I'M BACK!

Everything went amazing and I have one Follow up appointment left next week before i am released. We will see where my eyesight i healed too. It has been amazing for the first time in my life I have not been attached to my Glasses or had to deal with super thick contacts. Colors are so much sharper now as well its just been a Miracle for my life in general.

I am back at the tablet now as well and will have some offerings soon for people.

Also THANK YOU to the new watchers!!!!

Love

Melody

So I went for my consultation today and we are gearing up so mid August I will be doing Imaging for them to make replacment lenses and then I can breat for a couple weeks. First week of September will be the First surgery with a follow up two days after before a week till the second Surgery with another follow up and a couple more visits after that. I won't be aloud to lift anything or swim and i will be stuck inside alot till they fully heal no dusty places like ren fair. But this will all be worth it if it all pans out. I probly won't be around FA much till then but i will try to check in

Thank you for all the Well Wishes and Prayers it means so much to me!

Love you all Melody

I have all my work done and i have been relaxing as much as I can, I go this week do find out all my options for the procedure, still a little bit nervous. wish me Luck and prayers everyone. once i get recovered my plan is to return to work

Love you all
Melody

I am having sever art block on motivation I stare at the work and try something then don't like it and I really wanna give my best on this commission. ARG!!! also this will be my last Commission for awhile I shall explain below.

Eye Surgery

I will be starting the Process of having Cataract Surgery in the next two month. So I will be out for a bit healing and getting used to the artificial lenses. No this will not restore and kind of my lost vision but it will sharpen and clear up my central vision I have left and thats amazing for me!!! yay.

Also went for my Physical and the dotor was happy with my progress I have lost 15 pounds since Febuary and now am Back under the 200 Mark! so I gotta keep chugging along


ART

Working on -  masterofwolves99


COMMISSIONS and YCH are closed For now until after surgery

All things considered the week isn't starting out too bad as the heat wave broke and getting some relief from it. July starts tomorrow I can't believe how fast it has gotten up on me this year. July means its my Puppers Birthday which means he is TWELVE years old this year wow it doesn't feel like it at all.

My emotional status is about the same taking another blow right after posting my last journal. So I ask for patients as a may be prickly about trust and such matters for awhile. i and not really that angry about the events just more disappointed in individuals and events that lead to the outcome. So, I just need to process it and move on. Believe me I don't hold on to anger I just move on and hope all other parties do the same.

Also i have been getting so much Clutter out of my House its been feeling great and very therapeutic. Most of it has gone to donation hopefully to be used more and sadly some stuff couldn't be saved

Art wise, I am Planning on finishing up all paid work this week. I do feel the spark to get back to me tablet. I have decided to take July for the most part off and resume in September.

I love you all and thank you for all the support.

Melody

Between the Heat wave here and some emotional stuff its heen a rough week for me not gonna lie i didn't evfen touch my computer or tablet till today My spark is just a little dim but its getting brighter again gonna put some KPop and retro stuff on the playlist and find myself again and hit the ground running.

love you all

Melody

Current work

Commissions

 Masterofwolves99 - Full scaling Commission - Paid - In progress

Upcoming YCH

Dragon Bust YCH - In progress - July

Mermaid Full Scaling YCH - in progress - July

Naga YCH Pick Your Pose - Possible July/September release
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Head Shot/Badges Commissions Open

$30.00 USD PAYPAL only

EXAMPLES

https://www.furaffinity.net/view/53609555/

https://www.furaffinity.net/view/53298819/

https://www.furaffinity.net/view/51937909/

https://www.furaffinity.net/view/51680176/

https://www.furaffinity.net/view/51157674/

https://www.furaffinity.net/view/51231628/



Any questions feel free to NOTE me

Love You All
Melody

Sorry about delays in art everyone. I haven't had much time at home to sit at the tablet and work. its finally staying warm here so I will be hiding inside when not mooching off the parent's to use their pool lol.

We are in June now which normally means I will post very little because its my Birthday and lots or Festivals and shows happen this month that I go to and attend. I have started hiking again on the weekends with friends to Yay!

I am Planning a summer event this year so that will have discounted pricing coming up.

Love you all

Melody

Hello everyone i hope your having a great Mermay.

Question.

What type of themes or activities would you like to see as mermaid themed for my next release event? Also, would you prefer me to keep multi pose options or only offer a single pose?

Next Question.

Would anyone be interested in seeing me post Naga art as well? Also would pick your pose be a good option her?

Just curious so let me know in the comments?

Love you all

Melody

I want to say thank you for all the new watches!!

Love all
Melody

I am now taking slots for pick your pose and will be keeping track of the orders in this journal.

https://www.furaffinity.net/view/60455838/

Current Queue

1.  Nightclaw - Paid - Complete

2.  RikuTheMermage - Paid - Complete

3.  Masterofwolves99 - Paid - Complete

I have everything ready to launch for the first part of this years offering! I do start in April for this event. I will be Posting the opening on April the 4th for my Pick your Pose offering.

Later in may I will reveal my two large offerings that come with all the bells and whistles I offer in my digital paintings.

keep your eyes open I think you all might like this years offering,

Preview post today!

Love you All!!
Melody

Thank you to everyone that sent Prayers and good vibes for my mother. she is doing so much better. still recovering but leaps better that she is already to plant her garden.

Work will fully resume tomorrow as I monday obligations to keep. though i did sneak in a couple hours of art time this morning.

But again I am so grateful
thank you

Melody

Good news everyone!

I have finished the base poses for this year's Mermay options. Also finished the poses and started refining the line work for the 2 larger mermay options.

Now the bad news...

I have a sick pare t today so I will be spending the day at their house while the other can go work. My tablet doesn't travel so no art will be done.

Please send my mom all the prayers and good vibes so she can kick her illness to the curb quickly!

Love you all!!!

~Appears from the deep abyss~

Yes I know its March but its already time to start getting ready for Mermay! I am going to do my best to try to have a few options and different Price points for everyone this year. Along with new stuff to offer I am playing with the idea of bringing back some older offerings from years past as well. If you like the idea please let me know below

I am planning to have things set for Orders in April if all goes well and there are no interruptions.

Will be posting more reminders as we get closer


~Sinks back into the darkness or the deep Ocean~

Summer is in full swing here for me so......I'm totally melting lol.


If you haven't noticed yet I have been posting practice drawings to my Scraps folder. I don't have really anything lined up for the main gallery right now as I am also suffering from just art burn out so i have been focusing on my MLP and and fashion doll collections doing cleaning and repairs. Also thinking its time for the Pokemon and Miku shelves to be taken down and put in the storage house till I decided what to do with them.

Got a couple events for July of course the Fourth of July for me is a Holiday so gonna get in the pool and grill and just relax that day. then at the end of the month is my puppers birthday I can't believe he has been with me for eleven years!!! he is doing great too still loves the play and run around.

I hope your all doing well and staying happy and healthy

Love
Melody

So as any of my watchers or Visitors can see I have closed the YCH's since no one seemed interested in them and I need to focus on my other projects for now. After this year and last year I am not sure if I will be doing Mermay Anymore and mer stuff will be on commission only.


Other things going on is I am super cleaning my house getting the closets and stuff cleared out so been sending clothing to donation and a lot of the toys I have been taking to resellers so just clearing out. been reflecting on me and what I like to do. I want to get back in the pool more than staying in front of my tablet while the weather is good. Don't want to be stressing out over if something sells or not. so its for my mental health


Love you all!
Melody

Since we are over Halfway through Mermay and due to time constraints now I have reduced the slots down to a single YCH Purchase on Both

Sea Spray - https://www.furaffinity.net/view/56490953/

Grotto Keeper - https://www.furaffinity.net/view/56491722/



this is the only way I can Insure them to be done by the end of May or Beginning of June.


As normal I will be extremely busy through June this year with renfair, Birthday, Cousins wedding and other non tablet work.




Love you All

Melody

Hello every one.

I have been super busy bit I have managed to get out a couple offerings for Mermay 2024.

Sea Spray - https://www.furaffinity.net/view/56490953/

Grotto Keeper - https://www.furaffinity.net/view/56491722/

If I have no intrest in these works before the end of the month these will be put into the vault. For either my personal use or reissue down the road.

Love you all
Melody

Thank you to Everyone! you have been so understanding of my situation and i really really and grateful. the online support has been great and my family rally came through in this hard time and has helped me get through. I did see the doctore right before Christmas and got some help and hopfully it will help me rebalance my self. so that said i am going to be making most of this year about me and being happy.


I hope you all have a wonderful New Year as well.

Melody

I have basically had a mental breakdown and crumbled because I have been very sad and put myself under such pressure and expectation to please other people in both my everyday non internet life and my social media life. I have been heartbroken the last few weeks do to partner issues so yes I blamed myself for awhile but its not all on me either so i will leave it at that with the subject. My 84 year old neighbor has fallen mentally ill and now lives on the opposite side of the country from us now. I have known her my whole life and i knew her husband before he passed they were basically my surrogate grandparents. We took care of her for as long as we could however her son did finally come for her when enough people started to talk about him. now I just see family members that were never around to help her in 30 plus years show up and are fighting over the stuff in the rental property she lived in. Not too mention the land lord is upset because they are not getting the house cleaned out and its only covered till the end of the month and its an entire cluster going on next store. when i try to call and check on her i just get told she is fine or napping i don't get to talk to her. Also all this is going on during the holidays when we normally have fun but nothing has felt fun to me I haven't even gotten out decorations this year. The cherry on top is i am also out of my Anti Anxiety medication and i was denied a new script until i can be seen. thankfully i will be in before Christmas though but since i have been out a week i am completely off kilter with everything else thats happening the small stuff is getting to me now as well;


Also I haven't been happy with myself at all my Body upsets me and i have been working on eating better and working out but i am never happy cause I don't feel i am making any headway I try to take care of my self doing skin care routines and my makeup and dressing nice but the truth is i have body issues and they do bother me i just don't like to talk about my issues publicly since it always seems everyone has there own issues to deal with. I'm stubborn that the truth and i normally will bottle it all up and not tell a soul these things also yes i have support and people that try to tell me that i look good or I'm doing fine but in my brain its never enough.

What this means for my art. well as of right now NO MORE YCH AND COMMISSIONS for i don't how long maybe for good if it helps my Mental health I am gonna draw what i wanna draw and who i wanna draw for. I am tired of feeling i have to beg for a chance to please some one or a crumb of a good job feeling. I am proud of my work and i do a good job for the skills i have and I put the best i have into all i do just as i know a lot of Artisit on this site do. but I have had it for now with the rat race of trying to peddle and compete and the resentment . I do appreciate every watcher and person that enjoys the work i put out. but i can't stand to undercut myself anymore .

if you haven't guessed by now this is a very emotional journal for me with all the feels but i am ready to do better by me and sto worryinh about pleasing other or what anyone has to say about me. I usually proof read and correct my writings but i can not seem to care on this one

to all those who support me and have been a true rock for me through this thank you so much. I wish all of you the best

From now my art is for going to be what i feel like doing so if you all made it this far and feel like you can enjoy that
thank you

Melody

https://bsky.app/profile/zabercat.bsky.social

Come say hi there!

Honestly I don't know where to start I'm not really angry or sad about anything thats been going on lately but I guess it does have me a bit down and i haven't wanted be alone so i have been staying with my parents, Thank God for them being there. I was feeling good about my art again but recent events have be doubting myself once more about the skills i have. things were steady the last five or six years and i was content with it. I know i will get through it but all i ask is be gentle with me.

The YCH's is still open for now but I will be working mostly on personal art unless the sell

Love you all

Melody

Let me start with I am sorry it is taking so long to get these YCH offerings out so slow backgrounds take me a long time and I am digitally Hand painting them so I am going over each piece as i wanna give the best quality I can to you all.

I am also still Open for Badge Commissions.

Melody

Hello Everyone!

Its been a crazy and busy month for me, just general life going on but I haven't gotten to do a lot of art the last few weeks. its been very frustrating. However, I should be getting back to a more steady schedule for November.

ART

I have two more large YCH offerings that should be posted By the end of the month These will Most likely be the last large pieces for this year.

I am Opening for Badge Commissions $25.00 USD Paypal Only, Note me if interested

Thank you

Melody