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Posted 8 years agoBecause I feel like I've run out. No one will care or anything
I can understand that... I don't blame any of you for hating me or anything.
All my issues with my migraines, my health and just trying to get better because I have a horrible amount of cysts that keep rupturing.
I'm in so much pain it's ridiculous. I contemplated killing myself over it. Just to make it stop.
I've been in and out of the doctor, urgent care, ER. You name it.
They load you up with meds and tell you to go home.
Finally last night I went in again. I screamed and cried.
They referred me to a Gyno to talk about removal.
But I have to wait till Monday.. Wtf.
I can't miss any more work...
I have paperwork n stuff if no one believes me.
I could lose everything.
I have no one to run to.
I'm in so much pain...
If you're willing to help thank you otherwise again thank you for listening to me panic.
Miss-Merr[at]outlook.com is my paypal
I just don't know what to do. I posted over from http://www.furaffinity.net/journal/8478521/
http://www.furaffinity.net/journal/8478521/
http://www.furaffinity.net/journal/8478521/
http://www.furaffinity.net/journal/8478521/
http://www.furaffinity.net/journal/8478521/
I can understand that... I don't blame any of you for hating me or anything.
All my issues with my migraines, my health and just trying to get better because I have a horrible amount of cysts that keep rupturing.
I'm in so much pain it's ridiculous. I contemplated killing myself over it. Just to make it stop.
I've been in and out of the doctor, urgent care, ER. You name it.
They load you up with meds and tell you to go home.
Finally last night I went in again. I screamed and cried.
They referred me to a Gyno to talk about removal.
But I have to wait till Monday.. Wtf.
I can't miss any more work...
I have paperwork n stuff if no one believes me.
I could lose everything.
I have no one to run to.
I'm in so much pain...
If you're willing to help thank you otherwise again thank you for listening to me panic.
Miss-Merr[at]outlook.com is my paypal
I just don't know what to do. I posted over from http://www.furaffinity.net/journal/8478521/
http://www.furaffinity.net/journal/8478521/
http://www.furaffinity.net/journal/8478521/
http://www.furaffinity.net/journal/8478521/
http://www.furaffinity.net/journal/8478521/
THIS ACCOUNT IS DEAD AS FUCK. LIKE SUPER DEAD-NEW ACCOUNT
Posted 8 years ago
~~~!!!!!!!!*********DEAD ACCOUNT******!!!!!!!!!~~~~~~~
Posted 8 years agoIM STILL GETTING WATCHES N STUFF
AND I GOT YELLED AT ONCE AGAIN
I MOVED TO
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AND I GOT YELLED AT ONCE AGAIN
I MOVED TO
:odiarei odiare odiare:odi~~~~~¡¡¡¡¡¡¡¡THIS ACCOUNT IS DEAD!!!!! ~~~~~~~~~~
Posted 9 years agoI keep getting watches and notes.
I'm at
I'm at
Dead ACCOUNT-MOVED-NO LONGER IN USE
Posted 9 years agoStop watching it lol
:odiareicon;
:odiareicon;
REMEMBER I HAVE MOVED ACCOUNTS
Posted 9 years agoMoving Accounts!!!!!!!!!!!!
Posted 9 years agoWhy after all this time?
I've been having issues connecting to the name Merr. I've had it since I was 16 and that was 10 years ago. Some of you know I've been through a lot through most my life. More than most kids/adults should. Merr was a cute name I used but I was young and thought it was oh so amazing. Getting older I realize that my life still threw crap at me that I got past but I constantly changed characters for that reason-but I kept the name Merr the whole time. Now it kinda makes me cringe. Someone told me if i ever wanted to popular as an artist you had to have an easy name and keep it. So I did. I wanted to be more than what I am. That's not what I want now. I just wanna do art and make people happy or even just for fun.
At this point my life is getting easier.
Things are changing for the better finally.
So I feel that a bigger change need to happen with me and how I present myself.
I have changed so much in the last year its crazy...
I will be keeping my art up for those who want to see my old stuff otherwise I really wont be bringing much with me.
I just want to grow but in a different way.
Those who are wanting refunds I promise It will be soon as I move.
You're always on my mind.
Sorry for the stupid icon I dont really have on atm.
Im trying
Posted 9 years agobut I feel like my world is collapsing
Our apartment is a reminder constantly of what not to do when you are looking for a place to live.
Go for whatever.
Knowing im trying my hardest but feels like I'm getting slapped in the face.
I'm in so much pain. physically
3 more paychecks or so till my garnishment stops and im not missing 20% of my paychecks e.e
Eh.
I've lost 15lbs in a month
Since eating is not much of a thing lately. We try our best but cant eat when you're poor lol
After that people waiting for refunds will get it!
Our apartment is a reminder constantly of what not to do when you are looking for a place to live.
Go for whatever.
Knowing im trying my hardest but feels like I'm getting slapped in the face.
I'm in so much pain. physically
3 more paychecks or so till my garnishment stops and im not missing 20% of my paychecks e.e
Eh.
I've lost 15lbs in a month
Since eating is not much of a thing lately. We try our best but cant eat when you're poor lol
After that people waiting for refunds will get it!
Update-Important Stuff
Posted 9 years agoMany of you know that my life has been up and down for a very long time. Recently I have fallen very far away from myself as an artist. I feel super disconnected from it and having issues with my confidence. I'm not looking for compliments on my art or whatever. I have come to the point where art is starting to give me anxiety when I try or I get super low on myself. I hate it.
So what does that mean? I'm going to stop for awhile or well basically commission artist a while if not forever. I can't keep doing this to myself. I shouldn't hate something that used to bring me so much joy. It's not healthy, nor is it fair to anyone. I will be refunding people and finishing some stuff. Poses will not be a thing I will be doing if I ever get back into doing commissions. It's so much stress to do them. I want to be able to do art with confidence again and love what I do. I don't need people getting art that isn't what it can be.
I'm not leaving or going anywhere. I will be around still. Sorry, I'm just letting you all know what is going on.
So over the next month or so I will be refunding much as I can but keeping myself a float, since I haven't taken a commission for anything new in so long.
I will also be moving again in a few months somewhere else where I will be alone. so hopefully I can find myself in the art community again.
I'm keeping my character. This isn't the end of the world, nor is it a bad thing. I just need to figure myself out as an artist.
Try new things. Build myself back up again, find me.My Many Free LineArts
Posted 10 years ago
Please Follow These Rules
Even if they don't seem to be listed on the actual submission
I will edit them later.
Rules-
Line art can be used for adopts.
Not to be sold as just lines
Modding is fine
Not to be made into a pose
Forum sigs are fine
Can be made into part of refs
Feel free to ask me otherwise
Liger- http://www.furaffinity.net/view/15772614/
Random Canine- http://www.furaffinity.net/view/15609458/
Coyote- http://www.furaffinity.net/view/11031715/
Random Canine- http://www.furaffinity.net/view/10630530/
Shark Dog- http://www.furaffinity.net/view/8749605/
Female Canine- http://www.furaffinity.net/view/8624670/
Monster- http://www.furaffinity.net/view/7928263/
Fu Dog- http://www.furaffinity.net/view/7890174/
Random Canine- http://www.furaffinity.net/view/6629361/
Find it on my DA-http://merr-monster.deviantart.com/.....7/FreeLine-ArtRIP Kina
Posted 11 years agoA very amazingly good friend of mine 
lost her battle to Cystic Fibrosis. She was an amazing person and she faught hard. If you ever watched the documentary for 65RedRoses, you would have seen her in it. I dunno what to even say or do right now. I'm going to miss her. I just talked to her a few days ago. She no longer has to fight to breathe.
I love you hunny!
<3
The the Spitit of Kina Run Free
