First off, my computer time has been severely lacking lately due to a bunch of IRL factors, and I apologize for my spotty behavior. It's 3:14am and I have to be to work in 45 minutes or so, so I don't have time to check a whole bunch of things, such as the names of people that I owe art to, but let me assure you that I do have everyone on file in my head and in my computer, or otherwise in my sketchbook, and I know it's taking a long time, which I also apologize for, and if you feel it necessary to get refunds, for those of you still waiting on paid projects, let me know and simply give me time to transfer money from bank to paypal, as I currently have the funds to do so.

Now on to what this journal is more about, my mature content situation. I'm hereby officially giving a warning to any future commissioners that any mature content will also have to be tasteful in nature. Now, this isn't saying that I won't do sex or sexual things, but simply that I know that should you ask for something explicit and you expect dirty, slimy, messy things, you will be sorely disappointed. I plan on trying later to learn to make something less tasteful, because I like the nasty stuff too at times. I'm only human, after all, but I won't be taking risks on commissions, and I'd rather do things like that on my own time. Thank you~

And as for switching accounts, it has been mulling over in my head for a very long time, and I think it's a much-needed change in my 'internet-life'. I won a character awhile back from  doirn. A lynx character named Seth, who came with a spiffy account,  sethie

On account of the new lynx fursona, I decided maybe I'd just jump ship over there, and adopt the name Seth for my 'sona. This isn't gonna be done right now or anything, but y'know, within the month. ;P Nothing's gonna change on this account, no deletions or anything, and there really won't be any reuploads there, so it'll be like a new person, hopefully.

Anyway, I'm naked and need to get dressed now, so I'll see you guys later and hopefully have some more commissions finished tonight, then maybe get back to trades if I'm not burned out. 8(

I MUST DESTROY.

Anything breakable at foot level must be kicked. B(

I dunno why I must kill mushrooms, but if I see them in the grass, I kick them. Same with icicles near foot level. Or anywhere I can reach, honestly. ICICLLLLEEEESSS.

They're everywhere.

It's fucking cold here in Canad- ...Maine.

They are not serious business.

I really don't understand people announcing that they will be on hiatus for personal reasons(unless you want to tell us the personal reasons) or people who need everyone to know how they are 'quitting'.

I dunno, I just think people take things too seriously. When I get sick of the internet, I shut my computer off. I'll tell the important people if I won't be around for more than a day, but that's about it.

Many eons ago, I quit both Gaia and DA. Neither of which I announced. Which, yanno, is unfortunate, considering on DA I knew some really awesome people I wish I still talked to, but it is what it is. I don't feel like going to DA anymore. *shrugs* Maybe I got bored with it. Maybe I found something better(Oh hey, FA). And I got hacked on Gaia and had spent well over two years getting the shit, so I just stopped going on. I told my IRL friends that talked to me there, but again...

But if I announce I'm leaving a place, I know I'd eventually decide to return. Unless it's really over, in which case, I don't think anyone would need to know.

Anyway, I'm just rambling cuz I'm tired and hungry and an artist I like just made a journal about how they must find themselves by deleting their gallery and hiatusing from FA, and it irked the hell out of me, so there is my two cents.

If I ever disappear from FA, it's probably a hiatus from the computer in general for myself. Or maybe for video games. Or maybe I got some friends offline and have better ways to entertain myself. Or maybe I'm exercising. Or have a JOB THAT KEEPS ME FOREVER. Plenty of possibilities. And I'll be back, probably within a week, unless I don't have internet connection. I at least check FA every day, even if I don't comment or post anything.

SORRY FOR MY BRAIN-VOMIT. UGH, STRESS. MY LIFE, WHAT IS IT?

I don't have to be happy to be a nice person, and some things can't be explained. Sur-fucking-prise.

Also, my haircut was fucked up, because AS USUAL, no one can BOTHER to follow my instructions. They arr simple. Cut the sides and leave the front. LEAVE IT. HOW HARD IS IT TO GRASP NOT CUTTING WHAT I DON'T WANT YOU TO CUT?

So much fucking rage.

My phone won't charge. It needs a new battery or new charger, but in the meantime it is DEAD.

Quite a few months off, but I'm thinking of going. I want to get an artist's alley table, but I don't have any fanart because I don't... I'm really not much of a fan of anything. I might try doin' some art of old-school anime like Trigun and Cowboy Bebop. I gotta look for a place to make some nice prints around here.

It'd be my first con going alone and my first Artist's Alley. If anyone has gone before, what's the scene like?

Sittin in a McDonald's before work, listening to the most fucking obnoxious person ever talk in the most nasal voice ever in the next booth while lookin at trans furry porn on my ipod.

My life is fail.

I have a lot of plans this year to become a better and more independant person. Mostly more independant, I hardly care about being "better". Unless we are talking healthwise. I want to lose some weight and make my legs more useable, but biking isn't an option since this entire town is HILLS and I need moderate resistance at most or I'll risk tearing my knees up more.

Also, it's looking like I'm gonna have to wait for Gainesville to try starting T. Which is fine, since that means I'm going tp drop the subject around my fucking asshole grandmother. Everything should be about HER anyway e.e

In better news, I think she's giving the dog away. He doesn't respond to training or discilpline, and I'm always stuck taking care of him. I don't care how old you are, don't get a fucking dog if you aren't going to feed it or get off your lazy ass to walk it a few times a day.

My Winzip trial ended.

How does everyone else unzip those .zip or .rar files?

Looks like I'm gonna live.

lol D:

Anyway, here's what happened after that journal. I went in to work and they saw how bad I looked. Also the owner was there and when he's there the manager is all careful about everything, so I didn't even clock in, she just sent me home.

From there, I bought two bottles of water and an orange juice through drive through *so I didn't have to get out of my car and because we only had fucking PEPSI at home, which isn't good for you regardless of how much you are or aren't throwing up* and went home and tried to sleep while drinking from the water bottles. I didn't want the OJ just yet, cuz y'know... acid. Still haven't drank the OJ, but I spent all day sleeping, though every now and then I got on my ipod or checked my phone, so yes, I got everyone's messages, and thank you guys, fo sho~

Well, I woke up this morning and I'm dizzy and dehydrated *My body rejected the water yesterday, it sucked*, so I'm gonna drink some water and try to eat something since I didn't eat anything yesterday. But otherwise I feel much better. No more blood in my throat even! I think. Not like I can really check. BI

Throwing up, coughing and saliva has blood in it, soooo

Let's hope everything goes okay. Oh right, and I have work. Apparently there are no extenuating circumstances. I didn't know I was this sick until an hour before work so guess who gets to serve coffee.

Fuck. My. Life.

HNNNNNNNNG

HNNNNNNNNG

BRB AVIATOR HAT TIME

WHO NEEDS SLEEP? I'M GONNA GO OUTSIDE AND FREEZE MY ASS OFF

Then it will be tea time.

Also my stomach is bothering the fuck out of me. You guys ever experience that tightness in your chest where it feels like your stomach is overstuffed(I mean your actual stomach, it's up in your chest n' all) and trying to come up your throat but it's not acidic and doesn't burn, just feels REALLY TIGHT and uncomfortable? Anyone know how to remedy this? D:

CAN'T SLEEP.

SNOW.

UGH

Ugh

I look back at my art from last year.

It's like... better.

v.v

Anyone got a cure for this?

I'd give up both of my legs for a few good friends to hang out with and a bottle of birthday cake vodka. :(

Both of my legs. All the way up to my hip bone.

Damn, that week in Mankato. Best week ever. Stell and I should go back in time and just freeze it there. This is totally plausible, and I'm getting right on it now.

In some good news, the next two weeks I have two days off each week, so I might have time and energy to do stuff that doesn't make me feel like stabbing myself in the face with a pencil.

It is required by law that you are paid for all hours worked, including meetings scheduled outside of regular work hours if they are mandatory meetings.

Every week, we have mandatory meetings which we aren't allowed to clock in, so we don't get paid. Who should I bring this to the attention to, because I'm pretty fuckin sure my employers know about it?

Is it any good? Does it suck? Should I bother getting one at all? Would you watch me if I did?

WHY OR WHY NOT?

I am fuckin' lazy and hate forcing myself to go to new websites, but I feel the need to spread like a disease over the internet. BI

So, as an awesome part of the drive coming up to Maine, I was riding beside a van in like, Connecticut or something and a guy popped out the window and was all "HEY YO, WANT A FREE CD? LIKE PUNK FOLK?" And I was all "SURE BRAH", and then I got a CD thrown at me and it was... actually pretty good as far as independent music goes, IMO.

So, I finally got around to looking them up, and this is all I got:
http://robinhoodtheband.bandcamp.co.....m/the-big-damn

AND SINCE THEY ARE SMALL-TIME SO FAR AND I LIKED THE MUSIC, I thought I would share. They sound a little like Flogging Molly(As far as the Irish-style kind of punk sound, not voice-wise or anything really), so if you like that and are interested in trying something out, look into it ;P

GUUUH

So much... video gaming.

I got Skyrim, then I got Saint's Row: The Third, and then From Dust. All of which were fucking awesome BI

Saint's Row, a game I never would have looked twice at if not for  remnantwolfe, is EASILY my favorite game series now. And there's apparently another one planned. If it is any more ridiculous or awesome than this one, my head will probably explode. Probably.

From Dust, for anyone who doesn't know, is an Xbox Arcade(and maybe PSN, but I never use the PSN, so I wouldn't know) downloadable game for I think like... 1600 points or so. But so worth it @u@ It kind of feels like a mix between Dark Cloud and something else I have played but forget the name of, but shit is so fun, fo sho. I love games where you more or less play a god figure and you have to shape the world for it's inhabitants. And while I fucked up quite a bit, and burned a lot of my own villages with lava n' stuff(lol), I beat it within a few days. Still fun though.

BUT DAT SAINT'S ROW. I made Valerie in it. As usual, I started him off in a snazzy suit, but it quickly devolved from that into a female biker outfit, with his high heels and bare midrift, and now he's just... sorta in high heeled boots and a black thong with a heart on it. God damn I wish I had this shit on PC, just so I could screenshot that shit XD (Shut up, I find it strangely attractive)

Now... I'm gonna go back to drawing. And trying to fix my computer's time again. BUH.

No one ordered any earlier and I'm a bit tired anyway. Maybe tomorrow!

FOR ANYONE WHO MISSED MY LAST TWO~

Or whoever would rather wait till tomorrow night for their sketches/thinks they won't make it and shows up tomorrow/whatever.

I think I'll be doing the same-night sketches all this week, but doing them differently from here on out.

Five slots available right now~ If you don't think you'll be online around 11:00pm EST, leave whether you want a chibi or a headshot(both are just $5), AND A REFERENCE. This is important. Also I would ask you questions about shit, so here, have a form.

I WANT ONE~
Character ref:
Chibi or Headshot:
Notes about character: (please keep this short)
A pose or mood in mind?:

It's single characters only(not.. that they are not in a relationship, I'm just not drawing pictures with multiple characters), and there are FIVE slots.

First five to give me all the details I need get the spots. This means if I have to ask you a question and you don't respond promptly and someone else comes up behind you, they get your spot. IT'S DOG EAT DOG OUT HERE. Might open extra spots if I do some before work.

POST HERE 8D

Please send it as a purchase. Whether of goods or services, I don't care. You don't need to pay the fee, I will probably never have a time in my life where OMG I NEED THIS AMOUNT OF MONEY EXACTLY where I don't just fuckin... round up. Otherwise, it's totally fine. It's like businesses paying taxes, but smaller cuz I sell artwork not as much BI

But seriously. I don't wanna fuck around with paypal atm.

Also, you really don't need to do anything as far as sending me a note. Generally I'm not flooded with donations or payments(though if you all wanna donate to the 'Get Mavu the fuck out of Dunkin Donuts' fund... Just sayin.) so I take it in good faith that if you owe me five dollars, then you tell me 'sent', it is sent. Not a damn one of you has lied yet. The moment that changes, Hell WILL break loose. Promise. But until then, I trust you. I know I shouldn't. People tell me that trusting is stupid all the time. But if you don't trust people now and then, shit never gets done and you end up a paranoid WRECK... like... I am... right now... BUT WHATEVER. YEAH. I'm gonna draw more chibis now!

Thanks for coming with me on this detour~ <3

I had to work tonight and I wanna do some personal art as well as play more Saint's Row: The Third, so I'm only gonna take five tonight. The same deal as last night $5 chibi or headshot, add a dollar if ypu want a pen sketch or colored pencil lines :3

1.  joykill
2.  sorako


EDIT: It's 2am, I gotta scoot. BI Catch me tomorrow! I will do this every night until I burn out.

A pencil sketch Chibi or a pencil sketch headshot. I'll have it done tonight BI

I need a few extra dollahs, and I'm in an arting mode. With any luck, I'll have four out of five commissions(mostly) done by tonight. (Two are done already and one is halfway there :D)

The colored sketch will have to wait for just a little longer.

Other than that... you can request pen lines(still sketchy pen lines) or colored pencil lines(your choice of color) for $1 more. GO GO GO I'LL SEE HOW MANY I CAN FINISH *o*

EDIT: This has been a really productive night! I might actually try to do this again sometime! But for now, my back is starting to hurt really bad from the way I sit while drawing, so I'm just gonna finish up these last two orders, then that's it for the night. :>

Thank you guys! REALLY, SERIOUSLY, I appreciate the fuck out of it. And I hope to have everyone else's commishes done soon as well. :> ART IS GETTING DONE AND IT FEELS GOOD. I need more weeks where I close every day BX

Remember to buy the Harper Hall Trilogy :I I mean it, me. Do NOT forget.

So! I get paid today. It will probably all go to winterizing my car or getting insurance. My mom told me that insurance through USAA would only be $28 per month for me, so that's no biggie. But here in Maine, shit's crazy. Thankfully my car is front wheel drive, so I don't have much problem in the snow, but I still need snow tires to feel like I'm not gonna DIE.

In other news, I've run out of sketchbook. Hopefully I can pick one up todat, but I'll have to walk, due to my car still being buried in the snow. But walking is good for me.

I hope everyone had a good Turkey Day. If you are curious, I didn't. I had to work, then my grandma happily forced me to clean and run errands regardless. I ended up going to sleep at around 7:30pm and slept the entire night x.x

But I've got a few commissions to work on that are at least getting random scribbles here or there. I can never guarantee I won't do personal stuff before finishing, but with any luck sketches will be done soon and I'll even have a tablet to start on colors.

Now I've spent my entire break writing this journal, so PEACE

My cat is in heat.

So.

Upset. :(

Guess she's defs six months old now. Though her meowing isn't loud, it's awfully depressing. Her voice makes it sound like crying. I wish she'd shut up so I could sleep though x.x

She 's defs getting fixed after I do my car stuff.