Themes include:
-Forced regression
-Forced diapering
-Minor bondage
-No sexual themes

Will post a journal with a link to it when it's done. So far first chapter/floor done. Based on the haunted hospital pieces I have had done (see gallery folder), do need to get more pieces done for it at some point for funsies.

Happy Nude Deer! Hope everybody has a happy and safe 2019! (And please, no major celebrity deaths this year? Please Mr. Death?)

Been a while, not sure how many people actually read these but oh well!

So first work, been a drag for a while, more tedious than anything not really anything exciting or anything going on for it. The manager who was only temporary, is now our team lead (sweet). I really like him so glad to have him sticking around! He has some really awesome changes for our team for 2019 which would be awesome if they happen. Time will tell!

17 days remain until my caretaker and her husband move in with me. To say the least I'm not ready! Been living alone for over 4 years now, the quiet is nice, but I feel as though the change (in more than one sense) will be much better. They will be getting away from his stepfather who is a douche canoe, and they will be closer to everything that they have going on typically (doctor appointments, and friends and such.) Going to be living all together in a 1 bedroom which might be a bit cramped, but my building manager said she might have a 2-bedroom coming available March of 2019 which would be awesome.

Fun times ahead!

https://picarto.tv/LithDragon

Not me but still awesome!

For those Americans HAPPY TREASON DAY! I am sure the queen is unhappy with it..... or maybe not I dunno.

HAPPY INDEPENDENCE DAY!

REMOVE YOURSELF FROM THE GENE POOL.

The website which shall not be named, allows people who subscribe to a patreon to share all posts from that creator to anyone for free, thus robbing the content creators of some much needed income.

Many of the posts are behind a few dollar paywall, are people that petty they want to deny an artist a few dollars in exchange for seeing cool things sooner?

I subscribe to quite a few patreon creators, and the pricing change wasn't done in greed for patreon wanting more money, they changed the fees so the content creators get more in the end. Sure we the subscriber eat a bit extra here, but it's to cover the fees of handling all the transactions, hosting the sites, and bringing it to the subscribers.

If people are that pissed at patreon, take it up with them, stop robbing content creators.

/endrant

For those looking for recommendations. No order, just random pieces I have put together over time.

ANIME:
Kemonozume
Vampire Hunter D ('85 and '00 movie, both rock)
Claymore
Hellsing (watch Hellsing ultimate, ol' good series ain't no good enough)
Terra Formars
Afro Samurai
Devil May Cry
Blade of Immortal
Sword of the Stranger
Basilisk
Ninja Scroll (series & movie)
Black Lagoon (series & OVA's)
Zetman

SHOWS:
Black Sails
Mr. Robot
The man in the high castle
Luther
Spooks
Skins
The Inbetweeners
Dad's Army
Ultimate Force

The Fall
The Affair
The Missing
River
The Knick
Review
Ash vs Evil Dead
Horace & Pete
Broadchurch
The Path
Inside No. 9
Flowers
Billions
Utopia
Happy Valley
You're The Worst
Fresh Off The Boat
Vikings
Orphan Black
11.22.63
Outlander

The Expanse
Vikings
Turn: Washington Spies
Outlander
Peaky Blinders
The Tudors
Penny Dreadful

Sense8
The Leftovers
The Magicians
American Horror Story
Hell on Wheels
Supernatural

 misheru-san has worked so hard on these, shame to pass them over!

P2U: (they are cheap)

http://www.furaffinity.net/gallery/.....1915/Ref-Bases

Personal P2U:

http://www.furaffinity.net/gallery/.....onal-Use-Bases

Check them out! You won't regret it!

So here's a thought provoking idea which has been on my mind for quite a few days now, and many hours as I spend the majority of my time alone in my own mind which can drive a person to the point of madness. So this is going to be a bit brutal so reader beware!

So onto the point, putting a value on time, everybody does it. Everything from work, to artists selling their art. What it boils down to, is when you are suffering how much pain you can endure before the value of your remaining time isn't worth it.

This isn't an admission of me actioning anything just more or less venting.

My highest points bring me to a neutral point, and my darkest points, I'd rather not exist for a moment longer. Any escape from the pain I would take it.

Trying to describe what it's like to live with crippling depression every day is rather difficult, and for people who haven't experienced it, it would be a huge shock. What makes me get up every day, what still pushes me to exist.

So many questions without answers.

So yeah BLAME  misheru-san for this boring waste of TEXT!

misheru-san/

Personal>>>>>

Real First Name: Nerf (I gave up my real first name when there were 5 of us with the same first name in a single group of friends, I never respond to my first name anymore)
Nickname/Username: Marshie (named by Relena my furry sister, who called me that as my avatar was a white chibi fox that looked like a marshmellow) also known as Volfy (Wolfy, chop the "W" in half yeah)
Location: Ontario, Canada
Age: 31
Gender: Male (gender neutral)
Zodiac Sign: Scorpio
Chinese Zodiac: Rat
Briggs type: Don't remember/care
Pets: Nope


Sexuality & Romance>>>>>

Sexual Orientation: EVERYTHING WITH MORE THAN 1 CELL TO IT!(Or asexual whichever)
Kinsey Scale: N/a
Relationship Status: HAHAHAHA good joke
Poly or Mono: As above
Want to Marry: Nope
Want Kids: I am one


Silly Stuff>>>>>>

Hogwarts House: HUFFLEPUFF
GoT House: Targaryen rawr
Bending Style: Dunno
Pony Race: Dunno
Pokemon type: Pyschic
What Are You Reading: YOUR MIND (eww btw)
What's The Last Movie You Watched: Hello kitty, pron adventure! (Or ice age)
What Are Your Greatest Irrational Fears: The monsters under my bed


Sleep>>>>>

Early Bird or Night Owl: Switch back and forth
What Time Do You Go To Bed: after work, or being up for >6 hours
What Time Do You Get Up: 2 hours before work
What Do You Sleep In: My boxers
Do you Dream Frequently: Uh huh, usually about cub related things
What Position Do You Sleep In: Side
What was the last dream you remember: Can't remember


Work & Education>>>>>>

High School: Done high school
College: Didn't graduate
Occupation: Network Security Analyst
Where Do You See Yourself in 5 Years: Hopefully not dead from suicide
What's Your Dream Job: Breaking into banks!


Favorite Stuff>>>>>

Foods: Pastas, pizza
Carbonated Drinks: Don't drink any
Non-Carbonated Drinks: Chocolate milk, apple juice, water
Ice cream flavor: Rolo ice cream!
Season: Winter? Depression destroys me but I enjoy the cold
Animals: Wolves and kitties
ColoUrs: Red, light blue, pink (in that order)
Music: DEATH METAL
TV shows: Mr. Robot, GoT
Video games: WoW classic server, SC2, hearthstone

3 characters:

Puppy Bastion
D. Va
Torbjorn

Please let me know if you are interested or have someone who may be interested!

Thanks.

http://www.furaffinity.net/journal/7639977/

 Miharu_Okami is looking for a spot!

I FINALLY got a reply to my pounced ad!

...

Spammer...

I should have known...

Something I have been meaning to post for a while but haven't. It's more or less an informational thing more than anything but I want people to understand what I go through.

So suicide is a selfish and painful thing, especially when you can't control the impulses or the obsession with it. You basically transfer the pain you feel, to other people around you.

It's not just a simple fight and it's over, it's an ongoing, stressful and painful war. This is one war, I am not going to win, and I can say that with confidence at this point. For more than half my life (31 now, showing signs when I was 13, so has been 18 years of this) I have lived in a pretty steady state of depression, anxiety, and pain. This year has been the hardest by far. I guess it's partially because I am getting older and the strain is wearing on me.

While I did seek out medical help for this, it brought me to the edge of suicide and no medical professional would lift a finger, unless I moved hours away, then those docs could help but they have a conflict of interest partially, as I used to work for them.

What I am getting at basically is that I know I'm going to lose, and it's going to hurt a lot of people, but how much pain must I endure before someone says it's enough.

So yeah maybe not today, maybe not tomorrow but at some point in the future it will be the end.

I am not religious, but being stick against trees and ripped apart for eternity may be the fate that befalls me. (10 points if you get the reference)

But for now I will reside in my current hell, until my ultimate demise.

So I'm a cub, and there's no problems with this and I am comfortable with it.

I have all the opportunity to as I live alone, and nobody else has a key (except for my parents but they would never enter my apartment without my consent)

I have dreams about it even so I know it's on my mind.

The problem is I don't actually act on them.

I know it may help my situation but, mental block there.

Oh well, just another day.

Sorry for the brief downtime. Having a bit of a breakdown, had to remove myself from things. Still going to be for a while.

But disabling my page just cost other people the smiles they get from the artwork on my profile, so can't have that. My pain doesn't have to be anyone else's.

It's a strange thing, how an hourglass shaped piece of cloth and plastic can bring me from the verge of tears to a more neutral state.

As much as I enjoy it I am haunted by the thought of wishing for this to continue. To come home from a bad day and have someone here to take care of this side of myself. Not in the mood? Too bad, it's what's good for you. Get changed come here cuddle up and feel good.

Oh well

Please check it out:

http://www.furaffinity.net/view/18921042/

Being done by  Avanna

http://www.furaffinity.net/journal/7316756

Go check it

For example you can see:

https://www.furaffinity.net/view/18778144/

https://www.furaffinity.net/journal/7310178/

Done by the ever amazing  miharuokami

What games are everybody playing nowadays? WoW.... got kinda bored, log in -> garrison -> log out. It paid for my sub but meh.

I am working on a project which we might gain the license for a game I really enjoyed called Darkfall, if we nail it I will be head of network/security OPS which will be nice. Not a paid position for quite a while if ever, but oh well should be fun.

As for work, too much stress and health problems stemming from my current job. 45k/yr not worth it. I should be paid 60k+ for a position close to mine, hell people who have left my company are making 75k+. We are underpaid, overstressed all the time. My boss said a good joke to me she said that she will not be giving me hot cases anymore as she can't "RELY" on me to be at work every day. (I took a few sick days as I am having severe problems due to stress) So let me get this straight, you aren't going to give me the most messed up, stressful cases which cause me problems.... AND YOU THINK THAT IS A PUNISHMENT!? The only reason why I was getting them is she knew I would not whine when I get the most screwed up BS that someone else messed up and I had to clean up.

Been there for over 2 years, it's their loss mostly.

Seriously considering handing in my resignation come Monday, and if I do I can survive over 3 months without a job. Not a huge amount, but still I can probably pick up some retail job and survive if needed.

Going to be a long weekend.

 miharuokami is open for 10 icons!

Squeaky toy icons like this too: http://www.furaffinity.net/view/15734223/

Could be other objects in your muzzle just ask her :3 they are awesome!

Courtesy of  miharuokami

It's so awesome.

Sooo my friend who wrote a book? It's on the Nook: http://www.barnesandnoble.com/w/sha.....=2940149221554 and kindle: http://www.amazon.com/s/ref=nb_sb_n.....k%3AGwen+Selix

Seriously you should check it out :)

So starting my new shift tomorrow 4AM to Noon (not going to survive BAH!), and D3 RoS launches tonight! GAH!

Oh well stuff is fine, still coping with the loss....dealing with it in small chunks so I don't get overwhelmed.