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General | Posted 8 months agoSince most of my old haunts have either bit the dust or descended into cliquish horseshit, might be time to find a few new ones. If anyone feels like chatting or knows any good hangouts, I'm all ears!
Prices?
General | Posted 3 years agoSo, hypothetically, if I were to open for commissions... what would you guys value my work at considering I tend to do full pieces? A few folks have asked me about that in the past, but only recently have I felt my skill level getting to the point where I could reasonably sell my work.
I'm genuinely curious so would appreciate honest answers!
I'm genuinely curious so would appreciate honest answers!
Art Raffle!
General | Posted 4 years ago
IcEnder is staging an art raffle for those who are interested!https://www.furaffinity.net/view/44867999/
Your character's boss fight!
General | Posted 4 years agoExactly what it says on the tin! How would the boss fight against your character go?
A week of hell
General | Posted 4 years agoI'm usually not the type to relate personal info here, or hell, even write journals much as the 6 month gap between posts might attest to. But I'm drunk as fuck and felt the need to vent a bit, and maybe pick some brains about how to deal with what feels like one long run-up kick in the balls after another that so far shows no signs of slowing down.
Last week the cat that I had raised almost from birth needed to be put down. She'd been ill for a while, but the event itself was sudden- an extremely bad puking spree that caused some form of severe spinal damage and paralyzed her from the shoulders down. She needed to be PTS immediately, which was pretty awful- having to hold something that you cherish so much when she was in fear and pain and trying to drag herself away in blind panic, whilst someone else kills it. Of all the cats I've had to deal with over the years with one circumstance and another, she was the only one I really wanted, and was very attached to. Cheeky little shit. I loved her to bits, and still can't get over that she is gone. The other cat that was mine had died at the start of the year, and with his presence gone she had been far more demanding and affectionate of late. A cruel twist of fate that she should go so soon after coming out of her shell.
And then as if that wasn't bad enough, not long after the message came through that my grandma had a severe stroke and isn't expected to recover.
I haven't seen her for a couple of years. My fault, mostly. I could have, but procrastinated, and then the whole covid shitstorm erupted and it was no longer an option. She had suffered from alzheimers, and I was heavily involved in her care for the five years prior to her needing to be sequestered into a professional home. Growing up she was one of only two people I really had in my life, which made watching her decline and being so intimately involved with it intensely stressful. We did what we could for her, made her comfortable, went around to her house as often as four times a day to do obs and take care of chores she progressively couldn't manage anymore, but it took its toll mentally. I was a wreck inside. When she no longer knew where she was and became a hazard to herself, it was time to pull the trigger. Something she didn't want. Who would? To be sent off to a home packed in there like sardines all just waiting to die. Even the nicest one we could find for her looked like a fucking zoo. She'd implied more than once that we should arrange for certain medications to fall into her possession that she might solve the issue herself, but that would mean legal trouble. So she want, and she cried, and with no other family in the picture we were left alone to empty her flat with nothing but two weeks and a sack barrow, and clear away a lifetime as if she'd never been there.
After she was in full-time care, she declined rapidly. This is common for Alzheimers patients. When removed from familiar environments the loss of normalcy severs what hold they still have on reality. After I learned that, it felt like I'd had no small hand in walking her to the execution block, and the guilt of it eats at my mind. After six months she had no idea who me or my mom were anymore, and in some ways its almost a mercy that she no longer knows how bad her condition is.
Of course, the rest of the family are back on the scene now. AFTER all the hard decisions were made and the dirty, soul destroying work was done. And now that all they have to do now is stick their faces around the door once a month and keep up the appearances, they're concerned and prattling and hovering like flies around shit. And they judge and deride and blame us, the ones who were there when it fucking mattered, for not being more involved now that she's a babbling vegetable.
I could have called at least even, but what can you say to someone that far gone? "Err.. how is the weather over there?" ignoring that I only live a few miles away. "Peaches and... walking down Earlsdon street with the sausages" or some similar that would have only opened old wounds. I don't even know that visiting would help either of us, and still feel guilty about not doing it.
And that was just the weekend.
After spending a few days allowing myself to pathetically seek solace from misery at the bottom of a bottle, it was time to be an adult again and pull myself together. Not happy, not ready to, but life doesn't wait for you to pull your big boy pants back on. And I was managing it too, until it was my mom's cat's turn to become the source of drama by falling out of a carelessly left-open window, and broke his fucking leg. And because he is an old inbred-to-hell narcoleptic that can't be sedated, that's another PTS recommendation.
And then today, some fucker scanned out my debit card details and is apparently trying to make purchases with it. That I can't prevent. Because the two-factor security my bank uses to access accounts requires a physical terminal that picked this exact moment to crap out.
So that means calls to the bank, calls to the vets, hundreds and hundreds and hundreds of pounds on fees and a whole boatload of stress and anxiety tipping up at the worst possible time. My phone repeatedly capping out on credit whilst held in waiting queues because pay-as-you-go is a fucking scam and I don't use it enough to warrant a contract, to get through to some guy called 'John' with an indian accent so thick you have to ask him to speak in phonetics when what you really want to do is punch something...
TGIF? I need a fucking drink... Booze should not be a crutch, but right now I don't want to be fucking sober. Can I get off Mr Bones' wild ride for a day or two. Maybe?
Last week the cat that I had raised almost from birth needed to be put down. She'd been ill for a while, but the event itself was sudden- an extremely bad puking spree that caused some form of severe spinal damage and paralyzed her from the shoulders down. She needed to be PTS immediately, which was pretty awful- having to hold something that you cherish so much when she was in fear and pain and trying to drag herself away in blind panic, whilst someone else kills it. Of all the cats I've had to deal with over the years with one circumstance and another, she was the only one I really wanted, and was very attached to. Cheeky little shit. I loved her to bits, and still can't get over that she is gone. The other cat that was mine had died at the start of the year, and with his presence gone she had been far more demanding and affectionate of late. A cruel twist of fate that she should go so soon after coming out of her shell.
And then as if that wasn't bad enough, not long after the message came through that my grandma had a severe stroke and isn't expected to recover.
I haven't seen her for a couple of years. My fault, mostly. I could have, but procrastinated, and then the whole covid shitstorm erupted and it was no longer an option. She had suffered from alzheimers, and I was heavily involved in her care for the five years prior to her needing to be sequestered into a professional home. Growing up she was one of only two people I really had in my life, which made watching her decline and being so intimately involved with it intensely stressful. We did what we could for her, made her comfortable, went around to her house as often as four times a day to do obs and take care of chores she progressively couldn't manage anymore, but it took its toll mentally. I was a wreck inside. When she no longer knew where she was and became a hazard to herself, it was time to pull the trigger. Something she didn't want. Who would? To be sent off to a home packed in there like sardines all just waiting to die. Even the nicest one we could find for her looked like a fucking zoo. She'd implied more than once that we should arrange for certain medications to fall into her possession that she might solve the issue herself, but that would mean legal trouble. So she want, and she cried, and with no other family in the picture we were left alone to empty her flat with nothing but two weeks and a sack barrow, and clear away a lifetime as if she'd never been there.
After she was in full-time care, she declined rapidly. This is common for Alzheimers patients. When removed from familiar environments the loss of normalcy severs what hold they still have on reality. After I learned that, it felt like I'd had no small hand in walking her to the execution block, and the guilt of it eats at my mind. After six months she had no idea who me or my mom were anymore, and in some ways its almost a mercy that she no longer knows how bad her condition is.
Of course, the rest of the family are back on the scene now. AFTER all the hard decisions were made and the dirty, soul destroying work was done. And now that all they have to do now is stick their faces around the door once a month and keep up the appearances, they're concerned and prattling and hovering like flies around shit. And they judge and deride and blame us, the ones who were there when it fucking mattered, for not being more involved now that she's a babbling vegetable.
I could have called at least even, but what can you say to someone that far gone? "Err.. how is the weather over there?" ignoring that I only live a few miles away. "Peaches and... walking down Earlsdon street with the sausages" or some similar that would have only opened old wounds. I don't even know that visiting would help either of us, and still feel guilty about not doing it.
And that was just the weekend.
After spending a few days allowing myself to pathetically seek solace from misery at the bottom of a bottle, it was time to be an adult again and pull myself together. Not happy, not ready to, but life doesn't wait for you to pull your big boy pants back on. And I was managing it too, until it was my mom's cat's turn to become the source of drama by falling out of a carelessly left-open window, and broke his fucking leg. And because he is an old inbred-to-hell narcoleptic that can't be sedated, that's another PTS recommendation.
And then today, some fucker scanned out my debit card details and is apparently trying to make purchases with it. That I can't prevent. Because the two-factor security my bank uses to access accounts requires a physical terminal that picked this exact moment to crap out.
So that means calls to the bank, calls to the vets, hundreds and hundreds and hundreds of pounds on fees and a whole boatload of stress and anxiety tipping up at the worst possible time. My phone repeatedly capping out on credit whilst held in waiting queues because pay-as-you-go is a fucking scam and I don't use it enough to warrant a contract, to get through to some guy called 'John' with an indian accent so thick you have to ask him to speak in phonetics when what you really want to do is punch something...
TGIF? I need a fucking drink... Booze should not be a crutch, but right now I don't want to be fucking sober. Can I get off Mr Bones' wild ride for a day or two. Maybe?
Secondlife?
General | Posted 5 years agoOut of general interest how many here have an account?
Eurofurence?
General | Posted 6 years agoSo I am curious, who among you all is planning on being there?
...In no small part 'cause I might very well end up there knowing absolutely nobody ;Z;
...In no small part 'cause I might very well end up there knowing absolutely nobody ;Z;
Information request
General | Posted 6 years agoIf I were to do a kobold (Or other small critter, eg avali) YCH, would anyone be interested?
Signal Boost!
General | Posted 7 years ago
ThadeusTiernan is currently offering commissions at very reasonable prices! A great example of her work can be seen here: http://www.furaffinity.net/view/28759987/Go check her out :D
Away to BLFC!
General | Posted 7 years ago...And terrified about it! Send help!
How are you all doing?!
General | Posted 8 years agoI need to be more social. Tell me a little about yourselves and what you've all been up to recently!
I absolutely love it when...
General | Posted 9 years agoPeople block you, so you cannot call them out on their bullshit. It is the final hallmark of an idealogue who is so afraid that they may be proven wrong that they would rather cloister themselves from the discussion than accept even the possibility they may be mistaken.
And sadly far, far too easy to achieve these days, when avoidance of criticisim is but a single click away.
This really boils my piss as it is inherently an emotional reaction, and with sad frequency seems to be borne of those who cannot decouple their concept of self from whatever stance they may take in a debate; to them, criticising their beliefs is tantamount to an ad hominem attack. There is no simple discussion of differing views even on the same spectrum, only absolute acceptance or absolute despisal.
This gets played with really heavily in the far right religeous circles and the far left socio-political circlejerk. Trying to talk to either of these extremes from a moderate perspective is an utter waste of time.
I think this is the reason why accusations of bigotry get thrown around so cheaply these days, to the extent that the word has lost its impact. What is ironic is that those who claim to be the most open and tollerant individuals often seem to be the quickest to express a supreme lack of these virtues and engage in the above when confronted with an opposing viewpoint. The fact that is is used in a hypocritical manner seems to be lost on them.
And sadly far, far too easy to achieve these days, when avoidance of criticisim is but a single click away.
This really boils my piss as it is inherently an emotional reaction, and with sad frequency seems to be borne of those who cannot decouple their concept of self from whatever stance they may take in a debate; to them, criticising their beliefs is tantamount to an ad hominem attack. There is no simple discussion of differing views even on the same spectrum, only absolute acceptance or absolute despisal.
This gets played with really heavily in the far right religeous circles and the far left socio-political circlejerk. Trying to talk to either of these extremes from a moderate perspective is an utter waste of time.
I think this is the reason why accusations of bigotry get thrown around so cheaply these days, to the extent that the word has lost its impact. What is ironic is that those who claim to be the most open and tollerant individuals often seem to be the quickest to express a supreme lack of these virtues and engage in the above when confronted with an opposing viewpoint. The fact that is is used in a hypocritical manner seems to be lost on them.
+365exp!
General | Posted 9 years agoSoon I'm going to be needing a zimmer frame to get around. Eyup!
BREXIT
General | Posted 9 years agoIt happened. The UK's future is in its own hands now, for better or worse. The next six months are going to be interesting to say the least and more than likely hard times ahead.
Gonna be fun watching people yell about racisim and decry democracy because the vote didn't go how they wanted, thus neatly encapsulating the entire point of why the vote went the way it did...
Gonna be fun watching people yell about racisim and decry democracy because the vote didn't go how they wanted, thus neatly encapsulating the entire point of why the vote went the way it did...
Level up!
General | Posted 10 years ago26 today! Gods I'm getting old :x
Time to settle in for a drink and some good tunes ^N^
Time to settle in for a drink and some good tunes ^N^
An Apology, and a Rant
General | Posted 10 years agoI lost my shit at someone today in a big way, and now that I have calmed down a bit, I regret it. I over-reacted and I owe them an explanation.
I know of late I have seemed distant and more or less fallen off the internet. I wanted to take the time to ensure people that it isn't because I suddenly hate them or anything. Four other people in particular I know I have really disappointed of late, and left feeling rather unwanted; I made some promises that reality just isn't going to allow me to keep and hope you can forgive me.
Here is a recap of the shit I've had to deal with in the last three months alone:
Doctor: you're depressed and really need to take it easy.
ATOS: You're not depressed. Go to the Jobcenter
JC: We have it on record that you're doing ~60 hours a week of care, but can't verify that care without your family member's (not yours!) PIP. We're earmarking you 40 hours a week of unpaid work at a glue factory.
ATOS: She isn't receiving PIP
Mom: *Too stoned/depressed/hiding to talk to*
DWP: We have PIP for two dependants on record but can't release that info for you unless you fill in 50 forms that will arrive between now and christmas. Next year.
Forms: Surprise! We're triplicate!
JC: *reads forms* Why are you here? You're not our problem! Go to ATOS
ATOS: Not our problem. Go to DWP
DWP: We need to verify your care work, would you fill out these forms...
Grandma: Where are you? The... thing in the... thing isn't working! Green means it's off, right? No, I didn't touch the... thing... it was off when I got here. What year is it? Who are you? Yes I've been taking my meds!
Doctor: Its Alzheimer's. She has about a year.
ATOS: There is nothing wrong with your grandma. You don't need help caring for her.
Mom: Your sister tried to gouge out a bouncer's eyes so I'm off to hide at my boyfriend's for four days and dumping it all on you. Would you pay her bail? By the way if you move out I'll drink myself to death.
Bank: AHAHAHAHAHAHAHA! No.
Sister: *Incoherent drunken screeching, flailing and breaking shit*
Gun: I want your mouth around me...
Doctor: You really need to take it easy.
You might understand then why I have been absent as much, and when I'm around, rather tetchy. With all this to get through before I can even put my feet up around midnight, I just have a hard time dealing with:
Friend: RP? GAMES? RP? GAMES? GAMES? RP?
Flooding my skype when what I really want to be doing is sleeping.
Anyways, end of self-pitying rant. I'll probably remove this shit later, but never let it be said I don't own my mistakes.
I know of late I have seemed distant and more or less fallen off the internet. I wanted to take the time to ensure people that it isn't because I suddenly hate them or anything. Four other people in particular I know I have really disappointed of late, and left feeling rather unwanted; I made some promises that reality just isn't going to allow me to keep and hope you can forgive me.
Here is a recap of the shit I've had to deal with in the last three months alone:
Doctor: you're depressed and really need to take it easy.
ATOS: You're not depressed. Go to the Jobcenter
JC: We have it on record that you're doing ~60 hours a week of care, but can't verify that care without your family member's (not yours!) PIP. We're earmarking you 40 hours a week of unpaid work at a glue factory.
ATOS: She isn't receiving PIP
Mom: *Too stoned/depressed/hiding to talk to*
DWP: We have PIP for two dependants on record but can't release that info for you unless you fill in 50 forms that will arrive between now and christmas. Next year.
Forms: Surprise! We're triplicate!
JC: *reads forms* Why are you here? You're not our problem! Go to ATOS
ATOS: Not our problem. Go to DWP
DWP: We need to verify your care work, would you fill out these forms...
Grandma: Where are you? The... thing in the... thing isn't working! Green means it's off, right? No, I didn't touch the... thing... it was off when I got here. What year is it? Who are you? Yes I've been taking my meds!
Doctor: Its Alzheimer's. She has about a year.
ATOS: There is nothing wrong with your grandma. You don't need help caring for her.
Mom: Your sister tried to gouge out a bouncer's eyes so I'm off to hide at my boyfriend's for four days and dumping it all on you. Would you pay her bail? By the way if you move out I'll drink myself to death.
Bank: AHAHAHAHAHAHAHA! No.
Sister: *Incoherent drunken screeching, flailing and breaking shit*
Gun: I want your mouth around me...
Doctor: You really need to take it easy.
You might understand then why I have been absent as much, and when I'm around, rather tetchy. With all this to get through before I can even put my feet up around midnight, I just have a hard time dealing with:
Friend: RP? GAMES? RP? GAMES? GAMES? RP?
Flooding my skype when what I really want to be doing is sleeping.
Anyways, end of self-pitying rant. I'll probably remove this shit later, but never let it be said I don't own my mistakes.
Jurassic World
General | Posted 10 years agoAm I the only one who thought this movie was garbage?
With all the hype I thought it was something spectacular, but to me it seems like a river of coincidences, plot holes and stupid ass decisions on the part of the park staff to keep the plot moving. Most of the characters were poorly fleshed out or straight up stereotypes.
Maybe I've just been watching too much 'Everything Wrong With...' on youtube lately, or maybe I'm getting to that age where everything seem like poop.
Blegh xvx
With all the hype I thought it was something spectacular, but to me it seems like a river of coincidences, plot holes and stupid ass decisions on the part of the park staff to keep the plot moving. Most of the characters were poorly fleshed out or straight up stereotypes.
Maybe I've just been watching too much 'Everything Wrong With...' on youtube lately, or maybe I'm getting to that age where everything seem like poop.
Blegh xvx
Flown the roost!
General | Posted 10 years agoAs those who watch her know by now, 
Velannal is coming over for a month to visit! I'm not likely to be around much here, SL, mumble or skype until late April. I'm going to miss chatting with everyone, and wish you all the best of luck!
I'm scared! ;N; Wish us luck! x3
Velannal is coming over for a month to visit! I'm not likely to be around much here, SL, mumble or skype until late April. I'm going to miss chatting with everyone, and wish you all the best of luck!I'm scared! ;N; Wish us luck! x3
What I think of you!
General | Posted 11 years agoI woke up far too soon. Have a cute 'lil meme ^v^
Comment with a heart below and I'll tell you what your profile tells me about you!
I will:
1. Tell you what animal/creature you remind me of.
2. Tell you what color I think fits you.
3. Tell you how I feel about you.
4. Insult you.
5. Tell you my favorite OC of yours. (If you have one...)
6. Tell you what season you remind me of.
7. Tell you what food you smell like in my head.
8. Think of a random nickname for you.
9. Order you to put this in your journal without using the words 'tag' or 'dare'.
Comment with a heart below and I'll tell you what your profile tells me about you!
I will:
1. Tell you what animal/creature you remind me of.
2. Tell you what color I think fits you.
3. Tell you how I feel about you.
4. Insult you.
5. Tell you my favorite OC of yours. (If you have one...)
6. Tell you what season you remind me of.
7. Tell you what food you smell like in my head.
8. Think of a random nickname for you.
9. Order you to put this in your journal without using the words 'tag' or 'dare'.
Potential Skype account compromise
General | Posted 11 years agoIf any links or files are offered to anyone on my contact list before I can confirm with them that I'm back online, do not accept. I am currently locked out of my Skype and Microsoft accounts and trying to retrieve them.
A slightly belated TMI tuesday
General | Posted 11 years ago...for me at least. Lucky people in the US still get away with it :P
Hit me with your best.
Hit me with your best.
You guys seriously need to check this out
General | Posted 12 years agoThe awesome
Velannal is in dire need of some cash to help her through the next month and have her cat fixed. She does amazing work at very reasonable prices (too reasonable IMO >_>). Seriously, go commission her. NOW. At least check out her gallery? ;.v.;Why I don't bother writing anymore
General | Posted 12 years agoStep 1: Create written artwork
Step 2: Submit it to an online gallery
Step 3: Wait for comments and/or favourites
Step 4: Wait some more
Step 5: ????
Step 6: Still waiting...
*
*
*
(Significant period of time later)
*
Step 7: Die a little on the inside
Step 2: Submit it to an online gallery
Step 3: Wait for comments and/or favourites
Step 4: Wait some more
Step 5: ????
Step 6: Still waiting...
*
*
*
(Significant period of time later)
*
Step 7: Die a little on the inside
An Open Message to Dragoneer
General | Posted 12 years agoYou not only dropped the ball, but threw it with considerable force in failing to realise that appointing <insert name here> to the dev team would drag skeletons out of the closet. However, banning, suspending and censoring people discussing the issue is only serving to make you look culpable in whatever may or may not have happened, especially considering your involvement last time around.
For the good of the site, allow the drama to run its course without throwing further fuel on the fire. At present you are succeeding only in making people think you have something to hide.
Sincerely,
Common Sense
For the good of the site, allow the drama to run its course without throwing further fuel on the fire. At present you are succeeding only in making people think you have something to hide.
Sincerely,
Common Sense
My Weasyl
General | Posted 12 years agoIn light of the current shitstorm engulfing FA, I've made myself a Weasyl to post future works on.
https://www.weasyl.com/~hubris
I will still be uploading to FA, though frankly I have had my disagreements with how this site is run for a long time. The management response to and censorship of the latest drama has been disgusting, completely divorced of whether the accusations are justified or not.
https://www.weasyl.com/~hubris
I will still be uploading to FA, though frankly I have had my disagreements with how this site is run for a long time. The management response to and censorship of the latest drama has been disgusting, completely divorced of whether the accusations are justified or not.
