i need ideas on what to do for my birthday 11-11-11, if any you in topeka around then be nice to meet a feeler fur, if not give me some good ideas so i can have3 a blast

i'm posting up a live stream the show starts around 9pm this may become a refular thing, we have a drag night every thur and sun night


http://www.livestream.com/skiviesli.....gshow?t=529863

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well as the title says in about a month its my birthday 11-11-11 cool right lol, though idk what to do on it, there are things i would like to do and a person i would liek to spend it with but i don't think its gona happen :( so i need ideas i do not want this to end up like all my previous birthdays, sitting at home drinken in the dark....

so come on people give me somthen to do

well things are going some good some not so good, hopefully i will have a few deals worked out and by next mo jack of all trade electronic repair will be open ^.=.^ catchy name right :P but in other news i found out why my breaks were messing up in my car just so happened that my rear right break line that was new like 3 mo ago decided to commit suicide and cut itself in half O.o? so did 15 other cars in a 7 block radius..... suicidal cars what next lol j/k but gladly the minors were apprehended before they could do more damage but unfortunately i'm stuck with the repair bill and they have 8 hours community service..... 8 hour community service for jeopardizing 15 different people lives...... that kinda sounds wrong...

other new my insomnia is coming back worse the before i'm on day 4 with one hour of sleep, sleeping meds don't work anymore and my other method i had well i ain't seen him in a while, so no warmth there, so starting to become grouchy lately, that's a for warning i hope i don't get mad at anyone but it might happen if it does i'm sorry been tired and hungry fridge died like the day after i dropped 200$ in food in the bitch it dies for 3 days just long enough for all that uneaten food to go bad then magically it begins to work..... which blows cause been without food since the 23rd and wont have more money till the 1st but hey the good news about that no food for 5 days = loosing weight.... but... i would gladly keep those few pound if i could feed meh belly and somehow get rid of this god forsaken acid reflux

i think thats enough ranting for now maybe i'll rant to myself more later.... got nothing better to do and its not like these things get read anyways so whatever

well things are goign good bad worse better who knows, got people playen with my feeling latly teelen me shit to get me worked up well it seems to work cause i am on here ranting right lol.... but after all is said and done feelens or not i'm still just here alone, none the fuzzing none the heartache is changing that. i think i'm gona go back to how i was before, a hard ass emotionaly sealed quiet in the corner never herd from dragon, if i'm only going to live repeats of the past or nothing..... nothing is less painful

well my ability to get on the interwebs has increased 2 of my neighbors got internet and let it un secure
sooo i has interwebs for now

but an update on things

have had a few temp jobs one week here two days there day here ect ect just enough to keep afloat barly, though i hoping filling out all the job apps i'll get a break i hope.... got alot of things planned if i do heh gona help some peopl eout and well do things for others

but till then i will attempt to survivie and make the most of it i know these journals are gettign shorter and shorter but nobody but me reads them anyways

laters

well i got the use of internet at a good friends house for a little bit, but still nromaly without the use of it which kinda saddens me cause seems like as i lost internet i lost ll my friends including the ones who are around where i live and know where i live ect, seems like i vanished into nothin, sometimes i wonder heh but few have still remained in contact mainly cause i bugged them probably.... who knows right, i'll know soon enough though got a little experiment that i will start next week or so, btu an update on my irl life lol, worken temp job top temp job for moneys to keep my rent afloat, jimmy needs a motor, got another two project cars i need to finish and sale to make some money, other then that i spend most days at home doing alot of nothing it sucks, but hey what else can i do right, i hope i land a perminate job soon and no more temp work for a day or week i want permanat job to give me fincial stabability so i can do the thing i like more often and visit the ones i love you know.

anywho enough ranting i am loggen off now

hope you all have a blessed and wonderful day

well an update on my life, i have limited internet access, right now i am using roommates girlfriends phoen to get online thank god for iphones right hahah, but between limited communication and commign back after weeks... kinda feels like i been forgoten abotu a little, and not sure why i evan type these journals i honestly cant rember anyone ever commeting on here but whatever right

well my update, i get up 5am go lookj for work come home fill out paper work then out again every day at 3pm for labor places, so far no go but few are leadingn and hopefully somthing sometime i hope right,

till then if i stay sane bleh..... nothing to do i have rearranged my room daily for two weeks finaly got it looke nice, watched all my movies to the point i know some word for work god grant me with work

till next time i am online miss you all a few more then others :P miss you all be nice to hear from some you once in a while



peace and love till next we meet

well been about a month since i have lost my internet, and in a week i loose my phone, i miss looking at all your art chattign with friends.... hopefully i wont be forgotten by the few who count, i miss you all *some much more then others* not beign mean or anythign with that just being honest.....


have fun all you hope your lifes are plentiful and blissfull

love you *you know who you are*

https://www.furaffinity.net/journal/2492719/

click the link to get a chance at some amazing stuff better hurry theres already alot entered but who knows you might be the lucky winner!!!!!

just letten ya'll have an update, yall.... hmm do i have any readers i dont think i ever had anyone really c reply to any of these..... o well


update
today is my offical last day of internet if it last londer then the gods are smiling upon me haha, but seriously i loose internet today, wont have it back for a while, then i gotta get rent paid but if that dont happen i might loose my home too time are tough lets hop my plans fall into order and i be back asap but the logner it takes the less i have the less i think i'll make it :(

weirdest thing happened the other day, someone broke into my garage and cleaned out my truck..... literaly they took everything outta my truck and set it on the ground...... nothing missing.... nothing broken, they took a stem out of my tire to let it go flat but a spare stem from another old rim and some air its just fine.....

wtf...
you'd think they would of stole my sub or the radio or the speakers, hell something..... they must watch too much dane cook or somethen... or is someone fucken with me.....

or maybe my old roommate fucked someone over and now they think he live here still....

what did i do to deserve this shit right?.. hard enough tryign to find work then to deal wiht this kinda bs on a constant bassis its bullshit

http://www.furaffinity.net/journal/2463648/

alright yall heres the deal click that link up there and post on the wall for your chance to get s freebie, so get your mice to clicking and start typing away, who knows you might be a lucky winner

worse case you can watch an upcoming artist and watch some works of magic come to life *fursuit/heads*


soo what you still reading this for get to clicking and get to typing wish you the best of luck

i have two rooms available for rent, i live in a 3 story house, i live on 3rd story, and have two rooms up for bids on the second full kitchen bathroom fenced in yard, located near downtown, close highway access, already have washer and dryer in basement, 1 room is already furnished with a bed, tv, and we do have Internet.

rent is 300 a mo for the first mo then 250 for every following month, looking to fill rooms asap, 1 person/1room type deal but will work with couples, we are pet friendly for indoor trained pets, otherwise we do have a fully fenced in yard

there are no utilities i will pay Internet at my expense so long as you provide a wireless router*i currently do not have one*

send me a note or yim
Sashura_lage[at]yahoo.com

its rough but it seems to move nicely and smooth**no like catching or things like that**, going to use this as a testing tail for my electronics before i make one with better materials


one thing i have notcied most other tails that are from same material have just a stait edge on them while on here i am trying a quad edged parts


heres the videolink
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=a4kZ6FeS9ik

LATLY I BEEN TRYING TO QUIT SOME VERY *BAD* cough cough i mean good things hehe, well i havn't smoked kinda green in 3 weeks......3 WEEKS seems like a little buts its a lot after 7 years of heavy use, but latly i have notices my personalities switching back and fourth between themselves more then normal one well he tend to say more then i would like while me i keep quiet most the times about certian things, though he hasnt helped me threw this heh..... an no i have never seen a dr.

i dont need a dr to tell me whats going on in my own head, but yea we been playing body tage one moment its me the other its him, what shoudl i do though i am trying to take up meditaion which is helping some, but not really at the same moment, what shoudl i do here people.... and no i do not want to be institutionalized



yea bad spelling leave me alone

well there is a chance i might need a roommate soon my current one informed me he might be movien soon was sad to hear that but things happen hard to find a good one right, sooo i'll be having one possibly two rooms open here soon, its 250 a mo per person for the first mo then 200 per person after, we are pet friendly if you have a indoor pet please try you best to keep them to your room, if outdoor pet we do have a fenced in yard! there are no utilities, we dont pay gas heat electric water ect, what we do pay is internet and tv, currently i have internet will just split bill evan,

i hate to be in the market of a new roommate but it may happen

i am located in a 3 story house downtown topeka

we get 2nd 3rd and use of baesment landlord lives on first story but shes a nice old lady who cant hear anything we have music playing most days

3rd story is my person room and soon to be movie theater, i do like to entertain but do not like a ton of people

if intreset send me a note and we'll talk some more

https://www.furaffinity.net/journal/2339730/



check this out

http://www.furaffinity.net/journal/2329003/


yep you seen the posting right free be sketches dont be all mad if it takes a while theres alot ahead of us but hey free is free!!!!

as the title says bored shitless just sitten aroudnthe house putting my stuf on the internet for sale but no buyers so far o well maybe soon i will get some hits,

well this ight be a last update for a little while if i cant gt things sold i a loosing the internet soo thought i let you all know whomever the few reader i probably dont have haha

liek the tltle says i'm probably just gona ramble about reandom non-sence, still not sure why i evan post stuff here,

so where to start


well in a really down kinda wana just sleep the rest my life away moods latly, idk why i mean i have some things lookign up on the 23rd i start trainign for a new job with 2 mo non-paid training though >.> ouch soooo thats like the good going one


the bad

i am no moneyless for 3 mo i am selling stuff to try and keep afloat but i keep having to lowering my prices cause everyone is bailing out on me, if they didnt want it why they want me to meet them here or there at this time they will have cash wtf dickeads fucken show up or leave me alone, so after wasting wha tmoney i had on gas to meet up with these peoples i now am a broke girl with no source of income, no i will not stand on a street corner fuck that i am clean and like it that way who knows what they are carriing and what they wana do, some my good memorys are beging to become foggy like there fading away, i'm not replacing them with any new ones so idk whats going on there, then my alter ego- for those who dont know i have split personalities yattie yatta yatta ect well hes comming out more and more talken to me telling em things helping me threw some tough times, soon i thin i might jsut shut down and let him take control and help me get threw this rough patch, if i do that he wont get involved with the fandom though he is a draogn like myself he will jus tdo what needs to get don make money pay bills get a job and take charge, though i do not want him to cause i like what lieelt life i have had latly


i know my spelling is horrible you try re-learnign english after an accident what fun reading writeing math everything it blows and tryign to do so while hiding the fact from everyone that you forgot who they were yea not alot of fun but i managed to do it,

see alot of pointless rambling huh.... just needed to get thoughts outta my head so maybe i coudl sleep tonight


soo with that i will bid you a farewell hope you all have happier and more pleasent nights then i am

things are better things are worse its whatever, looking for work got fired after i told my boss i wasn't going to cut my hair, well after winning my unemployment i got him fired woot, but because of that its kinda hard to find work, so lookign for work liven the life right i get 432 a mo from unemployment, with 460 in bills.... how they expect me to find work >.>, o well i'll keep looken but once i find a job i hoping to get me a fursuit commision which will be great for me and help a local fur suit artist i know yay!! but who knows when that'll be till then i'll just keep trying to stay afloat ect


you know after typing these on here i begin to wonder does anyone evan really read these??

o well if you do you do if not you dont o well

Wish me luck on the job hunting

have no idea what to put as a title just giving a little update internet might be getting shut off soon, not able to afford the bill right now trying to put money back for insurance due in 19days >.> 340$$ i make 160 every two weeks and 100 of its rent this will be interesting, sucks if i dont pay insurance i loose my job and my job doesnt pay enough to pay insurance..... wtf.... sucks when you work for 1.40 less then min wages but least i have a job i guess, lets hope somehow i magicly get the money for insurance and rent

as it says i'm just tired

tired of liars
tired of bull shit
tired of assholes
tired of work
tired of being poor
tired of not eating daily
tired of worring
tired of.... life

things arn't looken to great for me right now

but for now i am just tired....