Merry late Christmas, I'm a transgender! Yea...I think I should be a girl and am going to under go the transition, follow me to my new account if you want  jess11 but if your grossed out or think I'm a freak, then dont bother, I wont put up with people like that ok. I might be drawing again I dunno, I think I suck, change my mind and I will draw, just dont reply to it here, go to my new account. Love you all, see the ones who dont think I'm a freak on my new account laters!

Oh btw just in case some of you didn't pick it up, my new name is Jessica, and for those of you who know me IRL DONT SPREAD IT AROUND OK THAT COULD GET ME SHOT WHERE WE LIVE OK!

Just gonna go climb in my hole and wait now

Ya, people around me are just falling apart while I seem to be the only one getting better. Not on much any more, if you have sommat you want me to see, note me ok. I miss you guys, oh if you want some one to talk to, who has a direct connection with me, go watch and or talk to  jess11 she is one of my best friends like....ever and see's me every day so yea. Watch her, tell her if you want to show me something, I dont have much time to my self any more so yea. Miss you guys, go watch jess, she's freakin amazing, try to be on more, but no guarantees

I'll admit it I'm addicted to FA I'm comin back, gonna go back to drawing, the clay stuff just isnt my thing >.> life has been uncomplicated...a little bit. so ya... I dont know when I will be drawing again...or what it will be..you'll just have to wait and see.

Seems like every time I have a decent idea, some one more talented than me comes along and takes it >.< aaaany way. I dun think I'm going to be active on FA any more, theres no real point any more, I can draw, it takes up quite a bit of my time sifting through all the submissions, and life around me is getting a bit TO complicated for my liking. So ya, thanks guys for all your support, I might come back, but I dont know right now. things are just really busy and I dont really have time any more. If you want to keep in contact with me for some reason, you can email me at the address below.

Thanks all bye for now =)

Evanboule[at]hotmail.com

I will be doing the clay stuff starting on the 21st of this month, please note it will take a while for me to get them mailed off, but I will take pictures of each and post them here.

If you are interested, please note me. I will have samples up sometime at the end of this week.

I will do 5 at a time, so reserve your spot now. ^_^ prices range from $5 to 30$ depending on what size and how much detail you want.

Sort of, there's some really confusing stuff going on at the moment, but what I was thinking, but I don't think it will work very well, but I was thinking about making some figures and making comics and stuff with them, but again, I don't think I would get wide spread liking for it. After Christmas I will start selling the clay models per commissions, they will range from $5 to $25 depending on how big you want it and how much detail you want. I will have some samples up sometime with in the next two or three weeks. I'm going through some psychological problems at the moment.

I've recently found drawing especially hard, I don't know why, its weird, but I enjoy the clay stuff so just go do that for now until I can draw again.

So any way, hugs to all.

 zenirix needs cash, really bad, she's been having a really hard time at home and needs it.
COMMISSION HER! NOW, I'm serious, I want people who have even the littlest amount of money to commission her, I don't even care if you like her art or not I'm telling you to commission her >:C

Hell I'm even going to find a way around MY money problem to help, so why don't you?

I was just thinking about some stuff, and I was wondering what you guys would think about pixel art, stuff in 16 bit?

As soon as I can get a few things sorted out, I'll start drawing and stuff again, I was just thinking the pixel art would be kinda cool ^_^

OOOK I'll stop buggin you with journals now ^_^

Kinda, sorry I know I post a lot of journals XD

but I FINALLY HAS A MATE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

ya he doesnt have an FA account... yet X3 I'll pester him about it later

and I was wondering how many of you accually pay attention to the journals, and stuff that I post or if you like STFU and post some art already XD

YA!!! when ever you guys are on during the weekends or in the evenings, just drop on in on my messenger account EvanBoule[at]hotmail.com I'll be happy to answer any questions you might have.

Art soon... I think, I just havent had the urg to do it... I prolly should soon you, you guys probably think I'm gonna defect or something XD

Ugggggh!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I've been doing a lot of stuff..... and just getting myself cleansed... and all my body has decided to go in reverse, reliving my old ailments, then just vanishing.... I should be ok by tomorrow but for now my good old buddy IBS is ripping a hole through my stomach ;D

So ya, if any one wants to know more about the psychic stuff, or want help with anything, or if you just want to talk for no reason what so ever, drop me a line on yahoo, and if you have messenger, it does work with yahoo ^_^
I'm irritated with msn right now, so I'm avoiding it XD

Stephenboule[at]yahoo.com

oh and uh... new e-mail and IM address soon, I'm finally gonna get my name legally changed to Evan ^_^ I'm gonna go do the paper work tomorrow morning ^_^

Art work???? PFFFF HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA *snort* RIIIIIGHT XD Nawww, I might post some doodles or something this week or I might not, depends if I can fend off the peeps long enough to do something XD

IDK I for some oddball reason cant draw if my life depended on it right now...... maybe its cuz I'm trying not to rip out my own guts.....naawwwww thats not it....*continues thinking* ^_^


EDIT: K heres my new msn: EvanBoule[at]hotmail.com ^_^ you can talk to me on that one to ^_^

http://www.furaffinity.net/journal/528915/

She needs some help with money!!!!

COMMISH HER.. NOW

COMMISH HER DAMN IT!!!!! XD

I think I'm getting to passionate about helping people.... XD
But seriously, commish her, dont let her go hungry or WORSE!!!!!

O_o oook things have been WAY to weird. People have like started flocking me at school for advice and help with there problems, and I can actually DO IT XD People at school actually believe I'm a pyschic now, cuz I can give more proof than I could a few years ago. IDK crazzzzzzzy stuff, but I'm happy ^_^ I'm finnally doing what I want to be doing ^_^

but ya, clay dragon batches are almost done and I had an idea, I still need to scan them in, I will tomorrow, but those spirit sketches that I've posted, what would you guys thing about me making them into clay figures? and perhaps stylizing the dragons or humaniod figures with the same swirl patters???? TELL ME WHAT YOU THING OR ANY IDEAS YOU HAVE!!!!!! ^_^

I realized something today, I'm not DOING what I want to, I've been doing things that I know wont make me look like a freak, I've just been trying to blend it, to be accepted. I HATE what I'm doing now, programing, games, long papers, sitting still not doing anything. I want to TRAVEL I want to GO places, help people with everything I have, not just with words, but with every FIBER of my being, and ya know what I'm done hidding my true talent, I am a freakin psychic medium, and I love it! I've kept it a secret for so long I stopped even practicing it until it just became a memory of what I once COULD do, well I'm DONE hidding, I'm getting BACK the skills I hid for so long, I'm gonna do what I ENJOY not what others think is normal or accept, cuz even if they cant understand it I do, and thats all that matters, you can call me loony all you want I dont care.

I want to heal people and what we've done to our planet, I want to fix the major flaws in our world, put things in there rightful place, and I wont stop till I succeed.

I KNOW there are others here on FA like me, who are hiding, or have forgotten what they can do, I know you are out there, and I want you to enjoy what you REALLY enjoy, not what will get you accepted or viewed as 'normal' dont fear what others will think of you, cuz frankly they just dont understand and or are jealous, and people hate and despise what they dont understand or are jealous of.

My mother and I are both starting back up, and we are making plans, if you want updates on what we're doing, want to aid us, or want to learn let me know and I'll see what I can do K ^_^

I dont know at this point in time if I will continue my art work, but I will still be here for my friends and to view the art here ^_^

YES!!!!
I'm going to start an 8 or 16 bit GAME!!!!
>> as soon as I take care of some school stuff XD

I was talking to one of my friends at school and he said he and his friends last year tried to make an 8 bit halo, and ya, my brain went wild XD So ya, gonna be making a furry game! I'm hoping it will be amazing, if you want to help, SPREAD THE WORD! HELP ME FIND PEEPS TO HELP ME! ^_^

It will be programmed in C++ with Microsoft visual studio C++ 2008 and Dark GDK

Here is the link that will get you every thing you need:
http://gdk.thegamecreators.com/?f=downloads

If you don't have ANY programing experience with C++ what so ever, just go pick up a book from a book store and you'll be on your way, there are online resorces but there not always reliable, if I remember right Visual studio has its own how to thing on it but I cant remember (is installing now ^_^)

I WILL still post stuff, like drawings and stuff, this is just an add on ^_^, plus I might post the pixel sheets here too ^_^

Creative title = nonexistent X3

Gonna start drawing again...Kinda maybe a little depressed, but I should be ok

Clay dragon batches moving sssslllloooooowwwwllly ><

I need to get some ideas down on paper, and there prolly gonna look like cr*p so most of it will be going into my scraps X3

I dont know whats with all my friends and family members NOT on FA, but they ALL seem to be coming to me for solutions for their problems, and I need to be able to sort out my OWN problems before I can help others >< crazyness XD but yaaaa

STUFFFFFFFFFFFFFFF

Uggggggg brain still hates me but, I'm back.... O_O didnt really leave XD

But ya, pics of the dwragys coming some time at the end of the week, depends if I can get them baked X3

Is gonna draw nows ^_^

;_; I be vanishing for a bit, need to get a grip on whats going on right now...... I'm so confused.

What do you do when you like two people, and think ONE isnt interested and start going out with the other only to find out the other IS interested ;_; like I said I is soooo confused, and I dont want to hurt either of them.

If you have advice that would be amazing. I'll continue to comment and what not, but as far a submissions go... not much of anything, I might post some photography stuff.

Stollen from  toxicneonshayde ^_^

[ NOW ]
~Current mood: Sleepy

~Current music: None, my zune died

~Current taste: Mint????

~Current hair: medium short, thinkin about letting it grow out abit

~Current clothes: red shirt, and blue jeans

~Current annoyance: The fact that I cant go to several Cons this weekend

~Current smell: O_o my house???

~Current thing I should be doing: sleeping

~Current windows open: furaffinity, messenger

~Current desktop picture: something weird from DA

~Current favourite band: TOOO MANY TO LISSST

~Current book: None, I need a new one X3

~Current cd in stereo: IDK! I dont use CDs in my stereo XD

~Current crush: Some one I used to know a long time ago and just met again

~Current favourite celeb: IDK Bruce Willace

[ DO YOU.. ]
~Smoke?: Nuuuu

~Do drugs?: Never even tried, dont see the point

~Have a dream that keeps coming back?: Dreams..... dont even start THAT with me X3

~Remember your first love?: *sigh* yes

~Still love him/her?: No, I hate her with all my heart for what she did to my friends

~Read the newspaper?: No

~Have any gay or lesbian friends?: Yesh, half of them ARE X3

~Consider love a mistake?: NUUUU its frankly one of the only things that has kept people alive in some of the worsed conditions ever

~Like the taste of alcohol?: NUUU

~Have a favourite candy?: YESH anything that has milk chocolate and peanut butter I will inhaile X3

~Believe in astrology?: eheheh a bit yesh XP

~Believe in magic?: In a way yes

~Believe in god?: In a way kind of

~Have any pets: yesh a cat and a dog

~Go to or plan to go to college: Most likely yesh

~Have any piercing?: Nope

~Have any tattoos?: Nu but I just want ONE

~Hate yourself: I hate stupid people so YES X3

~Have an obsession?: Helping others

~Have a secret crush?: It was but not any more XD

~Have a best friend?: Um... not really not IRL any way

~Wish on stars?: I tried all through my child hood, but it never worked so I just did what I wanted on my own XP

[ LOVE LIFE ]

~Ever been in love?: *tired sigh* yes

~When did you lose your virginity?: *hides in a dark hole* still a virgin here

~Do you believe in love at first sight?: *snorts* not really, it prolly could happen but it would be pretty rare

~Do you believe in "the one?": Yesh, but I STILL havent found that ONE

~Describe your ideal significant other: smart, entertaining, fairly easy going, kind, fun, not a prep, cuddly, protective, NO jelousy issues, shorter or just as tall as me, open to new and different things and ideas, not ignorant, Female.

[ETC]

~Have you ever played a game that required removal of clothing?: Um.... not that I can remember

~Has a member of the opposite gender seen you nude?: XDDDD YAAAAAAA

~Have you ever been intoxicated?: Once, at christmas

~Have you ever been caught "doing something?": Nope not yets, I has skillz like that ^_^

~Are you a tease?: X3 yesh XD

~Shy to make the first move?: Some times, more likely than not I will make the first move X3

[ APPEARANCE ]

~Hair: short, like 1 inch, brown

~Eyes: During winter dark brown, during the summer black (weird I know DX)

~Height: 5"6

~Weight: um... I think I'm around 130-140 pounds

[ LAST THING.. ]

~Bought: Skull candy head phones and clay

~Ate & Drank: um... a really good potroast and some rootbeer

~Read: Messeges, and this meme X3

~Watched on TV: Um.... some lame movie on Sci-Fi

[ EITHER OR.. ]

~Beer or cider: Cider, dont like beeeeer DX

~Drinks or shots: Drinks

~Cats or dogs: WUT YOUR MAKIN ME CHOOSE NEVER!!!!! I wuv them both

~Single or taken: technically single XP

~Pen or pencil: pencil, I should use pen though... DX

~Gloves or mittens: Gloves

~Food or candy: Food

~Cassette or cd: O_o people still USE Cassette tapes??????

~Coke or Pepsi: X3 both

[ WHO DO YOU WANT TO.. ]

~Kill: Um....... my Dad, he keeps getting in my way no matter which turn I take! >:(

~Get really wasted with: IDK.... who ever I'm ment to be with X3

~Look like: My sona X3333 CASTOR IS AMAZING WITH HIS NEW WINGS!!!!!

~Avoid: My face, the last time I looked at it my eyes melted out and I needed transplants XDDD

[ LAST PERSON YOU.. ]

~Saw: My Cat moon or if your picky my Mother

~Talked to on the phone: Um..... I think it was my friend Shane

~Hugged: Reachele, cuz her Boyfriend is in the hospital after a reaaally bad car accident ;_;

~Instant messaged: XP YAMIIIIIIIII X3

~Kissed: uhhhhhh........... I cant remember, its been tooooooo long ;_; i feel so lonely X3

[ HAVE YOU EVER.. ]

~Drank alcohol?: yes wine XD

~Done drugs?: Nope

~Broken the law?: Hehehehehehe yesh X3 Me and a group of my friends a couple years back egged and t-pied our school X3 Never got caught either X3 I WAS THE MASTER MIND BEHIND THE PROJECT I TOLD THEM TO EGG THE CAMERAS FIRST!!!!! XDDDDDD I was so evil back then XP

~Run away from home?: O_o I dont think I have

~Broken a bone?: I'm amazed I DIDNT when I fell out the upstairs window last year XD

~Played Truth Or Dare?: Yesh

~Kissed someone you didn't know?: Nope

~Been in a fight?: Ya once, cuz he was teasing my best friend Jess, had her in tears so I clobbered his ass into the ground X3 DONT MESS WITH MAH FRIENDS FOOO! X3

~Come close to dying?: *sigh* several times, and YES your life DOES flash before your eyes thats only happened to me ONCE, scared the crap out of me X3

[ WHAT IS.. ]

~Your bedroom like?: it looks like I've been waging nuclear war with dust XD

~Your favourite thing for breakfast?: I dont eat breakfast

~Your favourite restaurant?: Um..... Jack in the box????

~What's on your bedside table?: dont have one X3

~What do you eat when you raid the fridge late at night?: anything that is quiet and fast to make/eat

~What is your biggest fear?: having to watch the ones I care about suffer, especially by my own hand with out realizing I was doing it

~Describe your bed: Its huge, king sized, tons of blankets ^_^

~spontaneous or plain?: Spontaneous, makes life way more FUNNNNNN

~Do you know how to play poker?: No

~What do you carry with you at all times?: my necklace, ring, and pocket knife

~How do you drive?: ;_; nuuu I need to save up moneys for the lessons then the license its self

~What do you miss most about being little?: Doing stupid stuff and not getting in trouble for it XD

~Are you happy with your given name?: Nuuuu why do you think I demand to be called Evan instead of Stephen!!!!

~What colour is your bedroom?: Dark blue (gotta repaint this summer X3)

~Have you ever been in a play?: ya, in 2ed grade, I hated it.

~Do poor, homeless, or starving people sometimes annoy you?: No, not unless they blow there money on drugs, alchohol etc. which you can always tell if they are XD

~Do you consider yourself to be a nice person?: No I consider myself the lord of evil XD or at leased I USED to X3 now a days I just AM

THEYS COMIN!!!!!

Started the first one today, finally got all the supplies. So ya, my first one should be done tomorrow, I will take pics of it X3 it wont be very good, cuz Its my first one, but it will make a good base for what I'll be doing for them. Prices will be posted when I finish the ones I'm makin my family and SOME friends for Christmas.

So ya, I has an entertaining hobby that I CAN do during the cold rainy falls and winters we get where I'm at X3 All my other hobbies are out door stuff XD

CASTOR IS GETTING WINGS!!!! IDK why, it just kinda fits X3 I will make small adjustments to him as time goes on, but for now that will be all I make to him X3.

Um......IDK I think that it XD

XD I am workin on a drawing, its just takin me WAY longer then I would have liked X3

Some time tomorrow, or a random doodle some time tonight

Oh man, I gotta set aside some time to think.... LIFE!!!! it hates me so XD

Ya, I'm bored, if any one is on right now, talk to me!!!!! XD

I'm going to draw tomorrow no matter what, I've been putting it off for to long, I NEED TO DRAWWWWWWW XD

Suggestions are greatly appreciated too ^_^

But I do it for REVENGE!!!!! X3
MMMMMMHHHAAAAHAHAHA

I tag *points dramatically*  majinamy and  yamiookami

MMMMMMHHHAAAAHAHAHA

1. Guys and/or Girls?
Both but I prefer girls ^_^

2. What turns you on, furry and real life?
Um, pretty much the same for both real life and furry but, O_o IDK the shy ones

3. Dominant, or Submissive?
IDK some times dominant, some times submissive, depends

4. What gets you the most randy?
Cuddles X3

5. What are you most likely: The Romantic, The Pervert, The Whore

Romantic and pervert XD

6. You like fore-play, or just get straight to it?
Fore-play ^_^

7. What's your #1 thing to do before sex
CONDOM XD

8. Do you do it clothed, or butt-naked?
O_o um, IDK, depends X3


9. Lots of noise, or keep quiet?
Again depends ^_^


10. Where would you want to have sex at?
any where private X3

11. What's your favorite position?
O_O IDK, still a virgin here X3

12. Any kind of fetishes at all?
bellehs!!!! X3 Big or small, I wuv the bellehs!!! X3

001. Name → Evan
002. Nickname(s) → O_o Evan IS my nickname X3
003. Status → bored, but if your talking relationship wise, single ;_;
004. Zodiac sign → Aries
005. Male or female → Male
006. Elementary → Yes
007. Middle School → Yes
008. High School → Currently ^_^
009. Smart → Genious by birth, slacker by choice X3
010. Hair color → Brown
011. Long or short → its a buzz cut, what do you think ^_^
012. Loud or Quiet → Very quiet most of the time, but loud around my close friends
013. Sweats or Jeans → Jeans, they is more comfeh ^_^
014. Phone or Camera → Camera, phones will kill us all one day X3
015. Health freak → No
016. Drink or Smoke? → NU!!! >8|
017. Do you have a crush on someone? → Not really, kinda sorta ya XD
018. Eating or Drinking → O_o um...nothing???
019. Piercings → No
020. Tattoos → No

FIRSTS:
023. First piercing → NONE!!!!
024. First best friend → Charely sweeny who is now in the pits and is having a kid at 16 DX
025. First award → O_o um.... I dont think I have any
026. First crush → O_o I DONT KNOW!!!!
027. First pet → Nicky, my albino rat who died of cancer X3
028. First big vacation → To DA OCEAN!!!! that was amazing ^_^
030. First big birthday → I never do any thing for my b-days, apart from presents in the morning

CURRENTLY:
049. Eating → Nothing
050. Drinking → >.> <.< you dont want to know X3
052. I'm about to → Sit here and be bored and hope for comments, hitting F5 repeatedly XD
053. Listening to → The lame radio, gonna switch it to my awesome music here in a bit if the stupid political ads dont stop >8|
054. Plans for today → Talk to some peeps, sleep, may be draw a bit

YOUR FUTURE:
058. Want kids? → Maybe when I'm a lot older, like in 20, 30 years, or I'll prolly kill them X3
059. Want to get married? → Maybe, if I find the right person X3
060. Careers → IDK yet, still a little confused about that one O_o

SOMETHING ABOUT SEX:
068. Lips or eyes → Eyes
070. Shorter or taller? → Shorter (like thats ever gonna happen, I'm short as hell! X3)
072. Romantic or spontaneous → both or either ^_^
073. Nice stomach or nice arms → I dont care much ^_^
075. Hook-up or relationship → Relationship
077. Troublemaker or hesitant → Both, ^_^ troublemakers are hella fun

HAVE YOU EVER:
080. Lost glasses/contacts → Every morning, only to find them right were I put them the night before X3
081. Ran away from home → Almost once
084. Broken someone's heart → O_o ya prolly, but not intentially, I'm not that cold!!! DX
085. Been arrested → Uhhhhhhhhhhhh Noooooo XD
087. Cried when someone died → when my grandfather died I did ;_; but other than that no ^_^


DO YOU BELIEVE IN:
089. Yourself → O_o No
090. Miracles → No
091. Love at first sight → *dies laughing* Nuuuuuuu! X3
092. Heaven → Sort of
093. Santa Claus → um... not really
094. Sex on the first date → No
095. Kiss on the first date → Depends

ANSWER TRUTHFULLY:
097. Is there one person you want to be with right now → Not really...... only one, but it wouldnt exactly be a good thing right now >.> <.<
098. Are you seriously happy with where you are in life → Meh, its what it is, but No, I'm workin to make it better than it is
099. Do you believe in God → Sort of, not the way others do.
100. Post as 100 truths and tag:  morats cuz hes one of my best budds and I want to bug him X3 and  Grachus cuz I havent heard much from him ^_^

Stuff is good now, I accually feel like drawing again ^_^
So ya, new stuff coming.