This year has been a year of funerals for me. I lost my Father figure in February, and my Wife just recently lost her Grandmother this month. And right after losing her Grandmother, before she even managed to come home, our sister-in-law  ladygreer passed away.
I can not express just how sad I have been. Some might find it silly, but I just saw her two weeks ago. We made dinner plans and a Dot Hack movie night together. She was so excited for the Final Fantasy XIV update, and we were gonna start working out together once the gyms opened back up.
But she wasn't herself towards the end...and I even called the cops for a wellness check. At the time, they told me that she was fine, so I was content with that. I just figured she wanted some alone time (as someone with depression, I understand). But, a week later, she was gone.

The amount of people I have contacted and had to tell them about this loss...I can't say that it hasn't weighed on me a bit. I just knew that the longer we went without telling her friends, the worse it would be for them. Her friends were her life, her Discord was like her home, and I knew these people deserved to know, deserved to have their chance and mourn...and it didn't feel right to leave them in the dark. Greer was someone I had heard horror stories about before I met her. She was supposedly that mean and grumpy person that was just impossible to be around. When I first saw her (she towers over my 5"3 ass), with her black hair, sunglasses, etc. I was terrified.
She asked me to drive with her to the pet store one day and I was too scared to tell her 'no', so I went, not sure what to expect. What we did was talk about anime, porn, and Pokemon, and it was one of the most fun days I had ever had. That alone built a friendship that meant a lot to me...even if I had a hard time showing it.

I got on her streams, she gave me the nickname "Lezbot", and I gloated because having a nickname must mean I'm special...you know? I don't have a lot of friends, I'm a very picky person when it comes to people. So this was just an awesome moment. I know she had her besties and the people she talked to 24/7...but I was always thrilled when she came to me for advice or to vent. I did her house tour on facetime for her (with my wife) so she could see if she wanted her house before moving. When she was finally only 20 min away from me, I was actually happy that we would get to hang out more. She would come over, get a hot meal, play some video-games. I watched her play Dark Souls, and I'm the only person that got to see her beat Super Mario Odyssey. We were always talking horror games (especially Silent Hill), talking about our favorite anime, or helping each other on Animal Crossing. She wanted me to try FFXIV and was going to teach me how to play...but I put it off, and now I wish that I hadn't. I now have the free trial downloading...and I guess it's just one of the ways I'm trying to show my tribute to her.

I have had days where I cry...and today I'm doing better. I'm just bracing myself for the hardest parts that are bound to pop up in the future. I dunno what's going to happen...there's just so much stress. I wanna comfort her friends, but they barely know who I am. I wanna do something special for her, but I don't know what. I want to help her Husband, but I barely know him either...and so I just try to make him laugh when I see him. And I'm also trying to comfort my wife who lost 2 people she loved dearly in a matter of 2 weeks.

Before anyone asks (I probs should have made a disclaimer earlier), she did not die to COVID. There were some other things going on, but we still don't have a cause. So I ask that you please don't pry. I already have a ton of people I need to keep updated on the situation...so, if you have any other questions, thoughts, etc, I just ask that you DM me here or something. I will try and get back to you when I can.

I guess...I just needed to vent. One of the last things I mentioned to her is that I find it hard to believe that anyone likes me because of my awkwardness, anxiety, etc. she laughed and told me to "shut up". And I only wish I had been able to tell her how happy that made me...that I knew she was my friend, always had, and that it really, truly, meant the world to me. I was looking forward to so many adventures together that I could never express. And now she is gone.

And I miss her. I miss her a lot.

Rest in Peace Buttlord.

---Love: Lezbot

Hey everyone.
So, here in the last couple of weeks, I started an account page for my writing commissions:  MasikaTales --- and if you know someone that might be interested in something like this, I would greatly appreciate a boost, so that I could possibly get more watchers.

I have already sold 4 writing commissions that I am very proud of. I get my writing done in less than a week when I am not busy or distracted, and I have only recieved good feedback thus far.

What do I write?

Well, my commissions are adult-themed (generally NSFW) romantic writings between two characters. Porn...I write porn. Haha. That's the blunt way of putting it at least. HOWEVER, I can write anything you desire! I would love to work on more action writings and writing about character lore. But, in general, I mostly write out a sex scene and the building up to said-sex scene for the masses to enjoy.
Another perk my page offers is "rentable story characters"...
For those that want a custom story but do not have anyone to be paired with, well, I have some characters that I have in folders just for this occasion. I have males, females, herms, even transforming parasites to basically fit your every need! For $5 you rent a character and then you pay that on top of the commission price.

How much does a story cost though?

My stories are all PWYW (pay what you want) right now. But the minimum for a story is increased to $15 because I think it's pretty fair considering the amount of care and detail I put into my writings. But, I am willing to haggle sometimes if you're having a problem making a certain pay-goal.
But, I am in need of the monies right now for sure, and prefer working to earn money than getting donations. So, if you're at all interested, please watch the account, send me a message on that account if you have any questions, and I really hope to be working wth you in the future!!

P.S= Commissions are OPEN right now. I have 4 slots left! Please claim yours today!!!

But not on this profile...
So check out  MasikaTales if you're interested in writing commissions:

What's the Cost?
---Right now the cost of a writing commissions is a PWYW since I just got started.
But, I'm not going to take silly amounts. You can't pay me $2.00 and expect me to write you pages worth of amazing detail, it just won't happen. Minimum for the PWYW is $10 and even then, if you're wanting something that will be long and complicated, you're looking at anywhere from $15-$20 because I do take my detail seriously.
Prices might eventually be changed and updated based on demand.

What do you Write?
---I will write nearly anything.
My profile does tend to do more Adult-related scenes. So, a lot of sex scenes and romantic writings for couples, but, I also like writing masturbation for those single peeps. Group sex, or even just sex with a strange if you so prefer. People can "rent a character" of mine if they so choose. But that will be a feature that will come a bit later on my profile page.
Um...I can write action, lore stories/back stories of characters. If there's something in specific you are looking for, all you need to do is PM me and ask.

What will you NOT write?
---I do NOT do cub porn or anything pornographic involving children.
---I do NOT do scat.
---I do NOT do watersports.
---I am no good at Vore
---I can try inflation but....eeeehhhhhh....
---I do not do bestiality (human x ferals) but will do human and anthro animal characters.

Are you Open?
---Yes, I am currently open for 5 commission slots.
Once those are filled, people will have to wait until they are open again so that I do not get overwhelmed.

---Right now, a writing commission does not take very long. I would say i can usually have a short scene written in less than a night, and a longer piece would then only take me around 3 days. But, because I am heading back to Texas soon, I would say that, it should never take me longer than a week to complete a piece. Occasionally I will do a WIP which I send to the customer for their review...but this does not happen often, and them getting back to me will determine when I can continue with a piece.
But, all-in-all, things move rather quickly and there is a queue on my profile page for my writing commissions, letting people know when I have started writing a piece, what is in progress, when something has been finished and etc.

I'm going to be in a comic book series!!!

No joke!! This is so amazing and I am so honored to have had the opportunity to have my likeness and the likeness of another special lady in this amazing comic where Mad Maxx meets Lord of the Rings / this amazingly-illustrated world which is the "Lowlife" series.

Lowlife is a fun story set in a post-apocalyptic fantasy realm focusing on a group of villains and their nefarious deeds in a world where Lord of the Rings meets Mad Max. Short Synopsis: When a man with no memory of his past begins to find out that he was not a good person, he does what comes naturally to him. He becomes even worse.

---From the IndieGoGo Page

The world known as Thratas is a planet covered by sand, dust and death. What little green there is has been harvested by the lords of the lands to further their wealth and power. The weak die or become slaves, eternally in service to those of means. The lords create weapons and machines of industry in their great cities that cause pollution, making the world even more of a wasteland. Groups of orcs, elves, humans and other races roam the land, scavenging what they can to build their own weapons and ammunition to destroy. Slavery is rampant, both in the wastes and the cities.

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Lowlife is a comic for mature readers as it contains graphic violence, nudity, adult language and some sexual situations. It is intended to be an ongoing series following the exploits of a band of criminals in a Fantasy meets SciFi/Post-apocalyptic environment.

I have already been told that I will be featured in the first book for a few pages and future books, so please, SUPPORT THIS PROJECT!

This is being created by people that have worked on official comics before, and artwork is being done by the ever-so-talented Avionetca (click her name for her DeviantArt) whom I have had the honor of watching stream a comic she was working on for a friend, the very same friend (Industrial) that got me to pledge my support to this project and is the reason my likeness and that of my wife's can appear because the rewards are so amazing, they really do appreciate all the help they get in making this comic book and this world come to life!!! do you really need more convincing?

Do you like comics? Do you like fantasy? how about post-apocalyptic worlds? How about me? ;) Then you will be BLOWN AWAY by lowlife featuring characters made after myself and my wife: Ruby!!!


They have 90% of funding for their first round and the second round will need just as many backers! I already know I will be helping, and, they have amazing perks/rewards for everyone that helps them out. So, if you want to know more, please check out their indiegogo page HERE: https://www.indiegogo.com/projects/.....mics-fantasy#/

Or their Facebook Page here: https://www.facebook.com/LowlifeComic/

Thank you all so much for reading and, if you can not help fund this AMAZING project, then, please help by SPREADING THE WORLD! See you in the wastes ;)

Hello all,
This is my first journal so I thought I would let you know what this blog is about and also some rules I have in place for role-playing with this character, doing gift art, group pieces, and etc.

This character is a role-playing character...and her journals I want to make as "logs" from her journey across the galaxy, landing on different planets, and etc. All her pieces of art I want to make into some sort of "experience" which she can write about. I also hope to get a good network of friends that will help create experiences for Masika so that I might write about her. Gift art and group art where I help pay a part of the commission price is the goal, but we shall see.

So, now that we have that out of the way...
Masika is a Tempest Leothaun and candidate to be High Priestess on her home planet. She was given to the Temple at birth and was raised in her faith, but, it has been obvious that she has always had a conflicted soul. she longs to experience life, to know what it is to be free. So, the Elder sent her out into the world, allowing her to travel until she came back to the faith willingly, ready to devote the rest of her life to worship, ritual, and etc. So...here are the RP rules for Masika:
1. If you want to RP...please send me a note. I will not RP in the comment sections or my shoutbox.
2. Not all people will be accepted for role-play. I would like to be somewhat picky.
3. RP is only SFW at this point...I want Masika to have a lot of unique experiences as she travels the galaxy, but, seeings as how she is taken, I don't want things getting too weird. While people can allude to crushing on her or can try and 'win her affection', no smexy times will happen with Masika.
4. All RP will eventually be used for Masika's "logs" and stories. So, you have been warned.
5. Please already have some sort of plot in mind. I can help brainstorm, but I like people already having an idea of where this thing is going to start so that we can just go from there.

As mentioned before...my other goal for this profile is art. While I am secretly hoping for gift art of Masika with other characters having crazy adventures, I know this is not so realistic. Which is why I'm also willing to work with people on paying for group pictures. If given enough notice, I can help pay for a group commission...but, there are rules to the art as well:
1. Please ask permission before you draw Masika (unless I have commissioned you)
2. If you commission a piece with Masika in it...I require a copy of that art piece.
3. Any art piece I receive I will most likely write a story about it.
4. Art for Masika should only be SFW unless I specify otherwise or give permissions for it to be something else.
No fetish works or anything like that.

I think that covers everything for now.
I'm so excited to get this character started and see where her journey takes her :D
I hope you will join me as well! <333 Also, send me a note if you have any questions about the rules...