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Posted 15 years agoIm moving my account to a new page. I will no longer be checking this account. please go to 
tonare to post any shouts or messages and watch me!!
tonare to post any shouts or messages and watch me!! Week 2
Posted 15 years agoWoo we won again. So my team is 2-0. Seasons lookin good. However, the end of the game was the most incredible thing I've ever seen. At the end, after we all shook hands, the other team asked us to do something I've never seen in my entire career in highschool football. They asked us to pray with them. So there we were, both teams in the middle of the field giving thanks to god for the game and dedicating it to Him. What an honor that was.. I can't get over how incredibly amazing it was to take part in that. What an honor.
Success
Posted 15 years agoHey all. I'm home from surgery. It went fine and I'm doing fine. I'm pretty loopy and sleepy. Now begins the long process of rehab. Thanks for all your support everyone.
Anyone got any niquil? (plus updates and a little drama)
Posted 15 years agoOk so sleeping is impossible right now so yay!!! A new journal. Surgery is tomorrow (obviously why I can't sleep). Kinda nervous but not really. It's not fun goin under cuz like, you don't know what happens and all of a sudden you're lying in a bed and it's already over. It's just an eerie feeling. Worst part is I won't be able to pawoff for like a week cuz I can't get off the couch -_- lol.
Anyway the tv shows on at 3 in the morning are... Interesting to say the least. ^^; guess it's better than nothin. It's not like I'd be able to sleep anyway.
I'm gonna work on college fun stuffs while I'm laid up for a week. Any helpful tips would be greatly appreciated. It's a choice between two colleges At this point (that is if I don't decide to change my major to somethin in the medicinal field <--- long story). Needs lotsa scholarships otherwise I'll have to go to a local junior college first and I want outta this place like now!
Wish I could eat right now. I'm freakin starving! >.< stupid "no food or drinks after midnight before surgery" rule. I'm sure if I was able to eat somethin I'd fall asleep.
You know what else sucks? Being confused about myself again. Leads for a stressful life ya know? Don't be indecisive like me. If you're gay then accept it and live that life happily. Don't be me and wonder if you're doin the right thing, or if you're missing opportunities, or whatever else my mind won't leave me alone about. Maybe I should quit over analyzing things and just choose. Were it so easy.
Anyway enough melodrama imma try to sleep again. Heh cya all later. I'll be around more frequently for the next few days so hit me up on msn.
Anyway the tv shows on at 3 in the morning are... Interesting to say the least. ^^; guess it's better than nothin. It's not like I'd be able to sleep anyway.
I'm gonna work on college fun stuffs while I'm laid up for a week. Any helpful tips would be greatly appreciated. It's a choice between two colleges At this point (that is if I don't decide to change my major to somethin in the medicinal field <--- long story). Needs lotsa scholarships otherwise I'll have to go to a local junior college first and I want outta this place like now!
Wish I could eat right now. I'm freakin starving! >.< stupid "no food or drinks after midnight before surgery" rule. I'm sure if I was able to eat somethin I'd fall asleep.
You know what else sucks? Being confused about myself again. Leads for a stressful life ya know? Don't be indecisive like me. If you're gay then accept it and live that life happily. Don't be me and wonder if you're doin the right thing, or if you're missing opportunities, or whatever else my mind won't leave me alone about. Maybe I should quit over analyzing things and just choose. Were it so easy.
Anyway enough melodrama imma try to sleep again. Heh cya all later. I'll be around more frequently for the next few days so hit me up on msn.
Damn knee update #2
Posted 15 years agoSurgery this wednesday. YAAAAY!!! I get to be in Oxycotton and vikaden again!!!! Then six months of rehab after the surgery.
On a noter note, my team won the first game of the year last night. 55 to 6. We gonna dominate.
On a noter note, my team won the first game of the year last night. 55 to 6. We gonna dominate.
Damn knee update
Posted 15 years agoOk so saw the surgeon the other day and he's 100% sure I tore my ACL lol. So I Gots an MRI tuesday and then surgery possibly as soon as next week. Lol just my luck haha Oh well tho xP no big deal hehe
Damn knee
Posted 15 years agoOk so remember how I tore my ACL in football last year? Started on offense and defense, tore it in the first play of the first game. Blah blah blah. Well guess what happened yesterday at practice? I potentially tore my ACL and PCL in my other knee. So ya after weeks of preparation and lifting and practice, BLAM!! down the hole it goes again. So I'm Layin on the couch, my leg propped up and playin sone reagae on me old guitar lol. Here we go again
Dear sun
Posted 15 years agoI don't like you, you burn my skin. It hurts, oh and now you make it fall off.. Skin isn't supposed to fall off. Stupid mean sun burning my skin and making it fall off. I don't like you.
Completely random but, I felt silly so I posted something dumb.. XDDD I'm completely and totally insane!!!!!?!:9/""&;$(290-@39&($(&@l@@394@;&(!:@@291@
Completely random but, I felt silly so I posted something dumb.. XDDD I'm completely and totally insane!!!!!?!:9/""&;$(290-@39&($(&@l@@394@;&(!:@@291@
Pathetic Journal Alert!! Dont read me..
Posted 15 years agothe only reason im writing this on here is because i think ill feel better if i write stuff down will make me feel better. So reading this isnt really necessary.
Anyway just thought id write down what ive been feeling lately. I guess the biggest feeling is that, i feel empty, like this inate part of me just got ripped out and is a million miles away from me. i still have all this love for him dying to get out of me, but if seems like it stops at this brick wall the moment it leaves my body.
its weird... i never expected that i could be this crushed by a break up before. i never would have expected id be this torn. i guess its because theres still a chance for us to be together again, because he still loves me, and obviously i still love him. but.. i just dont know.
my mind is blurr. ill just be going along throughout the day and then something will make me think about him. even something as simple as a car ride, or just lying on the couch. seems like everything i do makes me think about him. i dont want this to go away.. especially since theres still a chance.. allbeit small but its still there.
i hope im not obsessing, i should think not. i mean i love him. with every part of me. wouldnt you think that someone would do anything for someone they love? maybe my mind is in shambles. i dont know.. i dont know what to think much these days..
Future note... probably gonna be more of thses journals later on
Anyway just thought id write down what ive been feeling lately. I guess the biggest feeling is that, i feel empty, like this inate part of me just got ripped out and is a million miles away from me. i still have all this love for him dying to get out of me, but if seems like it stops at this brick wall the moment it leaves my body.
its weird... i never expected that i could be this crushed by a break up before. i never would have expected id be this torn. i guess its because theres still a chance for us to be together again, because he still loves me, and obviously i still love him. but.. i just dont know.
my mind is blurr. ill just be going along throughout the day and then something will make me think about him. even something as simple as a car ride, or just lying on the couch. seems like everything i do makes me think about him. i dont want this to go away.. especially since theres still a chance.. allbeit small but its still there.
i hope im not obsessing, i should think not. i mean i love him. with every part of me. wouldnt you think that someone would do anything for someone they love? maybe my mind is in shambles. i dont know.. i dont know what to think much these days..
Future note... probably gonna be more of thses journals later on
It's over
Posted 15 years agoAfter a wonderful 4 months... Fulgur 
and I are no longer together. He broke up with me last night... Very suddenly and most unexpectedly. Don't really wanna talk about it.. I miss him already.... And I feel alone. My mind is crazy and I'm confused about alot of stuff.... So don't message me or ask me what happened, don't want to talk about it. Just know it's over... maybe it'll come back, i dunno. sure seems like the end
and I are no longer together. He broke up with me last night... Very suddenly and most unexpectedly. Don't really wanna talk about it.. I miss him already.... And I feel alone. My mind is crazy and I'm confused about alot of stuff.... So don't message me or ask me what happened, don't want to talk about it. Just know it's over... maybe it'll come back, i dunno. sure seems like the endI lol'd
Posted 15 years agoSo I decided to go take a look at godhatesfags.com today, and literally as soon as the page loaded I started laughing. These people are a joke haha. I love it. They blame the war in Iraq on gays?? WTF HAHAHAHAHA Anyway that is all. I got a good laugh Oh and I love how they say they do peaceful protests, what a joke.
Converts! And updates :3
Posted 15 years agoYou know what's fun? Converting people to the fandom hehe.
Now for updates:
schools out WOO!!
Got a 27 on my ACT WOO!!
Got accepted into a graphic design course at a local college for a duel credit course WOO!!!
starting to work.... Antiwoo!!
Turning 18 soon Omg... I'm so old
started watchin a new (for me) anime series onmyou taisenki Its pretty good :3
Fulgur and I are at three and a half months now :3
and now.... I'm bored- that's all!!
Now for updates:
schools out WOO!!
Got a 27 on my ACT WOO!!
Got accepted into a graphic design course at a local college for a duel credit course WOO!!!
starting to work.... Antiwoo!!
Turning 18 soon Omg... I'm so old
started watchin a new (for me) anime series onmyou taisenki Its pretty good :3
Fulgur and I are at three and a half months now :3
and now.... I'm bored- that's all!!
Updates
Posted 15 years agoI updated my FA page a bit and changed my Sona name (again hehe)
Its Tonare (or Tono) either one works and imma make a new page soon and kinda clean up some stuffs on here (that is when they decide to fix the new registry page)
anyhoo thought id let you know whats up forizzle
-Tonare
Its Tonare (or Tono) either one works and imma make a new page soon and kinda clean up some stuffs on here (that is when they decide to fix the new registry page)
anyhoo thought id let you know whats up forizzle
-Tonare
Stolen from Ace XD
Posted 15 years agoMale Side: (the better one anyway)
[x] You love hoodies.
[x] You love jeans.
[X] Dogs are better than cats
[x] It's hilarious when people get hurt.
[x] You've played with/against boys on a team.
[ ] Shopping is torture!
[x] Sad movies suck...
[x] You own an X-Box.
[x] Played with Hotwheels cars as a kid.
[ ] At some point in time you wanted to be a firefighter.
[ ] You used to be obsessed with Power Rangers.
[x] You watch sports on TV.
[x] Gory movies are cool
[ ] You go to your dad for advice.
[x] You own, like, a trillion baseball caps.
[x] You like going to football games.
[x] You used to/do collect baseball cards.
[x] Baggy pants are cool to wear.
[x] It's kind of weird to have sleepovers with a bunch of people.
[x] Green, black, red, blue, or silver are one of your favorite colors. (REDish!!!!!)
[x] You love to go crazy and not care what people think.
[x] Sports are fun.
[x] Talk with food in your mouth.
[x] Wear boxers. ( *smirks* When I do wear underwear)
Male Points Total= 20 HA!!! Win
Female side:
[ ] You wear lip gloss.
[x] You love to shop
[ ] You wear eyeliner.
[x] You have some of the same shirts in different colors.
[ ] You wear the color pink.
[x] Go to your mom for advice.
[x] You consider cheerleading a sport.
[ ] You hate wearing the color black.
[x] You like hanging out at the mall.
[ ] You like getting manicures and/or pedicures.
[x] You like wearing jewelry.
[ ] Skirts are a big part of your wardrobe.
[x] Shopping is one of your favorite hobbies.
[x] You don't like the movie Star Wars.
[ ] You are/were in cheerleading, gymnastics or dance.
[x] It takes you around 1 hour to shower, get dressed, and put on make-up and accessories. (only cuz I'm a bum lol)
[x] You smile a lot more than you should.
[x] You have more than 10 pairs of shoes.
[x] You care about what you look like.
[ ] You like wearing dresses when you can.
[x] You like wearing body spray/perfume/cologne
[ ] You wear girl underwear.
[ ] Used to play with dolls as little kid.
[ ] Like putting make-up on someone else for the joy of it.
[x] Like taking pictures of yourself with your cell phone/camera when you're bored.
Female Points Total= 13
Haha yea big shocker there
[x] You love hoodies.
[x] You love jeans.
[X] Dogs are better than cats
[x] It's hilarious when people get hurt.
[x] You've played with/against boys on a team.
[ ] Shopping is torture!
[x] Sad movies suck...
[x] You own an X-Box.
[x] Played with Hotwheels cars as a kid.
[ ] At some point in time you wanted to be a firefighter.
[ ] You used to be obsessed with Power Rangers.
[x] You watch sports on TV.
[x] Gory movies are cool
[ ] You go to your dad for advice.
[x] You own, like, a trillion baseball caps.
[x] You like going to football games.
[x] You used to/do collect baseball cards.
[x] Baggy pants are cool to wear.
[x] It's kind of weird to have sleepovers with a bunch of people.
[x] Green, black, red, blue, or silver are one of your favorite colors. (REDish!!!!!)
[x] You love to go crazy and not care what people think.
[x] Sports are fun.
[x] Talk with food in your mouth.
[x] Wear boxers. ( *smirks* When I do wear underwear)
Male Points Total= 20 HA!!! Win
Female side:
[ ] You wear lip gloss.
[x] You love to shop
[ ] You wear eyeliner.
[x] You have some of the same shirts in different colors.
[ ] You wear the color pink.
[x] Go to your mom for advice.
[x] You consider cheerleading a sport.
[ ] You hate wearing the color black.
[x] You like hanging out at the mall.
[ ] You like getting manicures and/or pedicures.
[x] You like wearing jewelry.
[ ] Skirts are a big part of your wardrobe.
[x] Shopping is one of your favorite hobbies.
[x] You don't like the movie Star Wars.
[ ] You are/were in cheerleading, gymnastics or dance.
[x] It takes you around 1 hour to shower, get dressed, and put on make-up and accessories. (only cuz I'm a bum lol)
[x] You smile a lot more than you should.
[x] You have more than 10 pairs of shoes.
[x] You care about what you look like.
[ ] You like wearing dresses when you can.
[x] You like wearing body spray/perfume/cologne
[ ] You wear girl underwear.
[ ] Used to play with dolls as little kid.
[ ] Like putting make-up on someone else for the joy of it.
[x] Like taking pictures of yourself with your cell phone/camera when you're bored.
Female Points Total= 13
Haha yea big shocker there
Dangit.... Tagged >.<
Posted 15 years ago1.This survey gets a little personal; can you handle it?
Can you? O.o
2. If you married the last person you texted, what would your last name be?
Post :3
3. Were you happy when you woke up today?
God no.... Mornings suck and I was late to school... Again
4. When were you on the phone last? And with who?
The 18th and with Fulgur ^.^
5. What are you excited for?
lotsa things... Meeting fulgur this summer... Three art classes next year... Makin lotsa money
7. Honestly, who was the last person to tell you they love you?
Fulgur ^.^ d=^.^z
8. What's the last thing you put in your mouth?
Dr. Pepper o.o
9. Have a best friend?
Yush one
10. Are you scared to fall in love?
Sometimes... But not now cuz I ish in love
11. Do you think teenagers can be in love?
Some but not all....
12. Last person you wanted to punch in the face?
The basketball coach/PE teacher FUCKER!!!!!!
13. What time is it right this second?
10:11 pm
14. What do you want right now?
To be with my lover
15. Who was the last person you took a picture with?
Hmmm... Kiara I thinks...
16. Are you single/taken/heartbroken/or confused?
Happily taken
17. When was the last time you cried?
Last Wednesday... Got booted offa the worship band at church... Look at my journals...
18. Do you have a good relationship with your parents?
Mom and step dad yes.... Real dad and step mom no...
19. Do you find it hard to trust others?
The first time no... But if they lose it very very hard
20. How fast does your mind change?
Depends on what is changing...
21. I bet you miss somebody right now.
Fulgur......
22. Can you honestly say you're okay right now?
Oh yea definitely
23. Why do you think so many people cheat?
Cuz it makes life so much easier... Sometimes... Like winning the lottery.. Sorta
24. Tell me what's on your mind?
Lol Fulgur of course... And wishing to be back on the worship band... And assassins creed 2 lol
25. What are you looking forward to in the next three months?
School ending and getting subs in my car :3
26. Have you ever worn the opposite sex's clothing?
Hahaha yes... I even have pictures lol
27. When did you last talk to your number 1 top friend?
Today at school lol
28. When is your next road trip?
I dunno... We usually fly Hopefully it's Ireland this year
29. Do you have someone of the opposite sex you can tell anything to?
Yup! My best friend
30. How's your heart?
Drowned in love and is ticking away happily :3
31. Have you ever felt like you weren't important?
Not to my family and a few good friends and my love of course... But to others... I feel like a complete waste
32. Do you think somebody's in love with you?
Durpy durp
> Fulgur!!
33. What are you planning on doing after this?
Do a devotional and play some assassins creed
34. Next time you will kiss someone?
.... Sometime this summer hopefully...
35. Have you told anybody you loved them today?
Omg yes... Fulgur!
36. Who do you not get along with?
A few people...
37. What does you 3rd recent text say?
Recieved: "so *sigh* yea can we move on from this subject... It really gets me down"
Sent:"will you at least be able to text from school?"
38. What are you wearing right now?
Uh.... *ahem*
39. You're locked in a room with the person you last kissed, how is it?
Just fine... She and I are best friends
40. When's the last time you had a grilled cheese?
Like six months ago?
41. What's your favorite boy and girl name right now?
Oskar (boy) and Cassie (girl)
42. How did you feel when you woke up?
Tired.... Dur
43. Do you wish someone would call or text you right now?
Yes...
44. Do you crack your knuckles?
All the time...
45. What were you doing yesterday at midnight?
Hahahahahaha Yiffing
46. What are your LEGAL initials?
M. A. C.
47. Who's the first B in your contacts?
Bailee Dye
48. When was the last time you laughed really hard?
Haha in English today lol... My teacher is a total dork
49. Your number 1 top friend walks out of your life, do you go after them?
I'd... Probably just let her go... She deserves a better friend anyway
50. Explain your last awkward moment?
Haha work today... Someone asked if I was gay and I just didn't answer lol
51. Are you afraid of the dark?
Nope I love the dark... Wish it was dark all the time
52. Do you have good vision?
20/15 so yes very
53. Have you ever tripped someone?
Yea last night... I took three hits... O wait you mean like pushed someone over Haha today actually
54. Have you ever slapped someone?
Haha my best friend... Only outta play tho
55. Are you Irish?
Yup!!! And proud of it! GIMME ANOTHER BEER!!
56. Do you use chap stick?
nope... Never have to
57. Do you have any scars?
Lots... One on my left knee from ACL surgery, on on the other from when I feel offa my bike.. And one on my forehead from chicken pox.. And a few on my knuckles from burns at work... No emotional ones tho
58. Is there someone you will never forgive?
Myself... But that's it
59. Are you dating the person you last held hands with?
No...
60. Name the last person to text you?
Fulgur (wish I could use his real name)
61. Would you marry someone 8 years older than you?
I think that's creepy so NO!
62. Can you go in public looking like you do?
uh definitely not... Unless I wanna go to jail
63. Have you ever kissed someone whose name started with a A?
Um... No? WTF?
64. What side of the bed do you sleep on?
Depends really... If Im in a down mood, the right side if I'm in any other the leftish middle lol on my stomach face buried in the pillows
65. What's the first thing you'll do on your wedding day?
*smirks* guess xP
66. Do you fall for people easily?
Not at all
67. Has anyone put their arms around you in the past 5 days?
*sighs* no...
68. Do you miss the way things used to be?
Yea I do... I miss my friends... And the freedom to be a kid...
69. Song you're thinking of right now?
Dance with my pants... Can't think of the artist tho
70. Want someone back in your life?
Yea... My old best friend... We just don't talk anymore.... Didn't have a fight or anything... We just don't talk
71. Will tomorrow be better than today?
Duh!! TGIF!!
72. What's the color of the shirt you are wearing?
no shirt... Lol But earlier it was sky blue
73. Who was the first friend that you had?
Cody Letizia
74. Does it bother you when someone lies to you?
I dunno how to answer this really... It's human nature to lie about stuff so I kinda just accept the fact that people lie to me daily... I'd they don't wanna tell me the truth I'm not gonna force it outta them
75. Is there anyone who understands your relationship status?
Yea... But she isn't Bi so... I dunno lol
76. Are you a naturally happy person? Or is your happiness forced?
I'm usually a happy person... Untill some idiot screws it up lol
77. Is there anyone you wish would fall in love with you?
Nope cuz he's already in love with me now ^.^
78. What do you wear when you sleep?
most of the time nothing ;3 Ish comfy
79. Are you obsessed with something right now?
My love/ makin money so I can live/ and assassins creed 2
80. The first person you loved is?
Katie... But were best friends now... I kinda fell for Fulgur... *looks down* (I'm still so sorry for what happened katie)
81. Something terrible happened with you?
Yes... A few... None if which I wanna bring up...
82. You are locked up with someone you love, what happens?
Kissin and a yiffin then some snugglin
83. If you could wish for something, what would it be?
To be with my love and the whole world just go away... No offence ment to anyone
84. Ever forced someone to do something?
Yea... And I never mean to
85. When you are alone, what do you think about?
Fulgur, music, sleeping, if I'm insane, sometimes suicide... (DONT FREAK OUT ABOUT THAT)
86. How was your first kiss?
Horrible lol
87. What's your favorite music genre?
I have two... Techno (almost any kind so long as it's fast and upbeat, and classic rock, mostly pink Floyd and Steve
88. Are you going to tag people to do this?
Yup
89. Did you ever shot a gun?
Yup and I wanna shoot more!!!
90. Do you have any good friends on this site?
Just five
91. What does your average breakfast consist of?
A Boost
92. Lunch?
Two pieces of pizza, a salad, can of juice, applesause, chips, and an icecream bar
93. Dinner?
I don't eat dinner
94. Dessert?
Don't have that either
95. Have you ever been in a fist fight?
No... I wouldn't have the heart to, I'd rather pummel people with my superior mind and confuse them with big words... Then shoot them with a gun So much easier than fists
96. And Finally; Have you ever attempted suicide?
No and I won't
i tag:
fulgur
kiara3
kahna
whew that was a long one... No more Meme's for a while Lol that was enough for a few weeks lol
Can you? O.o
2. If you married the last person you texted, what would your last name be?
Post :3
3. Were you happy when you woke up today?
God no.... Mornings suck and I was late to school... Again
4. When were you on the phone last? And with who?
The 18th and with Fulgur ^.^
5. What are you excited for?
lotsa things... Meeting fulgur this summer... Three art classes next year... Makin lotsa money
7. Honestly, who was the last person to tell you they love you?
Fulgur ^.^ d=^.^z
8. What's the last thing you put in your mouth?
Dr. Pepper o.o
9. Have a best friend?
Yush one
10. Are you scared to fall in love?
Sometimes... But not now cuz I ish in love
11. Do you think teenagers can be in love?
Some but not all....
12. Last person you wanted to punch in the face?
The basketball coach/PE teacher FUCKER!!!!!!
13. What time is it right this second?
10:11 pm
14. What do you want right now?
To be with my lover
15. Who was the last person you took a picture with?
Hmmm... Kiara I thinks...
16. Are you single/taken/heartbroken/or confused?
Happily taken
17. When was the last time you cried?
Last Wednesday... Got booted offa the worship band at church... Look at my journals...
18. Do you have a good relationship with your parents?
Mom and step dad yes.... Real dad and step mom no...
19. Do you find it hard to trust others?
The first time no... But if they lose it very very hard
20. How fast does your mind change?
Depends on what is changing...
21. I bet you miss somebody right now.
Fulgur......
22. Can you honestly say you're okay right now?
Oh yea definitely
23. Why do you think so many people cheat?
Cuz it makes life so much easier... Sometimes... Like winning the lottery.. Sorta
24. Tell me what's on your mind?
Lol Fulgur of course... And wishing to be back on the worship band... And assassins creed 2 lol
25. What are you looking forward to in the next three months?
School ending and getting subs in my car :3
26. Have you ever worn the opposite sex's clothing?
Hahaha yes... I even have pictures lol
27. When did you last talk to your number 1 top friend?
Today at school lol
28. When is your next road trip?
I dunno... We usually fly Hopefully it's Ireland this year
29. Do you have someone of the opposite sex you can tell anything to?
Yup! My best friend
30. How's your heart?
Drowned in love and is ticking away happily :3
31. Have you ever felt like you weren't important?
Not to my family and a few good friends and my love of course... But to others... I feel like a complete waste
32. Do you think somebody's in love with you?
Durpy durp
> Fulgur!!
33. What are you planning on doing after this?
Do a devotional and play some assassins creed
34. Next time you will kiss someone?
.... Sometime this summer hopefully...
35. Have you told anybody you loved them today?
Omg yes... Fulgur!
36. Who do you not get along with?
A few people...
37. What does you 3rd recent text say?
Recieved: "so *sigh* yea can we move on from this subject... It really gets me down"
Sent:"will you at least be able to text from school?"
38. What are you wearing right now?
Uh.... *ahem*
39. You're locked in a room with the person you last kissed, how is it?
Just fine... She and I are best friends
40. When's the last time you had a grilled cheese?
Like six months ago?
41. What's your favorite boy and girl name right now?
Oskar (boy) and Cassie (girl)
42. How did you feel when you woke up?
Tired.... Dur
43. Do you wish someone would call or text you right now?
Yes...
44. Do you crack your knuckles?
All the time...
45. What were you doing yesterday at midnight?
Hahahahahaha Yiffing
46. What are your LEGAL initials?
M. A. C.
47. Who's the first B in your contacts?
Bailee Dye
48. When was the last time you laughed really hard?
Haha in English today lol... My teacher is a total dork
49. Your number 1 top friend walks out of your life, do you go after them?
I'd... Probably just let her go... She deserves a better friend anyway
50. Explain your last awkward moment?
Haha work today... Someone asked if I was gay and I just didn't answer lol
51. Are you afraid of the dark?
Nope I love the dark... Wish it was dark all the time
52. Do you have good vision?
20/15 so yes very
53. Have you ever tripped someone?
Yea last night... I took three hits... O wait you mean like pushed someone over Haha today actually
54. Have you ever slapped someone?
Haha my best friend... Only outta play tho
55. Are you Irish?
Yup!!! And proud of it! GIMME ANOTHER BEER!!
56. Do you use chap stick?
nope... Never have to
57. Do you have any scars?
Lots... One on my left knee from ACL surgery, on on the other from when I feel offa my bike.. And one on my forehead from chicken pox.. And a few on my knuckles from burns at work... No emotional ones tho
58. Is there someone you will never forgive?
Myself... But that's it
59. Are you dating the person you last held hands with?
No...
60. Name the last person to text you?
Fulgur (wish I could use his real name)
61. Would you marry someone 8 years older than you?
I think that's creepy so NO!
62. Can you go in public looking like you do?
uh definitely not... Unless I wanna go to jail
63. Have you ever kissed someone whose name started with a A?
Um... No? WTF?
64. What side of the bed do you sleep on?
Depends really... If Im in a down mood, the right side if I'm in any other the leftish middle lol on my stomach face buried in the pillows
65. What's the first thing you'll do on your wedding day?
*smirks* guess xP
66. Do you fall for people easily?
Not at all
67. Has anyone put their arms around you in the past 5 days?
*sighs* no...
68. Do you miss the way things used to be?
Yea I do... I miss my friends... And the freedom to be a kid...
69. Song you're thinking of right now?
Dance with my pants... Can't think of the artist tho
70. Want someone back in your life?
Yea... My old best friend... We just don't talk anymore.... Didn't have a fight or anything... We just don't talk
71. Will tomorrow be better than today?
Duh!! TGIF!!
72. What's the color of the shirt you are wearing?
no shirt... Lol But earlier it was sky blue
73. Who was the first friend that you had?
Cody Letizia
74. Does it bother you when someone lies to you?
I dunno how to answer this really... It's human nature to lie about stuff so I kinda just accept the fact that people lie to me daily... I'd they don't wanna tell me the truth I'm not gonna force it outta them
75. Is there anyone who understands your relationship status?
Yea... But she isn't Bi so... I dunno lol
76. Are you a naturally happy person? Or is your happiness forced?
I'm usually a happy person... Untill some idiot screws it up lol
77. Is there anyone you wish would fall in love with you?
Nope cuz he's already in love with me now ^.^
78. What do you wear when you sleep?
most of the time nothing ;3 Ish comfy
79. Are you obsessed with something right now?
My love/ makin money so I can live/ and assassins creed 2
80. The first person you loved is?
Katie... But were best friends now... I kinda fell for Fulgur... *looks down* (I'm still so sorry for what happened katie)
81. Something terrible happened with you?
Yes... A few... None if which I wanna bring up...
82. You are locked up with someone you love, what happens?
Kissin and a yiffin then some snugglin
83. If you could wish for something, what would it be?
To be with my love and the whole world just go away... No offence ment to anyone
84. Ever forced someone to do something?
Yea... And I never mean to
85. When you are alone, what do you think about?
Fulgur, music, sleeping, if I'm insane, sometimes suicide... (DONT FREAK OUT ABOUT THAT)
86. How was your first kiss?
Horrible lol
87. What's your favorite music genre?
I have two... Techno (almost any kind so long as it's fast and upbeat, and classic rock, mostly pink Floyd and Steve
88. Are you going to tag people to do this?
Yup
89. Did you ever shot a gun?
Yup and I wanna shoot more!!!
90. Do you have any good friends on this site?
Just five
91. What does your average breakfast consist of?
A Boost
92. Lunch?
Two pieces of pizza, a salad, can of juice, applesause, chips, and an icecream bar
93. Dinner?
I don't eat dinner
94. Dessert?
Don't have that either
95. Have you ever been in a fist fight?
No... I wouldn't have the heart to, I'd rather pummel people with my superior mind and confuse them with big words... Then shoot them with a gun So much easier than fists
96. And Finally; Have you ever attempted suicide?
No and I won't
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fulgur
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kahnawhew that was a long one... No more Meme's for a while Lol that was enough for a few weeks lol
Super Awesomeness Quizzy
Posted 15 years agoI followed ZennyDarkMage's journal link to a personality quiz that is just amazing. I took it and the results are exactly the person it says i am. Below the linky here is my results and i think the quiz hit it right on the nailhead. Best of all its only two questions long haha!!
http://helloquizzy.okcupid.com/test.....nneagram-test/
"I must be strong"
Asserters are direct, self-reliant, self-confident, and protective.
How to Get Along with Me
• Stand up for yourself... and me.
• Be confident, strong, and direct.
• Don't gossip about me or betray my trust.
• Be vulnerable and share your feelings. See and acknowledge my tender, vulnerable side.
• Give me space to be alone.
• Acknowledge the contributions I make, but don't flatter me.
• I often speak in an assertive way. Don't automatically assume it's a personal attack.
• When I scream, curse, and stomp around, try to remember that's just the way I am.
What I Like About Being a EIGHT
• being independent and self-reliant
• being able to take charge and meet challenges head on
• being courageous, straightforward, and honest
• getting all the enjoyment I can out of life
• supporting, empowering, and protecting those close to me
• upholding just causes
What's Hard About Being a EIGHT
• overwhelming people with my bluntness; scaring them away when I don't intend to
• being restless and impatient with others' incompetence
• sticking my neck out for people and receiving no appreciation for it
• never forgetting injuries or injustices
• putting too much pressure on myself
• getting high blood pressure when people don't obey the rules or when things don't go right
EIGHTs as Children Often
• are independent; have an inner strength and a fighting spirit
• are sometimes loners
• seize control so they won't be controlled
• figure out others' weaknesses
• attack verbally or physically when provoked
• take charge in the family because they perceive themselves as the strongest, or grow up in difficult or abusive surroundings
EIGHTs as Parents
• are often loyal, caring, involved, and devoted
• are sometimes overprotective
• can be demanding, controlling, and rigid
http://helloquizzy.okcupid.com/test.....nneagram-test/
"I must be strong"
Asserters are direct, self-reliant, self-confident, and protective.
How to Get Along with Me
• Stand up for yourself... and me.
• Be confident, strong, and direct.
• Don't gossip about me or betray my trust.
• Be vulnerable and share your feelings. See and acknowledge my tender, vulnerable side.
• Give me space to be alone.
• Acknowledge the contributions I make, but don't flatter me.
• I often speak in an assertive way. Don't automatically assume it's a personal attack.
• When I scream, curse, and stomp around, try to remember that's just the way I am.
What I Like About Being a EIGHT
• being independent and self-reliant
• being able to take charge and meet challenges head on
• being courageous, straightforward, and honest
• getting all the enjoyment I can out of life
• supporting, empowering, and protecting those close to me
• upholding just causes
What's Hard About Being a EIGHT
• overwhelming people with my bluntness; scaring them away when I don't intend to
• being restless and impatient with others' incompetence
• sticking my neck out for people and receiving no appreciation for it
• never forgetting injuries or injustices
• putting too much pressure on myself
• getting high blood pressure when people don't obey the rules or when things don't go right
EIGHTs as Children Often
• are independent; have an inner strength and a fighting spirit
• are sometimes loners
• seize control so they won't be controlled
• figure out others' weaknesses
• attack verbally or physically when provoked
• take charge in the family because they perceive themselves as the strongest, or grow up in difficult or abusive surroundings
EIGHTs as Parents
• are often loyal, caring, involved, and devoted
• are sometimes overprotective
• can be demanding, controlling, and rigid
Shtolen from Ace xP
Posted 15 years agoIf you got 00-10 [you need to get out of the fucking house]
If you got 11-20 [you watch fox news]
If you got 21-30 [your parents must be ashamed]
If you got 31-40 [You're on the highway to hell]
If you got 41-50 [YOU'RE FUCKING HARDCORE]
If you got 51-60 [YOU DANCE ALONG THE RAZORS EDGE]
If you got 61-69 [I'd be scared to know you]
If you got 70+ [you're not allowed within 100 feet of a school]
+++
[ ] punched the walmart greeter in the face
[x] stolen from a store
[ ] owned a fake ID
[x] broke something and blamed someone else
[ ] drank alcohol to the point of blacking out
[x] not remembering a night
[ ] drank and drove
[ ] had a hangover
[ ] been so drunk/hungover you threw up
[] made yourself throw up
[] woken up in someone elses bed
[x] fallen asleep beside a toilet
[x] went to an AA meeting (parents... XD)
Total: 5
[x] gotten into a fight
[x] killed something
[ ] taken a dump in someone's shoe
[ ] nutted on an old womans face
[ ] flushed a kids gold fish down the toilet when you told them you were going to bury it/it was going to heaven
[x] used drugs
[x] a drug other than marijuana
[ ] used the bible in a hotel room to snort drugs off of "rolled joints with the pages"
[ ] been to rehab
Total:9
[ ] went to a strip club
[ ] worked at a strip club
[x] bought/watched porn
[] did porn
[x] been walked in on
[x] punched a hole through a wall
[] own a gun
[x] had the police called on you (XD i called on myself for some reason, also another long story lol)
[x] threw a party at your house
Total: 14
[x] been arrested
[ ] spent more than a day in jail
[x] been fired from a job
[x] been asked to leave a store
[x] played frisbee with a kid and threw it too hard and it hit them in the face
[x] threw a turd at someone
[x] Driven without a license
[x] seen a psychologist (is currently seeing one xP)
Total:21
[x] had a crush on someone who wasn't single (-points at Fulgur-)
[] kissed someone who wasn't single
[x] skipped school
[x] made someone cry
[ ] gave someone a swirly
[ ] called one of your teachers/professors a hoe in front of them
[x] streaked (omg so much fun XD)
[x] skinny dipped
[ ] did a keg stand
Total: 26 >.>
[ ] stolen gas
[ ] threw pickles on the drive thru window after saying no pickles!!!
[x] enjoyed starbucks
[x] donated to charity
[x] believed in santa claus past 7
[x] called your parents out on being the tooth fairy/santa claus/easter bunny/ect
[x] ran away from home (sorta... Another long story)
[x] egged a house
[x] forked someones yard
Total: 33 o.o <.<
[x] set something on fire
[x] ran from police
[x] gotten away ( omg what a story)
[x] cheated on a test (i don't cheat... I compare other peoples answers with the ones I'm about to write)
[x] stolen money from someone
[] been called a slut
[x] been okay with it
[] enjoy kinky bedroom activities
[x] had sex
[x] had sex with the opposite gender
[] had sex with the same gender
[] had sex with more than 1 person
[ ] drunk sex
[ ] had to do the walk of shame
[ ] left with less than you started with
Total: 41 (ok ummm....)
[ ] went to a con and lied to your parents about where you were really going
[x] driven more than 12 hours straight
[ ] joined a larp club to just beat on nerds
[ ] made a homeless man do a dance for money
[x] wished you did
[x] downloaded more than 10g in media that you didn't pay for
[ ] keyed someones car
[x] bumped into someones car and left
[ ] stolen a cars emblem
[x] forged documents
Total: 46 (stop reading please xP)
[ ] seen someone die
[] been in a car accident
[ ] been to a party and ran when it got busted
[] done sexual stuff inside a movie theater
[ ] been in the fandom for more than 3 years
[x] fapped to something on FA
[ ] been banned from FA
[ ] had your car towed
[ ] thought kanye was cool
Ok so 47... Not horrible lol... Ask me bout some of the stories I mentioned I might just tell ya xP
I'm done...
Posted 15 years agoWell it's finally official... I got kicked off my youth group's worship band. My youth pastor decided that since I stand by my sexuality and that I'm dating a guy that I shouldn't be on the worship band anymore. Guess he's right tho... Who wants a faggot playin in a church right? Oh well... Guess it was time anyway... Things don't last forever. It's kinda sad tho... Playin in that band was the highlight of my week, every single week... Guess I'll have to find something new... I'm sure gonna miss it...
Relationship awesomeness meme
Posted 15 years agoMmkay so fulgur and I decided to do this a while back and we are just now doin it... xP I love this meme I think it's cute^.^ so here goes...
1. Who eats more?
Definitely me xP... I can't ever eat enough food, and yet I stay thin Woot for teenage metabolism!!
2. Who said “I love you” first?
If by asked whom out... That would be me... But we were both infatuated with each other long before...
3. Who is the morning person?
I hate the mornings... And he never is up when I am so neither?
4. Who sings better?
I sing in my worship band and was in choir for a while so prolly me....
5. Who’s older?
Him... Barely
6. Who’s smarter?
He'll say me, but I say he is
7. Whose temper is worse?
Me. End of discussion.
8. Who does the laundry?
Um... Dun live together? But prolly him cuz I HATE laundry lol
9. Who does the dishes?
Um.. Dishwasher?
10. Who sleeps on what side of the bed?
He sleeps on bottom and i sleep on top ;3 I like the right side tho.
11. Whose feet are bigger?
Lol his, I have tiny feet, for a guy at least
12. Whose hair is longer?
His xP mine was... Then I got it cut and now it's short and fluffy like a puppy, hence the nickname "Pup"
13. Who’s better with the computer?
Defintely him... Lol... I can barely run Word without gettin frustrated xP
14. Do you have pets?
Six puppies :3 and any pet he has so long as it isn't a cat..... I dislike cats with an intense passion
15. Who pays the bills?
Both of us?
16. Who cooks dinner?
I dunno... If he does the laundry I'll cook^.^
17. Who drives when you are together?
It doesn't matter to me.. I like backseat driving if you know what I mean ;3
18. Who pays when you go out to dinner?
Me and I'm not gonna argue about this....
19. Who’s the most stubborn?
Mostly me... But there are times when I give in...
20. Who is the first one to admit when they’re wrong?
I unno..... ??
21. Whose family do you see more?
Um my own? But I'd rather it was his cuz I dun really like my family too much
22. Who named your pet?
Uhh.... We don't have one?
23. Who kissed who first?
*blushes* he kissed me first
24. Who asked who out?
I asked him :3 There was such a long pause between my asking and his answer I thought I was gonna die.... He was really excited^.^
25. What did you do on your first date?
haven't had one yet.... I'm really excited for it :D
26. Who’s more sensitive?
I think we are both pretty sensitive :3
27. Who’s taller?
>.< him
28. Who has more friends?
"friends" me,
real friends him
29. Who has more siblings?
I do!!!! But heh... It sucks
30. Who wears the pants in the relationship?
I stole his pants and I have no need for my own. ;3
I love you Fulgur bear^.^
1. Who eats more?
Definitely me xP... I can't ever eat enough food, and yet I stay thin Woot for teenage metabolism!!
2. Who said “I love you” first?
If by asked whom out... That would be me... But we were both infatuated with each other long before...
3. Who is the morning person?
I hate the mornings... And he never is up when I am so neither?
4. Who sings better?
I sing in my worship band and was in choir for a while so prolly me....
5. Who’s older?
Him... Barely
6. Who’s smarter?
He'll say me, but I say he is
7. Whose temper is worse?
Me. End of discussion.
8. Who does the laundry?
Um... Dun live together? But prolly him cuz I HATE laundry lol
9. Who does the dishes?
Um.. Dishwasher?
10. Who sleeps on what side of the bed?
He sleeps on bottom and i sleep on top ;3 I like the right side tho.
11. Whose feet are bigger?
Lol his, I have tiny feet, for a guy at least
12. Whose hair is longer?
His xP mine was... Then I got it cut and now it's short and fluffy like a puppy, hence the nickname "Pup"
13. Who’s better with the computer?
Defintely him... Lol... I can barely run Word without gettin frustrated xP
14. Do you have pets?
Six puppies :3 and any pet he has so long as it isn't a cat..... I dislike cats with an intense passion
15. Who pays the bills?
Both of us?
16. Who cooks dinner?
I dunno... If he does the laundry I'll cook^.^
17. Who drives when you are together?
It doesn't matter to me.. I like backseat driving if you know what I mean ;3
18. Who pays when you go out to dinner?
Me and I'm not gonna argue about this....
19. Who’s the most stubborn?
Mostly me... But there are times when I give in...
20. Who is the first one to admit when they’re wrong?
I unno..... ??
21. Whose family do you see more?
Um my own? But I'd rather it was his cuz I dun really like my family too much
22. Who named your pet?
Uhh.... We don't have one?
23. Who kissed who first?
*blushes* he kissed me first
24. Who asked who out?
I asked him :3 There was such a long pause between my asking and his answer I thought I was gonna die.... He was really excited^.^
25. What did you do on your first date?
haven't had one yet.... I'm really excited for it :D
26. Who’s more sensitive?
I think we are both pretty sensitive :3
27. Who’s taller?
>.< him
28. Who has more friends?
"friends" me,
real friends him
29. Who has more siblings?
I do!!!! But heh... It sucks
30. Who wears the pants in the relationship?
I stole his pants and I have no need for my own. ;3
I love you Fulgur bear^.^
Omg do they ever stop? >.<
Posted 15 years agoOk I need a rant here so listen if you want, I just found writing things out makes me feel better so read if you want. And I applogize for my foul language in advance but I'm pissed.
I swear to fucking God it amazes me that my dad and stepmother are still fucking married. It's fucking rediculous. Every single god damn night they argue about something. It doesn't matter what the fuck it is, it's something. Last night it was a cat, night before it was how my dad is rude, it just goes on forever. I don't understand how they even love each other HONESTLY!! god damn... You find faults in each other all the time and then bitch Bout it every single fucking night. I'M FUCKING TIRED OF IT!!!! They don't even sleep together, my dad fucking sleeps in the basement and my stepmom sleeps in the master bedroom. They don't talk, unless they bitch at eachother. It's amazing they live together at all. Like fucking seriously DIVORCE DAMNIT! I hate coming up here now cuz they constanly fight! Every night before bed what I fall asleep to is fighting. It would be one thing if it was just now happening, but this has been going on for months! MONTHS! Are they fucking staying together for me and my brother? Cuz it honestly doesn't fucking matter! I'm 17 damnit and he's 16 pretty sure we can handle the divorce, and honestly it'd be a welcome break from all the damn fighting. Both of us are fucking tired of it. AND MY DAMN DAD WONDERS WHY I WONT TELL HIM WHATS GOING ON WITH SHIT AT SCHOOL! I'm just fucking tired of it!!!! Do us all a fucking favor and divorce!!!
I swear to fucking God it amazes me that my dad and stepmother are still fucking married. It's fucking rediculous. Every single god damn night they argue about something. It doesn't matter what the fuck it is, it's something. Last night it was a cat, night before it was how my dad is rude, it just goes on forever. I don't understand how they even love each other HONESTLY!! god damn... You find faults in each other all the time and then bitch Bout it every single fucking night. I'M FUCKING TIRED OF IT!!!! They don't even sleep together, my dad fucking sleeps in the basement and my stepmom sleeps in the master bedroom. They don't talk, unless they bitch at eachother. It's amazing they live together at all. Like fucking seriously DIVORCE DAMNIT! I hate coming up here now cuz they constanly fight! Every night before bed what I fall asleep to is fighting. It would be one thing if it was just now happening, but this has been going on for months! MONTHS! Are they fucking staying together for me and my brother? Cuz it honestly doesn't fucking matter! I'm 17 damnit and he's 16 pretty sure we can handle the divorce, and honestly it'd be a welcome break from all the damn fighting. Both of us are fucking tired of it. AND MY DAMN DAD WONDERS WHY I WONT TELL HIM WHATS GOING ON WITH SHIT AT SCHOOL! I'm just fucking tired of it!!!! Do us all a fucking favor and divorce!!!
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HE LOVES ME <3
Posted 15 years agoOk well sorry not bein on lately but I haven't had my itouch so it's been kinda hard. Anyway for those of you who don't know yet and I are MATES 8DDDDD. He's the best and I love him so much. But the reason for this is to explain how it all happened^.^
we knew each other for a few months and well at this time I was still dating katie. But a few two weeks or so ago I realized something. Haha it's really quite funny, but he was doing a love streaming of his poi routeine and Katie, my girfriend at the time, was watching him, and I wasn't able to. For some reason I got really mad about this... Because she was able to watch him and i wasn't, and I had always wanted to see his poi. So later i was thinking, why was I so mad?? Do I like him?..... Omg... I think I like him. And of course at this time I was feelin really bad cuz I felt like I was betraying her, and it made it worse because he is a guy, and I never felt that way about a guy before. So I tried to kind of not talk to him as much. But I just couldn't. I wanted to talk to him so bad. We would text nonstop all day during school and until late at night.
Then a few days ago I asked a good friend named zenny who knows fulgur well a question. I asked him if fulgur ever said anything about liking me. To my surprise, zenny said he talked about me all the time and how he was head over heels in love with me, though he was afraid to say anything cuz I was datin katie. So zenny and I talked for a while, and he convinced me ask fulgur about this.
So I texted him and asked what he would say if I had a crush on him (which was a complete understatement cuz I was actually head over heels in love with him too by this point), and he replied with what would I say if he had one on me too. So we now knew how we felt about each other. So I then talked to zenny what I should do... I was pretty scared at this point cuz I didn't want to admit the fact that I was bi still, and I didn't want to break katie's heart. Zenny told me a story. It was kinda long, but it made me finally realize that if I stayed with Katie I would be living a lie to myself and I would be giving her false love. It hit me like a brick wall... I thought about it for a day... And i was completely miserable cuz I knew in my heart that Katie and I were no more. And it wasn't because of anything she did. We weren't mad at each other, and she still loved me intensly. It was my fault because I had fallen in love with the most perfect person in the whole world and I couldn't deny it any longer.
So later that night I texted fulgur if he would be my mate.... The time between that message and his answer seemed like an eternity.... And he replied with the most joyous yes I have ever heard in my life. By this point my heart was pounding and continued to beat at the most insane speed and intensity throughout the night. The moment he said yes i couldn't stop smiling. I never felt so happy in my entire life, I nearly burst with joy and excitement. That night I barely slept and never wanted to stop talking to him.
The next day was brutal tho cuz I had to tell Katie.... And I felt so terrible about it cuz I knew it would crush her completely. However I came to find out she knew all along I had a thing for him... She just never wanted to tell me... She tool it really hard, and I got a stern talking to by another friend. Tho I needed to hear it cuz he was right that damn philosopher that he is. But my saddness didn't last long.. Cuz the moment I got home and was talking to the most perfectly awesome person in the entire world, I was right as rain again.
He's so funny and smart.
He knows exactly what to say to make me feel better
we have almost eveythg in common
I can tell him anything and he can do the same
I can be myself around him and not ever worry about him saying anything to upset me
he is the most amazing person who has ever I love him to pieces, and he shares the same equal love that I do for him
I never knew it possible that I could love someone this much and I cannot even describe how much I love him
we are happily mated and nothing will ever EVER change it
Zenny if you're reading this, I owe all of this to you, cuz if it wasnnt for you're help.. I wouldn't be with fulgur and I wouldn't be the happiest person person alive
and my thanks to Joe and Keegs too, both you guys were a huge help in bringing us together *hugs you both*
we knew each other for a few months and well at this time I was still dating katie. But a few two weeks or so ago I realized something. Haha it's really quite funny, but he was doing a love streaming of his poi routeine and Katie, my girfriend at the time, was watching him, and I wasn't able to. For some reason I got really mad about this... Because she was able to watch him and i wasn't, and I had always wanted to see his poi. So later i was thinking, why was I so mad?? Do I like him?..... Omg... I think I like him. And of course at this time I was feelin really bad cuz I felt like I was betraying her, and it made it worse because he is a guy, and I never felt that way about a guy before. So I tried to kind of not talk to him as much. But I just couldn't. I wanted to talk to him so bad. We would text nonstop all day during school and until late at night.
Then a few days ago I asked a good friend named zenny who knows fulgur well a question. I asked him if fulgur ever said anything about liking me. To my surprise, zenny said he talked about me all the time and how he was head over heels in love with me, though he was afraid to say anything cuz I was datin katie. So zenny and I talked for a while, and he convinced me ask fulgur about this.
So I texted him and asked what he would say if I had a crush on him (which was a complete understatement cuz I was actually head over heels in love with him too by this point), and he replied with what would I say if he had one on me too. So we now knew how we felt about each other. So I then talked to zenny what I should do... I was pretty scared at this point cuz I didn't want to admit the fact that I was bi still, and I didn't want to break katie's heart. Zenny told me a story. It was kinda long, but it made me finally realize that if I stayed with Katie I would be living a lie to myself and I would be giving her false love. It hit me like a brick wall... I thought about it for a day... And i was completely miserable cuz I knew in my heart that Katie and I were no more. And it wasn't because of anything she did. We weren't mad at each other, and she still loved me intensly. It was my fault because I had fallen in love with the most perfect person in the whole world and I couldn't deny it any longer.
So later that night I texted fulgur if he would be my mate.... The time between that message and his answer seemed like an eternity.... And he replied with the most joyous yes I have ever heard in my life. By this point my heart was pounding and continued to beat at the most insane speed and intensity throughout the night. The moment he said yes i couldn't stop smiling. I never felt so happy in my entire life, I nearly burst with joy and excitement. That night I barely slept and never wanted to stop talking to him.
The next day was brutal tho cuz I had to tell Katie.... And I felt so terrible about it cuz I knew it would crush her completely. However I came to find out she knew all along I had a thing for him... She just never wanted to tell me... She tool it really hard, and I got a stern talking to by another friend. Tho I needed to hear it cuz he was right that damn philosopher that he is. But my saddness didn't last long.. Cuz the moment I got home and was talking to the most perfectly awesome person in the entire world, I was right as rain again.
He's so funny and smart.
He knows exactly what to say to make me feel better
we have almost eveythg in common
I can tell him anything and he can do the same
I can be myself around him and not ever worry about him saying anything to upset me
he is the most amazing person who has ever I love him to pieces, and he shares the same equal love that I do for him
I never knew it possible that I could love someone this much and I cannot even describe how much I love him
we are happily mated and nothing will ever EVER change it
Zenny if you're reading this, I owe all of this to you, cuz if it wasnnt for you're help.. I wouldn't be with fulgur and I wouldn't be the happiest person person alive
and my thanks to Joe and Keegs too, both you guys were a huge help in bringing us together *hugs you both*
Removed by me ^^; damn itouch won't remove messages
Posted 15 years agoIt's possibly the worst day of my life and it's only 11:00am
Posted 15 years agoWell, I finally know how it feels to lose a pet... The pictures of all the puppies I just posted reciently, well them mom just died this morning....
I was driving her to the vet this morning because she was having a hard time breathing. She was havin such a good time, she was so happy. About half way there, she looked at me, and I looked at her, and then she slumped down in the seat and didn't move again. I knew right then she was dead, I just didn't wanna believe it. I kept tellin her to wake up, and I was shakin her tryin to get her to move... But I knew she was gone. As soon as i got her to the vet, he took one look at her and said the same. I've never cried so hard in my life. The worst part tho, is I was lookin straight into her eyes and pettin her head, and nothing. She never moved, never responded. I'm just glad she was happy in her last few minutes, takin a ride in the car.
Now we've got six orpahaned puppies to take care of. They never even got to see her. It just feels like a part of my life was ripped out of me. Never again will I come home to see my silly girl barking like crazy at me coming through the door, waggin her tail so hard that it almost flies off of her. No more naps on the couch. No more tug of war. No more stupid laser pointer thingy. It feels so empty.....
I was driving her to the vet this morning because she was having a hard time breathing. She was havin such a good time, she was so happy. About half way there, she looked at me, and I looked at her, and then she slumped down in the seat and didn't move again. I knew right then she was dead, I just didn't wanna believe it. I kept tellin her to wake up, and I was shakin her tryin to get her to move... But I knew she was gone. As soon as i got her to the vet, he took one look at her and said the same. I've never cried so hard in my life. The worst part tho, is I was lookin straight into her eyes and pettin her head, and nothing. She never moved, never responded. I'm just glad she was happy in her last few minutes, takin a ride in the car.
Now we've got six orpahaned puppies to take care of. They never even got to see her. It just feels like a part of my life was ripped out of me. Never again will I come home to see my silly girl barking like crazy at me coming through the door, waggin her tail so hard that it almost flies off of her. No more naps on the couch. No more tug of war. No more stupid laser pointer thingy. It feels so empty.....
