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General | Posted 10 years agoYou may have noticed that in some of my uploads I offer "bonus points" for those that can guess / tell me what's going on/ spot the <thing> or something to that extent.
Well, here's what's up with that:
I have a notepad (plus it's on FA for evidence. ;P) that after a certain point, I will either 'call in' the points, or the owner of said points in question note/contact me in some fashion for ... greaat priizzesssssssszsdsdafwiwer23ni8.
Why you ask?
Well, I like to reward people that have a keen eye, or a very interesting PoV. Though I have to admit it's a slightly bit biased to those that are already watching me, or contact me frequently, but it's still valid.
So! onto the tier rewards:
5 BP: Cameo/headshot in one of my commissions.
10 BP: I go halfsies on a commission of *your* choice.
20 BP: You guest star in one of my own commissions! (As in whatever is going on, occurs with your character/fursona as well)
40 BP: I pay for your own commission that has me in it! Doesn't matter the kink. (Within reason. I don't like guro/folks dying)
70 BP: I pay for *your* commission. ... yeah that's it.
150BP: heheheh.. you get included in any of my larger projects + a special "howdy" from large kickstarter projects... I probably won't be the only one making faux-vocal sounds in a certain game that involves collecting large musical notes with eyes... and I'll foot the bill. As an example.
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Got to admit, not a bad haul for just answering a question, right?
Well, here's what's up with that:
I have a notepad (plus it's on FA for evidence. ;P) that after a certain point, I will either 'call in' the points, or the owner of said points in question note/contact me in some fashion for ... greaat priizzesssssssszsdsdafwiwer23ni8.
Why you ask?
Well, I like to reward people that have a keen eye, or a very interesting PoV. Though I have to admit it's a slightly bit biased to those that are already watching me, or contact me frequently, but it's still valid.
So! onto the tier rewards:
5 BP: Cameo/headshot in one of my commissions.
10 BP: I go halfsies on a commission of *your* choice.
20 BP: You guest star in one of my own commissions! (As in whatever is going on, occurs with your character/fursona as well)
40 BP: I pay for your own commission that has me in it! Doesn't matter the kink. (Within reason. I don't like guro/folks dying)
70 BP: I pay for *your* commission. ... yeah that's it.
150BP: heheheh.. you get included in any of my larger projects + a special "howdy" from large kickstarter projects... I probably won't be the only one making faux-vocal sounds in a certain game that involves collecting large musical notes with eyes... and I'll foot the bill. As an example.
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Got to admit, not a bad haul for just answering a question, right?
Because in asia, everyone delivers.
General | Posted 10 years ago... yeah. it's true.
Want to know what KFc's got rollin' around?
https://kfcdelivery.com.ph/
Take a peek!
McDonalds?
https://www.mcdonalds.com.ph/mcdelivery Take a look. And yes, everyone out here calls it "McDo." because it's the name of their cheapest (and still quite tasty) burger.
Want something ... a bit more?
Well, how about what I had for lunch?
You get two points (Get five points, and cameo in an image with me of your choosing!) if you can tell me what is the following foods:
1: https://www.dropbox.com/s/xpoxrdgzq.....36.18.jpg?dl=0
2: https://www.dropbox.com/s/iz8hxmy1m.....36.32.jpg?dl=0
3: https://www.dropbox.com/s/w11uumziq.....37.31.jpg?dl=0
;P
Want to know what KFc's got rollin' around?
https://kfcdelivery.com.ph/
Take a peek!
McDonalds?
https://www.mcdonalds.com.ph/mcdelivery Take a look. And yes, everyone out here calls it "McDo." because it's the name of their cheapest (and still quite tasty) burger.
Want something ... a bit more?
Well, how about what I had for lunch?
You get two points (Get five points, and cameo in an image with me of your choosing!) if you can tell me what is the following foods:
1: https://www.dropbox.com/s/xpoxrdgzq.....36.18.jpg?dl=0
2: https://www.dropbox.com/s/iz8hxmy1m.....36.32.jpg?dl=0
3: https://www.dropbox.com/s/w11uumziq.....37.31.jpg?dl=0
;P
Ow my freaking mouth! (With pics!)
General | Posted 10 years agoAlso known as:
"How I dodged the surgical part of oral surgery."
First off, let me say that my bottom two wisdom teeth are impacted. In short, they popped grew kinda weird. However, the one in question was causing me pain a few months ago, to the point where I could not sleep. However, after drowning the thing in the expensive (purple) Listerine for two days, it stopped hurting.
Time skip to two weeks ago, it started up again, but this time, it was hurting at complete random, and I couldn't sleep due to it, probably giving me an average of two to four hours of sleep every TWO days or so. So after talking with my family about it, they recommended me to a clinic I was at last year when my mom came by to visit, and he cleaned my teeth, and fixed up my mother's.
He suggested I take a panoramic X-ray and after paying 900P for one (Equivalent to $26~) at a local clinic and handing it off to him via my uncle, he said that it was necessary to have it removed asap, as it's not exactly going to go away anymore.
So one day later, I'm off!
https://www.dropbox.com/s/izpr5wtg2.....40.55.jpg?dl=0
Not exactly what you'd expect, as you'd think that dental offices, or clinics in general would be super spic and span and clean and all that. But there's a lesson in this story, so just wait a minute alright?
https://www.dropbox.com/s/3liafoahi.....39.12.jpg?dl=0 Right through the front door. (Open, because it's really hot outside and the fan's on.)
So, before he starts, he explains something that he caught that the X-ray might have missed, and actually almost did, but he caught it. It turns out, that he can skip needing to cut into my freaking jaw (the surgery part) and it turns out, the impacted wisdom tooth in question, had actually caused a cavity in the molar that it was touching. So much so, that it might have gotten 'killed off' from the inside out. I just didn't notice it yet.
He points it to me, makes diagrams and all that, and I'm inclined to believe him, and he is the family dentist, so I agree. And I did have a -very bad- experience with anesthesia before in my life time, (It didn't work. As in. I felt the scalpel and everything.) so I tell him this and he says that I'll be fine, etc. I didn't even feel him stab my gums or anything. He even states "Well, you're a bigger than average guy, so we'll just wait a bit for the anesthesia to kick in." So give or take Five-Fifteen minutes of him talking with my uncle outside, he comes back in and pokes around and says that it's time.
I'm worried at this point, but I don't .. actually feel anything. So after .. maybe about less than a minute of him poking around, he calls my uncle and chuckles saying taht the tooth was 'hiding' and that it was kind of cute in the way it was like a child that had gotten caught doing something bad and was hiding behind the other molar. and shows my uncle. After that brief intermission he tugs and pulls and pop! Out goes the second molar. Which, he chuckles and shows it to me, says that he was right, and boy was he.
https://www.dropbox.com/s/ck49s3ff8.....37.09.jpg?dl=0
So then h gets to work on the other. He makes a comment on how incredibly durable my teeth are, and it was a shame that they had to have come in impacted, and it having affected the molar he just pulled out. Because at this point he's actually having trouble. He continues to talk to me about what's going on, and that the Xray, once again, (It's a good Xray too. One of those futuristic looking dealies that make me feel like I'm about to take a teleported in TF2/Glados' white sterility, so don't give me that 3rd world bullshit that certain folks seem to have). And that the reason why it stopped hurting months ago was .. well. Because it died. And as he tap tapped away with the plier-looking tooth thing, he comments that the crown had shattered. and he just taps a few times and shows me a few pieces of the wisdom tooth that just kind of fell off. But he seemed to have the most problem with the removal of the remnants because of how well grown in and sturdy it had grown in. Made another mention of how unfortunate it had to be this way, and bam! Out goes the wisdom tooth. (The remains are that tiny bit of tooth you see next to that big one.) Through this entire thing I didn't feel anything except pressure from his tugs and pokes.
He says that I'm done, to go rinse and ... that's it. He doesn't even prescribe (he could) antibiotics to his patients, because he's thorough enough that they don't need to. In fact, I wasn't even bleeding. Seriously. I just had teeth pulled and he even said that I didn't need to bite down on gauze or anything. (So either he's very good, or I'm freaking Wolverine.)
I do ask about any particular painkillers, and he just says, "Well, if you're sure it's going to hurt a lot and don't want to feel anything..." he just gives me a prescription paper for 10x tabs of Mefanamic acid. It's basically a type of painkiller that is nonsteroidal and anti-inflammatory. And with that I go to the mall to pick up my tabs (Price: 50 cents. CENTS. Half of a dollar for generic. Not each. For the 10 tabs.) I eat a bento box after getting some groceries with my uncle, then head home, and sleep. Although because of the numbness (The anesthesia was still working) I had to chew my food on the other half of my mouth.
Now, the lesson I mentioned earlier:
This dentist, is an "old school dentist" and had gotten his degree years ago from the Southwestern University here in the Philippines. And by "Old School" I mean he's the dental version of what my own father is. (My father, being an "old school" General Practitioner. ... As in they don't teach doctors the same way he was taught because 'They cannot handle the curriculum.' and my father is STILL qualified in his old age to do anything in a hospital. (he keeps himself updated yearly.)
But anyway, back to the lesson.
From what you've seen in the pictures, you would've thought that he might've been crap, or the place was not a good place to go because it's so open, or it's not white and sterile like what you're used to. (Heck that was what was on my mind as well.) But he was incredibly professional, kind of laid back really, which helped ease my tension and was quick and straight forward. No bullshit, no wanting to ask you if you wanted more expensive stuff (He did have options, but recommended that it was all unnecessary) and was very good at what he did. Know how good he was? Well, let me explain:
During the weeks of pain, I had actually consulted the Hospital how much it'd costs, and various other clinics and private dental offices around the city. It ranged from a SIMPLE Wisdom tooth extraction (10,000P) to "complex extraction." (15,000P) which is approximately $300-400. Not including "misc" fees. (And those who've been around hospitals of any kind know that "misc fees" can wildly vary in range.) And that's not including what would have happened if they didn't have the foresight or wanted MORE money upon "discovery" of the second molar's issue or just wanted to go 'standard procedure' and slice open my jaw.
So how much did this incredibly skilled dentist charge me? 3,000P. (about $80.)
So total, including X-ray, Medicine, Taxi fare, etc:
About $100.
AND. No need to be on liquid food.
Lesson? Don't judge a book by it's cover.
"How I dodged the surgical part of oral surgery."
First off, let me say that my bottom two wisdom teeth are impacted. In short, they popped grew kinda weird. However, the one in question was causing me pain a few months ago, to the point where I could not sleep. However, after drowning the thing in the expensive (purple) Listerine for two days, it stopped hurting.
Time skip to two weeks ago, it started up again, but this time, it was hurting at complete random, and I couldn't sleep due to it, probably giving me an average of two to four hours of sleep every TWO days or so. So after talking with my family about it, they recommended me to a clinic I was at last year when my mom came by to visit, and he cleaned my teeth, and fixed up my mother's.
He suggested I take a panoramic X-ray and after paying 900P for one (Equivalent to $26~) at a local clinic and handing it off to him via my uncle, he said that it was necessary to have it removed asap, as it's not exactly going to go away anymore.
So one day later, I'm off!
https://www.dropbox.com/s/izpr5wtg2.....40.55.jpg?dl=0
Not exactly what you'd expect, as you'd think that dental offices, or clinics in general would be super spic and span and clean and all that. But there's a lesson in this story, so just wait a minute alright?
https://www.dropbox.com/s/3liafoahi.....39.12.jpg?dl=0 Right through the front door. (Open, because it's really hot outside and the fan's on.)
So, before he starts, he explains something that he caught that the X-ray might have missed, and actually almost did, but he caught it. It turns out, that he can skip needing to cut into my freaking jaw (the surgery part) and it turns out, the impacted wisdom tooth in question, had actually caused a cavity in the molar that it was touching. So much so, that it might have gotten 'killed off' from the inside out. I just didn't notice it yet.
He points it to me, makes diagrams and all that, and I'm inclined to believe him, and he is the family dentist, so I agree. And I did have a -very bad- experience with anesthesia before in my life time, (It didn't work. As in. I felt the scalpel and everything.) so I tell him this and he says that I'll be fine, etc. I didn't even feel him stab my gums or anything. He even states "Well, you're a bigger than average guy, so we'll just wait a bit for the anesthesia to kick in." So give or take Five-Fifteen minutes of him talking with my uncle outside, he comes back in and pokes around and says that it's time.
I'm worried at this point, but I don't .. actually feel anything. So after .. maybe about less than a minute of him poking around, he calls my uncle and chuckles saying taht the tooth was 'hiding' and that it was kind of cute in the way it was like a child that had gotten caught doing something bad and was hiding behind the other molar. and shows my uncle. After that brief intermission he tugs and pulls and pop! Out goes the second molar. Which, he chuckles and shows it to me, says that he was right, and boy was he.
https://www.dropbox.com/s/ck49s3ff8.....37.09.jpg?dl=0
So then h gets to work on the other. He makes a comment on how incredibly durable my teeth are, and it was a shame that they had to have come in impacted, and it having affected the molar he just pulled out. Because at this point he's actually having trouble. He continues to talk to me about what's going on, and that the Xray, once again, (It's a good Xray too. One of those futuristic looking dealies that make me feel like I'm about to take a teleported in TF2/Glados' white sterility, so don't give me that 3rd world bullshit that certain folks seem to have). And that the reason why it stopped hurting months ago was .. well. Because it died. And as he tap tapped away with the plier-looking tooth thing, he comments that the crown had shattered. and he just taps a few times and shows me a few pieces of the wisdom tooth that just kind of fell off. But he seemed to have the most problem with the removal of the remnants because of how well grown in and sturdy it had grown in. Made another mention of how unfortunate it had to be this way, and bam! Out goes the wisdom tooth. (The remains are that tiny bit of tooth you see next to that big one.) Through this entire thing I didn't feel anything except pressure from his tugs and pokes.
He says that I'm done, to go rinse and ... that's it. He doesn't even prescribe (he could) antibiotics to his patients, because he's thorough enough that they don't need to. In fact, I wasn't even bleeding. Seriously. I just had teeth pulled and he even said that I didn't need to bite down on gauze or anything. (So either he's very good, or I'm freaking Wolverine.)
I do ask about any particular painkillers, and he just says, "Well, if you're sure it's going to hurt a lot and don't want to feel anything..." he just gives me a prescription paper for 10x tabs of Mefanamic acid. It's basically a type of painkiller that is nonsteroidal and anti-inflammatory. And with that I go to the mall to pick up my tabs (Price: 50 cents. CENTS. Half of a dollar for generic. Not each. For the 10 tabs.) I eat a bento box after getting some groceries with my uncle, then head home, and sleep. Although because of the numbness (The anesthesia was still working) I had to chew my food on the other half of my mouth.
Now, the lesson I mentioned earlier:
This dentist, is an "old school dentist" and had gotten his degree years ago from the Southwestern University here in the Philippines. And by "Old School" I mean he's the dental version of what my own father is. (My father, being an "old school" General Practitioner. ... As in they don't teach doctors the same way he was taught because 'They cannot handle the curriculum.' and my father is STILL qualified in his old age to do anything in a hospital. (he keeps himself updated yearly.)
But anyway, back to the lesson.
From what you've seen in the pictures, you would've thought that he might've been crap, or the place was not a good place to go because it's so open, or it's not white and sterile like what you're used to. (Heck that was what was on my mind as well.) But he was incredibly professional, kind of laid back really, which helped ease my tension and was quick and straight forward. No bullshit, no wanting to ask you if you wanted more expensive stuff (He did have options, but recommended that it was all unnecessary) and was very good at what he did. Know how good he was? Well, let me explain:
During the weeks of pain, I had actually consulted the Hospital how much it'd costs, and various other clinics and private dental offices around the city. It ranged from a SIMPLE Wisdom tooth extraction (10,000P) to "complex extraction." (15,000P) which is approximately $300-400. Not including "misc" fees. (And those who've been around hospitals of any kind know that "misc fees" can wildly vary in range.) And that's not including what would have happened if they didn't have the foresight or wanted MORE money upon "discovery" of the second molar's issue or just wanted to go 'standard procedure' and slice open my jaw.
So how much did this incredibly skilled dentist charge me? 3,000P. (about $80.)
So total, including X-ray, Medicine, Taxi fare, etc:
About $100.
AND. No need to be on liquid food.
Lesson? Don't judge a book by it's cover.
Elemental Shift Voting!
General | Posted 11 years agohttp://goo.gl/L1D60R
As I mentioned previously on
catmonkshiro 's uploads, I'm taking votes as to see what -you- the viewers would like to see next. I'll be uploading my own mini-story'd version in a week or so, as to not clog up the uploaded sections there.
As I mentioned previously on
catmonkshiro 's uploads, I'm taking votes as to see what -you- the viewers would like to see next. I'll be uploading my own mini-story'd version in a week or so, as to not clog up the uploaded sections there.Happy Borfday (hatchday?) To me!
General | Posted 11 years agoUgh I feel old. As of one hour and twenty-two minutes ago, (asian time) January 20, I have hit another birthday and dang do I have no plans! Hahaha... well, I guess that means I'm up for just staring at the wall or something like that. Might treat myself to something ridiculous. Ah... where does the time go? Just makes me look back and sigh, remembering all the good times I've had with my friends and family, trials and tribulations of a single year. The ups, and downs, twists and turns. But sometimes to get a bit of motivation, it takes a quick poke in the right direction.
Shoutout to my friends and famiily that keep this old trainwreck still chuggin' yeah?
Time flies like an arrow.
Fruit flies like banana.
Shoutout to my friends and famiily that keep this old trainwreck still chuggin' yeah?
Time flies like an arrow.
Fruit flies like banana.
Merry Christmas! And a happy new year!
General | Posted 11 years agoAs of abboooutt.. 7 hours ago, it has officially become Christmas! Woo! And I'd just like to say:
From me to you, and a rather eventful year! I've picked up the pencil, started writing, proofreading and editing on various websites, hosted my own successful D&D games, (and still going!) and experiencing new things. A lot of things can happen in a moment, but Three-hundred and sixty-five days full of moments? Both dull and vibrant, it's never the same thing twice. So on my behalf from me to all of you, Merry Christmas, Happy Hanukkah, Happy Holidays, and here's to the upcoming new year, and to my closest friends, and my wonderful family. I wouldn't be who I am without you.
From me to you, and a rather eventful year! I've picked up the pencil, started writing, proofreading and editing on various websites, hosted my own successful D&D games, (and still going!) and experiencing new things. A lot of things can happen in a moment, but Three-hundred and sixty-five days full of moments? Both dull and vibrant, it's never the same thing twice. So on my behalf from me to all of you, Merry Christmas, Happy Hanukkah, Happy Holidays, and here's to the upcoming new year, and to my closest friends, and my wonderful family. I wouldn't be who I am without you.
Mutant Zombie Shark Meme
General | Posted 11 years agoOh no! You are being attacked by a horde of mutated zombie sharks with robotic extras! Thanks to being undead they can't be killed, and they have mutated to be bigger, faster, and toothier than regular sharks! Plus they have robot arms and legs and guns!
1) Close your eyes and wave your hands in a circle until you smack something. This is the only weapon you have.
2) Find the first sentence of the first complete paragraph of the 321st page of the nearest book with more than 321 pages. This describes your daring shark escape.
3) Who was the last person you said anything about pie to? This is your love interest!
4) Have some bacon, it's delicious.
5) Paste whatever is in your cache into notepad. The complete paragraph using all the words you pasted that you write describes your final battle!
6) Look around you. Do you see a bowl, a potted plant, or any eraser with a novelty shape? You survived the battle! Do you see a screwdriver, a spoon, or any item of junk mail? Oh no, you died!
Have fun and share with all your friends.
Grabbed from
DMA This was just way too ridiculous to pass up. What'd you guys get?
1: Apparently a bamboo broom is my weapon
2: "Few effects of hypo or hypersecretion of calcitonin are known, and calcitonin production is meager or ceases entirely in adults." ... so... did I stab stuff in the parathyroid glands?
3:
desmondfallout ... ... I don't talk about PIE to anyone else, amusingly enough.
4: I would if I had any.
5: My cache? How do I find my cache? Choplifter Vulcan Cannons Shotguns Epic Music. - Ya know that's actually kind of bad ass.
6: I don't think bills count as junk mail because they're kind of important. I do however have a bubble gum shaped eraser. So .. yay I guess?!
1) Close your eyes and wave your hands in a circle until you smack something. This is the only weapon you have.
2) Find the first sentence of the first complete paragraph of the 321st page of the nearest book with more than 321 pages. This describes your daring shark escape.
3) Who was the last person you said anything about pie to? This is your love interest!
4) Have some bacon, it's delicious.
5) Paste whatever is in your cache into notepad. The complete paragraph using all the words you pasted that you write describes your final battle!
6) Look around you. Do you see a bowl, a potted plant, or any eraser with a novelty shape? You survived the battle! Do you see a screwdriver, a spoon, or any item of junk mail? Oh no, you died!
Have fun and share with all your friends.
Grabbed from
DMA This was just way too ridiculous to pass up. What'd you guys get?1: Apparently a bamboo broom is my weapon
2: "Few effects of hypo or hypersecretion of calcitonin are known, and calcitonin production is meager or ceases entirely in adults." ... so... did I stab stuff in the parathyroid glands?
3:
desmondfallout ... ... I don't talk about PIE to anyone else, amusingly enough.4: I would if I had any.
5: My cache? How do I find my cache? Choplifter Vulcan Cannons Shotguns Epic Music. - Ya know that's actually kind of bad ass.
6: I don't think bills count as junk mail because they're kind of important. I do however have a bubble gum shaped eraser. So .. yay I guess?!
I hate June.
General | Posted 11 years agoA lit candle, a bit of lavender incense, its smokey scent filling the spartan room. The thoughts and memories of a time long past, when there was still innocence and youth... I can barely remember her face, as I practiced the ritual I have been doing in secret for more than a decade.
I take the cup with it's smokey brew and stared into its amber depths, nose wrinkling at its' sharp scent. It was almost the same color as her hair. Its long dark brown hair, smooth and shimmering in the light. One sip.
I place the cup down in front of the candle and incense as I continue to reminisce. This time of the year used to be my favorite when I was younger, it's time supposedly a time for freedom, the anticipation of fun in the sun amongst friends and family. Taking the cup in my hands again I stare at the blank and empty space in front of me. Two sips.
She was smart, intelligent beyond her years and incredibly funny and insightful. At that age I had problems. She, like me, was 'groomed' for high expectations. At the time, it didn't seem like much, trouble, noise and ... pain. Three sips.
She took it all in stride, smiled and tried her best to keep me happy. I saw in the corner of my eyes when she thought I wasn't looking, her happy grin seemed to fade and her eyes were distant. At least for the moment. Only for that blush to appear on her pale cheeks. She was beautiful. And in more than one way. One sip.
The heady brew working its' way through my system, the slight burn I felt that same night when we stayed out longer than we should have as we talked under stars in the middle of my front yard. About the future. Our dreams. Three sips.
We made promises that night, but the one that stuck with me the most, was one that at the time, I never would have considered. It was ... odd. Its placement was in the midst of a slew of random promises, which at the time I readily agreed to everything, as they were impossible to not agree to. Be friendly. Yes. Be good to strangers. Yes. Always honor your parents. Of Course. Never kill yourself. Naturally. Be charitable. If I can. The list went on. We both swore upon our names, blood and souls to uphold the promises that firefly lit night. One sip.
The suited man that came to collect her, and the threats that could be heard before the door slammed shut. Forgot about the disparity between us both. She was rich, I was not. She had a head for numbers, I had ideas. She had a future in business, I had a future in being confused. She was rich, and I was not. Two sips.
She had slipped away to come visit me. She was always punctual, and exact with her timing, coming when she said she would. I learned that from her. Though for once I wish she hadn't. Four sips.
I was not allowed into her funeral. I would never remember her face, hear her laugh, see her smile, or watch her realize her dreams. Potential wasted and lost on one undeserving. I remember that day. I will always remember that day. And on that day, I drink the memories, and I taste the failure. Chug.
This month always gets to me. An excuse it may be. The amber bottle tall and still filled with liquid sitting in its' box right next to me. I think about it and shake my head. She wouldn't want that. So I continue to kneel there, staring at the space. And I imagine what could have been. And I keep the memories. And I honor my promises.
----
Some dance to forget, I dance to remember. I hate the week leading up the June, and I hate June itself. It's a cursed month for me, and I never seem to act rational in it. Some people that know me might pick up on some of the niggling nuances within that little bit above and it would explain some things. At least kind of. Ah well, Anyway if I seem short with anyone this month apologies in advance.
I take the cup with it's smokey brew and stared into its amber depths, nose wrinkling at its' sharp scent. It was almost the same color as her hair. Its long dark brown hair, smooth and shimmering in the light. One sip.
I place the cup down in front of the candle and incense as I continue to reminisce. This time of the year used to be my favorite when I was younger, it's time supposedly a time for freedom, the anticipation of fun in the sun amongst friends and family. Taking the cup in my hands again I stare at the blank and empty space in front of me. Two sips.
She was smart, intelligent beyond her years and incredibly funny and insightful. At that age I had problems. She, like me, was 'groomed' for high expectations. At the time, it didn't seem like much, trouble, noise and ... pain. Three sips.
She took it all in stride, smiled and tried her best to keep me happy. I saw in the corner of my eyes when she thought I wasn't looking, her happy grin seemed to fade and her eyes were distant. At least for the moment. Only for that blush to appear on her pale cheeks. She was beautiful. And in more than one way. One sip.
The heady brew working its' way through my system, the slight burn I felt that same night when we stayed out longer than we should have as we talked under stars in the middle of my front yard. About the future. Our dreams. Three sips.
We made promises that night, but the one that stuck with me the most, was one that at the time, I never would have considered. It was ... odd. Its placement was in the midst of a slew of random promises, which at the time I readily agreed to everything, as they were impossible to not agree to. Be friendly. Yes. Be good to strangers. Yes. Always honor your parents. Of Course. Never kill yourself. Naturally. Be charitable. If I can. The list went on. We both swore upon our names, blood and souls to uphold the promises that firefly lit night. One sip.
The suited man that came to collect her, and the threats that could be heard before the door slammed shut. Forgot about the disparity between us both. She was rich, I was not. She had a head for numbers, I had ideas. She had a future in business, I had a future in being confused. She was rich, and I was not. Two sips.
She had slipped away to come visit me. She was always punctual, and exact with her timing, coming when she said she would. I learned that from her. Though for once I wish she hadn't. Four sips.
I was not allowed into her funeral. I would never remember her face, hear her laugh, see her smile, or watch her realize her dreams. Potential wasted and lost on one undeserving. I remember that day. I will always remember that day. And on that day, I drink the memories, and I taste the failure. Chug.
This month always gets to me. An excuse it may be. The amber bottle tall and still filled with liquid sitting in its' box right next to me. I think about it and shake my head. She wouldn't want that. So I continue to kneel there, staring at the space. And I imagine what could have been. And I keep the memories. And I honor my promises.
----
Some dance to forget, I dance to remember. I hate the week leading up the June, and I hate June itself. It's a cursed month for me, and I never seem to act rational in it. Some people that know me might pick up on some of the niggling nuances within that little bit above and it would explain some things. At least kind of. Ah well, Anyway if I seem short with anyone this month apologies in advance.
Blergh.
General | Posted 11 years agoJust. Blergh.
R.I.P. Grandmother
General | Posted 11 years ago1939- 15 minutes ago.
There'sn othing much I can see.
At first I didn't feel a thing. Then I just called my dad to let them know at home. .. anod now ... tears. No sobbing, o nothing yet. I'm literally writing this as it's happening. Runny nose now. Just I'll be off hilter for a while now.
Edit: There 's the sobbing.
There'sn othing much I can see.
At first I didn't feel a thing. Then I just called my dad to let them know at home. .. anod now ... tears. No sobbing, o nothing yet. I'm literally writing this as it's happening. Runny nose now. Just I'll be off hilter for a while now.
Edit: There 's the sobbing.
Is it really the day of my birth already?
General | Posted 12 years agoCan't believe that time flies so fast, and so quickly.
It's unfortunate that I couldn't be stateside to celebrate my birthday with my friends and the like at FC, much the irritation of quite a number of folks. Sorry! I already said that the situation was out of my hands!
But aside from that, boy what a year, heck what a few weeks right after new year! So much drama so little time. I can only imagine what's to occur in the following months.
It's unfortunate that I couldn't be stateside to celebrate my birthday with my friends and the like at FC, much the irritation of quite a number of folks. Sorry! I already said that the situation was out of my hands!
But aside from that, boy what a year, heck what a few weeks right after new year! So much drama so little time. I can only imagine what's to occur in the following months.
The Non Canon Adventures of Mephis - CYOA Webcomic
General | Posted 12 years agoI don't have any words better to describe it, so I'll leave it to the artist and co-conspirator to my little brain child project for the new year!
Hello ladies and gentlemen~
Happy New Year!
With this coming of a new year, I am overjoyed to announce the arrival of a grand project!
mephis has been speaking with me about creating a web comic of sorts (it wasn't meant to be a webcomic, but I thought it'd make it more organized). This comic/sequence will function as a Choose Your Own Adventures. That's right, You, the Viewers, have the say in where this story leads, and, of course, it is heavily based around the happenings of fetishes, namely Transformation. This comic will likely reach the adult rating.
Throughout this story, you will follow Mephis, a strapping Kitsune on his quest to right the evils of his world! Follow him and guide him through the mysterious and dangerous world of magic!
This comic is completely free for you all to view and vote on, you may vote through the link provided on the page!
Mephis is paying for this out of pocket (along with
forefox, a generous backer), so this comic can only last as long as they can pay for it. If you would like to help them out or encourage us to keep it moving, please feel free to donate!
We will be considering incentives for generous donators in the future~
https://www.paypal.com/cgi-bin/webscr?cmd=_s-xclick&hosted_button_id=SWVRABGDGLQR4
We hope you all enjoy!
Happy Adventuring~ Here's the Comic! http://tncaom.thecomicseries.com/
Your decisions affect the outcome! And hopefully you don't let me run smack dab into a Game Over!
Hello ladies and gentlemen~
Happy New Year!
With this coming of a new year, I am overjoyed to announce the arrival of a grand project!
mephis has been speaking with me about creating a web comic of sorts (it wasn't meant to be a webcomic, but I thought it'd make it more organized). This comic/sequence will function as a Choose Your Own Adventures. That's right, You, the Viewers, have the say in where this story leads, and, of course, it is heavily based around the happenings of fetishes, namely Transformation. This comic will likely reach the adult rating.Throughout this story, you will follow Mephis, a strapping Kitsune on his quest to right the evils of his world! Follow him and guide him through the mysterious and dangerous world of magic!
This comic is completely free for you all to view and vote on, you may vote through the link provided on the page!
Mephis is paying for this out of pocket (along with
forefox, a generous backer), so this comic can only last as long as they can pay for it. If you would like to help them out or encourage us to keep it moving, please feel free to donate!We will be considering incentives for generous donators in the future~
https://www.paypal.com/cgi-bin/webscr?cmd=_s-xclick&hosted_button_id=SWVRABGDGLQR4
We hope you all enjoy!
Happy Adventuring~ Here's the Comic! http://tncaom.thecomicseries.com/
Your decisions affect the outcome! And hopefully you don't let me run smack dab into a Game Over!
Typhoon Yolanda
General | Posted 12 years agoPC problems, Earthquakes, Paperwork, Weird Animal Affinity, and now a "Super Typhoon" by the name of Yolanda.
Why can't I be beaten by someone with a sexy name?
Haha, on that note, my uncles and grandmother (Still here with them by the way)are prepping for power outages, filled up on gas lanterns, and matches. Needless to say I'm not worried that much, but in the event that power or 'net 'splosion happens for a few days, I ain't toast, or anything.
(Though knowing my luck I'll be perfectly Happy Gilmore) - Two points if you get that reference.
Why can't I be beaten by someone with a sexy name?
Haha, on that note, my uncles and grandmother (Still here with them by the way)are prepping for power outages, filled up on gas lanterns, and matches. Needless to say I'm not worried that much, but in the event that power or 'net 'splosion happens for a few days, I ain't toast, or anything.
(Though knowing my luck I'll be perfectly Happy Gilmore) - Two points if you get that reference.
Opening up Story Commissions
General | Posted 12 years ago... Yeah, I write. Big shocker. haha. xD No, but in all honesty I'm just opening up some writing commissions to help send SOME kind of income my way, considering the costs of rebuilding my PC and shipping... erm. It's kind of an insane amount in total. Though I'm not sure how much to charge, and unfortunately all of my good writing examples were ON said PC before it died on me.
I'm willing to write out a few $5 bits. Though don't expect masterpieces unless I go -insane- and enjoy them. Heck, first one to comment & note me gets a small freebie quickie. Actually, go and advertise, post and comment with your journal linkage here, and I'll see what I can do for you!
If you think I did well on your storybit, then feel free to
tips
(For the record a Keibin never forgets or leaves debts go unpaid)
For the record, I'm still not back at home, yet. Maybe later on this week.
I'm willing to write out a few $5 bits. Though don't expect masterpieces unless I go -insane- and enjoy them. Heck, first one to comment & note me gets a small freebie quickie. Actually, go and advertise, post and comment with your journal linkage here, and I'll see what I can do for you!
If you think I did well on your storybit, then feel free to
tips(For the record a Keibin never forgets or leaves debts go unpaid)
For the record, I'm still not back at home, yet. Maybe later on this week.
Temporarily Displaced due to 7.2!
General | Posted 12 years agohttp://www.google.org/publicalerts/alert?aid=90c67f79ff552ee5&hl=en&gl=PH&source=web
So yeah. I probably won't be available for most things right now, for the next few days. Thursday at the earliest.
First my PC explodes, then this crap happens.
Man my life is one uphill fight after the other. <_>
I'll take pics at how royally fucked up my apartment is, and the building later. It's still standing but there are huge cracks along the structure, and even the stairwells have massive chunks missing from the porcelain.
I have a pic of a chunk of the nearby Med School's roof being chunked off.
It was SO SHAKING that my windows that I always keep locked OPENED UP on it's own.
So yeah. I probably won't be available for most things right now, for the next few days. Thursday at the earliest.
First my PC explodes, then this crap happens.
Man my life is one uphill fight after the other. <_>
I'll take pics at how royally fucked up my apartment is, and the building later. It's still standing but there are huge cracks along the structure, and even the stairwells have massive chunks missing from the porcelain.
I have a pic of a chunk of the nearby Med School's roof being chunked off.
It was SO SHAKING that my windows that I always keep locked OPENED UP on it's own.
Multi-Person Game Stream - With CatmonkShiro and Nyomi
General | Posted 12 years agoYou heard that title correctly!
I'm planning on having a live gaming session with Catmonkshiro and 
Nyomi and having it streamed. The game of choice? Rogue Legacy! We're planning on having it hosted somewhere and actually having all three of us stream our screens, while we have a Skype call.
We're considering doing it for charity/donation/tips as we play, but we'll also answer any questions along the way. Also suggestions for any future games. If there's enough attention, we'll be glad to go ahead and do it again! Heck, who knows, it might be a regular thing!
Special guest stars...?
Don't forget to spread the word!
I'm planning on having a live gaming session with
Catmonkshiro and 
Nyomi and having it streamed. The game of choice? Rogue Legacy! We're planning on having it hosted somewhere and actually having all three of us stream our screens, while we have a Skype call.We're considering doing it for charity/donation/tips as we play, but we'll also answer any questions along the way. Also suggestions for any future games. If there's enough attention, we'll be glad to go ahead and do it again! Heck, who knows, it might be a regular thing!
Special guest stars...?
POST HERE IF YOU THINK YOU'D BE INTERESTED IN PARTICIPATING/SPECTATINGDon't forget to spread the word!
Keibin Family Meetup 2014!
General | Posted 12 years agoYou heard that correctly ladies and gents. There may, or may not be an incredibly high chance of meeting a majority of the Keibin family in 2014.
The faire?
Further Confusion! Interested in meeting up? Then comment here!
Planned room type? More than likely a Suite. (The Keibin family is quite a number of people).
Want more information on FC? http://www.furtherconfusion.org/2014/ Right there!
And it takes place over my birthday too! :D
Note: I'll be booking the room for the 15th, to the 21st. Why? A day earlier to meet'n greet, relax and look around. And one day to wind down, say good bye, and have one last toast to what a family is and how lucky we are to be united. Or something cheesy like that.
Note: Must have 4 of the fam staying in the same room with me, or it's a no go.
The faire?
Further Confusion! Interested in meeting up? Then comment here!
Planned room type? More than likely a Suite. (The Keibin family is quite a number of people).
Want more information on FC? http://www.furtherconfusion.org/2014/ Right there!
And it takes place over my birthday too! :D
Note: I'll be booking the room for the 15th, to the 21st. Why? A day earlier to meet'n greet, relax and look around. And one day to wind down, say good bye, and have one last toast to what a family is and how lucky we are to be united. Or something cheesy like that.
Note: Must have 4 of the fam staying in the same room with me, or it's a no go.
Should I write again?
General | Posted 12 years agoI'm not too good at it, though I was thinking of up doing a writing challenge or something. Like.. a really quick short story a day for a week. Was thinking the theme would be a "A day in the life of..." for my friends/family peoples, to the going-on of the inhabitants of the estate. Eh, dunno. Nothing too actiony or dramatic, might even be outright DULL. But it's something, right?
Stance on Weasyl + Additional Notes
General | Posted 13 years agohttp://www.furaffinity.net/journal/4351268/ An incredibly friendly aquiantance of mine, 
flinters couldn't have said it any more than I could have.
While I do have an account on Weasyl, it's for 'name reservation' status only. Drama attracts drama, and I'm here to stay, at FA. People will -always- come back to FA, at most a month, and for those that deny such things, are more than likely lying, and either using an alias to fave art or something else to that extent, or are just so stubborn and hard headed, they might actually bring forth people's ire from the consistent badgering (get it? badger? weas- oh forget it.) Regardless, I'm here on FA, I have my name reserved elsewhere, and I'm happy being here.
flinters couldn't have said it any more than I could have.While I do have an account on Weasyl, it's for 'name reservation' status only. Drama attracts drama, and I'm here to stay, at FA. People will -always- come back to FA, at most a month, and for those that deny such things, are more than likely lying, and either using an alias to fave art or something else to that extent, or are just so stubborn and hard headed, they might actually bring forth people's ire from the consistent badgering (get it? badger? weas- oh forget it.) Regardless, I'm here on FA, I have my name reserved elsewhere, and I'm happy being here.
Corny feel-good messages ahead!
General | Posted 13 years agoWhy? because why the heck not? :P Got bored after V-day, and I've been meaning to put this in a day ago, but hey, just because the day is over, doesn't mean you still can't enjoy having a nice quote here and there. 1. When we seek the best in others, we bring out the best in ourselves.
2. To love without condition, to talk without intention, to give without reason, to care without expectation - True Love
3. The only way to be truly satisfied is to do what you believe is great work, and the only way to do that, is to love what you do. if you haven't found it yet, keep looking, and don't settle for less.
4. Holding onto anger is like grasping at a flame with the intent of throwing it at someone else; the only one who gets burned is you.
5. Happiness will never come to those who fail to appreciate what they already have.
6. The human spirit is stronger than anything that could happen to it. (Deal with it.)
7. When you look up, you go up.
And I do apologize, I may have paraphrased, or actually directly quoted the people who said these. (Or made them up? o.O)
Happy Birthday to me! ... again!
General | Posted 13 years agoSo many things happened, that it's not even amusing. Actually, not any of it was very amusing. And I do apologize for the short journal, but it's also a much wanted relief to some of you. xP
In short:
Lots of stuff happened this year.
One age has ended, and another continues on.
I love and cherish my close friends and family. (You know who you are.)
Aside from that, woo! Got some gifts from my online buds, and a small dinner party as it's also a holiday here with family, grandmother, uncles and aunt came by, cooked so much food that I couldn't even eat after one sitting. (surprisingly my family, being all skinny, ate again two hours later. o_o; and it's been 8 hours since then and I'm STILL full!)
And to those at FurtherConfusion, say hi and give a high five to my mutant pet-buddy-person Desmondfallout
In short:
Lots of stuff happened this year.
One age has ended, and another continues on.
I love and cherish my close friends and family. (You know who you are.)
Aside from that, woo! Got some gifts from my online buds, and a small dinner party as it's also a holiday here with family, grandmother, uncles and aunt came by, cooked so much food that I couldn't even eat after one sitting. (surprisingly my family, being all skinny, ate again two hours later. o_o; and it's been 8 hours since then and I'm STILL full!)
And to those at FurtherConfusion, say hi and give a high five to my mutant pet-buddy-person
Desmondfallout Six Harsh Truths that will make you a better person
General | Posted 13 years ago- Linked from 
z00p
http://youtu.be/8kZg_ALxEz0
Long story short.
Have I stopped being delusional about the whole, "Silver-lining of everyone?" I dunno. Maybe? Maybe for the lack of a better term I've lost patience to tip-toe around particular issues. Have I seemed more like a jackass or very abrupt-in-your-face? That video above will speak for me.
tl;dr?
#6. The World Only Cares About What It Can Get from You
If you want to know why society seems to shun you, or why you seem to get no respect, it's because society is full of people who need things. They need houses built, they need food to eat, they need entertainment, they need fulfilling sexual relationships.
#5. The Hippies Were Wrong
Make no mistake: Your "job" -- the useful thing you do for other people -- is all you are.
#4. What You Produce Does Not Have to Make Money, But It Does Have to Benefit People
That in itself pretty much speaks for itself.
#3. You Hate Yourself Because You Don't Do Anything
"But why can't I find someone who just likes me for me?" you ask. The answer is because humans need things.
#2. What You Are Inside Only Matters Because of What It Makes You Do
I know dozens of aspiring writers. They think of themselves as writers, they introduce themselves as writers at parties, they know that deep inside, they have the heart of a writer. The only thing they're missing is that minor final step, where they actually fucking write things.
But really, does that matter? Is "writing things" all that important when deciding who is and who is not truly a "writer"?
... are you fucking stupid? For the love of God or diety of your choosing here, yes.
#1. Everything Inside You Will Fight Improvement
So even now, some of you reading this are feeling your brain bombard you with knee-jerk reasons to reject it. From experience, I can say that these seem to come in the form of ...
*Intentionally Interpreting Any Criticism as an Insult
Etc.
http://www.cracked.com/blog/6-harsh.....better-person/ For the whole article.
inb4 troll-thoughts and comments.
z00phttp://youtu.be/8kZg_ALxEz0
Long story short.
Have I stopped being delusional about the whole, "Silver-lining of everyone?" I dunno. Maybe? Maybe for the lack of a better term I've lost patience to tip-toe around particular issues. Have I seemed more like a jackass or very abrupt-in-your-face? That video above will speak for me.
tl;dr?
#6. The World Only Cares About What It Can Get from You
If you want to know why society seems to shun you, or why you seem to get no respect, it's because society is full of people who need things. They need houses built, they need food to eat, they need entertainment, they need fulfilling sexual relationships.
#5. The Hippies Were Wrong
Make no mistake: Your "job" -- the useful thing you do for other people -- is all you are.
#4. What You Produce Does Not Have to Make Money, But It Does Have to Benefit People
That in itself pretty much speaks for itself.
#3. You Hate Yourself Because You Don't Do Anything
"But why can't I find someone who just likes me for me?" you ask. The answer is because humans need things.
#2. What You Are Inside Only Matters Because of What It Makes You Do
I know dozens of aspiring writers. They think of themselves as writers, they introduce themselves as writers at parties, they know that deep inside, they have the heart of a writer. The only thing they're missing is that minor final step, where they actually fucking write things.
But really, does that matter? Is "writing things" all that important when deciding who is and who is not truly a "writer"?
... are you fucking stupid? For the love of God or diety of your choosing here, yes.
#1. Everything Inside You Will Fight Improvement
So even now, some of you reading this are feeling your brain bombard you with knee-jerk reasons to reject it. From experience, I can say that these seem to come in the form of ...
*Intentionally Interpreting Any Criticism as an Insult
Etc.
http://www.cracked.com/blog/6-harsh.....better-person/ For the whole article.
inb4 troll-thoughts and comments.
Keibin Meetup - 2013? (Any convention suggestions?)
General | Posted 14 years agoWell, been thinking about it, and well, I was wondering if there was any conventions within the 2012-2013 that would be worth gathering a bunch of my friends and E-family together for a grand ol' time.
If anyone's been to FurtherConfusion in the past few years, anything like -that- would be awesome, due to the amount and variety of food available. Yet, would be /have entertaining panels in the past (and maybe if they have their schedule up) that would be interesting to attend.
So.. in short:
Any conventions worth going to in the next year worth going to?
Note:
A majority of the friends/family are located in various parts of the US, and one or two in Canada.
Two of which are in the UK.
One is in Asia. (hi!)
One is in Australia.
So school/work schedules are really funky, although:
Current plan is for TFF (Texas Furry Fiesta, 2013.)
If anyone's been to FurtherConfusion in the past few years, anything like -that- would be awesome, due to the amount and variety of food available. Yet, would be /have entertaining panels in the past (and maybe if they have their schedule up) that would be interesting to attend.
So.. in short:
Any conventions worth going to in the next year worth going to?
Note:
A majority of the friends/family are located in various parts of the US, and one or two in Canada.
Two of which are in the UK.
One is in Asia. (hi!)
One is in Australia.
So school/work schedules are really funky, although:
Current plan is for TFF (Texas Furry Fiesta, 2013.)
"Can you judge a person by the company they keep?" (Input!)
General | Posted 14 years agoWell, there's that old saying of:"Being able to judge a person's true colors by the company they keep."
My view is that it's very true, or at the very least, it tells of a person's qualities and character.
But usually if the intention/motive is known as to why. Example, having a bunch of raging hormone junkies as friends, but only trying to get them to calm down, is one.
Another, is that if one watches, enjoys, and hang out with other trolls, they probably have troll-like tendencies as well. (Something that I've come to despise.)
What's your input?Single or what? meme (Also who here actually reads this?)
General | Posted 14 years agoSINGLE OR NOT put this as your journal & see what you get
♥ = I want a relationship with you
♥♥ = I'm already in a relationship with you
C: = I'm falling for you
:3 = I miss you
;] = i really like you
:* = I want to kiss you
:< = I hate you
: X = I like you
O: = I like you but im in a relationship
:] = You're cute
</3 = I regret leaving you
:b = We should get to know each other
;^) = We should hang out
<3 = I love you.. \o/
<:^ = i want to know you
@FT@=*stalk*
eue= You're hot
<:3 = You're a great friend
^_^ = We're friends
^.^ = We're best friends
>;3 = I want you on top
>:3 = I want on top
♥ = I want a relationship with you
♥♥ = I'm already in a relationship with you
C: = I'm falling for you
:3 = I miss you
;] = i really like you
:* = I want to kiss you
:< = I hate you
: X = I like you
O: = I like you but im in a relationship
:] = You're cute
</3 = I regret leaving you
:b = We should get to know each other
;^) = We should hang out
<3 = I love you.. \o/
<:^ = i want to know you
@FT@=*stalk*
eue= You're hot
<:3 = You're a great friend
^_^ = We're friends
^.^ = We're best friends
>;3 = I want you on top
>:3 = I want on top
