Well things have gotten worse for me somehow, Didn't think that'd be possible but whatever, It's loads of personal stuff so I wont go over it, but I wanted to just ask you all what old works of mine you'd like to see me remake after all the commissions are done of course, Since I'm gonna be out for 3 weeks when the surgery happens (Surgery is literally around the corner now). So yeah, just drop what you wanna see me take another crack at in the comments.

Quick edit: This will always be open as long as I'm still doing source, so even if its like 5 years later, Drop what you'd wanna see me remake, Who knows, maybe it'll be something I made this year but my work improved over the 5 years its been posted.

Not sure when yet but I'll be having a surgery soon, Hopefully after which I could get comms sorted.

Currently struggling with domestic stuff, I wont say outright what it is but some nasty shit happened. (I still live with my parents unfortunately since I have no job again)

Thankfully I wasn't involved, if I was I would've most likely escalated it. It happens incredibly frequently between them but it got REALLY bad the other day. thing that pisses me off is the fact that it happens time and time again, then they just go back to being together as if nothing happened, expecting me to just accept it despite the severe anxiety attacks it causes me, I genuinely can't relax or keep calm when I hear noises or raised voices from their room.

But this also leads me to one of the things my mental health is getting bad with, I still struggle with jobs, simple stuff that I should be able to do at fucking 25 years old and I see all 2 (Maybe even just one now) of my friends from School and College all successfully living, getting jobs, moving out and able to just do stuff in life, While I sit here unable to do shit cause my brain just doesn't work properly. It just fucking sucks, one of my friends who has autism is able to do wood work, craft AND music, While I can barely even open a fucking 3D software to make some shitty images and animations. I suck at even my hobby, just playing games, I'm terrible for just not wanting to play a game cause my brain sees it as "too much effort"

Sorry for the rant but I'm seriously stressed with everything going wrong in life. I'm just so fucking tired, not to mention that its still too hot from me, one of the symptoms of Ulcerative Colitis is a fever, I've had a constant fever making it impossible to sleep properly, cause even just sitting here typing this I'm drenched in sweat.


Thank you for reading and any comments, I still haven't got my results yet, I'll hopefully hear what's actually wrong with my stomach in about a week.

So I had the procedure, Now all that i KNOW is left is the surgery, You know, the one I was told would be 4 weeks ago but I posted that journal 7 months ago, But They wanted to see me a week after taking a sample of my intestine, Normally they'd take a month or two, but I was given 1 week which does not fill me with much confidence, Not to mention my GP told me I don't have what they suspected, but I'm still feeling feverish, bleeding and suffering with chronic pains. They've ruled out Crohn's but that's not a good sign since there's only a few things it could be now, Including potentially cancerous results, I have no idea what it is but I'm really hoping it'll just be something like IBS, nothing serious. But granted, my GP may not have had the biopsy results so I could maybe still have what we originally thought. I'll try to keep you updated and i'll try to continue with comms, but that surgery is still looming over my head right now.

Not doing well, Mental health has taken a huge hit and the worst part is I dont even know why. Everything and everyone just feel distant, Friends who were really close feel like they couldn't give a shit about me anymore, nobody seems to want to talk with me and I just feel completely alone. on top of the social anxiety I'm feeling from this I've lost the only 2 friends I had that I was able to physically hang out with, They both just seem like they want nothing to do with me suddenly, They know nothing about this account or anything I do here. Constantly in dark places mentally, getting angry and upset over the smallest things, Constantly going to the hospital for health things, Always in pain, Tired all the time and I just feel like I can't fucking do anything right, all the time I just feel like I'm shit at anything I do. Not to mention this fucking "Online Safety Act" going on, I don't want to get into it for a multitude of reasons mainly cause I'll rant on for hours about it.

My spiralling mental health aside, I had an idea for something I could introduce. Weekly fixations where A character or videogame/Series I'm currently fixated on will have lower commission prices due to the fact I'm fixated on that character. I believe it might work in my favour since if I can make something with the character my mind is fixated on I'll be able to make that commission immediately instead of doing what happens now, Where I accept the commission, get excited about it and then lose interest almost immediately cause my mind cant just focus on one fucking thing. Also I wanted to just say I'm not opposed to doing human characters either, I have plenty I'd like to make stuff with, For example the mario ladies and Helltaker ladies, even some of the hazbin gals too

but to end this journal I just want to say thank you for sticking with me, I know I'm not the best when it comes to art, nor when it comes to actually making it but I'm genuinely thankful that you're all so patient with me while I struggle my way through life.

Thank you all
-Megacheese

I'm going to do a new refund idea for those waiting a year plus for their commission, I've come to realise I'm more than likely not gonna be able to do Comms. My ADHD has gotten to a critical point and now my brain essentially REFUSES to do anything unless its an idea that excites or arouses me so unfortunately until I get meds comms are gonna either be slow or closed. But for anyone waiting a Year plus you will get a refund and a bonus on top, You'll have the option to choose between

A. A standard refund but you will get the commission on top of the refund, The catch is I only work on it when I feel like it

-Or-

B. You can take a double refund, Meaning I'll refund what you paid and double it as compensation for waiting for a year+

Unfortunately since I lost my job a month ago I wont be able to put this into action until I (Hopefully) Secure this next job I'm after. But anyone with outstanding commissions you'll have the option to choose between these options for Refunds. So for now these are just things I thought up for compensation/Thanking you for being patient cause none of you lovely people have gotten angry nor demanding toward me for my sluggishness and I want to reward that in a way.

Unfortunately more things have gone wrong. On monday I began bleeding heavily from somewhere around my tailbone/coccyx so I had to go to the A&E, I was there for 6 fucking hours which was a pain but I was seen and told to come back to get looked at further. So on Tuesday I had come back and they checked everything and told me I Have a Fistula. Luckily it's nothing life threatening or too serious, it means one of my Sinus' have split open and connected to my intestines, but I've been scheduled surgery in 4 weeks to sever the connection and close it up.

Until then Commissions are gonna be slow unfortunately, I've got preparations to do for before and after surgery as the recovery is around 6 weeks allegedly, I reckon I'll be okay after 3 though. The mental toll this year has already taken on me is absurd, Been diagnosed with OCD, GAD and I've been trying to my ADHD diagnosis for months, We're suffering money wise, I've been to the hospital constantly out of anxiety, had pains all over, taking therapy classes and just overall dealing with some of the toughest things in my head, not to mention the shitshow that America is becoming, To my American audience stay safe, stay strong and don't give up.

Stay safe out there, The world's crumbling but just try to keep each other safe and happy. It's all we can really do anymore

Hey everyone, Just got a call back from the GP, I'm all good. It's just an infection in my lung/respiratory system and I've been prescribed anti-biotics. Apparently it'll take a week for them to get rid of this. It explains a fair bit though. Thank you all for waiting ^^

Hey, Sorry for the radio silence on art, I've been incredibly unwell lately, Mostly mentally. I was having chest pains and panic attacks. I got tested by an EKG machine and it was found I have no issues with my heart, nor blood pressure. but as of late i've been constantly paranoid and my body just doesn't feel good, nor does my head. I'm going to my GP to get it figured out but it may take a bit. I hopefully am not in serious danger but something just doesn't feel right, but it could just be my anxiety taking control for a bit so I'm not sure.

Mentally i've been struggling with bouts of depression and horrendous health anxiety. It also turns out I have undiagnosed ADHD and OCD, hence why I've been struggling to get on with commissions. I yet again sincerely apologise for all this wasted time, I'm just trying to get my head on straight before doing anything to ensure the art is a good quality.

Thank you all for reading and once again your saint like patience. I'll keep you updated once I get checked up

Hey everyone, Doing a sort of casting call thingy. My drawing friend really wants to do an art trade but no one he speaks with seems up for it. He'd like a tf sequence remade in a different style. Comment or DM me if you're interested. The trade will be of this one scene in Ghostbusters animated TV Series where a middle aged lady becomes a chicken monster thingy. Link to the tweet here

https://x.com/Megacheese132/status/.....89046966137217

Hey everyone, So I thought of an idea. I've never done warmups before working on projects so I thought maybe if I asked for a few ideas (Keep them simple) I could do them as warmups. So just post your ideas or stuff you'd like to see here and I'll write down the ones I want to do

Hello everyone, I'm going to try doing something I really didn't want to have to do As of late we're getting completely screwed over with money, my family has no money for two weeks, I'm hopefully going to try and get the remaining commissions done and open for emergency comms after. I am really sorry, I didn't want to open for comms immediately after these ones, I know i've taken the absolute piss with these and it really feels like I'm spitting in the face of you lovely people but I really don't have any other choice at the moment

Hello everyone, I know i've been rather radio silent for a few months but I have the best news, I've got a new beastly computer and I'm gonna be hammering the comms out soon, but if you have a current outstanding commission with me please send me a DM and I'll have a deal to make it up to you. Thank you so dam much for being so patient with me, You don't understand how much I appreciate your time

-Megacheese

So a quick update about my Source issue, I've deleted over 10,000 models in Source and it's running like 1% better, BUT the good news is I've fixed the exporting issues, now I just need to get a stable FPS and HOPEFULLY I can fix it before the end of this month, I'll keep you all posted. If I can't fix it before then I'll be issuing refunds in September. I profusely apologize for taking so long with all of this, Just source want's to fucking act up, Once I've finished everyone's commissions I'll be issuing a free picture or small animation (depending on how long they've been waiting) to compensate for lost time

Thank you all for being so patient with me through my struggle with SFM.

Hey everyone, Just wanted to quickly post about my SFM situation. Right now I'm saving up around £1000 to buy a new PC. Once I get a new one I can go nuts with SFM and hopefully everything will look better and generally be improved since it'll run Much smoother.

This will hopefully only take about 2-3 months. So by September I hopefully will have a brand new computer and go hog wild with the commissions. Since I believe my PC's current problem is due to some hardware limitations like my RAM and memory being nearly completely used up when exporting in SFM.

Thank you for your time, Finally some good news though ^^

I've made a fairly difficult decision, I'm going to be refunding commissions I think would be too challenging for me right now. They're not hard (otherwise I wouldnt have taken them) its just Im struggling with a lot right now and im not in the best state of mind. Comms have been stressing me right out and I think it'd be the smart idea to refund the ones I dont think I can do right now. I am sincerely Sorry to anyone who commissioned me that gets the refund, Keep in mind I will always be up to take it another time. Anyone who gets a refund will also get 50% off their next commission (Excluding when im doing sales). When im in a better state of mind I'll reopen. Sadly I wont be able to refund Till October cause paypal locked my account until then AGAIN.

I am very sorry for the inconvenience and that I couldn't deliver. I didn't want to have to do this but I think it's for the best.

-Megacheese

(Any commissions I am working on or have work done to them will be finished)

heya, I know I haven't posted much in a while but its mainly because Im working through stuff, Ive been in a strange mindset lately, Just kind of Hating myself as well as being completely unable to do source, I'll just boot it up and instantly close it without doing anything. Pretty sure thats just burnout though. I am slowly getting trough comms but its been a bit rough, Currently working on 3 at once, The video ones are gonna take the most time due to how long they'll be but I promise to get them done as quick as I possibly can while retaining quality. Again sorry for taking so long with all of it.

Heya, Just wanted to state that I love receiving comments on my works, including enthusiastic or horny comments. If you like the work go ahead and tell me. If you don't like it and think I can improve let me know, The comments I DON'T want are just plain hate comments like when somebody doesn't like my work and wont tell me how to improve it. But apart from that I love getting comments, It's refreshing to interact with people. I will always try to respond to comments too.

Finally I'm back on source, Starting to get my groove back. Already completed 2 of them and i've nearly completed another. Hopefully I can get them done quickly, I will always make sure they'll be higher quality rather then getting them out quickly. I wont be reopening until October with a 5 slot Halloween sale.

I've somehow caught the flu, No idea how but I've managed to. This probably wont slow down Comms but it might put me out of commission for a day or 2. Just wanted to give you all an update. My hand is essentially fully healed, Bone is still a bit sensitive but I am alright overall. Thank you for your time

My hand is Nearly healed, Should be healed by at most Wednesday, But another problem has occurred, My PC is now acting up (AGAIN), It's lagging and crashing a LOT. I can get quite a bit done before it crashes but because I've been Looking around and rooting in my Pc's files to find stuff overfilling my hard drive in a desperate attempt to speed it back up I have hit a major burn out, I'm still trying to do commissions, I have managed to get 3 done and I still have quite a few left, but I'm still gonna be working on a crawl for a little bit longer. Sorry for all the inconveniences, I wish I could be a bit faster with these.

I have upped the prices BUT I have also significantly increased the length AND quality (1280x720 pixels and will be rendered at higher quality) of gifs, Despite calling them Gifs, They'll most likely be in MP4 format as Gif sizes become 30MB at 100 frames. New prices and length are as follows

Any extra characters (More than 1) will cost and extra £5 per character
Text will cost £1 extra per page IF you want me to come up with what they say. If you know what you'd like them to say it wont cost anything extra
£5 - Image (Single pictures will be Full 1920x1080). Sequences will be £3 per Picture but it has to be more than 3 pages
£15 - Small Gif - 100 frames - 5 seconds
£25 - Medium Gif - 200 frames - 10 seconds
£35 - Large Gif - 300 frames - 15 seconds
£45 - Video - 500 frames - 30 seconds (Can go up to 1000 frames)
(The Times are estimates, I'm not too sure how long it is usually)

The hand is still in a fair bit of pain (Funnily enough its not the bone I broke but my thumb for some reason) cause the bone I broke was the Carpal bone in the far right side of my right hand But moving my wrist too much can cause it to ache and hurt but I know I can do source for an hour before any pain comes through. So I'll be slowly working on comms again.

Got back from hospital I broke one of the joining bones from my wrist to my pinkie finger, Comms will be on hold as i cant move my hand without lots of pain

Comm are going to be slow, I've Injured my right hand pretty badly. I'm not sure what it is but I think it might be broken or fractured (Literally no idea, It could be gone tomorrow or it could be gone in the next few months) Currently I am waiting it out, Seeing if it gets better and if it does I'll leave it but if it isn't better by tomorrow Im going to head to the hospital. I'll keep you updated