I'm gonna sound super old for a hot second. I'm tired of being ghosted and such, but also tired of not having someone to cuddle at night. I'm on like 7+ dating sites now and I find it amusing (in a grim way) that literally Tinder, Bumble, and Match all ran out of people for me. Not only that, but even if some of these people do reply, I don't even know how they'd feel about the whole furry thing. -shrug-

Not that anyone would really care about this, I have like 0 followers that read this stuff. Mostly on here to complain to myself because my friends don't offer any advice or even reassurance but I get to be the one to help them with their own self-absorbed world. I think I'll tarot a little after work, though its probably gonna be even more downing. When I get depressed my body has just been shutting down lately, completely knocking me out.

Haven't been writing as much as i'd like to, thinking of getting back into the swing of things to become a better writer. Been writing to myself (lame) so i figured i would upload what i want on good pacing that way i can continue to evolve. I'll be constructing my own universe and such that might have an awkward feel for both me and any of you that read on, due to it being my first attempt.

Thank you for watchin.

Also! I have found a furry works with me, and she's a cool fennec FOX (if i didn't put the FOX in there she'd kick my ass if she ever found out) and i was thinking of doing/getting a comic/story done.

Adventures in Wal-Mart

it would be comedic and only stories i felt that needed to be told. Think of them like RTAA's from Roosterteeth i guess, only in furry form.

Gimme some advice.critique

any recommendations on tablets? headed to college here soon and i'd like to grab a tablet before hand. have enough money for something simple, nothing in the thousands. Friend of mine recommended Wacome Bamboo tablet and such.

Suggestions?

i'd really like to draw again, go into graphic design and go live with my man in england. I don't like the states, so much...drama. I was looking up collages early on and have been getting pretty serious about it lately, but they require 10 drawing portfolio and ever since i was homeless a few years back my drawings haven't really been.....good. Ya put down the pen for a few years and you get rusty really quick, especially when lifes hammering you down over and over again.


i just don't know what to do anymore....

SO! The person doing my most recent post on site (even though i know i don't post much, i know, i'm sorry and trying to get over my problems with critically over analyzing myself) are done by  catcraig and i think you should all go check her out, even if it is just to say hi. She's not exactly a fur, more like an artist that i pushed to do a hybrid after seeing her work, and i guess she liked it cause now she's here.

Her art is some amazing stuff and she's got an epic mind on her. Give her a look at.

Thanks
Z

So i recently built a new computer and looking for fur wallpaper. Its a gaming pc so i'd like to get a few gaming pieces as wallpaper, not entirely erotic but could use some of those. Anything you want to suggest, hit me up! been looking for a good set for awhile.

Looking for an artist to do some work for me regarding a small one page comic styled piece of work for me. I can't seem to find someone open for commissions on my watch list so if you're watching me for random ass reasons then gimme a shout with someone you like for the job. Doesn't matter if its yourself but imma rifle through your gallery to make sure its something i have in mind

Its my birthday in a few hours, born 16th of november at 1:24am, such a wonderful time to see all those lovely stars and to be born to the mother moon~

I have no idea what happened today, something hit me emotionally, like someone sticking me in the middle of the artic and just letting a wave crash down over me. I started crying, despite the fact i was perfectly fine. my mind was rushing as i was trying to figure out why i was breaking down, my hands couldn't keep up with the flow. That's when I felt like i was in a void

I'm lost

the daytime is so cruel to me, so very rude to pit me in emotional despair, the moon grants me my spark back and fills me with comfort, wrapping me in her midnight blue cloak and whispering soft words of encouragement. She handed me my spark back, then rushed me off to bed as the sun dawned upon us. I've stopped seeing daylight as something i need, something that's good, to me now it's just a blight.

the night show me the strength i need to get on with myself, and that's what i'm doing. No need to worry, it's just taking awhile to get my spark back. I'll be me another day, but for now, I stay with the night, she shows me things. I was sitting outside when she strolled about, sat next to me and pointed at what i assumed was clouding in my eyes. She kept quiet, but as i stared in the sky i saw swirls of dark green mixing with burning hot white, purple and pink shifting about the core.

"Whenever i feel sad i start making new stars, testing the colors and moving things about. the night is endless you see, the darkness. Its just those little blots of light that blink in and out of existence that we strive towards, to hold onto. You however, when you get sad you seek the darkness..." she looked at me quizzically, her hand on her chin as she watched me "why is that"

"Because i'm an odd ball. You say that people strive for the light in their lives, but when its gone you're left with massive burns, left struggling in the dark." i looked at her "I enjoy the light, but i love the darkness, it makes the light-" i waved at the stars "the stars in the sky, just that much more beautiful. Sure it hurts sometimes, but...i still have my friends, and you" She smiled, wrapping an arm around me and just sighed

"Oh my faithful student, you're an odd one at that"
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this is something i've actually experience while i was depressed, and still do from time to time, though i don't actually have a lady to lean on, i still chat with the night, the very moon herself.

BASICALLY, MY THING IS STILL BROKEN SO ALL CAPS TILL MY NEW DELL INSPIRON R17 SHOWS UP. ALSO, MY BOYFRIEND OF 3 ALMOST 4 YEARS, AND I SPLIT APART....AND YEAH, IT HURTS. I'VE BEEN IN A DEPRESSION I'M HAVING DIFFICULTIES GETTING OUT OF, WAKING UP IN THE MORNING WHEN I GET ANY SLEEP IS SO....HARD. I DIDN'T GET OUT OF BED FOR A WEEK STRAIGHT, OR SHOWER. I'VE BEEN HAVING EATING PROBLEMS, MY NIGHTS AND DAYS ARE ALL TURNED OVER AND EVERYTHING HURTS. I CAN'T PLAY VIDEO GAMES ANYMORE WITHOUT IT BEING A LITTLE SAD FOR ME, AND YEAH, I'VE DONE ALOT OF CRYING.

I'M TRYING TO...I DON'T KNOW, COOP. BUT....I LOVED HIM, SO GIVE ME TIME.

TALK TO ALL YOU LOVELIES SOON

so i've been coming into this place to actually get on net and have noticed a few other people leering at me....not only that, but some of the employees have been looking at me rather....can't put it in any other way the sexually aggressive. The manager even told me 2 of the women had thought i was fine looking. This makes me worry that i'm sat here, looking like hot Dracat bait in my jingle collar....

So, my bedding has been through as many moves as i have, a few teething pups, and more than its share of cats going banana's on it from catnip, so i'm in the market for a nice new and soft quilt i can curl under. It can also be a comforter. don't care, just want something and was wondering if any furs have made one with like....cool artwork on it or something

Any suggestions welcome

http://www.furaffinity.net/journal/...../#cid:22504262

This furry is in need of help

in a bad situation that i have no control over, i am moving, well....to a temp place before moving again, no net no nothing basically. so...yeah. thats all, my week is just...utter suck

 KakariDD is doing some free arts. Journal here http://www.furaffinity.net/journal/2497008/

Polling on this for today cause i seriously need to start on the story hehehehehe, i suuuuck. Anyway i like doing first person better than third but i would like to see viewer input.

Shepards stats.

Emma Shepard [female, duh]
Spacer
Ruthless
Vanguard.
[power] Reave

Sorry guys, was running a somewhat contest but wonton beat ya'll

Also taking votes for shepards class.

Vanguard (Bionics/ Combat)
Sentinel (tech/Bionics)
Adept (Bionics specialist)
Engineer(Tech specialist)
Soldier (combat specialist )
Infiltrator (Tech and combat )

You guys have until the 28th to vote, sorry for the short notice.

i'm giving you a fair bit of time so here it is, the beginning of the story. Shall we go male or female shepard, keep in mind i will include gay/lesbian regardless of gender.

first one to make a joke about the next thing i say i'm just not gonna do it -stares at wonton- i dare you.

starting this week i will be thinking up a few things and missions for a fanfic of mass effect since i've been playing it so much, and no i haven't thought this all the way through. I will be writing it when i am more awake than what i am right now. Male/female Shepard will be going on missions as usual, romancing their fav person. I will be taking a poll every now and then to see who it will be or what missions to go on so expect cliff hangers.

just as it is, I am looking for some awesome music and was just wondering if any of you have anything techno or whatever. Don't care what it is as long as its those two or electronica.

Ok so far things have been rather difficult, well, more so than usual. My boyfriend came down for a week to visit and basically calmed me back down to factory reset~ oh what a fresh breath of air he was, made my soul sigh in relief. Other than that i've been studying for my GED and looking for a job, gods has that been frustrating, I have a tripped planned for my b-day (technically our) Birthday. Sym's mom and sis are pitching in for a ticket to london or wherever over there for his b-day and but i don't know exactly if they are doing a round trip ticket so i would need the money for that, the passport, and for spending. living for days on end.

Anyway, doing good so far just getting by day to day but recently thinking more and more on writing a story, thing is i am scared to actually write something and put it up for criticism, though i ask for it i kinda have low ish self esteem thanks to my...non-existent education ugh! but yeah...