already know this about me that I receive Social Security Disability Income, basically it help me to be able to live on my own. But I also have a Rep Payee witch fallows threw with paying my bills for me and providing me with the cash to do so. But three months ago my Payee had notified me that he would be unable to preform the Job of the Rep Payee because he did not want to do it any more. So Unfortunately I had forgot about this deal and he was going to wait till i had the new Payee in place before he Resigned but a week ago we had got in a argument about my spending and the fact that I was wasting my money on stupid things. But recently the only reason I had spent that amount of cash that month was because my boyfriend had come to visit me and had a limited amount of cash and was basically broke so i help pay for his food and stuff and then I had missed his flight to the airport and was forced to pay for his Ticket home witch actually sent me over the edge and i barely made it threw the month on food. So the end result of this was that I my best friend some how got involved in my financial matters and was really getting personal because he was basically telling me how to spend my money and what I had spent it on saying it was Irresponsibly spending stuff like that. At the time I really was not in the mood for my friends input when really its non of his business I believed he had good intentions but really don't need him meddling in my personal matters unless I involve him personally. So this brings me to my Next part that where it all started I basically told my friend off in chat "Sargent-Payne: Nate you have NO SAY IN MY FINANCAL matters this is getting too invasive" I quoted it that way we have no argument as to what i really said. But what happened next was what really fucked me over this next month. So my Payee who is my Roommate who involved my friend in this had thought that I had told him that he was being Invasive which in the chat clearly tells I was talking to Nate, so he was greatly offended by this and since he was offended he took it in his own hands to Revoke his rights as Payee without giving me the rest of my Money I had Saved but since he was my payee he had not transfered the Rest of the cash to me so now i have no way for paying for my bills and because of this misunderstanding I my checks are now suspended for the month of February. To make things worse I have my credit on the line and right now I am calling out for help from any one but I really doubt that I will get the help I need but roughly I have about $575 that I need to pay for or im probably going to get huge late charges for mainly on the phone and cable I owe $68 to Comcast because I was unable to pay them this month I was charged a late fee and $95 for the phone bill and $410 for the rent... The rent is the most important at the moment because I don't pay that I run the risk of losing my apartment, in other words Evicted.. so yea


I'm not asking for like allot of money from one person even like a few $$ would help if i can at least pay some of it I might get to keep it I hope..I got $50 from my grandma for my Bday

Well I've desided to sell my desktop so I can afford to pay my bills and posibably get to a convention next year

The computer is being sold for $800 OBO

Includes a optical mouse, satek eclipse backlit keyboard and a 20" moniter LCD with DVI cable

Desktop includes windows vista tho I'm willing to upgrade it to 7 for $50 but its a 64bit os
Case is a antec P182
Power supply is 1200w coolmax 80pluss and overvoltage protection and a lot more..
Motherboard Gigabyte ultra durable 3 890X chipset
Cpu AMD Phenom 2 955 3.2Ghz black eddition
Ram OCZ black eddition DDR3 1600 4GB
GPU Nvidia GTX260+ core 216 BFG OC
HD western Digital cavar black 500GB Sata 3.0
CD DVD asus 22x dvd burner dvd R. DVD RW DVD DL R
Wireless card Linksys G54 with speedboost

So that's it if you know somone that is looking for a computer let me know...

Well I thought this day would never come but it has. I have decided that it is time for me to move out of my parents house and move out. Mainly for those who know me know what kind of environment I live in. Its not the most pleasant of environments but about 50% of the time it is Great but the other times its not so Great. Things have Elevated to a Level of not just emotional abuse but Physical too. I know that every one that knows me Knows that i'm a sweetheart and would never hurt any one unless they are trying to kill me. But what happened on Sunday was something that I will make sure never happens again. My dad had been yelling at me all day or morning about how I never do anything around the house to help which sometimes is true but usaly i do them every one makes mistakes. But back to what happened so i get out of the bath room and I hear a whimpering, but at the time i did not know it was not Spotty crying rather than my mother but me being the person that always wants sense from chaos I tried to calm my Step dad down by asking him nicely to please calm down. He completely Ignores me and continues to scream and yell at me. I ask him again to please calm down, then he decides that he wants to get in my face so he approach me with extreme aggression and me trying to defend my self i put my hand on his chest not hard but Gently keeping him from getting any closer to me. My step dad immediately hits me in the face well Slaps me but He hit me with the ball of his hand against my Jaw joint making me drop my hand and step back. Then I ask him why did you Hit me, He reply's with "I cant expect what you will do to me I was just defending my self, of course I will admit i have punched him in the face in the past but Lets face it I don't like when people call me names or talk down to me to the point where I have no self esteem any more. well I cant exactly show you what has gone on in the past but when someone like that does things to hurt you and your emotions on purpose and then tries to Grab you forcing you to look them in the eyes and take every word they say I think you would punch someone too if they did that. But anyways I'm basicly saying that I have had enough of the Abuse and enough of being treated like a Child by someone who is claiming to be my parent when i'm 22 years old. Ripner, Ratchet, Demise, leafpup and spotty all know about this and I feel its time that every one else did too. I'm tired of waiting in the shadows like a scared Dog. so yea I really don't intend on moving back in, and I my apologies to any one that has ever had to experience this.

So Any one that reads this Please Voice your Opinion about it if you think this is a good idea or not and Why...... Any opinion is accepted as long is your using common sense and not being a complete Idiot then you are allowed lol

Well on the lighter note I'm doing verry well going to see aaron next weeknd and he is turning 18. But I wanted to give him somthing specal somthing that he needs and will use allmost every day so I looked at my options and I knew he needed a new computer for awhile now and well I didn't have enuf money to give him a new one so I thought why not give him my extra computer that I no longer use. Ever since I have had me new ailenware laptop I haven't touched my desktop lol. Soo basicly it would only gather dust.

But there is one slight problem to this. Even tho I own the computer my parents are the ones that baught 50% of it but every part of my computer was eather baught by me or was a gift for christmas and my birthday. But now ever since I metioned that I whant to give it away to my boyfriend as a gift they are now proclaming ownership of it and demanding that I sell it and give them 50% of the cash. I don't know what I should do and I'm not sure this is how gifts work I could be wrong tho I mean maby I should call my parents ungrateful and make them feel gilty for selling the gift I got them for xmas then demand that I desurve all the cash from the gift they get because I baught it orignaly but I could be wrong but any ways give me your opinion on this I would love to hear it

Well last day and finnaly leaving but omg having soomuch fun playing and making new friends. I am trying to get to all the events but lol.

I thought i would Write a story for you, i usually share many of my story's i write but i think you would enjoy the one I'm about to write. BTW If you play eve online you will understand what i'm talking about.

Stable Combustion

I was in the old ages of space far away from any willing hands to help me in my Struggle. Outlooking into the deepness i stare like a Black sea that surrounds me. Feeling that my heart was becoming as cold as the Black that surrounded me. Knowing the only way to satisfy my Lust for action i knew i needed to kill i knew what i had to do. I started slow at 1st feeling the adrenaline hit my body with Emergence Force feeling like my heart where about to fall out. But, even in all my Glory and shame i had still a hunger; hunger for Blood. With the fresh scent of it filling the space that now surrounded the outside of the Smoldering wreck that was remains of what was the Great Fighter. But, even for me i had Respect for ever one i killed in my glory. I saluted them sending them off to the after life respectively. I all ways Honored a good death. My self waiting for the day when my time would come when I should leave this world to go to a better on; Cloning making that almost impossible now that my connivance is transferred to the Clone like nothing happened. i never have seen my own blood. i hope that some day I too can Die in a Battle that shows not what skill i have with a ship but With my Honor as a Fighter. Because its not about the Blood, or the Tags you earn that show a pilots true skill, its how they tell them selves after the battle is won and over. I myself still cant figure out how i haven't died yet. But even in my pod i feel Deaths grip upon my shoulder like a Erny Burden that Protects me.

I no longer Fear Death; I no longer feel pain, only the smell and taste of blood in the air as they fill my seances. But about a week ago something did happen, I was doing a routine checkup on my System when i see something in the corner of my eye a ship thinking its OK i attack. I catch him by surprise and hit hard into his Shields breaking them with one blow watching him start to realize what had happened he quickly retaliates. sending Cruse missiles at me watching them hit my Shields and his recharging i panicked but was unable to get away, "warp drive Inactive" I panic age looking for a way out but see none now watching in horror as my armor is hit hard. his Shields still at 25% I make a run for the gate but am toolate and my ship has blown up. I was devastated Not only was i killed by a Cruser but i was killed and reborn. When i awoke from my Clone sleep i allmoast fainted under stress thinking i had just died. As the days go by things get better for me i am finnaly able to see clearly and read agen wich will help now that im trying to learn how to operate sharpshoting. of course the class is Electronic and there are 5 lvls to each class so i really have no need for books. But this was no the 1st time i would die i would die many times over that and be reborn each time gettingn worse. My Soule is dead my body isnt and as long as i stand i will Defend my Corperation with my Life no Matter the cost.

State Of Confusion


I open my eyes to the morning light
As I wake from my sleep
Feeling more awake than before
As my mind starts to stir
Even tho things are still a blur
As I jump out of bed I feel the weight set in
Like a force of nature that I will always keep
Bering down on me pushing me down
As I try to keep my head above the ground

I see the room that surrounds me like a prison of my own self
As my vision returns to me
And even though I am awake things are still not clear
But I still push on holding on to my head
Trying to think about the memories that have been un-done
Thinking back to the past time when all was clear
As each time passes by my memory comes near
But like each time before the last
The confusion comes to pass

Like each breath of air filling my lungs
Just like the memory un-done
Just like the new ideas that fill my head
As each time I go to bed
But with each new day that passes
There is a chance that I shall learn something new
As I put forth all my energy trying to understand
That which I think about every day
As new ideas pass my way
Confusing me all the more in this world of ideas
I shall always feel closer to my self
As I think and solve each memory un-done

When the confusion is finally over
And all the memory’s that where un-done are solved
I will have completed that which man could never reach
Perfection in my self and others
In this lifetime I may never reach
But even if I don’t reach that state of mind
Would it really be better if all was known?
And there was no memory un-done
Would life really be better than what it is?
Because in life we always learn and improve
But if the real meaning of life is to better ourselves
Then perfection is not made for man
Because from confusion we learn and improve
We help those we love and those that need it
And only in my life that I see
Shall I fully understand life as seen threw my eyes?
And for each time I am confused
I shall learn a new meaning
To that which puts me in a state of confusion?
And each time I figure out these things brings me closer to understanding
That all that we do in this life is to improve and to help others from that
Because life is to short to waist it on little things
But when we steep back and look at the whole picture
We can see that which we work hard for
To live for To love for

So for every person out there that has ever confused me
I say thank you to you all
Because from all that u have teacher me I have learned
And I have improved to become a better person
And in this life I hope one thing stays
And that is confusion for the rest of my days

Ok this is to every Furr in sarasota county area. I need every ones idea on what every one would like to do on 03/20/10 I have a huge Lyst of things avalable to do but its way....to big to post here. So i ask every one Plz if u can be avalable on that date to send me a responce Via FA thx. BTW what i mean by ideas is like somthing that is under $20 cost or free and somthing any one could do somthing realistic. But im allways open for ideas but like i said if u guys whant to do somthing like say Go to Unversal-Orlando we would have to place that at a much later date but that was just an example not somthing that im actualy planing but its somthing we could do, but it would require alot more time to plan it out any ways hope to hear ur feedback