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I'M BACK!
Posted 5 years agoI was gone for like a year now I think, but I'm back!
Took a break from mostly anything social while I worked on some personal issues. I'm doing much better now and ready to get back into the swing of things. Make new friends and get my life back on the right track.
Looking forward to spending a lot of time with you fluffbutts!
Took a break from mostly anything social while I worked on some personal issues. I'm doing much better now and ready to get back into the swing of things. Make new friends and get my life back on the right track.
Looking forward to spending a lot of time with you fluffbutts!
All day EU gaming stream Tomorrow
Posted 7 years agoI got an off day for once tomorrow and decided I'll have a long stream from 8am GMT to 4pm GMT followed by a 2-3 hour break before Kicking it up for a few more hours if US furs want to join in.
www.twitch.tv/MattedFurr
Or
Search my username. (The link breaks sometimes)
I'd also want to play with other furs during the stream. So here is a list of games that you can choose from that I can stream. Which ever game(s) receive the most votes I will stream and play with the lot of y'all, so please comment on here to vote. And please share this message if you can.
1. Monster Hunter World
2. Rainbow Six Siege
3. Grand Theft Auto V
4. Rocket League
5. Paladins
6. Overwatch
7. Killing Floor 2
8. Tekken 7
9. Dragon Ball FighterZ
10. Smite
11. Warhammer Vermintide 2
12. Borderlands 2
And then two games that are view only since its single player or will have ping issues.
The Witcher 3 (Never played it, I know I'm horrible)
Counterstrike Global Offensive
Hope to have a great day gaming with you all!
www.twitch.tv/MattedFurr
Or
Search my username. (The link breaks sometimes)
I'd also want to play with other furs during the stream. So here is a list of games that you can choose from that I can stream. Which ever game(s) receive the most votes I will stream and play with the lot of y'all, so please comment on here to vote. And please share this message if you can.
1. Monster Hunter World
2. Rainbow Six Siege
3. Grand Theft Auto V
4. Rocket League
5. Paladins
6. Overwatch
7. Killing Floor 2
8. Tekken 7
9. Dragon Ball FighterZ
10. Smite
11. Warhammer Vermintide 2
12. Borderlands 2
And then two games that are view only since its single player or will have ping issues.
The Witcher 3 (Never played it, I know I'm horrible)
Counterstrike Global Offensive
Hope to have a great day gaming with you all!
ATTENTION ALL FLUFFBUTTS
Posted 7 years agoIT'S MAH BIRFDAY BITCHES!
That is all. Carry on with your day as usual.
That is all. Carry on with your day as usual.
I just cant anymore...
Posted 8 years agoJust as I get back on my feet it all comes crashing down again.
Pay cut, car broke down, leaving me with $300 of debt. I have no idea how I'll pay it with my now sh*t pay, on top of fuel and rent...
Work crazy hours in a job I hate. I lost all forms of social life. I never smile anymore and I'm always tired... Dunno how long I can keep this up.
Pay cut, car broke down, leaving me with $300 of debt. I have no idea how I'll pay it with my now sh*t pay, on top of fuel and rent...
Work crazy hours in a job I hate. I lost all forms of social life. I never smile anymore and I'm always tired... Dunno how long I can keep this up.
Broken
Posted 8 years agoI don't know who or what I am anymore...
My heart, mind, emotions... They're all so broken and uncontrollable. I overreact to everything or shut down completely. It's come to a point that I barely get any sleep anymore because of all the things in my hear that never shut up...
No family, friends or even i place i can call home...
My heart, mind, emotions... They're all so broken and uncontrollable. I overreact to everything or shut down completely. It's come to a point that I barely get any sleep anymore because of all the things in my hear that never shut up...
No family, friends or even i place i can call home...
Just Get's Better And Better
Posted 8 years agoSo after a whole life of emotional and mental abuse from my stepdad I finally snapped and for the 1st time in my life stood up for myself against him... To which he responded with by firing me from the company and kicking me out of the house. In 24h he removed me from the medical aid, life insurance and car insurance.
So I'm kinda homeless for a few days. My biological father is taking me in, though I feel bad since he isn't financially stable either. Plan is to find a new job ASAP when I get there so I can earn my keep as best I can. I am not planning on giving up and I'm not posting this to gain any sympathy. This is merely an update on whats happening so if I go quiet on any social media, this is why.
I told my mother that I wont erase her from my life because of her husbands choices, but that man is dead to me and I'll no longer allow him to run my life.
I wish all of you the best in your lives as well!
So I'm kinda homeless for a few days. My biological father is taking me in, though I feel bad since he isn't financially stable either. Plan is to find a new job ASAP when I get there so I can earn my keep as best I can. I am not planning on giving up and I'm not posting this to gain any sympathy. This is merely an update on whats happening so if I go quiet on any social media, this is why.
I told my mother that I wont erase her from my life because of her husbands choices, but that man is dead to me and I'll no longer allow him to run my life.
I wish all of you the best in your lives as well!
Whatever...
Posted 8 years agoSo what to put here... Not sure...
No use sugarcoating it so here it is... 2016 has been hell for me and here I stand on the last day, no real hope for it to get better in 2017. I've been struggling with crippling depression, the people I needed help from silent, most of my friends abandoned me. In one month I'll be unemployed and unable to pay for treatment...
So basically this my goodbye... For now? Forever? I have no idea. The next 2-3 months will decide that.
I hope this year has been kinder to all of you than it was to me and I hope you all have a great 2017
No use sugarcoating it so here it is... 2016 has been hell for me and here I stand on the last day, no real hope for it to get better in 2017. I've been struggling with crippling depression, the people I needed help from silent, most of my friends abandoned me. In one month I'll be unemployed and unable to pay for treatment...
So basically this my goodbye... For now? Forever? I have no idea. The next 2-3 months will decide that.
I hope this year has been kinder to all of you than it was to me and I hope you all have a great 2017
Emotional mess (Might Sell Matt)
Posted 9 years agoPast few months have been quite an emotional journey... Don't know if I've felt this much confusion and pain ever before in my life.
So I have decided to go away for a while and think about my life and emotions... Even though I have not decided yet, there is a chance I will sell my OC MattedFurr and replace him with a new one...
I'm sorry if this is sudden news, but I cant handle this pain for much longer...
So I have decided to go away for a while and think about my life and emotions... Even though I have not decided yet, there is a chance I will sell my OC MattedFurr and replace him with a new one...
I'm sorry if this is sudden news, but I cant handle this pain for much longer...
EXCITEMENT INTENSIFIES!!!!!!!!!
Posted 9 years agoSo a friend of mine that I have known for 6-7 years now, has become an accomplished writer and published author!
She moved quite some time ago and was one of the 1st people I told about being a furry. Even though difficult we still keep in touch. So yesterday she randomly texted me and said that she was working on a new fantasy book. Now this is what she does so I was confused at 1st why she told me before it is finished. Turns out she wants to use my sona in the book!
WOW! I never expected anything like that, especially since we aren't as close as we used to be. So after talking a bit more I agreed to let her use it. It makes me so excited! I mean it's not every day you get your sona used in a book that will, hopefully, be published.
Really looking forward to it. Now, She let me post this journal but I am not allowed to give any more info. Unless she tells me it is okay, or until the book is published. So fingers crossed guys and gals, maybe next year we can all read the small role I play in this story! :3
She moved quite some time ago and was one of the 1st people I told about being a furry. Even though difficult we still keep in touch. So yesterday she randomly texted me and said that she was working on a new fantasy book. Now this is what she does so I was confused at 1st why she told me before it is finished. Turns out she wants to use my sona in the book!
WOW! I never expected anything like that, especially since we aren't as close as we used to be. So after talking a bit more I agreed to let her use it. It makes me so excited! I mean it's not every day you get your sona used in a book that will, hopefully, be published.
Really looking forward to it. Now, She let me post this journal but I am not allowed to give any more info. Unless she tells me it is okay, or until the book is published. So fingers crossed guys and gals, maybe next year we can all read the small role I play in this story! :3
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Posted 9 years agoI thought I lost my heart some time ago... But this pain in my chest just wont go away.
Slowly I'm sinking into the darkness I once called home, but I do not want to go back. My fake smile has become so convincing I'm scaring myself... My dad called me the other day and told me how glad he was I was happy. Took everything in my not to cry because I didn't want him to know just how far from happy I was...
Systematically my most precious relationships are crumbling away. Feeling myself drifting away from the people I love most, but no matter how hard I scream my cries go unheard.
Forever wandering the darkness alone, searching for a place to belong. Beaten and bloody, sometimes thinking if I'm not better off dead...
I know this Journal makes little to no sense. Wasn't meant as a poem or anything like that. Just random thoughts and feelings. Feel free to ignore.
Slowly I'm sinking into the darkness I once called home, but I do not want to go back. My fake smile has become so convincing I'm scaring myself... My dad called me the other day and told me how glad he was I was happy. Took everything in my not to cry because I didn't want him to know just how far from happy I was...
Systematically my most precious relationships are crumbling away. Feeling myself drifting away from the people I love most, but no matter how hard I scream my cries go unheard.
Forever wandering the darkness alone, searching for a place to belong. Beaten and bloody, sometimes thinking if I'm not better off dead...
I know this Journal makes little to no sense. Wasn't meant as a poem or anything like that. Just random thoughts and feelings. Feel free to ignore.
Current ISP failing can't afford new one...
Posted 9 years agoSo over the past few months my Internet Service Provider has gotten worse by the day. It has come to the point that I almost can't even google anymore. (Actually a miracle I managed to get on FA for this)
I want to move to a new one but the installation of the satellite is $100 (Which is a lot of in my currency due to a financial crisis and the country wide drought, causing food prices to almost double.) The monthly fee is much less than that which I can however afford.
So I won't be as active on FA as I want to be.
If you feel like you want to donate (Really don't like doing this but I have no choice) please send me a note. I will get back to you as soon as I can if possible. (Should be able to log in with my phone using my work's WiFi) I would really appreciate it and figure out some way to repay you, maybe do some free digital coloring for you or something :)
Anyway, thank you all and hope I can return to an active state ASAP!
I want to move to a new one but the installation of the satellite is $100 (Which is a lot of in my currency due to a financial crisis and the country wide drought, causing food prices to almost double.) The monthly fee is much less than that which I can however afford.
So I won't be as active on FA as I want to be.
If you feel like you want to donate (Really don't like doing this but I have no choice) please send me a note. I will get back to you as soon as I can if possible. (Should be able to log in with my phone using my work's WiFi) I would really appreciate it and figure out some way to repay you, maybe do some free digital coloring for you or something :)
Anyway, thank you all and hope I can return to an active state ASAP!
Famous Lives should not outweigh the life of anyone else.
Posted 9 years agoIn light of David Bowie's and more recently Alan Rickman's deaths, I was reminded of something...
People always treat celebrity deaths with more important than any normal person's lives. Why do people make such a big fuss over them, but completely ignore the hundreds of deaths occurring on the same day?
In my country alone there were 200 more deaths on the road on new years than there were just 1 year ago. Besides the grieving families, the deaths of theses people weren't important to other people for more than a day.
A few days after x-mas a little boy was killed in a hit and run, his death wasn't even mentioned on the news or in the papers. By this time tomorrow Alan Rickman's death will be on the front page of the papers and the biggest news on radio, TV and social media...
It saddens me...
People always treat celebrity deaths with more important than any normal person's lives. Why do people make such a big fuss over them, but completely ignore the hundreds of deaths occurring on the same day?
In my country alone there were 200 more deaths on the road on new years than there were just 1 year ago. Besides the grieving families, the deaths of theses people weren't important to other people for more than a day.
A few days after x-mas a little boy was killed in a hit and run, his death wasn't even mentioned on the news or in the papers. By this time tomorrow Alan Rickman's death will be on the front page of the papers and the biggest news on radio, TV and social media...
It saddens me...
The Q&A
Posted 10 years agoHere I will be answering questions asked by anyone about anything. I will update this every time I get a a new question in the comments on this journal. Lets begin!
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What's your religion?
As stated in my profile, I am a Christian. But I respect everyone's beliefs.
What do you like to do for fun?
Most of the time I enjoy sitting at home, playing games and listening to music. But nothing beats hanging out with good friends.
Q&A with MattedFurr
Posted 10 years agoIs there anything I didn't add on my profile that you would like to know? Do you possibly have a question for me about something else?
Well now is your chance. I'm looking to add another journal that will be kept on my profile filled with Q's&A's. I know I don't have a lot of followers yet so please ask as many questions as you want in the comments below and I will answer them in my next journal, whenever that is... x3
Well now is your chance. I'm looking to add another journal that will be kept on my profile filled with Q's&A's. I know I don't have a lot of followers yet so please ask as many questions as you want in the comments below and I will answer them in my next journal, whenever that is... x3
