STILL ALIVE! God, I'm so wishy washy.

Honestly? Done with nursing school. Settled in to new job. Now I can draw some more. Had plenty of tablets just stop working, but I still try draw as much as I can.
Really, though? I tried to get away from FA. I like to draw, but all the spam constantly? It's just..a lot. I don't like it. I like doing commissions every now and again, too, but I don't do it for the money, just to do something different. It's a good change of pace.

But, unfortunately most places don't even allow NSFW. =/ Sucks. So, yeah. Lack of options, I guess? I've never been good at marketing. I just want to draw. That's all. :(

ANYWAY! So I'm going to TRY to upload stuff like I'm SUPPOSED to, instead of putting everything on a backburner. I DO upload more to my personal gallery https://mercades.imgbb.com/ <-- Here more than anything else. Why? Cause it's simple and all I have to do is upload stuff. No jumping through hoops or nothing. Simple is fine with me.

ANYWHO! Off to more drawing! Here's to actually doing what I'm supposed to do. :3

So after moving, while struggling to get power on, they came out twice to hook up muh interwebs. Still nothing. Hopefully today it will be a sure thing, then I can upload some stuff I has been working on! :D

And...get off my rear enough to do another comission page. Changed my rates to make them a little friendlier.

As the title says, i am trying to stay on top of all this.
Been a rough week all together. Got a few arts to do for some folks, but, yanni. Life. Moving. Homelessness. ._.

I did however get my patreon going, though. Took a frickin week on my end. >(

Oh well. Come join me in discord! I am a friendly person! Friendly, fiendly... same difference, right?

Also, Discord hurr~

Been a long time coming, but starting again! Gunna try to stick with it this time, knock on wood. Had my computer all but explode two years ago, was traveling for a year, finally got a new compy, took months to troubleshoot calibration issues....got a new program, took a while to get used to it... blah..


But, anyway! Doing that whole 'subscribe to me'thing. Trying to, anyway. Partially to force myself to do what I am supposed to.

So, https://subscribestar.adult/mercades BAM!

There is one! Go click and help me out! XD yanno, when it gets activated.. ._.

Wonk wonk wonk~

Sooo, yeah. I need money. x3 So doing some commissions if anyone is interested~

15$ sketch
25$ Lineart
30$ B/W
+10$ For colour~

I can only do three at a time, but..Trying to get better. x3
1.
2.
3.

No backgrounds, cause I suck at them. Something simple, sure, I dunnae mind, but..I'm working on getting better at them. x3 Feel free to note me here, whisper as Lelya on Furc, or Lelya on F-chat. Whichever works for ya~


Update: Presently working on a YCH-type deal~ It's my first one and kinda big, so anyone that could help me figure out the best way of going about it, give a hollar!

Alrighty, trying this drawing thing again. XD Things have slowed down enough that I can. Sooo, yeah. Here goes! x) Also, wow, my old journals are so whiney. Nice to know I haven't changed!

Alright, Imma stop taking requests. X3 s'enough! But, still, the few that already asked, I'll still do them. Really, though, I need money.badly. it is what it is, though. Blah, so tired. X.x

Trying to, at least. x.x
Me and the spouse split up, so I can kinda..upload whatever I want now. XD Also means I can draw whatever I want.

So, on that note. I am taking a few requests. I have two.
These are just sketches mind you. No full line-arted or coloured stuff, not yet. I gotta get some of my groove back first. S'why I'll take a few requests for sketches. I haven't drawn in so long...x.x

Just PM me or whatever. Or whisper me as Lelya on Furc. I dont' care which. Just -please- make it interesting. I don't mind drawing sex stuff, but for some reason it -bores- me when I do it. So it needs to be exciting! Work with me here! XD

3 years since I was last here..Holy crap.. And seven years before that.

Okay, in my defense, I -tried- to get stuff rolling again. Never seemed to pan out..

Time for another attempt! Well, I'll say this, things have worked out for the better. Long story short (Sorta), I had college, then some more college, then some trade-college, then some work, then some family, then some college while family, and now! Planning on more college, actually. >.> Eventually, if I can save up for it.

BUT! So, the situation - My computer is like the holy grail at my house. The T.V. and internets feed through it. Which means, when someone wants to do something involving that stuff, it goes through my computer. For some reason, (I have Dish now. Bleh!) my computer is the only thing that keeps a good connection. It's been this way for years and years and years. It's also why I haven't drawn. Cause I can only draw when I had access (sole access) to my computer. Which never happened. Cause I was home the least. So, yeah.

BUT NOW! I was forced to upgrade my OS. (To..7..Cause the rest of them suck in my opinion.) And I found..I can fullscreen their stuff and let them do whatever (Which, I couldn't before, because as soon as I clicked, it'd fxxed it all up on multiple screens) and I can still draw on my tablet. Fucking yay. Srsly. Been sketching and doodling. I have a fair bit of stuff near ready to be uploaded. Hopefully I can get back into a decent groove. YAY! ALso, Bix <3 I found some old sketches of Bix somewhere..>.> Old stuff. Like..Hiding.. ANYWAY! I..was going somewhere with this..

OHYES! So, yeah, my significant other didn't like alot of the stuff on my FA. Which is why I removed...nearly..everything..>.>; And one thing came to another..Almost haven't gotten on this thing in years. But, again, time is ripe! So, yay..Here's to hoping!

Edit: Oh, now I remember. I still have any commission that ever got taken down. So, yeah. Just PM me if ya'll need a copy of it. I can't post most of them on FA 'nymores. Not for a little while, anyway. My significant other doesn't like penises, (Peni? Pen..Hrm..Plural?) all that much. Or, at least, me drawing them. Iunno. S'wierd. Wired? Weir..Apparently, I have lost my ability to spell...

Hell yeah. Made me miss all the days I used to wish I could play D&D. XD I thought it was the coolest thing in the world. Shame no one around here played. Well, one guy did, but only after he went to college, so yeah.. =/ Ah, well. Happy 40th, Game of Nerds! :D


Also, Hi everyone. I have reverted back to my "This is boring, I wanna draw something else." Mode. =/ Anyone have any tips and tricks to drawing -faster-? I'm so slow it bugs me. >_<

Reiterating: Holy crap! Three years? Really?!?!

God damned how..time...doesn't really fly, actually. More like, drags it's bleeding arse through a frick'n desert. Anyway!

How's everyone? TEH GRUU!!!! *insert cool Thundercats Voice Here*

Let's see~ I have my tablet fixed! Well, sorta. It WAS fixed.
Then my compy got hit by lightning. AGAIN!

Seriously. No joke. FORTUNATLY! This mobo is semi-badass. It's got a AFCI on the mobo. Protected it. Mostly. Video card fried, though. AND my tablet converter box. Which isn't to bad. DVI setting won't work, VGA does, though. ANNND an HDMI port on my TV got fried. =/ Dammit.

So, yeah! Started drawing again, on and off. It's hard. I work 10 hours a day (presently), but am gone 13. So, little time. Married. Two kids. A two year old who HATES it when I don't love on him when he wants me to. Problem is, it gives me a very little time to do anything. Like...between 8:30 and 11:00 pm's. So yeah. And I've always been slow. I need to get faster. >(

WHY WAS EVERYTHING IN SCRAPS?!?! What was I thinking? Ah, well!

I'm checking my FA again, too, on top of drawing. Trying to get back in to the groove. Working on some Shadowmist pieces...Peices? I before E except after the apocolypse....

BUT YEAHS! Time to try to get rolling a little. Maybe things will stabalize some...

Also; WYNNE-POO! YOU BETTER GET ON YOU SELFISH BITCH! You're supposed to talk to me~ T_T I's misses yew gais. YOU, TOO, MIDDIE! >( Don't think I's dun fergots about gruu! >(

I -might- have finally found a buyer for my car. :D! 1k$! Whoo! Sure, it's sooo much better gas mileage than my truck, but I'm a truck person, right down to the gonads!

Sooo, whassat mean? Means I can do arts again! Maybe. Actually, a much better maybe than before, really. I've gotten better, I think. It's a result of using the much cruder graphite. Not that there's anything wrong with that, but it's all feeling -like primitive stuffs going from tablet to pencil again. My sketchbook doesn't seem quite as big anymore. x.x Especially now that I'm out of paper in it. BUT! With any luck, this guy'll buy that wreck and I can get my compy fixed. AFTER I deal with my courtstuffs..


Any lawyer-in-trainings out there? I need some advice on a legal matter concerning expunges. x.x Specifically how they work. All I know is I have to find some lawyer, pay money for a piece of paper, fill out the paper myself, then go down to the clerk of court and pay 400$ something to file it. I dunno 'bout the rest, or even how accurate that is.

I miss my tablet. ;-;

Do things go wrong? ;-;

What started out to be a nice simple scenario, turned complete fiasco, and now I owe money I don't have. >_< I -hate- courts.

My second job became my primary job, but really, it's hard getting by on 45$ a day. Doesn't cover shit. >< So I need money. Like.. 325$. =x

Since I can't do commissions at all (and probably not for a while, what with no compy at all, save a laptop thingie) and the money from selling my vehicle got lost in UPS (They fail HARD this time).. I've resorted to doing the one thing I hoped to never do.

Sell my digos.

I appreciate scams and crap all around, but really. We're all good honest folk, right? :3

Hurrr ya go. ;x If 'nyone wants the shtuff, just note meh. :3 I'd be REALLY appreciated. (Seriously. I will be. Sooner the better. :x)

Dragon for Life - 200$
Phoenix for Life - 100$
Kitterwing for Life - 100$
Triwings for Life - 70$

After careful consideration, on the offchance I actually DO get commissions SOMETIME this year, I decided to only take ten a month. :x That way, I still have some time to get homeworks and the like done. So feel free to do so whenever. D< Not that you people -ever- will. >(

Yeah, why 10? Cause I discovered I need to bring in about 200$ a month to break even. What better way to than to whore art for folk? PROVIDED people actually wanna pay for my crap. D<

On the offchance anyone wants to actually watch me work on their pix, I does haff livestream. Never use it unless asked, but..It's there! :o

YES! I use CS3. Do I care? Yes. I can't find PS7. I <3'd it morederdered.. Etc.

ANYWAY!
Yes. I have no idea how to use photoshop. No. Really. I don't. In the least. I'm not wickedcoolawesomehoshithow'dyoudothat with this thing. I know -jack-. Basic tools ftl. :(

SO MY QUESTION!

How does someone create something random in this thing? Key points here are ocean water and sand. How does one actually MAKE that? x.x RSVP~

P.S. One day I will learn how to colour white (and silver) hair and actually make it look good. >>

http://www.livestream.com/mercades

YAY! I wasn't going to tput this up here at all, but..Meh, since I've been at it all day~ Feel free to drop by!

WHOO!

Yes, yesindeedy. Interestingly enough, with my college schedule for the next three months, I actually have ALOT of free time. I closed commissions because I wasn't sure how much I'd have.
Seriously.
Mondays, Wednesdays, and Fridays I have three classes, that are an hour long and an hour apart...

Uh-huh..

Tuesdays and Thursdays I have two classes, an hour long, THREE hours apart. Free time? Ohyes. Homework's long, though. I even still have my weekends free! Whassat mean? Plenty of sketch time (and no games to distract me with! :D)

SO!

Commissions still/willbe/continued to be open! Whoo! Yes! BWAHAHAHA! *Hack cough*


On that note..How does one become a medical transcriptionist? Sure, everyone requires experience. No one offers internships. How does one find the private contractors what hire for this? Suggestions/comments/good words? x3

Commission status:

Ya'll can just send me a PM or someshit. (Now, seriously, PMs are best, unless you catch me on furc. Really.) I'm unlimited. Give me as much works as you want. >3

Annd, there is one guy..I bombed his commission. After finishing it. I do this sometimes, if I think it's atrocious. Don't worry, he knows who he is. Don't worry dude, I'm still going to redo it.I hasn't forgotten. It always looks wrong. x.X

Yeah, I actually draw alot..I just never finish. It's annoying, because I can't think of shit to draw. X.x

ANYWAYZ! Commissions are reopened for a short while! I've actually done several, just..Um..Well, yeah..Um..I'm..to lazy to update this thing. Hahaha. *fail*

Okay, I know it. I'm not a fraction as good as the other folk. But I'm trying. D=

On that note: there are so many things I wish I knew how to do. Like how to get that nice 'inked' look to lineart..Simple stuff, too. Like what a good resolution should be, or canvas size.. Ah, oh well. x.x *sigh*

ANYWAY! I was thinking about it..I actually have no talent for drawing. I've known this for years, and kept trying, but..Over this last year I've noticed I haven't gotten any better in the least. I tried, at least. I won't stop drawing, I'm far to used to it to give it up, but..I think once I start school I'll stop posting and taking commissions for at -least- a year. Who knows? Maybe I'll get some insight during that time and come back, more awesome and epic than ever before! :o

Someone pointed out to me I haven't updated this in a while. XD Not for lack of wanting to, I just simply don't have anything WORTH showing. I don't like uploading crap that I think is utter crap~

But I happened to have a small handful that I -could- upload, so figured might as well. XD

Eh, I have some commissions to do (I took payment already, cause I was in a rush of time, so I REALLY need to get them done), so expect those soon! (YAY! More crap from me! :D)

Commissions are open, if you don't mind my laziness. x3 Drop a line, pm, whisper me on furc under Lelya, or um..Email! lelya.akani[at]gmail.com I'll put prices up here (eventually). >.> I'm cheap, though, full coloured = 20$. >.>;

Yes. I did indeed delete my submissions. Any of them that I didn't like; I have no intention of showing this crap anymore. >_< I'm not going to upload anything for a -long- time, until I get good enough that I can actually look at this shit and go "I did that. =x" So, yeah. I deleted everything that wasn't a commission or gift (I think once or twice I accidentally deleted one that was). Soo yeah. x.x.

Yes! HAH! NOTHING YET BEGINS!

So I claim.
But that aside, no srsly.

I felt like I wanted to draw a comic. Manga. THingie. Whatever. (What would that be called? O_o;) I have ALOT of it already mapped and written out. I just REALLY need to figure out how I'm supposed to do frames. Is there a trick? Anyone used to it wanna shove me the way of some hints? I fail at this stuff..

MY CAR IS ALMOST FIXED! YAY! Except it doesn't go in reverse. NOT YAY. Still don't have it notarized, but, meh. ._. Of course, I'm really dreading when it DOES get fixed, because then I have to work TWO (yes TWO) full time jobs to make ends meet. Happy? Oh fuck no. x.x; I NEED SOME PAMPERING! Sunburned all over doing something I hate and, more importantly, don't know how all day every day for two weeks.. ;-; Every time I fixed something, something ELSE broked. *cry* T-T!!

Ah well. Such is life. Some people are born FILTHY STINKING RICH AND HAPPY AND HAVE EVERYTHING.. Other people are born at the other end of the bell curve. >.>; So happy I'm not one of them. CLOSE! But not quite. (See? I'm totally NOT a pessimist. D<)

Nah, all in all. I hate things. I hate people. I hate governments..


See, I bought this car about two months ago. Beat up piece of shit, really. But it was drivable, (which is what I need for two months to get my truck fixed. D<) except for the clutch disk what needs to be replaced.

What happened? All the notaries in the area were closed. So she signed the Title (because I'm fucking stupid) and we all thought it was enough. I didn't even think about getting a bill of sale. So what happens? I find out about it AFTER the 8 hour trip back. >.> So now I gotta find a notary that'd be nice enough to sign it without everything else. If I can. I don't wanna go back up there. T_T

S'what I get for listening to someone else. D<

Is for the weak! I'm so weak. x.x; Stupid vehicles never working right. :( All I want is a job so I can get my guitar and truck working again. T_T Who wants to bed stuff keeps going wrong?

...(cutting short and going -back- to bed)

S'posed to be more here, promise. x.x

-ZzzzZzzzZzzz

Something even worse is waiting for you. >_< "What doesn't kill you, just makes you STRONGER! Or..weaker for the next thing that wants to kill you. Or waiting to come back to kill you.." Actually, there are several endings to that. Reminds me of that time hunting in the rain forests of South America..Word of caution: Don't hunt by yourself. The rumours of my death were greatly exaggerated. It was rather swift. DOWN WITH RUMOURS! They're bad for you.

That aside. Happy (whateverholidayitmaybe). Still trying to get around to finishing drawing, but..Meh. Worries upon worries. Such is life. And don't listen to optimists either. They have their own deviation. There's a reason they're all optimists. >.>; Ah well. Will try! Then I can start focusing on IMPORTANT tasks. Like getting commission. So I can buy kitters on Furc. *total loser*

Anyways! Merry Holidays!

~With Love and..y'know..Stuffs. :3 'Night! Or, day, rather. You day-walking enthusiasts. D< DOWN WITH YOU ALL!!!! *passes out*