To the people who care out there in the world, I haven't been on in a long while primarily because well, i'm gonna have a little tiger come into the world by the end of this year so i've been getting ready and preparing for the arrival of my mini me. I is excited! So tell me what have you people been up too? I miss all of your faces!!!!

Stay Classy!!! <3

So...sometimes, people do dumb shit, doesn't matter the nature of it or what it was, just that if you think someone is doing something wrong on here, can you please try and be more pleasant about it when you confront said person about the situation, I'm getting tired of people complaining about the gods know what. -_- Come now people, stop being children...it's not the end of the world.

I've been neglecting this thing for a long time, nothing much has changed though huh? I would get more commissions but my life is kinda crazy right now. Needless to say I'm happy though. ^.^ thanks to a certain women (cough cough...check my scraps to see her face...she's golden) ;3 Anyway, far winds my lovely little darlings.

There is going to be a mini Master Loki running around...O.o

Hello all my lovely little darlings, I've been gone for sometime due to health problems...or problems in general. But i'm back from the hospital and doing mighty fine. Hit me up I missed all of your faces! <3

Loki

the slant
a building settling around me
my figure female framed crookedly
in the threshold
of the room
door scraping floorboards
with every opening
carving a rough history
of bedroom scenes
the plot hard to follow
the text obscured
in the fields of sheets
slowly gathering the stains
of seasons spent lying there
red and brown
like leaves fallen
the colors of an eternal cycle
fading with the
wash cycle
and the rinse cycle
again an unfamiliar smell
like my name misspelled
or misspoken
a cycle broken
the sound of them strong
stalking talking about their prey
like the way hammer meets nail
pounding, they say
pounding out the rhythms of attraction
like a woman was a drum like a body was a weapon
like there was something more they wanted
than the journey
like it was owed to them
steel toed they walk
and I'm wondering why this fear of men
maybe it's because I'm hungry
and like a baby I'm dependent on them
to feed me
I am a work in progress
dressed in the fabric of a world unfolding
offering me intricte patterns of questions
rhythms that never come clean
and strengths that you still haven't seen

more hospital time, when is it gonna end!!!

I'm 20 years old now...how fuckin trippy for me!

Ever since I realized, there was someone called a colored girl or an evil woman, a bitch or a nag I been trying not to be that and leave bitterness in somebody else's cup. Come to somebody to love me without deep and nasty smelling scars from lye or being left screaming in a street of lunatics whispering, 'Slut, bitch, bitch. Nigga, get out of here with all of that.' I didn't have any of that for you. I brought you what joy I found. And I found joy. And then there's that woman who hurt you. And who you left three or four times. And then you went back after you put my heart in the bottom of your shoe. You just walked back to where you hurt and I didn't have nothing. So I went to where somebody had something for me, but none of them were you. I got a real dead loving here for you now, 'cause I don't know anymore how to avoid my own face wet with my tears because I had convinced myself that colored girls have no right to sorrow. I lived for you. I know I did it for myself, but I couldn't stand it. I couldn't stand being sorry and colored at the same time. It's so redundant in the modern world.

he said ani, you've gotten tough
'cause my tone was curt
yeah, and when I'm approached in a dark alley
I don't lift my skirt
in this city
self-preservation
is a full time occupation
I'm determined
to survive on this shore
you know I don't
avert my eyes anymore
in a man's world
I am a woman by birth
and after nineteen times around I have found
they will stop at nothing once they know what you are worth
talk to me now
I played the powerless
in too many dark scenes
and I was blessed with a birth and a death
and I guess I just want some say in between
don't you understand
in the day to day
and the face to face
I have to act
just as strong as I can
just to preserve a place
where I can be who I am
so if you still know how
talk to me now

"Got Your Back"
(feat. Keri Hilson)


Aye Shawty I Know You Be Hearin This
And That From Here And There
But Please Trust And Believe
Lil' Mama I See You Gone
Ride For Me So imma Die For You
Is You Wit Me?(Well Let's Get It)

I got your back boy


When were high(T.I.:From when its all good)
When were low(T.I.:To when its all bad)
Boy I promise I will never let you go
Said I got I got I got I got yo' back boy
(Now What you call dat)
I got I got I got I got yo' back boy
(I know you got my back right)
Keep my swagger
Keep it looking good for ya
Keep it looking hood for ya
Shawty if you don't know
I got I got I got I got your back boy
I got I got I got I got your back boy


Hey it's whatever shawty
You ain't gotta ask
Yes, Valentino blouses, summer houses, cash, check!
You can get it you deserve it, flawless diamonds, Louie purses,
My mission's to purchase Earth for her
Present the gifts without the curse
Her pleasure is my purpose
Pleasure to be at your service
We front row at fashion shows
As well as Sunday morning service
But better days or for worse
If I'm paid or I'm hurting in my pocket
She still got a nigga back, know that's for sure
No matter what may occur in life
Everyday with her is like a plus
I'mma love her til she be like that's enough
Pop a bottle get a couple wine glasses fill em up and lift em up
Let us toast to the future here's to us
No, here's to her


They wonder how we do what we do
Panamera Porsches me and you
Stuck to your side like like like glue
Be by your side whatever your gonna do


This is for the women who man caught a sentence
Who gon be there for a minute but they didn't keep their distance
They stayed home waiting on the phone
And on visit day show up looking good smelling better, playing kissy face
Just wanna let you know we appreciate(I appreciate you baby)
Everything you do for us on a day to day
And I know we don't show you all the time but we lucky that you ours
No bouquet of flowers could ever show how much we know we need you
We do all that's in our power just to please you
See boo, fuck them girls, I would leave the World 'fore I leave you
May God say even Eve and Adam ain't got shit on these two


Sure enough
Even though them chicks be hating on us
Still I'm gonna keep her by my side
In whatever situation we gon ride
Make all my fantasies come alive
That's no lie now
I’ll be, alright just as long as you beside me
10 million dollar mansions won't suffice
If you ain't gon be in there with me at night
The pieces to the puzzles in my life
With all of my good days and all of my bad
You stood by your man(stood by my man) and you know you got my back
Worth every car, every bag, with me they wanna be that
I know what I got at home
I ain't gon never leave that
Them bitches best believe that

Why is it all three of these things have affected my life in some way over the past couple weeks...kinda scary how shit goes down...I'm about ready to just kill over. Then again, I still have some shit to do before I throw in the towel. Give it a couple more weeks, then I'll say goodbye, :)

Sorry I haven't been doing much on this thing, I've been going through some things so I haven't had much time to be on here. :P Hope you guys can forgive me!

I hated to pop the bubble
Of me and you
But it only held enough oxygen
For a trip or two
To the moon and back again
Tell me, do you remember when
Our love had such grace
We were floating above this whole place

It's dawn on the corner
Where the city tests its squeaky breaks
Outside my bedroom window
A doppler muffler and a boomin bass
It's dawn and the snow
Is turning on its deepest blue
So I go outside just to stand there and
Look at my hands against the color
I find I always return to

I want you to always remember for me
Baby, if you can
How much you hated the woman
Who made you a man
And remember for me won't you
Back further before that
How you loved her like a boy
Cried from the joy
When you weren't laughing

No, I hated to pop the bubble
Of me and you
But it only held enough oxygen
For a trip or two
To the moon and back again
Do you remember when
Our love had such grace
We were floating above this whole place

So I hear these days you too
Are trying your hand at sleeplessness
A few more dizzying doppler lovers
And then a booming loneliness
How innocent the young student
On the day school has begun
When I said this was what I wanted
Did you think I thought it would be fun?

No, I hated to pop the bubble
Of me and you
But it only held enough oxygen
For a trip or two
To the moon and back again
Oh but I remember when
Our love had such grace
We were floating above this whole place

Tip-toein', comin' in late on the low
Knockin' shit over, smellin' like some random hoe
It's past 4 and you just now gettin' home
What you don't know is I'm not alone
Call me Goldie Locks 'cause somebody's been in your bed
In your sheets, in your legs, how you love that?
I can see you catchin' feelings gettin' mad
Like a chick, baby, where's your stacks

See, what you don't understand
Is I won't be hurt again
Won't ever let another come in and make me suffer
Baby, I'm cool on that
Baby, I'm numb inside
No matter how hard you fight
You ain't gon' ever win 'cause I'm the champion
So let the games begin (Oh, oh)

Don't think I'm gon' be sittin' 'round callin' you
Don't think I'm gon' be all up under you
I won't be fallin' through 'cause I be ballin' too
You think that I'm a fool, but you done met yo match

Don't think I'm gon' be sittin' 'round callin' you
Don't think I'm gon' be all up under you
I won't be fallin' through 'cause I be ballin' too
You think that I'm a fool, but you done met yo match

Walkin' 'round here wit' yo little ringtones
Different ones to identify certain broads
Couple of dirty broads, no tellin' where they from
But you think yo pimp game is strong
But see, your girl got different ones for every day of the week
They do laundry, fold clothes, whatever I need
So believe me when I say you can't offend me
I can barely remember your name

See, what you don't understand
Is I won't be hurt again
Won't ever let another come in and make me suffer
Baby, I'm cool on that
Baby, I'm numb inside
No matter how hard you fight
You ain't gon' ever win 'cause I'm the champion
So let the games begin (oh, oh)

Don't think I'm gon' be sittin' 'round callin' you
Don't think I'm gon' be all up under you
I won't be fallin' through 'cause I be ballin' too
You think that I'm a fool, but you done met yo match

Don't think I'm gon' be sittin' 'round callin' you
Don't think I'm gon' be all up under you
I won't be fallin' through 'cause I be ballin' too
You think that I'm a fool, but you done met yo match

Don't be cuddling next to me when we done
And don't ask me no questions like is you the only one
I know you got other chicks but I'm too cool to even trip
Quit actin' like you in love, boy you need to quit

Don't be cuddling next to me when we done
And don't ask me no questions like is you the only one
I know you got other chicks but I'm too cool to even trip
Quit actin' like you in love, boy you need to quit

Don't think I'm gon' be sittin' 'round callin' you
Don't think I'm gon' be all up under you
I won't be fallin' through 'cause I be ballin' too
You think that I'm a fool, but you done met yo match

Don't think I'm gon' be sittin' 'round callin' you
Don't think I'm gon' be all up under you
I won't be fallin' through 'cause I be ballin' too
You think that I'm a fool, but you done met yo match

Weather man said it’s gonna snow
By now I should be used to the cold
Mid-February shouldn’t be so scary
It was only December
I still remember the presents, the tree, you and me

But you went away
How dare you?
I miss you
They say I’ll be OK
But I’m not going to ever get over you

Living alone here in this place
I think of you, and I’m not afraid
Your favorite records make me feel better
Cause you sing along
With every song
I know you didn’t mean to give them to me

But you went away
How dare you?
I miss you
They say I’ll be OK
But I’m not going to ever get over you

It really sinks in, you know, when I see it in stone

Cause you went away,
How dare you?
I miss you
They say I’ll be OK
But I’m not going to ever get over you

Life knocked me off my platforms

So I pulled out my first pair of boots

Bought on the street at Astor place

Before New York was run by suits

And I suited up for the long walk

Back to myself closer to the ground now

With sorrow and stealth

Survey About Yourself
About You
Eye Color: Brown or white
Hair Color: Black
Height: 140
Favorite Color: green
Screen Name: Master-Loki
Favorite Band: Flogging Molly
Favorite Movie: Empire Records
Favorite Show: Bones
Your Car: I like to walk
Your Hometown: Billings
Your Present Town: Billings
Your Crushes First Name: Tanner...still >.< damnit
Your Grade: outta high school.
Your Style: Tree Hugger
Have You Ever
Sat on your rooftop? All the time
Kissed someone in the rain? Yes.
Danced in a public place? too many times
Smiled for no reason? yeah
Laughed so hard you cried? for sure
Peed your pants after age 8? nope
Written a song? nope
Sang to someone for no reason? sure!
Performed on a stage? yuppers
Talked to someone you don't know? all the time.
Gone out of your way to befriend someone? yup
Made out in a theatre? nope
Gone roller skating since 8th grade? yes
Been in love? ...
Who was the last person to
Say HI to you? My boo
Tell you, I love you? my santi
Kiss you? Tanner
Hug you? Lilly
Tell you BYE? my brother
Write you a note?
Take your photo? no idea
Call your cell phone? Pierre
Buy you something? cant remember
Go with you to the movies? My grandma
Sing to you? my brother
Write a poem about you? no one haha
Text message you? Lilly
Touch you? my doctor
What's the last
Time you laughed? a couple of minutes ago.
Time you cried? a day ago.
Movie you watched? Bad Teacher
Joke you told? dont know
Song you've sang? Down on Me
Time you've looked at the clock? just now
Drink you've had? water
Number you've dialed? my mom
Book you've read? Red Queen
Food you've eaten? didnt eat anything for a couple days
Flavor of gum chewed? apple
Shoes you've worn? no shoes ewwww
Store you've been in? my own store
Thing you've said? "what the fuck?"
Can You
Write with both hands? yup
Whistle? yup
Blow a bubble? yup
Roll your tounge in a circle? no
Cross your eyes? yes
Touch your tounge to your nose? no
Dance? yes
Gleek? no
Stay up a whole night without sleep? yes
Speak a different language? yes
Impersonate someone? yes
Prank call people? yes
Make a card pyramid? yes
Cook anything? yes
Finish The Line
If i were a ... boy I'd have a penis
I wish ... I wasn't so sad
So many people don't know that ... I think about the same thing all the time.
I am ... sick.
My heart is ... pretty much broken.

Top ten songs that describe who you are...put you're Ipod on shuffle and see what you get.

1. 500 Miles- Less Than Jake (I don't think I'd walk 500 miles for someone, I'll drive or fly though)

2. Hit'n'Run- Horrorpops (<3)

3. Good Luck- Ani Difranco

4. Fur Elise- Beethoven

5. Evening Sun- The Strokes

6. Dante's Prayer- Loreena McKennitt

7. All I Had- J.Lo ft. L.L Cool J (I'll love my Ipod)

8. Sunday Hardcore Matinee- Dropkick Murphys

9. Zoo- Ani Difranco

10. Seven Nation Army- White Stripes

<3 <3 <3

Give me your answers, and your body!

1) Would you sex me!?

2) Have you thought about it before?

3) Where would we do it?

4) Top or Bottom?

5) How many times?

6) Position(s)?

7) rough or soft???

8) Lots of foreplay?

9) more than one person?

10) what do you think it will be like when you do?


Stole this from , and answer truthfully, who knows how hard I'll laugh at this.

You know what's funny...thinking that just because someone is single again there free meat. Makes me laugh how hard people try to get in my pants after one conversation with them. o.o Flattering as it may be I'm not ready for another person to come and screw up my perfectly good cycle. :P Look, it's simple, if I wanna fuck you I'll just ask, a simple "Hey, wanna fuck?" and that's it! Simple, easy, to the point. BUT! Don't get it twisted, I'm not easy. Just tryin' to have some fun before I lose my mind or die of an infection. HURRAY TO THE PEOPLE WHO JUST WANNA HAVE FUN!

I'm out.

Things I use to get better.

1. Tea

2. Books

3. Fruit

4. Movies

5. My stuffed animals

6. My blanket

7. Texts from my snags (aka boytoys)

8. My brothers

9. White candles (healing candle)

10. Baths

I think It's time I go home now....

You can learn a lot about someone by the music they listen too. Hit shuffle on your ipod or mp3 player and write down the first 20 songs. No cheating or skipping songs that are shameful. that is the fun.

1. Skate In Heaven- ?

2. Two Outta Three Ain't Bad- Meatloaf

3. Spill The Wine- Eric Burdon And War

4. Good Rats- Dropkick Murphys

5. Perfect Stranger- Droopkick Murphys

6. Medley: Hannigan's Hooley/ McNamara's Band/ Humour Is on Me...- Sean O'Neill

7. Celtic Mist- Christopher Franke

8. Out of Range- Ani Difranco

9. Akimbo- Ani Difranco

10. Skinhead On The Mbta- Dropkick Murphys

11. Half-Assed- Ani Difranco

12. Callous- Ani Difranco

13. We Both Reached for the Gun- Richard Gere, Various

14. 2 Little Girls- Ani Difranco

15. Property- Say Anything

16. The Old Ways- Loreena McKennitt

17. We Will Fall Together- Streetlight Manifesto

18. The End of the Act- Trey Parker and Matt Stone

19. Suicide and Other Comforts- Cradle of Filth

20. One Night Only- Jennifer Hudson

how can I go home
with nothing to say
I know you're going to look at me that way
and say what did you do out there
and what did you decide
you said you needed time
and you had time

you are a china shop
and I am a bull
you are really good food
and I am full
I guess everything is timing
I guess everything's been said
so I am coming home with an empty head

you'll say did they love you or what
I'll say they love what I do
the only one who really loves me is you
and you'll say girl did you kick some butt
and I'll say I don't really remember
but my fingers are sore
and my voice is too

you'll say it's really good to see you
you'll say I missed you horribly
you'll say let me carry that
give that to me
and you will take the heavy stuff
and you will drive the car
and I'll look out the window making jokes
about the way things are

how can I go home
with nothing to say
I know you're going to look at me that way
and say what did you do out there
and what did you decide
you said you needed time
and you had time