I have to go to the mental hospital. I tried to kill myself last night. I took 200mg ambien and had to drink charcoal. I wasn't admitted last night because I lied to them when they asked if it was suicide. There were no beds open anyway.

I will make a new account when I can think of a good handle since like I said- I'm not Maya anymore. There's an actress with a name too similar to this one. I don't see the point because I don't have anything to upload but sometimes I still comment peoples' art and buy commissions.

Sending love to all my watchers.

I want to change my username at some point because I'm not Maya Dawne anymore. Not since I learned there is an actress named Maya Dawe. I don't have time though. No point. I still don't have it in me to make art but wanted to say hi to everyone. I moved again. I moved from NM to NY and stayed there a little over a year then arrived in WA about a week ago. I'm the "unicorn" in a poly relationship with a married man and woman. I started to smoke pot on a regular basis and have had more ideas for art. I might try eventually because my music rig is disassembled right now. I only have so much time and it makes more sense to work on music instead of draw furries. The pot makes me feel more content with my existence instead of having to justify it, though. As usual, I'm more preoccupied with surviving and coping with my chronic illness instead of being creative at all...

Turns out there's an actor named Maya Dawe. One letter off from my name. Now I feel stupid going as Maya Dawne.