hiii. recently i've been having some art troubles and i haven't known what to do so i'm making this journal. the problem is this: i feel very stagnant, like i'm at a point in my trajectory where just practicing isn't working or getting me the results i want. it feels like something is missing from my artistic practice! like there's something i haven't seen yet that would give me new purpose if i did. i'm like a pokemon that needs some kind of stone to be able to evolve. what do i even do about a feeling like this? it's really bugging me.

after years of webmastering, i finally bought a big boy domain! my website can now be found at
meowmeowisland.moe!

i don't wanna speak too soon for fear of not finishing it, but i've started work on a comic that anyone who watches me on here will probably enjoy. it will be a short little thing, but hopefully cute and hot to people who are into the same sorts of things as i am. when it's ready, you'll see it! soz for no drawings in april BTW, life just.. keeps happening to me, and it gets hard to find the time or motivation to draw. i definitely want to do it more though! admittedly, i would probably benefit from keeping a sketchbook actively, but that presents its own challenges. when i was 14-15 and just starting to draw seriously, i would draw for so long, every day! i'd just draw whatever! how do i start doing THAT again? why does being an adult make it so much harder to pursue creative passions? it's not even like i have a day job or anything keeping me from my art, i'm literally a freeloader who lives with my parents. i guess it's just a change in mentality.

i think intellectual property is a force exclusively for evil. i do not think it protects artists. it's creatively stifling. simply put, it's an anti-art system.

you aren't powerless to stop it, though. you can't dismantle it on a legal level, but you can dismantle it in your mind. go on, do it. use that song you like. steal poses and compositions from artists you look up to. copy OCs. pirate everything. i'm serious. nobody owns anything you see on the internet. nothing is nailed down. it's ok. nobody is materially harmed by "idea theft", for one simple reason: "idea theft" isn't real. to the extent that you can, live as if everything is in the public domain. it'll make you a happier person and a better artist.

EDIT: probably also worth mentioning a couple of anti-copyright works i like. i haven't done a ton of reading on the topic, but i like this video and its sequel by patricia taxxon, as well as this talk by nina paley (who is unfortunately a massive transphobe. very sad. but nevertheless she has good opinions on copyright that were influential to me).

not really into vore but i'm fascinated by the world depicted in a lot of vore art... the idea that eating another sentient being (even fatally, in many cases) can be a relatively normal sexual/loving activity suggests a fundamentally different take on mortality than you generally see IRL. becoming part of another person's tummy fat or turning into cum or whatever isn't Death; although it has all the characteristics of Death, it's simply a change of state (like how when ice melts, it doesn't stop existing, it just turns into water). such an interesting perspective. if anyone who sees this is into vore (especially fatal vore) i'd love to hear your thoughts on the matter.