I'm doing super well in the school, at the point that I'm enjoining to go, this had to be the year when I must finish the elementary school.
The debts have paid, I have to pay some stuff but not taking extra work, and I'm delaying one month for piece, it's a good flow, I hope to improve it soon, next step that I want to take is buying a new tablet, one with a screen. I have to plan it, if I will need to take a loan or not, buying something new or a second hand thing, anyway is money that I will recover, is an investment.

I'm looking for not only do a simple AMA, I want to read some suggestions or request for things that you want to see more, I'm in lacking of content updated since the updates of the rules of FA, I have all updated on my Trello at this moment. Maybe someone want to tell me something, I want to listen.

I have to pay some loan installments in the next two months, was a little money that I took to basic stuff, like bills and groceries from a time when I was sick, and I couldn't work. I was suffered something like burnout, cybernausea, pain on fingers and hand, and a panic attack.
But I'm fine now, and taking PWYW commissions the next three months starting for now because I need to pay the power supply, it's a bill of $80, and I need to have budget for groceries. About the loan, it needs $180 to be finished. I will be accepting donations on ko-fi https://ko-fi.com/mareadoggy I don't know if are able another option to be donor, for the moment I have it, any little help is greatly appreciated <3
I will be back to school the 8th of March, it overlaps with the issue with my debts, but luckily it's a light school month, I will be able to start the school and doing the commissions at the same.
I'm happy for back to school, I'm feeling so prepared for it, I need to finish this year to start to choose a third grade stuff, I have three good options. It must have to be a good year to all

I wish to do more cheaper and easy to do art, I'm no getting enough income, my thoughts is that year not has a good one for the ABDL community.
Next year, I want for finish few academical stuff that I need to start to work in IT, an area that I love. Maybe get a hiatus on 2025 or 2026
I wish to do lots of fanart, speciality for some ABDL artists that I love from here.
I wish improve my talking English for start to do streams, maybe I can get some help, like a baby learning to talk!
I wish so bad continue a comic that I had in mind, I'm only had a scheme of how the plot will be

My queue list back to normally, I'm still looking to have it totally clean, but taking only some few commissions monthly, really works, I pass to have delayed work from 6 months to 1 month and half, I was knowing that this day one day will come and I will become so happy.
About my issue with the drink, I had some ups and downs, but it is under control, my liver values in blood are ok, and the cholesterol was reduced (the alcohol can rise the cholesterol, be careful) I have a more conscious and responsible consume
When I got that horrendous panic attack, it wasn't for the withdrawal symptoms or PTSD, I don't know if I had or have any PTSD, but the real cause was that my T4 was high that it are to give me, so many symptoms like lots of anxiety, height loss and lactation, I was cried a lot too, was horrible. I have the theory that because I'm getting a less stressed live, my endocrine system starts to work again, anyway, I will get a date with the endocrinologist the 12/8 to see how it is going.
And in the last news that I'm so glad to report, I have pass to a top surgery! I really feel so uncomfort about it, it was worse when the lactation thing was happened, my breast not only are big, are painful and so uncomfort, luckily, I will get a solution, I'm a bit nervous, but I can't deal anymore with these "tumors" on me.
I hope that my good news makes you happy after all this mess whit Patreon, I don't loss anything, I got only a subscriber the day after the purge, I have not lost my account, but it was so upsetting for all, I'm still concerned about it.
I wish to you all a great day, thanks for read!

I owe a ych to they, but seems like them account was disabled. Someone have a way to contact they?

BlueSky
brumbrum.bsky.social

Mastodon
https://cubhub.social/@MarinDoggy

Twitter
https://twitter.com/DoggyMarea

InkBunny
https://inkbunny.net/BrumBrum

Telegram
https://t.me/TimeNTide

Patreon
https://patreon.com/MareaDoggy

Ko-fi
https://ko-fi.com/mareadoggy

Trello (check it! It has a lot of art!)
https://trello.com/w/mareasqueuelist

Activity Log
https://trello.com/u/mareathedoggy/activity

The 6 months are $100 I will use three
The 12 months are $175 I will use three too or 4
It is because I don't need more than three months but I want use these separately,
Note me if you're interested

I have chronic depression, I get depressed periodically and rarely meet optimistic feels. Literally for the most minimal thing I trigger, and then I'm tired or stressed for days and/or fall to the drink. I took my meds, but I don't know at what point is normal to feel like one are in a limbo like place. For much time I thought that it is normal, that the people not are in a stable place or happy in the goods, that are mostly sad. But now I don't know if it is like it, I had that chronic thing since the childhood and is logic that someone like me don't know how a healthy person is or how they see the world and the things or nobody is healthy at all.
I never got suicidal thoughts but yes a "not want to live today" like thoughts where I don't want to leave the bed, or get communication, like disappear for a while and then back to the duties, because I love to be alive, and I love me. I ever think that its behavior is normal, but I don't know at what point "not want to live" for an entire week for a little thing that happened or live in autopilot thing is ok.
I want to know if it will stop one day.
End of the weepy stuff
thanks for read

I got a code from
thank you so much!
they bluesky: https://bsky.app/profile/abcshep.bsky.social
my bluesky: https://bsky.app/profile/brumbrum.bsky.social
when I get codes, I will spare some

How it's work?
I joined, I got a code from
thank you so much
https://bsky.app/profile/brumbrum.bsky.social

October for some reason is a month when I don't do money, it is my job and I get some money here to life.
but I want to reserve the lack of work for doing my pending work, isn't, nothing bad with tighten the belt.
I don't know if is something about not do halloween themes or another issue, I don't know so much about the folk of halloween

https://cubhub.social/@MarinDoggy
https://mastodon.social/@Marindoggy
my mastodons. Drop me yours and good accounts and hubs to follow

The new med is working well and fast, I'm working on a more stable flow, after working two days in a row and willing to continue tomorrow, it's a good sign for me, I don't get tired anymore after, and I hope it stays that way.
I will share what I need for the pc, I'm looking for opinions, how on September 7 it's my birthday, maybe I can ask almost to buy the rams or the mother. https://ko-fi.com/mareadoggy/goal?g=25
What do you think? The comments are me feel good, if you want to let something I would love it

I asked some people, like artists with experience, what I can do.
All of you know that I'm stuck with the work since September, because I took a lot of work, because I was looking to improve a new full shaded style, I was letting it cheap because it was experimental. I was doing it I was working in large working days, like 10 days without to rest in the week, working days of 10 hours, to broke myself, after it, I lost time lied on bed with eyes shut and doing nothing, but working slowly anyway.
Then, I lived all these things of the alcohol, I was ok drinking, but I don't want damage in my liver, and the withdrawal stuff made me feel so bad at the point of having finished it and start to have another symptoms, like lot of anxiety, think funny things like are a horrific threat are happening, but know that it doesn't make sense.
I feel so good with my art style, thanks to work from time to time I see my work better, and I enjoy doing it, but I start to feel tired fast, and I have to leave, this is always, and I leave it, not for one day, for many days.
I want to work again, not only for income (well, the income is good for the people, because a person feels like it is useful and stuff) but for back to feel like a person again, an independent person.
Lately I feel an impulse to do, only do, but is like I'm tied with a harness for babies. Yesterday I was thinking about things like ask my followers if they will help me to raise funds to update my pc (it is not an expensive thing if you ask) and basic living while I'm sick, working slow. But it not has sense, I can't ask for money when debt art, was a flashing idea. I was thinking to get a wage work too, I have to ask my doctor if I can do it, because they say that I have to rest while the anxiety is lowering.
I don't know what to do, maybe, take my meds and rest for another day, and another, to shut the stupid ideas, to feel better.
I feel hungry, not hungry for food, hungry to finish it, hungry to back to independence, back to study, hungry to do.
Also, I forget to comment, can I get a thorax surgery, I talk to a Diversity Secretary because I don't like to have tits, and I'm scheduling a tubal sterilization, it makes me feel good, are processes that will help me with issues like dysphoria.

I send to check the follow post and are violating the Furaffinity UP
https://www.furaffinity.net/view/29589761/
https://www.furaffinity.net/view/49649182/
https://www.furaffinity.net/view/49678948/
these will be moved to InkBunny and Twitter
you can save the eevee one

Yesterday I visited my psychologist, she told me that I reacted well to a state in which someone feels like they are dying (panic attack) especially for being the first time (I hope it's the last time too) She looked very proud.
She asked me how she was doing with the OH withdrawal, I replied that my consumption was only twice in the entire month.
She asked me about my work, I told her that I am working but very slowly. She said that's fine, but I asked her when will I get my previous performance back, that I miss my job and that it makes me happy, she said again that it will take time to come back. I felt sad, as if without hope. But hey, it is what it is, it's my fault and I need to learn from my mistakes. I am working on putting on a light weekly schedule.
And for the episode, I still don't get all the answers. I have to talk to my psychiatrist.

I ever attach it to a PTSD due to the lot of aggressive screams that I was heard along of my life, and it's possible that it have a relation with the addiction withdrawal because the senses are more amplified, and it's supposed that PTSD can appear after a lot of time after the traumatic issues. The last events before the episode was listened my parents-in-law arguing in my house for dumb stuff. It is a thing that ever freak me out. And some sounds like my loudly neighborhood, them are not bad people but are loud as hell, drums, the people here like use a kind of African drums, walk and dance, and due to football the people used loudly fireworks all the last weekend. All these time I was conscious of everything that was happening to me and in a good use of my faculties. Anyway it was awful as hell and I lost a day of work, I'm still feeling uncomfort. I don't remember suffer an episode like it before.

The last week I felt tired and sick every day, I think it was due to low defenses, exhaustion, or I don't know. Last week I literally took the whole week and since Wednesday I played many hours in RimWorld, to the point of not eating, hardly sleeping and feeling guilty.
The point of all these things is that today I feel very good, I recently did some cleaning and everything looks neat and comfortable, it's been a long time since I did a proper cleaning and after that I feel good.
Now I have a conclusion, I didn't have a proper rest for 4 years, and so many things happened to me in those years, maybe I need to take this week without guilt.
This is a notice for people who have pending orders from me, I think they deserve my apologies and an explanation.

Here in Uruguay happened a strong drought the past winter, so many water supplies were dried, and the lap water ever tastes yummy, now are high on salt and chlorine and tastes so bad and are generating a lot of troubles, all the people are buying bottled water because you didn't use it for nothing. I don't care at this point, I'm tired from it.
My queue list is being cleaning, I'm not getting so many incomes as I like, but I'm fine. I'm tired to think in that damn list and for some mistakes manage my economy.
About the new Furaffinity upload policy, tired.
I want to do many projects and stuff, but I can't get the time or the motivation. I'm quite hopeless about it.
All these things are piled and piled, I'm feeling like the meds are not working anymore, I'm starting to suffer depression again, some days I can't leave the bed, I'm lack of appetite easily crying, and probably I must need an adjustment. The adjustment sucks, but the results are good, worth the effort, but mean more tiredness.

https://twitter.com/DoggyMarea
https://www.inkbunny.net/BrumBrum I'm moving things to here still
I have a Telegram channel, but I still not upload anything to it
And sounds funny but in my Trello I have a lot of art but not a way to communicate https://trello.com/w/mareasqueuelist

TW: alcohol abuse
This all started in January: I had altered results in a blood test, some liver enzymes are coming out of my blood, due to alcohol abuse. I don't eat any sugar, no cakes, desserts, or soft drinks, so the only way to liver damage for me is alcohol.
I am taking medication to lower triglycerides (a type of cholesterol that comes from carbohydrates, sugar and alcohol are high) and had an ultrasound, the results say that all my abdominal organs are in perfect condition!
My doctor looked at the results and told me that I am lucky I don't have fat liver, and that it is a common condition, in my case, a drunk. Never heard of fat liver, did some research and really feel luckier than ever, this is the first step towards cirrhosis.
Regarding my behavior with alcohol: every 15 days I am having a check-up with a psychologist and a doctor, to reduce consumption and make sure that everything is going well, and I am doing it well.
I can't tell my brother, thinking about it gives me shiver. My father is an alcoholic, I haven't seen him for 10 years, but my brother tells me things about him, and tells me that my father got diabetes II because of his consumption. Due to my brother's special condition (negative schizophrenia) I feel that I am failing him, and it could worry him a lot and make his condition worse, I cannot tell him.
An important addition to this, I have a public health service, not as good as in some European countries, but it's good, I'm receiving everything for free. I know a lot of people here, that in the US, a health problem can be a lifelong debt, and this is why money is the first thing everyone thinks of when they hear about health. It really hurts my heart a lot when I hear stories about it. I just want to say, try to eat healthy, but at the same time as easy as you can, then if you don't have any other options than junk food (because it happens a lot, and the junky food taste good) your body can process junk food better, and you can avoid the accumulation of cholesterol. Invest in healthy food, in ways to cook and peel vegetables faster, in peeled or cooked vegetables. Better that your pocket hurts from waste in these things than in the hospital.
I love you all, take care.

I'm back from a suspension for violating site rule 2.7.
If you want to know more details, you can visit this link for more details. If you do not have a Twitter, you will not see it because my Twitter is classified as sensitive, you need an account, and the same one enabled to see sensitive content.
If you don't have it, you can get a screenshot, or ask if someone with an account can show it to you. I don't want to show a screenshot from my twitter post because it has the pictures of the discord.
Well, putting it in a side, I'm fine! The 3rd of March, I was looking to put a stop to the offers of commissions the next two weeks, until 17th to have time to clean the queue list and rest, but the suspension made this plan it early.
I'm exhausted, I'm sleeping many hours, the heat waves here don't help, this break is helping me too to rest.
But I'm still working in the things that I owe, but I'm far to have enough time to draw more things recreational for me. I'm thinking in do this breaks once of week monthly until feel less burnout.
It not mean that I don't enjoy draw babyfur art, I'm proud of this and to get the satisfaction of a costumer. And I really enjoy drawing and thinking in situations where buttons can be pushed, all of it ever was fun and satisfactory to me.
Oh, also, here in my country I have a little group of IRL babyfurs for sharing experiences, I'm still a bit shy with all the whole thing, I never meet IRL a babyfur person, so I'm exploring slowly this tangible world.
And about post pictures, I'm still thinking where, when, and how, maybe Patreon, put pictures to be released in some days but open to patrons and after open to the public. And here too, I don't want to leave Furaffinity

I start to use this tool as a queue list
you can see the progress step by step, and I can add dates, like behind cameras!

Trello

Also, let me know if you can open the link