This year has been far from great for the LGBTQ+ community, especially for trans folk. With how volatile the political environment is against queer folk, it was honestly a bit terrifying at first to think about transitioning. It didn’t take long for me to decide to start though, because I had waited long enough to even consider it, and I knew the desire would outweigh the fear. I’m about 10 weeks on HRT now, and even with the barely noticeable changes that have come about so far, I can’t help but feel euphoric! I don’t regret my decision to start one bit! It’s still a long road ahead, but I’m excited to see the changes that will develop over the next year!

Hope everyone has a fun and safe Pride Month, and here’s to a better future for the whole community! ^w^

 vtza is holding an art raffle with multiple prizes.

https://www.furaffinity.net/view/50702910/ is the journal link if you wish to participate!

Mostly just wanted to get that old journal out of the was since it was pretty glum.

Still been having some ups and downs lately, but getting better. Haven't done that much for pride, put having a flag out on my back porch has been a major step up from before. I will be attending my first Pride event in July though. Not really sure what to expect. Being around other queer folk for an actual social gathering is a very rare thing for me, especially since this will be such a big event. I'm a little apprehensive about it, but excited for the opportunity too. Coming out about 1.5 years ago has helped me explore myself more and be more open to express myself in certain ways. It's still a slow progression, even slower with the current political environment at the moment, but I'm kinda hoping this Pride festival will help me find out or confirm something else about me. If nothing else, it's just good experience and 'exposure' of sorts.

Hope you all had a good Pride month! Best wishes in the coming days!~

For the most part, I haven't had to deal with as much of the same problems that most of the rest of the U.S. has had to deal with with these late winter conditions. When they have happened, it's been resolved rather quickly (or within the same day at least). Power went out on a couple mornings, but came back on after about an hour or so. Yesterday, a water main burst on my street. I was trying to use my sink that morning and saw the low flow of what was left in the pipes; then I looked out of my window to see two flooded lawns (and possibly basements but I'm not sure) of two of the houses across the street from me. Part of the street looked like it had a river running through it. Thankfully my house wasn't affected by the flooding- and that there wasn't any power failure to go with it- but good god was it a mess! It took the whole day for the crew that came by to fix it up. My Mom was able to bring me some extra drinking and cleaning water just in case, and we even just thought of melting a bunch of snow that was still in my back yard.
Now, while I really didn't have anything to worry about, this all happened when I had a different scare come up regarding my insurance. I won't go into that, 'cause all that's more personal; but having a busted pipe this close to me just set me off a little more than I already was. I was so uneasy the whole time they were working out there, and I couldn't do much more than binge watch Futurama in my living room instead of being productive in other areas. I was more worried about another mishap popping up somehow, and that there wouldn't much- if anything- I could do about it. This kind of behavior isn't really new for me, but given what's been going on in my life since November; it's like it's amplified a little. I've been an on and off hot mess more often than I ever was before, influenced by what's been going on with me personally and with what's been going on nationally and globally. I don't want to ignore it like I had been over a year ago, but all the negative crap and potential threats we face (Especially for BIPOC individuals and folks suffering from the pandemic and other possible medical problems) hasn't exactly been doing me any favors either, especially since there's only so much I can do. Some of the same stress relievers that I had aren't really available to me now, to some degree... though there are at least a few other coping mechanisms (that aren't self-destructive) that still help take some of the edge off.
This is a new kind of low for me, and things just get to me more easily than they used to. Maybe I don't have as much to worry about as I think I do, but being positive doesn't always work out for me. I don't want to fall back into being completely pessimistic or anything, but I can't help but be just extra skeptical and wary. Things are still going to be hard for me this year, even if the negativity and other problems clear up a little. I just hope my composure can build up a little more in that time.

Hope you all are staying safe, and that whatever plans you have with your significant other- no matter how big or small- are pleasant and go smoothly.
Even if you don't have someone to celebrate with today, the next best thing is to take some time to love yourself!~

Best wishes for you all!
=^w^=

(This is a bit of a dumb journal entry, but I've been restless and horny lately and the compulsion was too great! ^^;)

Personally, I can't say no to a good butt shot; not matter what gender the character is! Big and beefy, soft and plump, petite, toned... there's just so much to appreciate! The pose and certain types of clothing or even jewelry can accent certain as(s)pects as well!

Just a few recent faves of mine (out of many, many more X3)
https://www.furaffinity.net/view/40063314/
https://www.furaffinity.net/view/40088309/
https://www.furaffinity.net/view/40142103/
https://www.furaffinity.net/view/40040044/ (Of course I'm a little self-indulgent with this one, because the artist made Mellow's butt look so damn gorgeous! X3)

For all the other butt lovers out there, what are some of your faves? Any particular preferences? Would love to hear about it, and it's a good excuse to look at more butts! X3

It’s my birthday today. Normally I wouldn’t bother announcing it, since I don’t plan for much anyway. It’ll be a simple affair here at home, but at least I won’t be alone for it this time. I’m just kinda happy and lucky I made it this far tbh.
I’m not asking for well wishes and birthday greetings or whatever, but feel free to send them if you feel so inclined. =3

Well, the end of last year and the beginning of this one were far from stellar. I’m not saying I’ll hope for a better year overall, but I don’t want to fall into heavy pessimism again. If anything, I’ll be rather wary for most of (if not all) the year; cautious of what it might bring. Doesn’t sound healthy, sure; but I’d say it’s better that putting your full faith in optimism or wallowing in pessimism.

I’ll try to be to the point; but to start, I had been staying at my parents place while I recovered. They had been taking care of my cat there as well while I was away. I had missed her so much in that time, and I knew she missed me. Now, after a month of being home, I’m going to miss her even more.
We often tried to have her go outside for a little exercise, and it’s mostly ranch land out here. She had been let out in a spot where she could stay safe from the dogs that were loose at the time. We knew she would usually stay put when dogs were running around, but for some reason she tried to move around the house.
All three dogs ended up catching and attacking her. Surprisingly, there wasn’t a mark on her, but she was still really roughed up, breathing heavily and in shock. We brought her inside and tried to calm her down, keep her warm and in good company. Vets weren’t available since it’s a holiday, so we were at a loss of knowing what else to do.
She ended up passing away just over an hour later.
As if the events that happened to me in the last couple months weren’t bad enough, now I have to mourn my cats death at the start of a new year. If this is meant to be an omen of some sort, then I’m not expecting this year to be any better than the last!

I normally wouldn’t write about sad news like this, but I wanted to vent in some other way other than just crying my eyes out.

I’m so sorry this happened to you Layla! Just know that we loved you and that you’ll be missed!

Well that was a surprising influx of watchers and faves (for my page at least), and I’m not entirely sure what could have brought you here but I appreciate the visit and all that! Hope you gave the original artists some attention too!

Just so new watchers know, there won’t be much of anything image-wise posted here for a while (other than maybe a couple that I didn’t get around to posting earlier), due to personal and financial reasons. I had already been going crazy enough with buying comms but now I just have to be more frugal for a while. The only things I might add to the gallery are possible short stories (dirty ones of course for most of them) but no promises if they’ll be finished soon or at all.

I’ve had a lot going on in the last month-and-a-half, so I have to stay on top of a lot of things currently. There’s points where it’s quiet for a bit but other necessities end up popping up, unexpectedly or otherwise, soon enough.

I know I’m being vague but the issues I’ve been dealing with are very much a private matter that I would only tell the full story to a select few. There’s at least enough details in a previous journal if you’re curious. https://www.furaffinity.net/journal/9698742/

Anyway, other than doing my own faveing, watching, and maybe commenting, not gonna be to much going on for a while. Maybe if I get bored again (which I’m either that, tired, or cranky these days) I might share my telegram again for randos to pop up. Or you can just ask in the meantime. Just don’t make your first message just “Hi” or “Hey” or whatever. It’s not really a conversation starter or makes me compelled to answer back. Nothing against you personally, I’ve just had too much experience with random people messaging me with what seems like no real intention or clear idea of where to go with it and then just kinda going dark on me.

I should end this now before stuff gets unrelated to why I started it. Thanks again to the new watchers and for all the faves. Have a good one!

Out of a bit of boredom I just kinda looked through my old posts. Now that I’ve looked at most of them again there’s maybe a few comms I could have lived without, but others I’m still glad I got. It’s not just the content and who drew it, but some of the reasons why I still like them so much is because I tried to add something of my own while posting it. Just a little flavoring and context in the description for the most part; and even if it was short I just ended up glad I didn’t go overboard and even a little satisfied with my writing at that time. They may not be masterpieces exactly, but the fact that I and maybe a few others seem to enjoy it is what’s important right?

What I want to know is: If you’ve been getting commissions for a while (or even if you’ve only got a few) which ones would you consider your faves? Doesn’t matter if it’s nsfw or sfw, I’m just curious, and it’s kinda nice to see what other folks get.

I had to try and narrow it down to five I personally love because I am still stoked about a lot of them and don’t necessarily want to go too nuts with this (and the fact that I’m and indecisive twerp at times).

https://www.furaffinity.net/view/16484213/
https://www.furaffinity.net/view/16488726/
https://www.furaffinity.net/view/17989255/
https://www.furaffinity.net/view/18554583/
https://www.furaffinity.net/view/27514195/

There’s definitely more that I love but these are the ones I figured I’d randomly pick. I look forward to seeing your faves if you’re willing to share!

So with 2020 being one of the worst years to try and live through for most people, I can’t say I’m leaving it unscathed either. Some major health issues- that I won’t go into here- popped up in the last few months and could have proven fatal to me if not for the help of my family. Many days in hospital beds followed as I found out more about my diagnosis and what sort of care I would need. There was also just a lot of thinking going on and trying to put things in perspective.
I’ve wasted a lot with the fact that I thought I knew who I was and what I wanted, and being too afraid to do the things I needed to and just ignored them. The uncertainty of how it would turn out filled me with dread, even though there were at least enough resources and people for me to ask for help from.
And then the bad decisions that led to my condition all these years later. Not being forthcoming or adamant with how I wanted things because I didn’t want to ruin the moment. Figures the results would make themselves known in a year like this!
I know I’m being vague but this is more just to try and vent a little. The personal details are ones that I’d really only want to tell to very specific people. I’m not entirely sure what all I’m gonna end up doing in the future but I know that there’s going to be a bit of a change in my online presence as well as offline. Gonna have to do a lot of cleaning up, in a way, once I recover more, but there’s enough that I can still work on while I do so.
There’s things I wouldn’t mind trying to start up again, but previous projects I might have had in mind are either far on the wayside or dropped completely. Nothing was really owed to anyone at least so I could afford to.
There’s still a lot to have to manage on my end for a while, but I think I can start doing better with what I put my time into and the interests I end up feeding.
Before I finish this I guess I should apologize to the people I ended up going silent on. It was nothing against you really… I was just in a bad place for some time even before I was taken to the hospital. I’m really only slightly better. The other part of my healing is going to be in the diligence I put into recovering, which can take some good chunks of time and concentration.
In general, there’ll maybe be some activity from me but not by much or in quite the same way. We’ll see what happens but I just want to make sure I can sustain and manage what I’ve got going on now. It’s more time and effort than I’ve put into most things, but it’s ultimately necessary!

So technically I'm still feeling very crappy and it really affects me emotionally and physically. One thing I had been hoping for this year is that I could at least is that since I have a house I'd be able to pass out candy for Halloween. I was legit excited about it. I remember how fun trick-or-treating was when I was a kid, so to have the ability to be one of the adults passing out candy this time felt like a rekindling of the season for me. Sadly though it wasn't exactly as fun as I hoped. I had spent a fair amount on candy for a sizeable bowl, not really expecting to need that much but I figured I'd be prepared. And you know what? I only had one trick-or-treater come by. Part of it was the weather I'm sure, because it ended up being a very windy afternoon and evening. And you know, I'm sure there's plenty of families with younger kids in my area, but I'm sure they took their kids to certain nicer parts of town. Not that where I live is bad or anything. At least the one kid that stopped by was really cool, and I was really happy he had. I let him know that he could take a fair amount but I guess maybe he wanted to stay modest and only took a few pieces. He was a nice kid though, and at least his stopping by did kinda improved my mood a little. It's just that I wish maybe it could have been a little more active. At least I could still enjoy my evening enough by viewing The Nightmare Before Christmas. It's practically required viewing on Halloween right? Depending on who you are I guess. About the only thing that saved my Halloween I guess, it just would have been nice to have been a little more active with trick-or-treaters is all.

For some of you that may been wondering why I’ve been so quiet and non active, I’ve been having more medical problems for weeks now. It started off with heat stroke; lots of muscle pain, stiffness, exhaustion and the like. There was only so much I could do about it but even when there was a little relief from that the pain and stiffness still didn’t really subside enough to let me sleep properly either. There hasn’t really been anything pin-pointed as to what could be causing this misery to continue, but I’m sure the lack of restful sleep is a big contributing factor for how long it’s lasted. There might be some progress being made now, but I just need to keep up what I’m trying currently for a while to really see.
So for anyone who might have been trying to contact me for a chat, I’ve just been trying to put my focus on getting better right now. I’m not trying to ignore anyone, it’s just that I’ve gotten very delirious and I get exhausted even more if I talk to more than my family or my doctor. I just wanted to throw that out there so certain folks don’t think I’m ignoring them for some sort of BS reason.

I’ve been feeling super shitty physically for some time now. Binge watching my current fave shows helps in easing me a little but you guys posting your characters being cute or sweet would help too. Nsfw or sfw, it don’t matter just so long as it audibly makes me go ‘Awwww!’ <3

Please and thank you!~

Okay, so, this time I wanna see your guys' muscular women. They don't have to be strictly fitness nut or body-builder type but there should be evidence that they can do some heavy lifting. And this isn't limited to cis gendered characters; if they have a dick as well then that's fine by me! As Spike Spiegel once said, "I love the kind of woman that can kick my ass!"

I’ve just been feeling crummy in general today so I need some butt shots to cheer me up! I know I could look them up somewhere but it’s nicer to see what you folks have available for your characters. Big or small, firm or juicy, and anywhere on the gender spectrum; it’s all good! Please and thank you!

I’m probably being annoying with all of these character requests by now but I’m seriously gonna need this after the day I had yesterday and will have tomorrow!

I need to see some thicc/chubby characters that would be great for cuddling, lying on top of me, sitting on my face, that type of stuff! Gender doesn’t matter!

Please and Thank You!

I would love it if after I get home and can finally relax that a big, muscle-y individual with a sizable cock would be there waiting for me! I would so plop face down on the couch or bed and relax (as best as I could really lol) as they pounded my butt. Fast, slow, gentle or rough; just so long as I can lay there and take it!

Who among your OCs would you say is a good candidate for that position?

Not that it’s been a bad day at work or anything, but I felt good enough this morning that I just wanted to stay home, sip coffee and tea the rest of the morning and work on smut stories. I don’t always get mornings like that, so it was a little hard to let go of that opportunity for the sake of less fun work; even though that’s what’s making me money atm. Maybe I won’t be as worn out later this evening and I can still have enough momentum to get some personal projects pieced together more. Or maybe it’ll just be enough energy to feel more horny and sift through porn. We can just call that research or something.

So pretty much everyone that's entered has a character officially in the story now. It's a nice variety of characters, which I was definitely hoping for. Fair warning that since this isn't a commission and is just being don't for fun it'll likely be a while before it's finished. I don't have a good estimate really, but hopefully since this is gonna be a short story anyway it won't be a crazy long wait.

Anyway, what I want from the folks that entered is just a little bit of info on your characters' personality and sexual interests. In a way they'll be used like they were actors, but I'd like to know enough about them to not completely misrepresent them. And the sexual interests are just so that I don't accidentally put someone somewhere they feel uncomfortable. This is gonna focus on Stacy getting her brains fucked out, but knowing a little more about what the others might do could break up any monotony and add spice. You can put all the info down below or note it to me. Thanks for entering folks! This should turn out interesting!

Just to show you all who's in it here are the characters:
https://www.furaffinity.net/view/29923710/
https://www.furaffinity.net/gallery.....542783/Walrick
https://www.furaffinity.net/view/31669135/ (Also has the Lifeguard role)
https://www.furaffinity.net/view/31054447/
https://sta.sh/023h8p5r3ura
https://www.furaffinity.net/gallery.....Damien-Civello

I'm just working a short story involving my character Stacy, but I'm a little stuck on other characters and want to use more than just made-up-on-the-spot randos. I thought I'd see if there would be any interest in letting me borrow your characters. Basically, the scene is that Stacy gets recognized while enjoying a day off at the beach by some fans and it turns into a beach gangbang. Male characters are definitely top pick but pretty much anyone with a dick has a shot. Depending on how many are interested I'll sift through them and pick and choose; ideally I'd like to see if I can work with 5 or 6 characters maybe. Furry preferred, and lets see if we can get a good mix of species too! At least one character will have a life guard role that comes with a little benefit.

That's the gist of it. Leave a comment below with a link to your character if interested. I'll mostly be using their likeness in order to distinguish between characters more, but including basic info on their personality never hurts. Hope to hear from a lot of you and thanks for stopping by!~

I'll see about choosing between them sometime tonight or tomorrow depending

I kinda need to update my wardrobe but only have a vague idea of where to start. To give an idea of what I’m looking for, I had been wanting to look for an off-shoulder kind of shirt like in this post. https://www.furaffinity.net/view/37408737
Maybe even try to find some booty shorts and what not. Mostly I’m just not sure where to look.

I’m mainly just looking for something comfortable and makes me feel good about my body too. I’m open to any other suggestions as well; it’ll be good to explore I think.

It’s mostly brought on by having some wine this evening, but I feel a major need for characters with a big dick. Not hyper really, but something impressive. Gender doesn’t matter, if you have a character with a nice, big, beautiful cock then let me see! For the love of god just throw this dog some bones, please!

Welp, I've gone and done it! Or, I guess I already had since I forgot I had made a private twitter AD already, I just hadn't passed it around yet. There's a crappy safe pic of me in my scraps to get an idea of what I look like. https://www.furaffinity.net/view/37517920/

If you're at all interested then note me here or DM me on my main twitter. I may or may not be selective on who I let in depending, but as long as you keep out of trouble and don't start anything we should all have a good time.

And I know most of my pics aren't exactly 'professional grade' but I'm just doing this for some quick fun and wanting to share this new level of body positivity I've been feeling lately.