HOLY CRAP!!!! Blew what was left of my mind!!!! Great graffics, smooth gameplay, amazing story!!!! HOLY SHIT!!!

I just figured out that honda days is held every year in the state that I live in, im very happy right now!!!

Thinking about making a tumblr, I need your guy's thoughts, yay or nay.

I fricken love death note @___@
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So today I talked to my mom about the fandom again, and now she is happy, infact she loves my character maze and get this!!! She says if we get enough money, I CAN GO TO FA UNITED!!! Im ÜBER HAPPY RIGHT NOW!!! She says she loves my characters and my main fursona and just, AGGGHH IM SO HAPPY RIGHT NOW!!!!

So I really want to cosplay as an anime character and make it a good cosplay but I dont know what to cosplay as. Halp. If you need a picture of what I look like, look in my scraps.

So me and a really good friend were talking about FA United, its a con in my state that is like an hour and a half away, but im very afraid to ask my mom if I can go, she knows im in the fandom, but we havent talked about it for the past year. Halp ;_;.

So latly if you cannot tell by my recent journals, my life has kinda gone to shit, but im still trying to make the best of shit. Im gonna be getting mg first computer soon, woooo!! Gonna sell my stereo and rc helichopter, im getting a new ps4 in febuary or january, but there is one down side to my new buying habits. Que the sad music, dearly beloved we are gathered here today to blablahvlag something about hopes and dreams and shit, in other words, furusit is gonne be put on hold. But that gives me enough time to think about which maker I want to go with and if I wanna go with one that is more money than the other. But I will be buying a fursuit before im 18 that IS a garentee. But for now since im being very weird and such why not throw in a tmi tuesday, ask questions if you wish!!

So back when I was really little I would allways watch t.v. shows and movies that involved animals that didnt always acted like animals, such as looney toons, disney, tom and jerry, ect.(but lets face it who didnt, its proven that young children are intrested in shows and movies that involve fantasy chracters, which includes furries).
Back in 2012, early 2012 I was watching videos about the taos new mexico hum, and I came upon a speedpaint video that the person was drawing feral tigers and I loved the art and the characters and pretty much loved all pictures that involved feral tigers but still, acted slightly human. Then in late 2012 early 2013 I saw a video from the show taboo(at the time my mom frowned upon the show taboo) so I got curious and at first I watched three episodes, one was just body modification, no big deal, the other was something about drugs, didnt want to get involved, then the third video witch involved furries and at first I was like "eh not really my style im just gonna ignore this" then About a year later and I started looking more and more up about the fandom and becoming more and more intrested. Then in september I just said why not and join in, and in october I sorta found my fursona(if you look at my older work thats what maze use to look like, I deffinatly like him better now) and in december I got an FA, and started meeting you awsome people!!! And yet im still not that involved in the fandom, I dont have a badge, havet been to a meet or con, dont have a fursuit or tail(YET!!!) and yadadadada. Oh and the updates, mmm sorry forgot, have a goodnight peoples!! :D

Regaurding my last journal, im fine now, sometimes I just need to suck it up and take a ride. Sorry for the scare beutiful people, just need to calm down alil bit!! Sorry guys.!

Sometimes I question why I stay on the internet(or stay alive) conisdering on how evil and mean people are spreading rumors about me and my mental disabilities, I hate everthing right now.

Where is everyone?.....oh yeah everyone is haveing fun at a con without me, ill just scoot back to my corner. Yup this my weekend...yay. -__-

So I just now got up from being passed out for 2 hours from the heat. My A/C was destroyed in sandy. So I get up from being face down on my bed for 2 hours feeling like I have a bad headache and felling very nausius. I go outside into my living room and tell my mom and she says "so have you cleaned your room yet?" I cant stand living with her anymore. Things havent gotton so bad, im really desprate at this point and yes im still very light headed.

Before we begin, yes this is a vent but it is important to know why sometimes I cant let myself be me orelse my family will judge me. For one my they are homophobic and transfobic, one time my mom said if I ever turn gay she will send me to my grandparents house with no internet and no friends and im not allowd to go to colledge, if I become homosexual or bisexual. And with the transphobic thing, one time me and my mom were driving around philidelphia to find a resteraunt and there were two transgendered individuals there and my mom told me that they were disgusting, ugly and terible people(I dont thing transgendered people are bad, they are just being themselves), my whole family is hypocritical, my mom says that im never ever allowed in my life to dye my hair while at the same time my little sister dyed here hair blue and my big sister had her hair bleached, not to mention my mom has had her hair multiple different colors. And I think the worst part is my mom has said if I ever run away or go to an adoption agency, she will lie to the police and have me put into a juvinile detention center. Oh and my family hates furries, my mom has even said to my face that(in her opinion) the fandom is nothing more that a bunch of 30 year old men with not girlfriends or freetimes for friends at all. Thanks mom, thanks for hitting it were it hurts.
Now me im bisexual, im a furry, and I would die to have my hair dyed. Its comming to a point were im emberassed to be seen around my family, and I have no one to talk to about it, I have no counsolers, no friends to actually help me, and no one to turn to.

Sorry, my evil mother wont let me go even if someone offered to pay for everything......FUCK!!!!!

So, I have been pretty bored/busy latly with graduation comming up and having a waterpark field trip from my school(dont touch my back, my sunburn hurts like hell :/) so my gaduatiom is this thurdays and I have an outfit picked out and there will be a new ID picture of me looking fancy!! I also plan on getting a partial over the summer by of my main fursona, Maze obviously, and I now have 5 fursonas which will be in a list down below!! Anyways have super awsome night/day!!

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FURSONAS

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1.) Maze
Species:husky
Age:19
Height:6'2"
Weight:167lbs
S/o:bisexual
2.)Titus
Species:german shepard
Age:28
Height:6'5"
Weight:173lbs
S/o:asexual
3.)Doofus
Species:sheep dog
Age:17
Height:5'6"
Weight:145lbs
S/o:strait
4.)Mako
Species:kangaroo
Age:20
Height:5'10"
Weight:170lbs
S/o:bisexual
5.)Malta
Species:raccoon
Age:24
Height:5'8"
Weight:153lbs
S/o:strait.

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I LIKE VIDEOGAMES WHAT CAN I SAY

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so aperently, today friday the 13th, 2014 at 6:30P.M. I completed my #1 favorite game in the entire world, what is that games you may ask? Well Battlefield3 ofcourse!!! Never before have I seen a story in a game go soo deep into emotion of the characters, if you have not played bf3 yet, put that on your fucking bucket list!!!

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*click, click* whats th- *BOOM HEADSHOT*

I LOVE GAMES WHAT CAN I SAY

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After doing much research from E3 and multiple other sorces, not only is battlefield hardline comming out for the xbox 360, but after watching and IGN interview with one of the desingers for Forza Horizon 2!! They say not inly is it for xbox one, BUT FOR FRICKEN 360 ASWELL!!! Im so fricken excited!!! Gaming will never be the same for me ever again!!!!!!

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TIME FOR MY BEST FRIEND, GOOD OLE' C4

Anyone know any good chat rooms you can link me too? RP is fine aswell, but im bored and its a friday!!!

So last night, I had this dream(like everyone else) but my dream was different, in my dream, I remember unboxing a fursuit, on the box it said Malta and when I opened the box in it was a badass, he(which is also a new fursona I have) is a raccoon, like a regular raccoon but he wore a green tank top with orange cargo pants. And I remember clearly from the dream that I took out the head and saw he was wearing a green and orange stripped head band(he looks alot like duke nukem basically) and when I put the head on in the dream I was rudly interupted by my fucking alarm clock. But yea Malta is now a new fursona to my fursona family makeing me have 5 fursonas now, yikes.

So today in music class my and one of my really good friends who knows im a furry, were messing with eachother which eventually became joke hitting and eventualy i just yelled out, "TECHNICALLY THIS IS ANIMAL ABUSE!!" And she starting rofling souch the teacher started laughing!!!

So not to long ago I was talking to my mom about stuff and I dont know how but homosexuality came into the mix and my mom said if I ever became bisexual or gay, she will send me to my grandparents house(they are abusive btw) im actually really scared right now because im bisexual and im really scared that shes going to kick me out of the house.

Stolen from  rainclaw
[ ] you meow/bark to get attention
[ ] you find pets toys amusing
[ ] you get hyper by the smell of catnip
[ ] you growl/hiss when someone gets too close to your food
[ ] you growl/hiss when someone you dislike is too close to you
[ ] you purr/shake your leg when someone shows you affection
[]if someone tosses a ball, you chase it and bring it back
Total: 0

[] you love to be scratched behind the ear
[] you love fish/meat
[x ] you like to stick your head out through the window of a movingcar.
[]you like when people pet your head
[ ] people can make you stop doing stuff by hitting you on the nose with a newspaper
[x] you think feathers are fun to play with
Total:2

[ ] you sleep a lot during daytime
[x ] you enjoy scaring birds
[ ] you lick peoples faces to show you like them
[] you bite people if they annoy you
[x ] you tend to steal food from your friends/family's plate when you have eaten all of yours
[x ] milk or water is your favorite drink.
Total: 4

[] you own a collar and you enjoy wearin it
[ ] you own a leash and enjoy wearing it
[]you own animal ears/tail/paws or a fursuit
[ ] you enjoy long walks in the park
[ ]you meow/bark when you see something you want
Total: 4

[ ] you call your hands and feet "paws"
[x ] you tilt your head when you do not understand what someone is talking about
[ ] you run to the door when someone mentions a walk
[]you really enjoy cuddling
[x] you stretch your body and whimper a bit every
morning when you wake up
[x] you can wake up and go back to sleep right away after looking around
Total: 7

[] you have your favorite spot besides your bed where you like to sleep
[ ] you meow or bark very often
[] you hide when you get scared
[x]you run to the door to see who it is every time someone comes in to the house
[x ] you like to chase flying insects and try to catch them with your bare hand
[x ] you tend to chew on stuff a lot
[ ] you like to do tricks to get a treat
Total: 10

[x] you own a wearable item/tag with your name on it
[ ] you refer to yourself as an animal
[ x] your username has something to do with animals
[x ] your e-mail has something to do with animals
[]if you get a bleeding wound, you lick it to make it feel better
[x ] you look for edible stuff often
Total: 15

[x] you often find yourself looking through the window for a long time
[ x] you like to say hi to strangers
[ ] you like to be petted when you have done something good
[ ] people think you act like a pet
[]you growl/hiss at stuff you do not like
[ ] you like to eat grass
[x ] if you get wet, you shake to get rid of the water
Total: 18
18X2= 36%(for now!!)

I go to look at my watch list and it says 7 people are "removed", something is not right here.

Just sorta say something here, I just want a positive journal today!! If you have nothing to say than just say banana in the comments and youll get a chuck norris thumbs up.