I live in this world to see what happens next.
But I found that since the birth of mankind, we have never stopped fighting with each other.
I will still choose to stay until my destiny comes...

When you fail, you don't have to blame yourself.
Even now there are so many people who are always better than you, but everything in the world is always changing.
You don't know if they're still that good in the future, just like you never know when you're going to make it.
Hope will always exist, whether it's a dream or a reality.
You and I were born in this world, are lucky. Always remember that you are not alone.

Someone asked me what the mental illness in my profile was
To put it simply, it's serious delusions of victimization, violent tendencies, and mild obsessive-compulsive disorder.
It has been greatly improved in the long course of medication (although I don't know if depression and anxiety are mental disorders, their symptoms are still very serious!)
Bad things play back in my mind like slides, all the sounds are amplified.
I'm still very restrained in my life, otherwise, I might pick up a stick and fly the head of the person in front of me like a baseball qwq
Nightmares and hallucinations have been bothering me for a long time. My deepest memory of hallucination is that once I went downstairs with my classmates, suddenly I saw several other good classmates walking in front of me, warmly greeting me, and I responded to them loudly. The student on one side was obviously very surprised. He asked, "who are you calling?". I replied: "our classmates, don't you see?" "But there's no one ahead at all. " Then I realized that it might be an illusion.
A lot of problems are focused on me, but it doesn't matter. At least I have dreams!

Here is what I wrote when I was in deep suffering. Maybe there is something wrong with the grammar. (Translated)

Where is my life going and where is it going?
Life is like acting,
he said something insincere,
with a mask of hypocrisy.
I always cheat myself with little achievements,
always feel a burst of emptiness.
Always rely on antidepressant anesthesia to be able to sleep.
Why can't I find the evidence of living ，
only when I'm away from the crowd can I find myself?
There's no place in real life,
or my own position in the network.
Why is it in such a sea of drama?
When I was young, I like to have fun alone.
Dry your tears, but still afraid.
When I grow up, I will be far away from my hometown.
The asphalt roads in the city are too hard to tread.
The stars shine warm,
When the moonlight comes into the house,
I always think back deeply.
The Internet connects you and me,
I really saw heaven and earth.
Countless big guys and superstars,
Have fun, money, and respect.
And I'm a poor lowlife.
No money, no power, no ability.
There has been no evidence since the beginning，
whether it's a foreign forum or a domestic forum,
all I saw was my tears.
How jealous I am,
How eager I am!
Can I be their friend?
In other words,
I said hello to you,
Can I be your friend?
Although I've never been able to establish the concept of friends correctly.
At least I think it's friends who care about each other.
How confusing life is,
How I wish someone would wish me great success.
But I know how good it is to be on the Internet,
It has nothing to do with reality,
It's not another fantasy world.
I don't have any achievements to cheat myself.
At least dry your tears and tell yourself not to be afraid.
From childhood,
I just fantasize about what I want,
because I can't get it and I won't ask.
I'm afraid I'll be laughed at,
I'm afraid I can't afford it.
Take a look at the prosperity of the world,
The world is still too chaotic!