Its pretty cringe worthy, I will say.
I know I have neglected this page for a good 2 months, I'm sorry. I will be coming back here more often. The big surprise is still in the works getting details worked out(wow maze two months later and that surprise is still hidden, must not exist huh?) Yes I know taking forever, working on it.
On the upside holy crap 122 watchers, I mean damn, I'm surprised I passed 50. So Thank You guys very much for watching. That's enough of me, I'll(hopefully) see you guys when the surprise is revealed, which if I'm lucky will be soon!

so I moved a lot of my crappy sketches and drawings into my scraps and keeping all the art I love in my submissions, as my page says this page is still under construction, and there may be a big surprise coming up hopefully soon, keep an eye out for that!
CHEERS!!

I'm so confused. I don't know how to feel anymore, sometimes I'll meet someone who I get very attracted to and they are a female or gender fluid, but I see myself mostly wanting a relationship with a guy, and at this point, I don't know what to think anymore. Like right now I'm falling for this person I know, but then I meet someone who just makes me feel happy but then I think about the other person, and I blush and don't know what to think anymore. Right now I think I'm panromantic, but I just don't feel that way, I more see myself as gay, but I don't know anymore, its too hard to tell.

Nothing like anything else ive been to, best thing ever. The people are so great and kind and helpful! And I still have tomorrow and sunday, Im so happy right now! and i bought a tail finally!



can you tell im happy?

now as we see the obvious with the new beta, and my opinion is, its great not only have they improved the site's layout but they kept the classic furaffinity feel to the site. it looks good, runs good, feels good. cant really complain. now on to updates. I unwatched a lot of people, no, no one got into my account, I did it. I feel like I need to clean out clutter and people who are immature/childish. So if I did unwatched you, sorry but I just feel like I need to do so. I will also be updating my page, right now it is very ugly, and I know I can keep it more organized. I also plan on beginning graphic art, so that(may) come in the future. but as always I sign out my normal ways.
CHEERS!!!!!

1. calm the fuck down(not the end of the world)
2. staying
3. #notmyproblemforabuisnessdesition

So as of right now I will be taking down my ref sheet, and some pictures of maze. now this may not seem important to you but ill tell you why this should mean some form of important to you. Maze is basically the me I can never express, Maze's personality is almost parallel to mine, and the design of maze is also very important to me as well, and as of right now, there is only 2 or 3 pictures of maze that are remotely accurate, the ref I currently have for him is very inaccurate and(not pointing fingers or naming names, towards the artist at hand) kind of unprofessional, now some of you may say oh well why don't you make a new ref sheet yourself, or buy one. That's the thing its not that easy for some people. I'm not artistic at all, some people such as myself feel they have no possessive artistic skill or talent. And as for the commissioning a ref, lets just say I'm very lucky to even have a computer. getting a ref from a professional artist that is accurate and detailed would be a god sent. Am I trying to be whiny: Hopefully I don't come across that way. Am I complaining: no. Am I depressed that I am unable to represent my character accurately: yes. Maze in a sense, means the world to me, not only is having a character that can reflect the true emotion of said person be amazing, but also it can symbolize freedom in a sense. We live in a crazy world, we create these characters, these fursonas, these reflections, as a way to escape this fucked up place we call earth. And I know not a lot of people will be seeing this journal, so if you can please, please share this anyone, anyone, it would mean quite a lot to me personally. I feel like something like this is meant to be seen. If I ever work out getting an accurate ref from a professional artist, ill let you guys know, but as of right now, its just going to be hidden for awhile. Have a good night.
CHEERS!!!!!

yes im a little shit, I get it, I was on hiatus(sorta) but now im back(sorta).
Updates: lets get this over with, Im not going to be posting much for i don't have new art to upload, im not an artist, I dont do much(ohfuckinwell) now, fursuit, dun have one(yet, workin on that little detail), cons, wow look at that, im actually attempting to go to a convention this year, Animenext in somerset, new jersey, so im gonna try and get pre reg, so i can have some fucking fun. with that have a good night.
CHEERS!!!

Ive been having a shit ton of them latly, between freaking out for when a firedrill will happen at my school(state requirment for schools to have at least one a month, plus the fact I have autism and anxiety issues doesnt add well) and the recent problem ad MFF this sunday, is making my anxiety go through the roof! and worst part is I dont know how to handle it, i havent had anxiety attacks or really bad anxiety like this at all until latly. and for those of you who were at mff, my hopes will be out, thanks again and take care. CHEERS!

This thanks giving was great! ate some mash potatoes, corn, and black pearl olives(im a slut for olives >.>)
spent sometime with my assome family, and watched chitty chitty bang bang(fucking love that movie still)
what did you guys do for thanksgiving? whatcha eat? was it fun? hope to see you guys again soon, and my youtube channel is still under construction. awell. Have a happy turkey day guys!!!CHEERS!!!

so yes I did remove a bunch of journals. WHY? well simple, they were very negative. negativity will be no more on this page(unless necessary) Ive sorta started some new stuff, what is that new stuff you may ask...YOUTUBE! I'm finally starting a gaming/other stuff channel!! information will be vague for the time being until I put my first video up. I'm also taking a big interest in graphic design and video intro animation. so watch out for that as well!! so yeah have a wonderful day and see all y'all later!CHEERS!

So as some of you know my birthday was pretty recent, and one of my gifts was a new computer(YAY!!) so im begining to add people on steam for online gameplay ect. So put your steam in the comments and ill add ya!! CHEERS!

Thank you soo much for the birthday wishes!! I would have thanked you all individually but it would have been alittle difficalt! But any who thanks you for the Happy Birthday!! Ive also unfortunatly fallen a tad ill this birthday, soo that sucks but you know who cares! So today was my official birthday and im now 15 and stuff, yeah nothing much else to say! Thank you guys and have an awsome halloween, I will be posting my costume tomorrow but for now gotta study for quarterlies and get some rest so I can not be sick any more!! Have a good time guys and see you all around!! CHEERS!

So yes tomorrow is my birthday and stuff, I wasnt gonna make a big deal out of it but why not!(btw yes im typing this at school, IM A MASTER HACKER!(not really, the internet is free here!)

Yes I know old news, just got an account so add me, ye.

Update:account name is MazeTheHusky or Maze Cobbleton.

As the title says, thank you guys!! And no this isnt a little thank you like "oh thank you guys blah blah blah" NO, this is thank you guys..so so much for helping me out alot throughout my problems and such, you guys really dont even understand jusy how much this fandom means to me right now!! If you guys didnt exist, I probably wouldnt be alive today, thank you guys for all your support and help throughout the time ive been here, I love this fandom and will never give it up!!

Well my last resort to a form of income in the fandom is now crushed, I have no talents and no fursuit and no money. I give up, money ripped my life apart, I cant please you guys anymore, if you want to unwatch go fucking ahead, I dont care anymore...

Yes, the battlefield bad co. 2 servers have been shut down...for the past 6 months, you people should really check the forum before spamming me with questions on xbox.

Its 9:00 eastern time, im still in the clear, so ask questions or sometin ¯\_(ツ)_/¯.

Now im not one to complain about art but this is physically bothering, my fursona Maze has a mohawk not a limp one either, like a full standing mohawk, its tallest at the top and gets shorter as you go further back(it still has the orange tips aswell), and he also has a tougne pericing(recent addition) I just want to say this because this is my fursona and it is how I imagine him, like I said before I dont like to complain about art being bad, art of my fursona is always awsome to have but I just wanted to say this, when I get a computer soon im gonna get paint tool sai and start doin art aswell and maybe requests but my art sucks so probably not, anyways have a nice day!

So I joined the furry fandom back in september 23 of last year, I joined FA back in like christmas or somewhere near there and heres my opinion, and guess what if you dont like it click the back button now, when I joined FA, my intentions where to meet new furries and make new friends ect ect. And yes I have but there is something dissapointing about this site, when I joined alls I saw was marketing and self promotion, "buy my stuff, $100 commision deal, THIS IS FOR SALE COME BUY IT!!!" Like really and then I went to browse and all of it was fetishes and disgutsing shit, like I can sit here and enjoy regular art but I dont want to see gross stuff. Like we already have soo many steryotypes put up against us as a fandom why must we create more, now im not leaving the fandom Im not leaving FA those are not my intentions but can we please and dont take this in a full serious context but can we please get our shit together, sorry for rant and mindlessly flapping of my gums but this is just how I feel, not to mention somthing I noticed that is really alarming, if you have a good quality suit people want to be your friend, but if you have a low quality or no suit at all, no one will notice you, and its really sad, I cant afford to buy even a decent suit, and I know what your gonna say, "WHY DONT YOU MAKE YOU OWN!!" Jee I wonder why maybe its because im not good at it and if I have a low quality suit no one will like me, like I understand "you make a suit for the feeling of having a suit and becoming that character" but what is the point of doing it if no one is watching you become that character. Again im sorry for my rant and my opinion but I think its something you guys should think about, If you guys bother reading this that is...

Okay so i know exactly what you are thinking. "MAZE DONT LEAVE!" Well im not, well actually to be more specific im not leaving intentionaly, let me explain. So as you know I have just barly been on here latly due to school other sites and apps ect. but im staying here just not much, I dont have art to upload, I dont have money to do anything interesting so whats the fucking point of saying anything if no one is goin to listen. Now to the good part, as you guys know FA is comming out with some pretty big updates and such and with that alot is going on, now heres the kicker, I forgot my FA password and the site is telling me the email I used is invalid which it isnt, I still have the email, but in the event that I get logged out I cant log back in, which would also mean I have to make a new account, and that would be pure hell to do. So just keep your eye out on my page if you see a shout saying I have a new account, anyways blah blah blah bullshit blah blah blah, have a nice day.

So as you guys know ive not been around for awhile, oh with these suicidal thoughts and rapid depression taking over im as sunny as a fucking peach(disclaimer:yes ive had suicidal thoughts, but am I gonna kill myself for bullshit reasons..nope) as you can see ive fucked myself over once again. Im a bag of skin and bones with high hope for my future only to be crushed and fucked by a creepy guy on drugs. But im pulling myself togeather, and if your wondering yes im fine, no I dont need help, please focus on yourselves. I know ive been so frustrated not only making myself happy but also the people around me. As you know I could not attend FA:U this year due to dumbfucks ruining my family's bank account. BUT(I HAVE A BUT) im going to fricken highschool this year, im becoming more mature and need to heal myself. I need to stop acting like a child and fucking grow up. And everytime I come back here to FA my journal slots ARE FILLED!!! Its coming to a point were I need to unwatch people who I feel I dont have personal friendship with. Things are also easing up with my mother, as some of you know ive had problems with my family but things are better now and keep getting better. My mom loves the fandom she is actually wanting me to go to con and make new friends and such(and hopfully I can talk to her letting me get my hair dyed). But as of right now im kinda screwing up my life and trying to get it together but I promise ill be okay. So for now I bid you all adue and keep staying fancy my people.

So as of late my life has gone down the gutter, im eating terribly, im not getting any sleep ect. ect. I have not been getting any vitamins or potassium latly and its frightening my family, my mom is very afraid im gonna have to go the hospital, and I can agree I look and feel like a wreck. Not to mention ive pretty much starved myself. Im not in a good condition, im worried ill have to spend time in the hospital and things arent getting much better. Although im starting to take vatamins, and other stuff to help me, its still worrying, when school starts again I might put up a new picture of me, but not right now Im a mess. I hope to see some people at the con, its looking like I might be able to go but we'll see. Bye guys have a nice night/day.