Lately it seems that whenever I try to get close to someone, and it seems like it's going ok, someone is always there to end up being closer than I am. I talk to you about things that are important, and you say nothing back for hours, and sometimes not at all, and yet I find out you have been talking to someone else the whole time about nothing of value. Do I matter to you, or am I simply just another face in the crowd? You say I'm important, but your actions speak otherwise.

I've hit my breaking point, I've had about all I can handle. My emotions are not something to play with, especially if I think you are special to me. So I ask you, are you sure? Are you sure I'm important to you? Are you sure that I'm someone that matters? Or am I just a comfort when you need it and to be tossed aside when I'm not? I'm tired of guessing, and I'm tired of this confusion. Be who you say you are, or just go the fuck away.

I got tagged cause I looked at it. XD

0. Name of character and picture if possible.
Mathias Lupen

1. What is your sexual preference?
Seriously?!?! just look at my page.... and i lean towards girls

2. Name one thing that artists seem to screw up about you frequently.
my fur color..... damnit

3. Dom, sub or interchangeable?
interchangeable, but i around people i know pretty well, dom

4. Are you currently in a committed relationship?
you bet^^  kiara3

5. Bear any ill will towards another of your creators characters?
i dont know.... ima guess no

6. Any special skills?
nope, but im a good hugger^^

7. What do you do for a living?
Nothin, im too lazy

8. Anyone here you could call friend?
oh yes

9. Morning person or night person?
morning = sunlight = NO!!!

10. Favorite food?
fettachini alfrado

11. Name the quickest way a person could get on your good side.
just talk to me, and dont be an ass

12. Name the quickest way a person could get on your bad side.
put me down, or make my friends and brothers feel like shit.

13. Do you have a vice?
huh?

14. Do you suffer from any mental handicaps?
Anxiety disorder, if you count that...

15. Have a rival?
nah, i cant hold a grudge

16. Name one thing you would change about the world if you could.
If people could understand everyone

17. What’s your idea of a great day?
hangin with Katie, and talkin to my brothers

18. What’s your idea of a horrible day?
when everything goes wrong, and no one is there to help

19. Optimistic or pessimistic?
Optimistic, for the most part

20. Good, evil or neutral?
neutral, i can be good, but that takes soo much work sometimes muhahhahaha

21. Tag People
I tag anyone who wants to look at this. =3

1. What does your FurAffinity name mean and why?
Mathias is my German name, and Lupen sounds cool i guess

2. What fandom were you obsessed with when you joined and what are you into now?
um, i wasnt

3. How many watchers do you have now?
a whole 15

4. Name 3 of your favorite artists on FA.
 greykitty  sephyfluff  oCe

5. Do you comment, fav, or both?
both

6. Do you participate in clubs' contests here on FA?
Huh?

7. What is your most popular submission?
i dunno really, i think my Daffy duck skeleton thingy was

8. What are your favorite non-anime TV shows?
Future weapons, how its made, The Office

9. What are the things you wish you could draw better?
facial expressions

10. Summer or winter?
winter totally (why do you think im a malamute?)

11. Rain or Sun?
Sun WTF?

12. What's your favorite type of music?
classic rock, and techno

13. PC or Mac?
depends

14. Anime or Manga?
Both

15. Coke or Pepsi?
Pepsi throwback, FUCK COKE

16. Read or TV?
i dont do much of either atm

17. How many hours a day do you spend on FA?
1-2

18. Name a hidden talent.
I can do the best girly boi voice you ever heard

19. Flash or traditional cartoons?
Flash looks cooler, but im better at traditional

20. What is your favorite fast food restaurant?
The Puran (Indian Food)

21. What are your top 3 favorite books?
Anthem, the eragon series, and Climate Confusion

22. Wii or Playstation?
XBOX!!!!

23. Name 3 of your favorite bands/singers.
Steve Miller Band, Cascada, Pink floyd, and Rob Mayth

24. Are you a fast, slow, or medium typist?
i dunno 80-90 wpm so im guessing medium??

25. Do you like Denny's?
meh not really

26. What is your favorite smiley?
=^.^=

27. What is your favorite type of pie?
hmmmm... Butterscotch

28. Have you ever stayed up for 24 hours?
try 48 sometime x.x

29. Do you go on YouTube a lot?
not really

30. Are you a member on any other sites besides FA?
nope

31. Do you cosplay?
i wish

32. Fruits or sweets?
Both

33. Buttered, plain, or salted popcorn?
popcorn sucks


34. Have you skipped school?
just once,

35. Have you been on a plane?
try almost 90 flights

36. Have you swam in an ocean?
mmhmm, i love it

37. Have you been ice skating?
once

38. Favorite vacation spot?
in our condo in Keystone, Colorado

39. Ever been on TV?
not that i know of

40. Favorite salad and dressing?
italian

41. What do you do to relax?
Draw, talk with the fam, and play my guitar

42. What is the last film you saw in the theater?
The Book of Eli (fucking fantastic film)

43. Favorite Sandwich?
Salami and Cheese, and mayo, and mustard, but the mayo and mustard have to be touching the cheese not the salami

44. If you could go anywhere in the world...
where my family lives! and drag them all to Colorado or Alaska

45. Favorite time of the day?
night, when the moon is out

46. What did you want to be when you were little?
A pilot

47. What do you want to be now?
a graphic designer, and a international minister

48. If you could eat with one person, who would it be?
anyone in the family

49. What character would you hate to be stuck in a room with?
OBAMA, PALOCI, GORE, MOORE, BIDEN, OR GIBBS

50. When is your birthday?
october 22nd

51. Favorite type of ice cream?
cookie dough

52. Last book you read?
uh, The Scarlet Letter (sucked BALLS)

53. Which store would you max out a credit card at?
gamestop, or Express Men

54. Do you buy / sell / both on eBay?
No WTF!

55. What is the most annoying thing people ask you?
When people ask me why i have a limp (i tore my ACL five months ago JESUS CHRIST WHERE HAVE YOU BEEN???!??!?!)

56. Favorite all time movie?
either remember the titans, or the book of eli

57. What was your favorite show when you were a kid?
hmmm.... Digimon, the first or second season, after that they were terrible

58. What are you listening to right now?
nothin, but if i was, it would be techno

59. What is the last thing you ate?
pizza

60. If you were a crayon what color would you be?
Maroon, or burgandy

61. What is the first thing you notice about the opposite sex?
BOOBS XD

62. Favorite sport to play?
FOOTBALL WOOT

63. Favorite Day of the Year?
Thanksgiving, food is amazing

64. Hugs or Kisses?
hugs, im not a big kisser, except with mah GF

65. Vanilla or Chocolate?
strawberry, fuck the others

66. Favorite Board Game?
Clue

67. Favorite smells?[/b]
Socal hollister cologne
wood

68. What inspires you?
music usually
but mah fur family too

69. Do you have any piercings?
nope but i want bar piercings in my cartilage

70. How many siblings do you have?
regular family? 7 but i hate 5 of em

fur family?
five

71. Bacon Bits or croutons?
both!

72. Favorite Day of the Week?
Sunday

73. Favorite phrase?
in an ideal world, id have ten fingers on my left hand so my right would always be a fist - Dewight Shrute

74. Favorite Restaurant?
Olive garden!!!

75. Favorite animal?
malamutes or foxes

76. Favorite thing to do outside?
airsoft, or just sit and read

77. Favorite thing to do when it's raining?
Chat with the family, or play xbox

78. Favorite Disney character?
Robin hood, and if you dont know why then you dont belong here (i second this Joe)

79. Do you like coffee?
OMG yes!!! One Venti caramel macchiato with two extra shots please

80. Tag 3 people

 Ace_sohrten
 wolvessoulz
 Kiara3

Well im finally home from the trip i was on over the weekend. I went up to michigan for a few days for a youth group camp thing. It was a lot of fun, but man im glad to be home. Lots of submissions on here when i got back, so im not weedin through them all to send comments, because im lazy like that >.<. They all looked great tho! You guys make me jealous of your abilities.

The more I use my itouch the more I love the thing. It's great I can sit in my room and be on the ole internet and i don't haf my parents reading over my shoulder, making stupid comments like "oh you're on that furry thing again" or "who's Alex, is he from school?" it would be ok if it only happened once in s while, but it was a regular occurrence whenever I decided to get on the comp.

The only I wish it had was a scanner so I could load all my art that way. Again more stupid comments from the parents, "aren't you a bit old for that furry crap" "is this some kind of fettish of yours?"

*sigh* at least they don't know what all happens in the fandom, they would freak X3. It would be soooooooo funny to watch tho

I officially hate living in this damn state. Its the middle of freakin December and there is no snow ANYWHERE. The summer is hot all the time. wish i could live in the mountains like in colorado, or montana, maybe even alaska.

Well, my mother decided to be smart and put this Norton Safty Minder thing on my computer so she can monitor the sites i get on. No big deal, i dont go anywhere innapproriate, but the one thing that does suck tho is that she doesnt know im a furry, and im kinda worried what her reaction would be. Its just an interest group so theres no harm in that, its just that if she sees the other stuff sometimes involved with furry, well, things might go south. Maybe i should tell her now... Nah, ill wait till later. WOO Procrastination.