On one hand, I feel like I’m not a real artist until I’ve done a commission, but on the other hand, my shit still blows chunks.

At least I feel more confident in myself today. woo.

Today was a terrible day. Despite all the nice stuff, there's just so much bad piling up.
And my matelessness started to act up, so now I feel lonely and bummed out all at once.

Maybe I can make tomorrow better.

It'd give me something to draw.
I have the energy, but no ideas. BEH!

So, as a precaution, I’m going to ask a question. Namely, what’s a good replacement tablet for someone who’s used to a Wacom Bamboo?

Mine’s getting old, and I’d love to have some good replacements in mind just in case, though I’m not too savvy on what is a good tablet sooooo…

Any tips? ^^

EDIT: I use SAI, mostly, and honestly, I'm find with the simplicity and feel of the Bamboo. I don't use the buttons much, I just need a drawing surface, more than anything else. :O

Haven't drawn in forever.
I dunno why.
Prolly a lack of asks on Tumblr, or general lathargy on my end.
Welp... :O

I'm feeling it.
Doing some lineart.
Did some recently and it was... NOT BAD.
Might experiment a bit, though I'd need some tips and clues on the how's.
HMMM

still
I mgiht need some ideas
I can't doodle idealess forever
Or can I?
If I could, it'd be easier to charge money
golly

Art's getting better. Which is nice.
Doesn't mean I'm getting any better at the whole 'having ideas on what to draw' thing.

Oh well. :v

First time I’ve ever felt like I can justify charging for my art.

Wowa. :v

Still annoyed at those favs on those ancient written pieces of smut.
:V

Like, how do people even find those things nowadays... and find them good? XD

Well, reposted, more than malicious theft. It gave me tag-credit.

I'm honoured.

I'm a real artist now.

Or they have shit taste.

god I feel stupid

Sorry about that admins.
I am just.
Not used to the smut. >:V

So, I got a quick question:
Any good places to do NSFW/adult RP stuff?
I use F-List, but it seems more crowded with human characters and I'm not quite sure if it's still the main hub people are directed to nowadays.
So if anyone's got a place I should check out, I'd love to hear it.

http://sapphirecrook.tumblr.com/pos.....without-a-fire

I guess 'brush, not an artist' is a more apt description.
Might do a collage or something again soon.

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((I really don’t like me all that much.

According to other people, I’m good at programming, writing, I have a knack at drawing and I’m quite good at impersonating people.

But for all the skills I accumulate, I have nothing I WANT to do with any of it. Rare is the fey mood I have an idea I want to realize that isn’t handed down to me by another creative mind. Unlikely is the chance I’ll ever do something without being told expressly to do so.

For all the ability and talent people project onto me, I should be able to pull of a rocking RP blog, but none of it matters without a creative drive. A desire to see something that is, by an acceptable degree, my own original idea.



This comes up in my IT course to. This semester we were ‘allowed to integrate our own projects into the cirriculum’.

It was the most humiliating moment of my life, because I had no ideas of my own and the idea I could fabricate in the five minutes I had was trash. I still got the credit, but it was a trash idea. You could see the teacher shaking their head.



It’s not that I have no discpiline. I’ve been building that for a while now, to the point I actually study more than most people around here do. But creatively, I fall short. If a decision can be reduced to rational weighing I can usually figure it out.

I colour in the boxes, only when told to, and when asked to go outside teh box I wonder where, how, when, why.



It doesn’t help that a bunch of artists I look up to draw up these crazy worlds and ideas. Not always 100% original, but they gave it a solid try and it FEELS original. It feels fresh. Inspiring, new.

The lack of RPs and requests to draw ideas from just makes it worse. I feel like quitting. Just dropping it all and giving up. Yet I don’t want to. I see the progress I’ve made and I feel the chance that I can do something I’ve long since paid people to do.



I dunno. Maybe my problem is just a need to ditch the UT fandom, but I don’t want to. I like it here.

I just feel lost.

I feel like I want something but I don’t know how I want it. I want a creative pursuit but I have nothing to pursue.



I can’t sustain on my rare ideas. Followers drop off too quickly between my moods. RPs happen to rarely to keep a stream of doodles going. Asks are too sparse to plug the gaps.

I just need some sleep right now.))

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On my Tumblr.
Specifically, on my RP account. I make doodles to go with RP settings, it's fun!

Who knew.
See ya'll in 5-6 months.

My Tumblr is full of stuff.
You should go there.
It's so much easier it should be criminal to stay here for anything but the porn.

http://sapphirecrook.tumblr.com/
I also run an RP account, so what?
http://ophiniaonistecua.tumblr.com/

So instead of futsing around with the idea, I'm just throwing it out there.
If anyone out there thinks they've got a tailor or network that might be able to help with this, go ahead.
I've got a pretty wide budget, can pay via Paypal or directly via banks.
They must be able to ship it to Europe, the Netherlands specifically. I'm perfectly willing to cover any costs.

Cuz fuck it.
Dat robe is rad.

http://mech-ah.deviantart.com/journ.....Robe-565598138

So don't mind my lack of uploads here.
Golly.
http://sapphirecrook.tumblr.com/

If you call someone your soulmate, friend or lover, you're supposed to get them a birthday gift, right?

Just making 100% sure.

Gifts gotten: 0

Sweet.
Breaking records.
Or as they say in Mario Party:
New Record.


Other than that, a nice and rainy day. With a giant horticulture event in the mainhall of my school building.
GEEZE.

And it would've been many years since my last.
Or something.

I'm looking for a place. I can use YouTube, but not when I'm using more mature references.
On the other hand, I could just put those references in another window or something, but that's madness!

It's adoooorable.
And fox.

https://www.kickstarter.com/project.....474932/foxtail

Also, art's gonna be slow because I got a request that's basically 9 drawings in one.
Exciting.

Considering I'm still trying to learn and try fancy new things, everyone's free to pop a suggestion or two on what I should draw next. Preferably, existing images... exist... if only for the sake of having a proper colour palette.

WTF, FA?
I'm on a Furry website, why the FUCK would I want to hook up with HUMAN FEMALES?
If I'm straight, I'd already have someone.
If I'm gay, I'd have too many to pick from.
Not to mention there's enough material here to get you going.

Yea... I think I might leave too.
I adblock, but this stuff makes me nervous.

You can tell a website by their ads, and this is... oddly shortsighted.