trying to find a decent diaper artist whos open and works quick :P i want a cute picture done of myself >w< plus i need a pic of me as the gender i kinda identify as >w>

so im going to disappear again :\ jobs going to absorb my time and well friends are going to forget me again... kinda sucks but I love my job but I just hate losing so much time as 3 months is about 4 days to me... I have a passion for driving still but I hate how most of my friends just seem to forget I exist in the time im gone :x

So I have been looking for a fan art of the main character with toriel in there room with people hauling in cases of diapers and toriel having a thought bubble saying "what is wrong with this child?" been looking for days as I thought it was super funny and forgot to fav it on the road xP please help ty~

love how I see somany people complain and bleh bleh then when I say something I get told get the fuck over it.... lovely world we live in >.> meh Tired of everything it seems @.@

So today im going to be departing on my bus to goto trucking school... Im gonna be gone for possibly months if I pass all my tests.... I love you all and cant wait to see you all again <3

decided to clear out my journal cause whynot xD plus people are trying to spoil there surprises >:C

sooo yeah pretty good day today :o got car parts I needed and slep okies

so I was gonna goto megaplex but my "friend" [was gonna help pay for gas/room] got upset with me cause I diddent go onto skype to speak to him cause my aunt could be a vegetable from a motor bike accident [whole family has been busy] and work is stressing me out to the point of mental breakdowns... my cars been giving me random issues..... Seriously just sick of most baby furs at this point as im always bit in the ass when trying to be with people with the same interests *sighs* so theres my rant for the few weeks [not that anyone ever reads these]

so recently my P-71 has been acting up from her tranny slipping to no power at all.... soooo today I got 2 quarts of ATF and lucas no slip and well x3 tires shall be shreded >w> the tranny is much betters with normal shifting and no "hard" shifting <3 now I just gotta assess the the leak x3 buh yeah my car is mostly fine now :p

Well lets start off with why im upset... So recently one of my bffs has been run off of Fa and avoiding contact with anyone :/ ... Then i get my hopes up about meeting a daddy like figure Only to find out i already knew them and they dont really care much for me or kind of dislike me.... Then to top it all off my "new" car has a CEL on and is running alittle meh.... Litterally am i just cursed or some thing? *sighs*

so as of recent me and my mate had broken up after being togather for 5 years... as of this its kindof how zilia explained how most online relationships are mostly destend for failing. im not going to go into detail about this as yes I am hurting and I just want to get it out of the way before it hurts me more... those of you who read this thank you for bring there for me... now comes the close of a chapter and hopefully a better one will open...

so today on my way home from work someone cut me off and hit the brakes causeing me to lock up and hit them... there 2014 nissian rolled away with 50 $ in damage and pissed off no tickets were issued and I rolled away with 1400 or 400$ in vehicle damage because I pretty much went under there car and my whole passenger side is wanged :x and my car is going to have to be jerry rigged to get me home and to work x.x

Welp Im back [not that anyone cares...] But anyways ended up getting another server since it saved me a bunch of cash and is easily upgraded unlike old one. But on the other hand I remembered I dont really have much anything to do in the first place...

So today i bought a new gpu which woulda worked fine if i bought the adapter... Well im impatiant with my toys :s so i bought a new power supply so i diddent have to special order adapter. Well that was a bad idea.. Computer has a specialized motherboard n powersuply so it did not work :x okay no harm no faoul. Well when i put pc back to how i had it, all worked well until sparks flew and powersuply blew up x.x okay so now i have A good powersuply that i cant use and a busted one x.x and i cant get a new one since ibm discontinued my comp >.< so i Wont be on fa much until i build a new pc and i hate phone fa

Just one of those days I guess :\ I know its xmas but it feels more of a day off from work lol... but really im just down about missing people and friends :\ love you all and wish you all a happy holidays

welp one of my child hood holidays is kinda dead for me now ._. Used to love Halloween being with my big brother trick or treating and having fun but now... its just crap :x was home alone passing out candy when no one shows up so meh... everyone went out and had fun and I was stuck home by myself playing SL while my other friends were also out :x so lonely night no fun and meh x.x

Meh kitty is meh.... sick of things x.x sick of "friends" ignoreing me and whatevers...

Just been a rut week.... had to help step father change a PT cruiser timing belt [sucks arse and we had to do it Effing twice! Dx] then just feel alittle anti social and lonely.... then realizeing some personal things and meh hasnt been a great week/month :\ been walking in circles on many things x.x

Meh tommarows my birthday woo *spins fingers in sarcastic excitement* but yeah may not be on for a few days since im probly gonna be sleeping all day. Anyways for those who bother to read thanks and love yall

Well tomorrow is graduation x3 and well we went out for lunch with my aunt. Well I thought we were just gonna eat and chat but they brought balloons and a card :3 and my mother got me a burger king crown and tied the balloons around my wrist so they wouldent float away >w< Not really fun or cool to others but I love those random little feeling moments ;w; <3

Happy birthday to my best buddy/padded play mate Spec5 aka moogie x3 http://www.furaffinity.net/user/specs5/ go and wish her a happy birth day :D

Press F5 to refressh x3 *crinkles* If I fits I sits :3

Well its been quite a good week since I met my new buddy Specs5 [her profile: http://www.furaffinity.net/user/specs5/ ] Shes been nothing but awesome and nice to me and I am happy about it. :3 If chu see this I luffs yah buddy and thanks for being such an awesome person :D ^^

Okay seriously I am sick of being nice to people and going out of my way to help them when they just fck me over in the end.... Seriously Why why do people always do this shiz to me... I mean iv had atleast 4 close friends just disappear off the radar and just ignore me... Im sick of this I really am...

Okay so my brother took me to a computer grave yard and you will not belive what we got for 50$

Specs:
Intel(R) Xeon(R) CPU E5440 @ 2.83GHz
2.8 GHz cpu speed
20 GB ram
then my brothers hammy down card
GeForce GTX 460
was an awesome find :3 also I got to try on my new skirt and sissy abu padding <3