I won't be using this account to post anymore, instead, i will be using this one:

http://www.furaffinity.net/user/kingchaserbear/

If you'd like to keep up with me you can always message me or watch me, it would be greatly appreciated.
Goodbye and goodnight all, I hope to see you all again:]

..that I feel like dying..

I'm tired of this.. Everything.. I can't break this cloud over my head.. I don't know what to do anymore.. I don't ever just say I give up.

But I can't do anything else.

I wish you were here. Maybe if you were you could talk me down

But you're gone, and I don't know where you left to

I never even got to tell you I loved you..
I wish I could hear your voice, because without it

This silence is deafening.

Sorry that I haven't been on in a while. I know it probably wasn't a big loss that I wasn't anyway. I've had alot happen in the past while. I'll fill everyone in on the details later. But I'm still alive. Barely. But still. I <3 all u furs ;)

I've been away from my CPU for a while now and I wish I wasn't. There's so much Ive been wanting to do on here. I'm on my iPod right now and I can't very well post and upload thru it. So my activity may be scarce. I just rlly wish I could be on more. I miss all of u :( well until next time....

Appearance:
[ ] = You have blue/green eyes.
[ ] = You blush a lot.
[x] = You giggle.
[x] = You're quiet.
[x] = You say random silly things.
[x] = You have a baby face.
[x] = You wear a more down to earth style of clothing.
[x] = You don't wear halter tops or anything to showy.
[ ] = You're under 5 feet 6 inches tall.

TOTAL SO FAR: 6

Innocence:
[ ] = You're a virgin.
[x] = Just thinking of sexual things makes you blush.
[x] = Your idea of a date is really romantic.
[ ] = You sleep with a stuffed animal.
[x] = You like to cuddle.
[x] = You've never played the Nervous game.
[x] = You don't even know what the nervous game is.

TOTAL SO FAR: 11

Colors:
[ ] = You like the color pink/light blue.
[ ] = You tend to wear bright/girly colors.

TOTAL SO FAR: 11

Personality:
[x] = You can be ignorant/oblivious.
[x] = You'd consider yourself shy.
[x] = You like happy upbeat music.
[x] = You like "Cutesy" music.

TOTAL SO FAR: 15

What YOU think is cute:
[x] = You like small animals
[x] = You like babies a lot.
[x] = Small/mini versions of things make you go Aww

TOTAL: 18

Multiply how many you got by 4
Repost as: "I'm __% Cute"

I told her how i felt, not Sydney, Zoey

I couldnt be happier :)

Someday youll be my wife, I'm certain of it, even if you are far away

I Love You Zoey :)

Gonna start working on my fursona.

Hopefully will get posted soon

Just a quick update:P

I don't understand a damn thing anymore, I'm doing my best in life, but i dont ever get to really by happy, Sydney's parents said im not allowed to date her anymore, I'm just depressed as fuck now. I was finally happy and even then that didnt last, At least i always have you guys, I love being a furry, becuz at least then i have a couple people that like me no matter what. I just dont get why i cant be happy, Its like im paying for something ive done, like i dont deserve to be happy, I'm as normal as any other person out there (in my own little way) so why shouldnt i be able to enjoy some happiness every once in a while? fuck it, I dont know what to do anymore, I'll just wait until Sydneys parents will let me date her again, I'm in love with her, And i always will be, so until then i guess i can just try to hold myself together

Well i guess thats all i have to say about my life anymore, I'm just depressed, I cant take much more.

Thanks for reading i guess....

Summer just brings the greatest changes dosent it? I've taken on my new fursona as Chaser Bear (A nickname that Sydney gave me) so i guess im a bear. (Details later)

Just to clear up a few things, YES I AM IN A NEW RELATIONSHIP!!!!!

EX - Mimi: never felt appreciated with, she was always mad at me, she never said a nice thing about me or demonstrated that she cared at all.

Sydney: We've only been together 3 days and I'm already happier than i ever was with mimi, is this how it feels for your mate to care about you? cuz its a great feeling :D

Anyway, I'm happy, happier than i rlly thought i ever could be, I may be sick with a summer cold, but i still manage to get up and sing out of happiness and talk to her as often as i possibly can, Can't wait for skool to start, then i get to see her every day :) im so excited

Everyone I talked to keeps saying we are absolutley perfect for each other :))))) I couldnt agree more:D

Well, yeah, this is basically a rant about my life in general lately, so yup, Im a happy lil bear

I drew Sydney's fursona (A liger) its around here somewhere, idk, ill find it sometime soon

Until then i should get to work on my own, Idk, I may be a pokemon bear, like maybe a Teddiursa or an Ursaring, I love that idea, I'd make a great Teddiursa :D

Maybe some special markings and a color change, ya never know what goes on in my head, completely depends on my mood, owel, I should get to work soon, ill post more details as soon as possible, But i rlly do like the teddiursa idea, i think it would be great, we'll see.

Until next time fellow furs, :D

"I'm so fucking crazy, I'm surprised they let me outta my straight jacket." - Me (of course)

Chose the absolute worst time to try and make a new account.

Just gonna stick with this one. Not gonna delete it.

False alarm everyone.

I should be posting some new artwork soon if i can get a decent camera to take pictures of it. until then idk when i will.

Till next time............

well im back, for a little while anyway, i plan on deleting this account and starting fresh with new ideas and a better overall gameplan, skools out so i have alot of free time nowadays to pursue my furry adventures :3

Dont be sad everyone, i will still have an account here and i will still be your friend no matter what, if you are on my watch list and you are afraid of losing my watch then just post a comment saying so and on my new account i will watch you right away

The reasons behind this:
there are some things on this account that remind me of days forgotten, that remind me of things i wish to forget, for instance my terribly long-lasted crush on sydney who ended up not being the person i thought she was, as well as my constant talk of depression and suicide, memories are carved in stone here and alot of them i wish to just forget, the best way of doing so is to destroy all contact with those memories, better and happier memories are taking place and i would rather look to the future than the past

Think of this as a baby phoenix rising from the ashes of where it had fallen, becoming stronger and more powerful as it was reborn, this is my fall and rebirth.

So i apologize to all of you that have favorited, commented, watched, or friended me on this account, i will not be active much longer, tho i want you all to remember that i still love you all,

Once i am able to create a new account this account will be erased, remember to leave a comment on this journal if you want to be immediatly added to my new watch list, i will only be able to watch you if you tell me so

Well,
Goodbye cruel world
I'm leavin' here today,
Goodbye, goodbye, goodbye......
Goodbye, all you people
Theres nothing you can say,
To make me change my mind
Goodbye..................

Sincerely, Chase Alexander Barron (Stay Furry my Friends)

my computers being repaired at the moment (im on my cells mobile web.) i might as well do some more artwork. yeah. i might as well. im gonna do my first ever M/F yiff art. so be prepared :D

my computer wont let me upload to the internet. i have all requests finished but i cant upload them!!!!!

ill work on it as much as i can.

ill have to postpone all requests till next week

but dont worry i havent forgotten about you all

just request something, ill say wether or not i can do it.

Plz request all requests are completely free ^-^

Just got a twitter account, so if you feel like it....and i never thought I'd say this.....

FOLLOW ME ON TWITTER: http://twitter.com/ChaseBarron

Just to keep myself on track ^-^

Finish my two sketches (Mystery gift-art sketch, New female character sketch)

Upload my decorated swastika

Post my 3rd journal

Update my avatar pic/Upload a new pic of myself

Post my S.O.A.D. bass cover link

Post my brutal Rock Band session to Youtube then to FA

Get drunk and haz sex with everyone (Girls only, Sorry, well maybe...)

2nd journal entry, kinda short, read it or not

Ok ive made up my mind. Im going to tell Sydney how i feel about her. Im tired of this lonelyness and im tired of wallowing in my own self pity. I need to man up. and think about some things. I wonder if she thinks about me. We txt hang out alot. I even made it clear that i wanted to be with her when I went to the mall with only her and Maddi. Josh told me my only chance is to tell her how i feel and tell her what i think of her Bf. but im way too much of a coward to do it to her straight. i might leave her a note or something right before 6th period. Im always down there with her then. maybe i could just leave it with her and just go to my class. then she would have time to think on it through the entire class period. yeah i think thats what ill do. It sounds like i got a plan then. But wait what about the Val. Day dance? should i ask her to go with me? idk its so very confusing. i really dont wanna go at all. i hate dances. Well ill have to think on it some more. im really done here. nothing more to say. i guess we'll just have to see how this plays out.

P.S. glad i started doing this again. it lets me bleed my feelings onto the paper instead of my blood onto the floor. It definatly helps me.

This is a Journal entry in my physical journal I always keep with me. Read it or not i don't really care. Maybe I'll post my day-to-day Journals, If i feel like it. Its not like anyone really cares right?

Hmmm...maybe its time I start back on this Journal thing. Its been a long time since I've Written anything. Well, Its study hall. Not much to do in study hall. Its so boring and Quiet in here. Way too fucking quiet. I hate it. I hate myself too. How could I have been so stupid, I had everything and lost it all in the blink of an eye. Some stupid fucking Prep kid came up to me and asked to see my wrists. So what if i have a few cuts no big deal right? then he asked me if i ever wanted to kill myself. I said no but that only made him pry more. It pissed me off so much. I should've hit him. i really really should've. Maybe then they wouldn't fuck with me and my friends all the time because of the way we look. maybe they would just leave us the Fuck alone. GOD DAMMIT I HATE THEM SO MUCH!!!! Im gonna get into a fight soon i just know it. im tired of being pushed around and manipulated. I feel really Unstable lately. Like im just gonna freak out on all my friends if they come near me. Idk maybe it has something to do with Sydney. I gotta stop thinking about her. All i do is think about her. Always. Her old Ex she broke up with me scares me. He's a freak reject an he really should just kill himself. Nah I dont mean that i'm just speaking outta hurt feelings. I'll get over it. I hope. At least we're still great friends. I just can't shake that feeling of Joy and sorrow whenever i see her. Well Watevr..... She's happy now thats all that matters. Ill still flirt with her everyday like i always do. She can't stop that. Can she????? I hate Love.....But i crave it more and more each day. Not just lust but Love. an undeniable sense of joy and pleasure that can only be felt by the human soul. Which can only be described as that butterflys in your stomach feeling. Oh well I still Hate it. well maybe not hate but still, strong strong dislike. I'm so depressed. I can't Eat, or sleep or play my guitar anymore. I'm almost ready to just give up on life, to stop caring completly so that maybe I won't be hurt as much. I hope that Huge Red line on my neck is still there. It's kinda symbolic i think. it pretty much shows what i feel all the time. I can see now why that stupid prep wanted to know if i wanted to kill myself. Idk wat to do anymore. Life sux. Love Sux. Hate sux. I cant take it anymore. Im not gonna care anymore. Im just not. I Might start back on drinking again, or pills. Anything to make me Numb.....I mean really would anyone care if i just fucking stopped existing? would they think twice about me? probably not. noone cares about me or my emotions. at least Jarrett stood with me through the tough times with my family. And Josh, well, hes helped me through my sorrows many times. Theyre good friends to have. I love them so much. Well im not writing anymore. if i do ill just start crying in study hall. i dont want that. I'm not gonna read ovr this again because i'll start to cry. Well ill write somemore later i guess

If you read this through until the end congratulations, You now know my inner workings and thoughts. You kinda know me now.

wont be on FA for a while. ill explain later. ive got alot going on....

Artwork, stories and pictures I'm actually proud of:
Fursona colored version: http://www.furaffinity.net/view/2382642/
Hello my name is...: http://www.furaffinity.net/view/2417836/
Micheal Jackson Tribute: http://www.furaffinity.net/view/2454396/
My Metallica Case: http://www.furaffinity.net/view/2633858/
Jasmine: http://www.furaffinity.net/view/2858095/
Cold as Ice: http://www.furaffinity.net/view/2926205/
Umbreon: http://www.furaffinity.net/view/2929860/
Fursona Finished sketch: http://www.furaffinity.net/view/3055770/
Lopunny: http://www.furaffinity.net/view/3127888/
Conor the Raccoon: http://www.furaffinity.net/view/3180951/
PWNED BITCH!!!!: http://www.furaffinity.net/view/3282461/
M.L.W.B.P.I.I.S.A.F.B.: http://www.furaffinity.net/view/3282505/
Can we Cuddle?: http://www.furaffinity.net/view/3283212/
The Discovery Part I Chapter 1-4: http://www.furaffinity.net/view/3267897/
The Discovery Part II Chapter 5-9: http://www.furaffinity.net/view/3271741/

Journals I Like or felt needed to be made:
Brand New Bassist ^^: http://www.furaffinity.net/journal/961693/
Life in general: http://www.furaffinity.net/journal/1041899/
whats a fur to do?: http://www.furaffinity.net/journal/1138671/
Awaiting launch: http://www.furaffinity.net/journal/1146163/
Dreaming of Screaming....: http://www.furaffinity.net/journal/1150142/

People I'm glad i met:
violettiger: http://www.furaffinity.net/user/violettiger/
conor-the-raccoon: http://www.furaffinity.net/user/conor-the-raccoon/
(Try hard enough and you may get on this list.)

Best Friends in RL:
Josh
Jarrett
Jared
Nick
Brett
Reed
Ryan
Jennifer
Maddi
Sydney
Zoey
Duncan
Tyler
Bevin
Skater guy a.k.a. J.J. lolz
That one black guy that tried to sell me pot

Favorite Bands:
Metallica
System of a Down
The Beatles
Rush
Pink Floyd
Slipknot
Fear the Aftermath
Asking Alexandria
Tenacious D
Korn
Children of Bodom
DethKlok

Strangest things I've done lately:
1. Gave a dollar to a random guy just to give him a handshake
2. Stopped smoking (Yayz for me)
3. Wrote an entire poem about peace and then deleted it
4. Drawn at least three different versions of all my recent artwork
5. Started using Mhm in texts
6. Got depressed and bleed my feelings onto paper. (Soon turned into the jounal Dreaming of Screaming....)
7. Broke a wall in a fit of rage
8. Hibernated for a whole day.
9. fought a guy that said furries are sick human beings
10. made this strange Bio/List thingy

Well its been good reflecting i need to do this more often

....Someone kick me out of my mind
I hate these thoughts I can’t deny....

Everything's so different now. Friends cheat, people lie, steal, and hurt others they once loved more than anyone. Feeling of sadness and grief towards others and lost loved ones. Suicide, fear, and hatred overwhelm and soon will consume. The nightmare we have always feared is coming, and is coming fast. Nothing can be done to stop it now, and nothing ever will be done. We fight against those that step in our way and prey on the weak and the helpless. So in a way we are no better than anyone else and never will be. The greed and selfishness of the masses has completely killed off any Kind-Hearted souls that still wander. Depression soon will fill the hearts of those who have nothing. And it will feed upon those that have more.
Nothing will be left. Nothing can be left...

And that, is my view on life. Like it or not its my opinion

Story part I revamped has been put out there for the world to read. but sadly it hasn't had nearly as many views as i would have hoped. I'm going to submit my next part Chapters 5-9 Part II tomorrow at 1:00 (My time) which is exactly 11 hours and 35 minutes from now. I'm only posting this journal to help keep myself on task and in a routine.

I've slowly lost my ability to draw and my ability to write has really gone up, like majorly up. i really don't like this at all but i guess, for the time being, i'll just have to go with it. Expect more writing and less art. Seriously hope this changes for the better.

well its official im gonna start on some nice little christmas fursona art for myself. as for my friend Conor don't worry i haven't forgotten about you ive just been extra busy since its christmas time. anyone else want me to do theyre fursona note me about wat u want. its a no cost deal so feel free to request (probably wont get any requests anyway but oh well its worth putting out there) I just wanted to make this journal to show that im still alive and well so bye all and merry christmas ^-^