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https://cubhub.social/@SleepuFox
https://babyfur.me/profile/meters

See you around!

45 USD, +15 per extra character
Background extra, depending on complexity
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Limited 5 slots, DM for more info!

Imma on Twitters if this place blows up D:
https://twitter.com/sleepufox

Whenever Imma look at my arts, it doesn't feel like Imma improving very much
While some things have gotten better (like line quality Imma hope(?) and color adjustments), my arts have been more or less the same, Imma just learnt how to hide things a lot better maybe?

Like how pencil brushes hide a lot of wobbly line details

Am I improving?

Is it weird to change to a sona that's drastically different?

Do you have multiple sonas? Do you feel like they are part of you or is it just another character to you?

Imma like considering switching to um something new but it feels weird to just change suddenly

Imma been here for 15 years
It's kinda weird to think about

I had so many things to say, but nothing came out

Uh so how's things with you?

Imma doing an Art Raffle on my Twitters O:

https://twitter.com/SleepuFox/statu.....75996351397888

Life is a roller coaster of ups and downs, it seems that everytime there's an up, a down soon follows
I am in one of those downs right now

After school, I got a job and everything, it was pretty good, learnt lots of stuff, but eh, things beyond my control happened, and I had to leave
Basically, the higher ups did a thing and everyone quitted (okay not everyone but the team I was in did)

After that, I was doing a thing, it doesn't pay, but it's something I wanna do, I feel it's important

So after a month, I am broke, not drawing enough, not doing enough, and not finding a job
What am I doing with my life lol

I should really draw more

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Due to some issues with finances, I may have to start doing commissions to support my studies

I am currently studying in an art school, illustration course. It's supposed to help with me enter the games market as a programmer, since I have no context as to how the entire design process works, so I thought maybe I should just take a design course. The course is one year, and I am almost halfway there
I can't stop the course unfortunately, since I'd have to pay the school back a subsidied amount which is like 3x of how much I am paying

So I thought, maybe I should do some commission, hopefully that'll help me get by a little


How much would you pay for a commission from me if I were to open for commissions?

Back in 2014, I took a plunge into a babyfur social site, I felt so excited at the time since I never been in any community before, let alone a babyfur one.

I joined one, I joined two. It was exciting times. That didn't last very long though...
After the initial excitement died down, I realized that, well, social sites aren't really that exciting. Like... There isn't exactly much to do.

It's hard to hold conversations in social sites, I think people don't exactly know what to do in them.
They'd post pictures, status of their day, people would press the Like button, maybe reply with short acknowledgement, make small talk, conversations were far and short. So on quiet days, it's really quiet. Some might say it's almost boring.
But when things happen, when the drama starts, it gets tense. People have something to say, then other people would have something else to say. And it's a game of who can shout the loudest, and who can last the longest shouting. Eventually people get tired or bored of shouting, and the shouting stops, for now. Until something happens again. A never-ending cycle. It's scary.

I thought social sites are a place to discover people, make friends and have conversations.
But well, to me, social sites feels like a place where people go to make small talk and argue.

I was an admin for one of the sites for a while. I did small things: handle tickets, post announcements, maintain social order (or try at least)

What I found out was, well, people are bored lol They want something to do, a topic to talk about, something to get a conversation started.
So I made some small activities, games, site interactions, that sorta thing. People seemed to like it, they came back to check for new stuff, there was stuff to do.

It felt like running a daycare, planning activities and keeping the kiddos happy, settling disputes about who said the mean things and whose finger Charlie bit #ancientmemes

It was fun, I was more than happy to do it, but well, it got really tiring. People wanted more, and I couldn't do more, I was all out of ideas, and Charlie bit someone else's finger for the forth time this week.

Nowadays, there are like hundreds of channels for babyfurs to hang out, to talk and make friends, like Telegram/Discord chat rooms
So I don't think we need a social site.
I think we need an activity site. Like a Neopets clone or something, somewhere for people to do stuff, interact, collaborate, compete, a common topic or theme or whatever the flavor of the week is.

It's certainly better than fighting for no reason lol

What do you think?

At what point does slang turn into gibberish?

Something really embarrassing happened the other day
I was walking down to the mall to get lunch, there's a dude outside Popeye's shouting, "Welcome to Popeye's!"
I understand his job is mundane and stuff, but like... the way he shouted is more like the mashed sounds of a sentence, rather than the words

So when I walked passed, I heard him shouting, "Hot pot pies!"
I got excited about getting pot pies for lunch that I immediately lined up, thinking it's a new promo item or something
Then when I looked closer, I found out that they weren't selling hot pot pies, and then I realized what the guy actually said
I was too embarrassed to leave the queue, so I ended up having lunch there LOL

Popeye's isn't that bad, hot pot pies are a lot better though.


...I want pot pies.

Sometimes, I think about the situations I get myself into. I don't know why I setup things to be this difficult.

I just wanna run away from everything, but that wouldn't solve anything and it would probably just escalate everything. At the same time, I can't do anything about it, it just doesn't work that way.

So here I am, sitting on a mound of problems that I have no answer to, I can't get away from, and I can't do anything about.

All I can do, is sit here and be upset.

"But you have a job you like that pays, people who love you, and little to no responsibilities. Why would you be upset? It's offensive that you are upset at anything."
That's how I feel too. But unfortunately, I am upset.

And there's nothing I can do about it.

 picassocubs is turning 5 this year!

Join the collab here!

http://www.furaffinity.net/journal/8188674/

I've once had a friend telling me that I am not a furry and don't exist because I didn't have any drawings of myself. Something about furry identity and existence being tied to have art of any kind. I never fully agreed with that, though it was one of the reasons why I started learning to draw

I mean, I can't draw as well as I'd like, but hey, I can draw

But now that I have drawings of myself, it didn't really make me anymore... Furry. If anything, I am still myself, except I can draw now lol

So what do drawings mean then? Maybe it just means sharing a moment, the joy, the sorrows, symbolizing a statement or sending a message of support. Or even just sharing the joy of a gift with a friend

Identity doesn't come from having pictorial depictions of myself. I am because, well, I am, and that's all that matters.


What do drawings mean to you? =o

Heya everyone! O:

I do requests! If you would like one, please leave a comment below with your refs and preferences/poses!

Unlimited slots, I'll go down the list.
One per person in queue, you can make another request once yours is done

 darksouldb is drawing a ball pit group pic!

Go here: http://www.furaffinity.net/journal/7924284/

 SinisterSnivy <3  MetersPrower

Today marks the first year anniversary of being adopted by  SinisterSnivy

Love you lots and lots Daddy~

https://twitter.com/SleepuFox

I have no idea how to use it LOL

Recently, it seems that my energy levels are really low...
I don't feel like doing very much, I can't even wake up for work anymore
Even if I had slept for more than 8 hours, I still feel really tired

Maybe I am getting too fat lol I should really start planning to exercise a little

"If I feel pain, it must be real, right?"
I ask myself sometimes, 'cause I am not too sure nowadays lol
Like, if I trip, it does hurt, or at least, I think it does?
Or if someone says something rather upsetting, do I really feel pain?
Or is it all just in my mind? 0.0

Sometimes, people would tell me that others have it worst, and that I should feel better about myself, or that my pain is insignificant. But...
Is pain relative? Is pain real?

...Am I real? 0.0 *slowly fades away*

ON A BAD SITUATION

bye

I felt a feeling I have not for a long time: real frustration
It's like a mix of anger, sadness and total helplessness

These kinda feelings are kinda rare, since Imma pretty content with everything.
I guess it's a good time to try something new?

Artists like to express their emotions through their art, right?
Like, all kinds of emotions, happiness, sadness, anger, etc

So I decided to try some vent art, maybe that might help me settle these feelings

After several attempts, it just left me with this... constipated feeling, I don't know whether if it's because I can't draw very well or that there's a bajillion people walking past me (since Imma kinda at work, though Imma hiding in a corner, like during lunch break) or something, but I just couldn't get the picture out of me

Plus the picture turned out looking like a cute puppy throwing a tantrum rather than actual frustration

With a good laugh, I discarded the picture.

Well, that didn't work out so well. Or it worked out in the end? I am not too sure myself lol

So like, whenever I draw, like if I stop half way to go get a drink or something, when I come back, it seems that the picture has... changed? Then I'll make lots of correction to it lol
I don't know if it's because I have an extremely short term memory or because Imma not really good with keeping a consistent style XD
Oh well, practice makes purple. Or something like that.

Does that happen to you when you draw? =o

And remember that bad times...
are just times that are bad.
— Katrina